Life Love Ambition – Rahul

Hi…

I m rahul. I m here to tell my story. So, here we go. Meri story bahut hi zada lambi hai, may, tumhe meri story interesting lage  n jo log novels padte h unhe padne me koi prob. Nhi hogi. I just need suggestions for my life. So, I m sharing my story with u.

Me delhi me rehta hu. I m 20 yr old. 5’11” height. I m in merchnat navy. I m a tarinee navigating officer cadet. Me abhi delhi me hu, mujhe 10 dino ki chutti mili h to me delhi aaya hu or me 19 jan ko wapas lonavla chala jaunga, jha meri tarining chal rhi h. so, in 10 dio me mein apni  story tumse share karna chahta hu. Hope u like it.

Mene 10^th class ke exams diye the, (2009) . n I was waiting for the result. Mere dost ka cyber café h, to me wahi pe usually daily chat kiya karta tha n miniclip.com pe ek multiplayer game h “our world” use me or mera frnd khela karta tha. Is game me pure world se bacche khela karte the. To us game me mere frnd ki ek gf bani, thn usne usi game usse breakup kar liya. N usne nya bf bna liya. To hum us game me us ladke ko galiya dene lage. Tabhi game me hi ek character mere paas aya, mene uska naam padha. Usne mujhse pucha r u indian?  I said yes I m. to usnne kha ki I m also indian. I asked where r u frm? To she told ki I m frm agra. I said ok.. n I said straightly that will u be my gf? She said yes.. “stupidness”. But that was only a game. I asked her that is she on facebook? She said yes I m. to mene usse uski id puch li. N I sent the frnd request. Usne mujhe add kiya.. n we started chating on facebook.

We chatted. Thn, hum kuch dino pe chat karne lage fb pe. Me bahut si ladkiyo se baat kiya karta tha. Thn, mene flirt karna start kiya uske saath n uska phone no. maang liya ek din. But usne mna kar diya. us din me apna phone ghar pe bhul aya tha. To mene kha ki tum mera no. lelo or jab time mile to call ya msg kar dena. Usne kha thik h, dedo, to mujhe dar tha ki me apna no. dedu aur wo  abhi call kar de n meri mumma utha le, to prob, ho skti h. to mene apne cyber café wale frnd ka no. usko de dia. N usko byee love u bol diya.

Thn, 3 din baad uska mere dost ke no. pe msg aaya. Me pura din apne usi frnd ke saath betha rehta tha. To jab uska use msg aaya to wo bhagta hua mere paas aaya or dikhaya, to mene use uski info dedi ki is ladki ka naam ye h, n is class me padti h, Agra me rehti h. n all. To mere frnd ne bola reply karu me ise. Mene kha kar de.. mene socha ki ye aeri geri ladki h, chep hona bekaar h, Raj ko hi time pass karne do. Raj (name changed) mere usi café wale frnd ka naam h. to usne usse chat karna start kiya. Face book me baat karta tha n phone pe Raj usse baat karta tha n aisa about 3 months tak chalta rha. Hum sab bacche hi the us time, I was abt 15 yr old Raj was 16 yr old n she was 14 yr old. Divya mujhse ek class junior thi.

Diwali ka din tha, Raj ne bomb se apna haath jla liya tha n wo shanti se ghar me betha hua tha, mene dono ko wish kiya. Shayad Us din Raj ne use sab sach bta diya. To divya(name changed) ne mujhe msg kiya ki me tumhe bahut accha maanti thi but u played wid my feelings. I thought tum mere bahut ache dost ho n al.. usne mujhe bahut daanta n said ki mujhse baat mat karna. I said I m sry n ok. Raj me mujhse pucha ki ‘bhai me isse karlu?’ I mean ise pta lu? I said haan pta le, kon sa me ise love kata hu.

Isse pehle logically wo meri gf thi, but after this breakup n Raj proposed her. N usne use haan keh diya. N unki love story start. kuch din baad me Raj ke saath ghum rha tha n divya ka call aya. Usne usse baat ki n bataya ki rahul bhi mere saath h, to divya ne usse kha ki meri rahul se baat karwao, mene usse bat ki, she said ‘ ki mujhe us din tumpe bauut gussa aa rha tha, tumne aisa ku kia??’. I said I m sry. To usne kha ki chalo, hum frnds ban jaate h, isaid ok, frnds. Thn rghav ne use baat ki. I felt gud. Humne fb pe bat ki. Thn usne Raj se mera no. liya n mujhe msg kiya. Mene usse baat ki. Thn hum phn pe chat karne lge. Hum daily baat karne lage.

