My first and last love Part II – Kanak

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This side Kanak aaj me firse aap sabke sath apni zindgi ke usi kisse ko aage badhane jaa ri hu jo adhura reh gaya tha. Ye story thodi lambi ho sakti hai but haa boring nahin lagegi aapko qki meri zindgi ke kisse b kuch TV serial ki tarah h jaha bhut sare ups and downs h. Agar aap is story ko padh rahe h to iska first part b padhiyega jahan se is kahani ki shuruat hui. Aaj 3 saal ho gye 25 December, 2015 ki baat h jab mene phli baar apni zindgi ke pannon ko aap sabke sath baanta tha aaj fir vhi kisse bayan karne jaa ri hu kya kya hua in 3 saalon me.

Aaj ek baat par mujhe bharosa ho gya agar pyaar sacha h to chahe aap kahin chale jaye laut kar usi jgh aa jate h. 24 December 2015 ki baat h ye jab Vikrant (my love) ka accident hua us din ne mano meri jindgi ko ek dum palat ke rakh diya samajh hi ni aa raha tha k kya karu mera bhut man tha k me usse ek baar jake milu vo thik h ya ni koi khabar ni thi mujhe uski. Vo pura din mera rote hue gujra tab tak jb tk mujhe uski khabar ni mil gyi. Doctors ne leg fracture btaya and 6 mo ths rest, Dil me khin santushti thi k chalo vo thik h. Ese hi kuch din nikal gye hamari koi baat ni ho ri thi me pareshan thi qki mujhe usse baat krni thi janna tha k vo kesa h bhut sare sawal the man me. Dhure dhire time beetne laga or ab usne mujhe ignore karna shuru kar diya, me msg pr msg krti lekin ya to vo seen krke chhor deta ya fir bolta k me baat ni kr sakti. Calls ko hue to jamane nikal gye,meri sari raatein bas usi ke khayalon me nikalti k kya ho gya aakhir jo banda kal tak mere liye marne ko tayar tha meri ek haan ke liye pagal tha aaj vo mujhe is tarah ignore kr ra h. Hamare chhote chhote jhagde b hue vo to har relation me hota h mere liye filhal itna hi kaafi tha k me or vo atleast sath h chahe baat na ho rahi ho koi baat ni. After 6 months jab doctors ne usko bol diya now you are fine tab hum mile. Us din esa laga shayad hanare bich sab kuch badal gya h vo mera phle vala vikki ni h ye but i was happy k itne din baad mil rahi hun ️. Par meri ye khushi jyada din nahin chali, karib 10 din baad vo apne mama ke ghar gya vhan usko pados me hi ek ladki par crush ho gya. Us din us ladki ke mere pass msg aaye k me vikki ki gf hun tu iski life se chali jaa vo tujhe pyaar ni krta mujhse krta. Ye sunkar maano mere pairon ke niche se jameen nikal gyi, i was shocked aakhir ye sab ho kya raha h. Mene jese tese khud ko samhala or us ladki ko bola k esa kbhi ni ho sakta mera vikki esa ni h i don’t trust you. After that 3 din tak mene vikki ko bhut calls kiye msg kiye but sab ignore ab mujhe us ladki ki baton par believe hone laga mene vikki ke kuch doston se pucha us ladki ke bare me har jgh se ek hi answer k haa hai to sahi ek ladki priya jisko vo pasand krta h (nd this was true, jo baad me khud vikki ne mujhe bataya). Mujhe smjh hi ni aaya k aakhir me kya karu mujhe kisi par bharosa nahin tha mujhe sirf vikki se baat krni thi usse sach sunna tha. Next day meri vikki se baat hui jahan mujhe gussa hona chahiye tha vha vo mujh par bhadak raha tha usne meri koi baat ni suni meri kisi baat ka jawab ni diya bas ek hi chij boli tujhe trust ni h na mujh par thk h mujhe ni rehna tere sath. 15 June 2016 raat 8 bje ki baat h jab usne mujhe ye sab bola nd that was the time we broke up nd the reason as usual the third person.