Wo jab bhi pareshan ya sad hoti thi to wo mujhe msg karti thi n me use has deta tha. Hum best frnds ban gye the. Raj usse true love karta h n wo bh. Hum jab bhi baat karte the hamesha funny baate karte the plus me or ladkiyon se bhi baat karta tha n apne liye ek gf dhundta tha. Me divya se bola karta tha ki mere liye bhi koi gf dhund do. Me bachpan se single hu. To she said ki me thi to gf. I said use gf nh bolte wo bas ek pagalpanti thi. Tum ek game me mili mene tumhe propose kiya tumne haan bola ye sab stupid tha. To wo hasne lagi.

Wo dono ek dusre se love karte the. To mene soch rkha th aki in dono ko kabhi alag nh hone dunga. N me unka relationship strong bnane ki kosis karta tha.

Mere ghar ke paas ek ladki rehti thi, uska naam soni tha, ab uski shaadi ho gyi h, uske parents ne bahut jaldi shaadi kar di uski wo muhse 2 saal badi thi, mujhe usse atraction hone lga, me jab bhi chhat pe rehta tha wo muhe dekha karti thi n me bhi use dekha karta tha. wo muslim thi, hum dono ek dusre ko dekha karte the. wo bhi 11^th me hi thi, hum dono roj ek dusre ko dekha karte the, ek saath school jaane ke liye ghar se niklte the just to see eachother frm close. Wo govt. school me padti thi. n she was clever too. but I liked her.

 

Mera ek chota bhai h, ek me uske saath beth ke shinchan dekh rha tha. Tabhi divya ka call aya. Mene phone pick kiya n udar se rone ki awaj aayi. Mene pucha divya kya hua?? Ro kyu rhi ho? She said me gandi hu. Me uth ke dusre room me chala gya. Mene usse bola, divya kya hua? Saf saaf batao, n pehle ye baccho ki tarh rona band karo. Wo toda chup hui n told ki mera Raj se breakup ho gya. I said aisa kaise ho skta h… kuch nhi hua h tum chinta mat karo, wo khud call karega, wo kehne lagi nhi rahul wo nhi karega. I said wo karega me use acche se jaanta hu. Thn me use hasane lga, humne karib 1 ghanta baat ki n mene use bahut hasaya, at last she said ki rahul tum bahut acche dost ho, I m feeling good after talking to u. I said its my pleasure. Thn, mene Raj ko call kiya n usse baat ki, use smjhaya, n un dono ka patchup karwa diya. Unko relationship me bat 8-9 months ho chuke the.

Sab perfect chal rha tha, me bahut si ladkiyo se baat kata tha, schol bunk karta tha, movies dekhta tha, flirt kata tha, I was enjoying my life as a teenager do. I studied in private good school. Thn, mujhe thoda divya ke sath attraction feel hua, thn I ignored it. Me apni padhyai pe bilkul dhyan nhi de rha tha. I was a science side student n I was in 11^th class. Me apne school frnds ke saaath bahut bunk karta tha n coaching me masti karte the. I m frm middle class family. I live on rent in delhi. My father is a tiles contractor. His all money goes in my n my brother studies. Mere dad ne kabhi mujhe kisi chij ki kami nhi hone di. Me apne dad se baat nhi karta hu,  mujhe unse baut dar lagta h. me bilkul bhi baat ni karta hu apne dad se. un dino me unka bahut paisa uda rha tha, jhut bolke paise lena n masti karna. I was on wrong track. Ladkiyo se baat karna, flirt karna, har ladki pe try karna. This was my life.

Raj is also frm a middle class family, but he has his own house in delhi. He have good money. Divya is frm rich family her mom n dad are professors in medical college n teach biology. Her sister is a doctor n her ambition is also to be a gud doctor. She is intelligent as she got 95% in 10^th class. N I had got 80% in 10^th n 80% marks boys ke liye bahut zada hote h. mere liye bhi the, mene kabhi 90% ke sapne bhi ni dekhe the or na hi mere kabhi 90% aye h after 5^th class. Raj studied in govt. school. His life till now spent in his cyber café. He never studied after 6^th class. By grace of god, he cleared all classes. He is very weak in studies. He has a businessman mind. As his aim is to be a business man. My ambition was to be a pilot. Thn I also wanted to be in Air force, I wanted to be get selected in NDA, but right now I m in merchant navy.

Divya n me daily baat karte the. Ek baar uska mujhe raat ko 11 bje call aaya. I was in my room. Mene baat ki, she asked me abut my dinner whether I had or not. Wo mujhse roj puchti thi ki dinne rkiya ki nh ye uski habit h. humne normaly baat ki n jab phone kata n mene time dekh to subh ke 4 baj rhe the. I ws shocked. Thn, I smiled. I was feeling good. First time mene kisi ladki se itni lambi baat ki thi. Thn me jaldi se so gya, bcoz mujhe 6 bje uth ke school ke liye ready hona hota tha. Thn, me schul se aake sota tha n apni tution classes miss karta tha. Me 11^th me physics me fail ho gya, mene dubara physics ka exam diya n me 12^th me aagya.

Ek saal se me soni ko roj dekhta rehta tha n wo bi mujhe dekhti rehti thi, meri ye baat mere ghr ke paas rehne waale ek frnd ko pta thi, humare yha ek bhabhi rehti h, to soni ki family unkei building me shift ho gyi. Unki building just mere ghr ke bagal me thi. ab hum or bhi zada paas aa gye the.

Mera frnd un bhabhi se baat karta tha n usne unhe mere or soni ke baare  me bta diya. Phir bhabhi ne  soni se mere baare me bata ki, n soni se uska no. le liya, soni ki choti sister ko bhi hamre baare me pta tha. thn, un bhabhi ne soni ka no. mere frnd ko diya n mere frnd ne mujhe tease karte hue mujhe uska no. diya. Mene soni ko call kiya n bata kari, mujhe accha lga. Thn, ek baar jab hum school ke liye nikle, me uske piche piche chalne lga, meri mumma upar se dekh rhi thi. mene use aage jaake ek patli si street me roka n baat kari, it was the first time I was talking to her face to face, she was looking so damn beautiful. I said directly, meri gf  banogi. She said yes. I became very happy n apne school bhaga bcoz me usse baat karne ki wajh se already late ho chuka tha.

Mene schol jaake apne frnds ko bataya. Agle din soni ne mujhe milne ke liye bulaya n usne kha ki hum relationship me nh reh skte, hum frnds ban skte h, bcoz mera bf h. I said ok, frnds hi sahi, mujhe to bas usse baat karni thi. n hum roj phone pe msg chat karne lage.

Ek din soni ka phone aya n usne kha ki ek ladka mujjhe pareshan kar rha h,  mene kha ki kon usne kha me nhi jaanti, mene usse wo no. maanga. Mene apne frnd ko bataya, usne information nikali n bataya ki wo to uske frnd ka bda bhai h, mene ye baat soni ko bta di, soni ne mujhe milne ke liye bulaya n mere saamne us no. pe call kiya n use gaaliya dene lagi, mujhe ye bahut hi ganda lga. Mujhe gaaliya dene waali ladkiya bilkul bhi nh pasand h, mujhe us din soni bahut hi buri lagi, usne phone rkhne ke baad mujhse bola aaj ke baad mujhse baat mat karna. Uske aisa bolte hi mene use jwab diya, “ok, thnku.” N wha se chala aya N aaj ka din h mene use kabhi msg ya call nhi kiya. She was my gf for 1 day. Mujhe khud pe gussa aa rha tha ki isse accha single rehta ye to rehta ki koi gf nhi bnaayi life me.

Us din divya ne mujhe midnight call kiya, mene use sab bataya n mene usse bola ki me aaj ke baad kabhi koi gfnhi bnaaunga.

Ab divya ka call roj aane lga. Wo 11-12 bje ke asspass call karti thi n subh 4-5 bje ke aaspaas cut karti thi. I cant imagine ki uska phone ka bill kitna aata hoga. Thn, hum msga pe bhi baatkarte the.ek din mene usse pucha ki tum roj mujhe ku call karti ho? She said ki Raj 10 bje so jata h to mujhe tumse bat karne ka time mil jata h to me karti hu. I said ok. Thn, sab fine chal rha tha. Raj apne ek frnd ke saath agra usse milne gya, usne mujhe bataya. Wo wha usse mila, baat ki, ghume ,khya , n Raj kissed her just a touch one. Thn, wo waps aaya n usne mujhe bataya. Mujhe believe nh ho rha tha ki wo kiss kaise kar sakti h? mene divya ko phone kiya n pucha ki tumne sach me Raj ko kiss kiya?, she said wo bahut force kar rha  tha,n he forcely took one n that was only for 1 sec touch that’s it. I said ok. Thn, sab fine chala.