Aapko kya lagta h ye kahani yhi khtm ho gyii nahin abhi to kahani shuru hui hai.

Uske baad mene approx 5-6 mahine kese spend kiye ye mujhe hi oata h mera kisi chij me dil ni lagta tha bas har vkt uska hi khayal. Then tabhi jab me is situation se deal kr rahi thi meri life me ek or banda aaya although vo mujhe kuch khaas pasand ni tha lekin mene uske sath relation ke liye haa bol di sirf is ummeed se k shayad me apna past bhul kar life me aage badh saku. Lekin mujhe ni pata tha k ye kbhi ho hi ni paayega. Me us rekation me 1 saal rahi apni taraf se puri loyalty ke sath us relation ko b nibhaya par khin na khin me aaj b apne past me hi jee rahi thi bas dil ke kisi kone me lock kar diya tha un yaadon ko jo akele me hi bahar aati thi. Par meri kismat ko kuch or hi manjur tha fir mere sath vhi sab hua again dhokha. Ab pyaar se bharosa hi uth gaya mera. 16 October, 2017 ko mera usse b breakup ho gya. In this meanwhile is ek saal me meri kai baar vikki se baat hui now he realise that he loves me. Shayad mere dur jaane ke baad usko meri kadar pata chali but me ab us zindgi me vapas ni jaana chahti thi dar tha k khin fir usne mujhe cheat kiya to kya karungi me.

Fir meri zindgi ne meri life ka ek naya chapter likhna shuru kar diya. Me ni jaanti k mujhe yahan khush hona chahiye ya dukhi. Mera dil na chahte hue b vikki ki taraf attract hone laga me khud ko usse baat krne se rok hi ni paati thi. Dhire dhire hamari batein badhne lagi nd mujhe laga k shayad is baar vo sach me pyaar krta h nd ab dhokha ni dega, he proposed me again usne mujhe apni life me dubara aane ko kaha or mene b haan bol dii kya karu pyaar jo itna krti hun uske liye to jaan b haazir h. Ye shayad 24-25 August, 2018 ki baat that we again come in relationship. Me ni jaanti k ye sahi h ya galat lekin is baar firse mene apne dil ki suni jo mere dil ne bola mene vo kiyaa.

Abhi ache se 1 mahina hi nikla tha or mujhe ek or drastic news mili. Ab to esa lagta h jese meri jindgi ko meri khushiyan bardasht hi nahin h. I was suffering from brain tumour and recently mujhe pata chala k vo problem kaafi jyada badh gyi h. Doctors ne clear bol diya k hum ni jaante kab tk ki life h or kb tk ki nahin, we will try our best but it is difficult to save. Ye sunkar jo sabse phela khayal mere dimag me aaya vo tha apne pyaar se dur jaane ke itne saal baad vo mujhe mila or ab ye sab. Mene tay kiya k me vikki se duriyan bana lungi although me use ye batakar pareshan ni karna chahti thi lekin emotionally blackmail krke usne mujhse puch hi liya k kya baat h. Then he says I am with you tu tension na le kuch ni hoga tujhe. Us din se aaj tak vo meri strength h is situation se deal krne ki.

Now, aap log mujhe bataiye mujhe kya karna chahiye me jaanti hun k meri life me jyada din ni h or i want k vo bas khush rahe mere jaane ke baad. Kabhi kabhi sochti hun k usse baat krna band kar du nd distance bna lu fir khayal aata h esa krke use b pareshan krungi or khud ko b kuch din sath bitane ke liye mile h spend kr lu. Mujhe dar lagta h k agar kal ko mujhe kuch b ho gya to vo kese rahega jb abhise vo kehta h k me b tere sath hi mar jaunga. I don’t know what should I do . Kya usse duriyan bana lu? Ya fir uski life me kisi or ko leke aau jo use mere baad samhal sake. Me use pareshan ni dekh sakti agar aap logon ko pass koi suggestion h then please tell me.

Hope mene aapko jyada bore ni kiya ho. I know its too long shayad ye or b lambi hoti agar sab kuch share krti to.

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