Raj, divya ke saath saath or bhi kayi ladkiyo se baat karta tha, n divya ko kisi or se baat karne ke liye mna karta tha. Wo sabhi ladkiyo se flirt karta tha, n upne café me hug kisses n all karta tha. Jiske baare me divya ko nh pata tha.

Ek din unka phir se breakup hua. As, mene soch rkha tha ki inka kabhi breakup nhi hone dunga, mene undone ka phir se patchup karwa diya. Uski coaching me kuch frnds thi, to me divya se kehta tha ki meri apni kisi frnd se setting karwado. To wo kehti thi ki koi bhi tumhare layak nhi h. me kha accha ji. N mere dil me ek baat thi n me freely bolta tha ki me hamesha single hi rahunga. Koi tention nhi. N apni life mast ji rha tha. But still me ab bhi apni life mast jee rha hu. Sab perfect chal rha tha. Thn, un dono ke bich ladayiya hone lagi, har dusre din ladayi ho jaati thi. Raj ko shak hota tha ki wo kisi dusre ladke se baat karti h, to I told him ki wo mujhse baat karti h, to he said nh, wo or bh kisi  se karti hogi. But he had no proof.

Unke relationship ko 2.5 years ho gye the. N 3 rd time breakup hua. Pehle ki tarah same mene patch up  karwane laga, but is baar me succesful nhi ho paya.me bahut try kiya, to divya said, I cant take it any more. Wo mujhpe itna sak karta h, msg bhejne ki limit 100 msgs per day h, to wo mere msgs count karta tha ki mujhe aaj tumne 75 msgs send kiye baki 25 msgs kisko send kiye? She said, kya mere frnds nh h kya? Kya me usko msgs nh kar skti, wo mujhe itna daanta h, iske chakkar me meene ghar me kitni daant suni h, kisi frnd se baat nhi karti hu. Agar mera phn kabhi busy ho gya to shak karta th aki kiska phone tha, wo mere family ka call hota tha. But he don’t care. Use bas shak karne ki adat h, so, wo bhaad me jaaye aur wo mujhe tumse bhi baat karne ke liye mna karta tha, wo kehta tha ki agar tum rhaul se baat karogi to attarction ho jayega n all.

Thn kuch din baad undono ke breakup ke, mene phir se try kiya  usko call kiya, usse baat ki use smjhaya ki use ek chance or dedo. But she refused, thn uska mujhe msg aaya “I love u vinayak”. Thn, phir ek msg aya “sry rahul, galti se send ho gya”.  I know usne wo msg jaan bujh kar send kiya tha, mene usse vinayak ke baare me pucha. Usne bataya ki vinayak meri coaching me padta h, n wo mujhe like karta h, I said ye kab hua, tumne ye baat to mujhe kabhi batyai nh,we were best frnds na n humare bich yhi decide hua tha ki hum ek dusre se kuch nhi chupayenge. To she said I m sry rahul, but raghv mujhe tumse baat karne keliye mna karta tha.

Thn, I said vinayak ki story sunao, usne bataya ki “wo meri coaching me padta h, ek din usne mujhe mera no. manga, to mene usse pucha ki ksi liye, to vinayak ne kha ki mujhe kuch ques. Puchne the, to usne use apne landline ka no. de diya n said ki ye mere ghar ka no. H n ise koi bhi utha skta h, to he said ok. Thn, ek din vinayak ne muhe call kiya n mene pick kiya n usne kuch ques puche, thn kuch din baat he said that he likes me”. n use blood cancer h n uska treatment chal rha , wo bahut acha h, wo zada din nh jiyega ,  He is a gud guy, n he treats me so nicely so, I too  started liking him”.

I said, ok. That’s nt gud, mujhe vinayak accha nh lag rha h, mujhe acchi feel nh aa rhi h, wo jhut bol rha h, tumhe raj ko nh chordna chahiye tha, galat kiya tumne. N she said, “plz aise mat bolo, mujhe guilty feel ho rhi h, I m sry”  n hamne bahut der tak baat kari…i said its ok.n mene phone cut kar diya.

Raj was in depression. He truly loved divya. So, thn, he continued his businness of flirting with girls n unhe bula ke kiss n oral sex karta tha. Jo ki mujhe bilkul pasand nhi tha, but uske liye ye stud banne ka tarika tha. Wo apni tarif khud hi karta h, mujhe ye chij girls ke saat disrespect lagti thi, girl uske liye like toy ho gyi thi, jinke saath ko play karta tha, raj is not good in looks, with his tummy out, brown color, heigth 5’7’’ . usse eri geri ladkiya hi pat-ti thi n 2-3 din me breakup ho jata tha.

Me jab bhi uski shop pe jata tha, but mujhe apni story sunata rehta tha ki ‘ mujhe hi pta h mujhpe kya beet rhi h..  n all’ hamesha us ko leke mere saamne rota rehta tha. N kehta tha ki mujhe apne phone me divya ke msgs mat dikhaye kar. Me use bhulna chahta hu. I said ok, as u say.

Mene ek din usse pucha ki jab tu divya ko itna love karta h to, dusri ladkiyo ke saath aisa kyu karta h? usne ans diya k “me unke saath isliye aisa karta hu taaki me divya ko bhul sku, me jab bhi khali bethta hu to mujhe uski hi yaad aati h n mujhe bhi kisi ki jarurat h, to me isliye dusri ladkiyo ke saath firt karta hu”.

Mene usse puch ki dusri ladkiyon ke ssath aisa karke kya milega tujhe. Mujhe ye sab accha nh lagta h. usne baat kaat di or dusri baate karne lga.

Divya se meri bahut kaam baat hoti thi,,, ek baat raath me me raj ke saath kisi frnd ke ghar pe tha, tabhi divya ka msg aaya mene msg check kiya to to usne hi likha hua tha. Me khus hua ki uska msg aaya. Me ghar pe jane ka wait karne lga ki kab ghar jaau n usse chat karu bcoz me raj ke samne chat nhi kar skta tha.

Me ghar gya mene usse baat ki, mene usse vinayak ke baare me pucha ki “wo kaisa h, n how is everything going between u guys?” she said, “he is fine n sab mast chal rha h, tum to kabhi mujhe khud se msg karte nh ho, me jab msg karti hu tabhi karte ho.”

I said, “aisa nh h me tumhe miss karta hu, but isliye msg nhi karta ki kahi tumhare bf ji tumse naraj na ho jaaye ki tum mujhse kyu baat karti ho, waise tumne use mere baare me bta rkha h kya?’

She said, “yes! Mene use tumahre baare me bta rkha h n use koi prob. Nh h”.

 I said, ok” n me chat karte karte so gya. Subh uth ke mene uske msgs ka ans. Diya.

Thn, aise hi hum baate karne lage me kabhi kabhi call kar diya karta tha, wo bhi kabhi kabhi call kar diya karti thi, me jabbhi usse baat karata tha to me usse puchta tha ki aaj ka din kaisa gya? N wo mujhe pure din kya kya kiya mujhe sab batati thi. wo yeh bhi batati thi ki aaj me vinayak ke saath wha gyi thi to, humne ice cream kahi, me use ghar pe le aayi, usne mujhe hug kiya. Mujhe uski arms me bahut accha lagta h, usne mujhe neck pe kiss kiya. Mene uske liye maggi bnaayi thi, wo bina khaye chala gya. He is so bad, n all. Wo bahut baat karti thi. me use dil se frnd maanta tha. N me wish karta tha ki kaash mujhe is divya jaisi life partner mile. Mujhe usse baat karne me accha lagta tha.n wo bhi yahi bola karti thi.

Wo jab bhi sad hoti thi mujhe call karti thi, me usse prob. Puchta tha, wo mujhe batati, “jaise aaj vinayak ki tabiyat thik nh thi, wo class ke kaap rha tha, wo hospital me h, mene usse baat kari to usne bola ki dotorc ne kha h ki blood clots ban rhe h to prob. H. n all.” n me use smjha kar normal kar deta tha ki use kuch nh hoga n all. Thn use hasa deta tha. wo thnks bolti thi.

Thn, uske phone rkhne ke baad me god se pray karta tha, “god, divya, vinayak ko bahut love karti h, plz vinayak ko thik kar do. She needs him”.

Mene yeh accept kar liya ki wo dono ek dusre ko bahut chahte h n shaadi karna chahte h n wo ek dusre se hi shadi karenge. Mene ladkiyon se flirty talk karna band kar diya, me 12^th me fail ho gya tha because of bad company. Mene apne future ki taraf focus kiya. N girls ko as a frnd bna ke chlata tha, n apni health ka bhi kahyal rkhne lga. Mene apne dimaag se ye baat nikal di ki me kabhi gf banaunga. Me single rehna jada accha lagne lga halaki meri koi kabhi gf nh thi n mujhe gf hone ka exp bhi nhi tha but me dusre couples o dekhta tha, wo ladte the, breakup n all. To mujhe ye sab nh pasand tha. to me n mera ek frnd ashish, hum apni masti me rehte the, hum world ko alag najara se dekhne lage, humne acchi body, accha football kahelna, acche marks bas yahi chahiye the.

N yakin maano, mene ye exp. Kiya h ki agar aap ladkiyon ke piche bhagoge ki, gf bnani h, to wo door bhagengi, n agar ye attitude rkhoge ki I don’t care, bhaad me jaaye ladkiya to wo khud tumhare paas aayengi.

Meri kayi ladkiya dost bani, me kabhi frndsip se aage nh badta tha. me single rehna chahta tha. divya bhi ye baat acche se janati thi. wo apni life me khush thi n me apni life me. Hum dono bahut ache frnds the n me usse sari baate share karta tha n wo bhi mujhse apni ek ek baat share karti thi.

ek baar mene noon me use msg kiya, uska reply aaya n humne baat karni start kar di, usne mujhe bola ki vinayak mujhe tumse baat karne ke liye mna karta h, wo bahut zada possesive h mujjhe leke. I said , “ok, agar use prob. H to hum baat nh karenge, bcoz me nhi chahta ki meri wajh se tum dono me koi prob. Create ho. Usne kha aisa nh h, koi prob, nh hogi, mene kha, “nh yaar, hamare liye yahi accha hoga ki hum na hi baate kare, good bye, take care, be happy always, koi prob. Ho to I m always ready for u, n all”. N me room se bahar aa gya, wo msg karti rhi. But me dusre room me tha to me reply nh de rha tha bcoz mera phone dusre room me tha. use lga ki me naraj ho gya hu n reply nh de rha hu, usne sry waale msg kiye, n thn phir bhi mere msg nh gye uske paas to usne mujhe call karna start kar diya. Wo baar baar call karti rhi, mera phone hamesha silent hi rehta h, to mujhe pta nh chala, mene socha ki dekhta hu kya reply kiya usne. Mene dekha to uska call aa rha tha, mene jaldi se pich kiya mene jaise hi hello bola, usne bina hello bole kha, “aise gande sande msg kyu send kar rhe ho, tum kahi nh jaa rhe ho mujhe chord kar, I m sorry, u r my best frnd, me bas bta rhi thi ki vinayak aisa bolta h, to use bolne do, I need u, u always help me, u always make me feel good, hum hamesha saath rahenge, smjhe tum? Ab jada mat bolna chup chaap line pe aajao, I m so sorry,” I smiled n said, “ok, but meri wajh se prob ho…..” she said, “ nhi hoyegi koi prob, hum smbhal lenege agar kuch hua to, I just need u”.

ab wo itne pyaar se bolti h thi ki me use kisi bhi baat ke liye mna nhi kar pata hu. N mujhe khushi hui ki  atleast wo mujhe kuch maanti to h.

mujhe wo pasand thi but as a frnd, halaki, mujhe mujhe mujhe waisi hi ladki chahiye thi, but wo nh bcoz wo kisi or ki property thi, n I was sure ki mujhe uski jaisi ladki is duniya me kahi nhi milegi.

Wo mujhse hamesha kehti thi ki tumhari wife bahut lucky hogi, n wo hamesha khush rahegi. Me uski in baato pe hasta tha, yes, me use like karta tha, n I was sure ki wo meri kismat me nhi h.

June – July  2012

Ek din mujhe divya ka msg aya,ki me tumse kabhi baat nhi karungi, mujhe kabhi call ya msg nhi karna, kabhi  bhi  nh. Mene jaise hi msg dekha, me samjh gya ki vinayak ne koi prob. Create kari hogi, Msg padh ke mera heart bahut tej beat karne lga. Mene jaldi se use call kiya, usne phone uthaya n she was badly crying. Mene usse pucha ki kyu ro rhi ho. Usne rote hue kha ki mujhe call mat karna kabhi, kabhi mat baat karna, mujhe kisi se baat nh karni h.me use chup karane ki kosis karne lga.

Usne mujhe kha ki me ab apna phone switch off kar rhi hu n kabhi bhi on nh karungi. Mujhe ajib sa laga n call cut ho gya. Mene dubara dial kiya but der ho chuki thi phone band ho gya tha. mujhe bahut rona aa rha tha. mujhe aisa feel ho rha tha jaise kisi ne mujhse meri life chin li ho. Me andar hi andar rone lga.

Mene us din khana nh khaya, mumma paas aayi n puch aki kahna kyu nhi kha rha h, mene kha  ki bhuk nhi h, I was badly sad. Thn, mumma ne jabarjasti khilaya. Raat ko sote time, I was just thing about her n repeating the words she said to me. I got some tears in my eyes.

Mujhe ek ladki se one side love hua tha, wo mere hi school me padti thi, but kabhi keh nhi paya usse. Mere frnds ne uske naam ka bahut majak udaya n mujhe rula diya.

Magar divya ke jaane ka pain was something different. Aisa lag rha tha my life ended. I was missing her a lot.she was the only girl, jo mujhe acche se smjhti thi, phn pe mere jhoot pakad leti thi, there was some bond between us. Me roj uska no. dial karta tha. but as usual roj switched off hi jata tha.

1 month gujar gya n me apni life normaly jine lga. Meri life phir se normal o gyi n I removed word love from my dictionary. Mene divya ko hamesha keliye bhula diya ki wo kabhi meri life me dubara nh aayegi.

March 2013

Me raat me apni terrace pe soya hua tha, raat ke 12:30 ho rhe the n me chating kar rha tha. tabhi mujhe ek msg aya. Mene jaise hi inbox khola, mene divya pdha, I was just like very happy, mene jaldi se msg khola. Us msg me likha tha, hi, how r u? I miss u a lot. I hope u would be fine. I know tum mujhpe bahut gussa hoge, but I m really so sry, can u plz tell me ur email id. I want to tell u everything.

Mene reply diya, “hi babes, I m perfect, I miss u too a lot. My email id is ***** N phn pe kyu nhi bat kar skte?” (me bahut hi zada khush tha).

Uska reply aya, “mera phone mummy ke paas rehta h, sab so gye h to mene mummy ke drawer se apna phone chura ke laayi hu, n me switch off karke wapas rkh rhi hu. I will tell u everything on mail.”

I replied, “ok gud nght baby, take care, sweet dreams, miss u.”

 Agle hi mene apni gmail id kholi, but there was nothing, mene wait kiya, agle din phir khola, n divya ka mail  tha. usne mail me sab kuch bata diya tha, usne likha tha ki, “rahul I m so sry, me tumhe shuru se batati  hu, hume coaching class me phone le jana allowed nhi h but vinayak leke aata tha, to sir ne dekh liya, sir ne vinayak se phone manga, n vinayak ne de diya, sir ne uski dial list kholi, n usme mera naam tha, sir ne usse pucha ki divya ka no. tumahre paas kaise aaya. He said, “sir, we r just frnds”. Wo sir, mere dad ke dost h, to unhone ye baat mere dad ko bta diya. Mere dad ne bahut gussa kiya mujhpe, he said he is ashamed of me. Dad ne mujhe bahut daanta. Mene unhe bta diya ki vinayak ko blood cancer h n mene sympathy ke liye usse frndsip kari thi. Dad ne sir ko call kiya n unse pucha ki vinayak ko blood cancer h kya? To sir, ne kha ki mujhe to nhi pta. Thn, sir ne vinayak ki mumma se pucha n she said ki nhi vinayak ko to koi blooodcancer nhi h, use bas stomach infection h. sir ne ye baat dad ko batayi n dad ne mujhe, n mujhe ye baat sun ka yakin hi nhi ho rha tha. me us din bahut jada royi. Me use love karti thi n usne mujhe itna bda jhoot bola. Usne abt 1 saal mujhse jhoot bola, ki mujhe cancer h, hospital jana h, doctor ne kha h ki, 30 ki age me mar jaaoge n all. Sab jhut bola tha usne. He is such a liar. I hate him. I hate him a lot. He is such a bad person, he played wid my life. I m never going to forgive him n uski wajh se me tumse baat nhi kar paayi, u was right he is nt a good guy. I m sorry, mujhe tumhari baat maan leni chahiye thi, ab se me tumhari baat jarur maanungi. Mumma ne mera phone le liya tha, jaise taise chura ke mene tumhe parso msg kiya tha. n ab hum aise mail pe hi baat kiya karenge n plz request h daily mail check karna. Byee,, miss u.”

Mene use reply diya, n humaise hi mails share karne lage, wo daily ek mail bhejti thi n me daily ek mail reply deta tha, roj aise hi chalne lga,. Usne pure din kya kiya wo muhe btati thi n mene aaj pure din kya kiya me use batata tha, humari frndsip phir se or strong ho gyi thi. jab uske ghar pe koi nhi hota tha me use call kar liya karta tha n der der tak baat karta tha jab tak koi aa na jaaye. Tabhi meri life me ek ladki aayi.

April 2013 ka month just start hi hua tha.

Mere cyber café wale frnd, Raj ne ek dusri gf bna li thi n wo usse dil se pyaar karne lga tha, uski gf ki sister bhi mere dusre frnd ki gf thi. ek din me market me, apne frnds ke sath ghum rha tha, baad me pta chala ki wo apne apni girlfriends ko dekhne ke liye aaye the bcoz unki gf bhi usi market me aayi hui thi, humne unhe dekha, unke sath ek ladki or thi, mene us ladki ko dekha, hamri eye contact hue. Us time mujh me kuch alag sa attitude aa gya tha, me ladkiyo ko kuch bhav nh deta tha. thodi der baad mere ek frnd ko uski gf ka call aya n usne bola ki rahul se pucho ki kiran se karega? Mere frnd ne mujhse pucha, mene kha kon kiran? He said, “jo ladki meri gf me saath thi”. me hasa, “usse?”. Mere frnd ne kha karle na acchi to h, n usne apni gf ko bol diya ki haan wo ready h, tum kiran se puch lo. Uski gf ne kha, “wo to ready h kab se”. thn phone no. exchange hue n raat me baat kari. Wo punjaban thi. apne mama ke saath delhi me rehti thi.

Wo meri gf ban gyi. Mene 12^th ke dubara exams diye the. Mene divya ko bhi ye baat batayi. Usne mujhe mujhe kha ki mat karo usse frndsip. Mene pucha kyu? She said ki, “I feel jealous when u talk with other girls.”  I laughed. Thn, she said, “ok. Tum karlo. I was just joking. Ye tumhari life h.”

(ye ladkiyo ki batane ki trick hoti h, wo kya chahti h wo pehle bta dengi, thn, has ke kahengi I was just joking, but unka msg convey ho gya hota h. so, u guys work on it.)

Me kiran se raj ke cyber café me milta tha. Raj n mere frnds mujhe bolte the ki teri bas ki kuch nhi h, tu kisi ladki ko kiss tak nhi kar skta. I said, accha?. To Raj ne bet laga di ki kiss karke dikha Kiran ko.

Ek din Raj ki gf  n Kiran, uske café pe aayi. Raj ne mujhe bulaya. Me ready hoke, deodrant lga ke gya. Wha mile, raj apni gf ko leke ek cabin me chala gya n me kiran ko leke ek cabin me, raj baar baar kahda  hoke dekh rha tha ki kahi koi aa na jaaye. Raj ne apni gf ko kiss n hug karna start kiya. Me kiran ke samne beth gya, n hum baat karne lage. Baat karte karte mene apna haath uski thighs pe rakh diya. Kiran ne mere haath pe apna haath rakh diya. Me apne haath ko thoda aage le gya. Kiran ne mera haath kas ke pakad liya, n dheere se boli, “rahul”. Mene uska koi jawab nh diya. Mene apna dono haath uski kamar pe rakh diya. N apna face uske pass le gya n kiss karne wala tha ki usne mujhe dhakka diya n kha, “kya kar rhe ho?” mene kha mujhe kiss chahiye. Usne kha me nhi dungi.

Mene apni fingers uski kamar pe hila rha tha, mene apna right hand upar le gya n uske breast  pe le jaake rok diye n mene unhe halke se press kar diya. Tabhi kiran ne mujhe jor ka chata mara. Thn, mene apne haath hta liye. Phir usne mere cheeks pe dono haath rkhe n sorry sorry bolne lagi, mene staright forward bol diya. Mujhe kis chahiye. Thn, pehle usne thode nakhre dikhaye. N game me 15 kisses on my lips. Lips wet ho gye the, mene apne lips poche. Mujhe kuch bhi feel nhi hua. I mean kuch mja nh aaya.

Kiran mujhe raat me 3-3 bje call akr diya karti thi n me usse bahut pareshan ho gya tha. me soya hua hota tha n wo kabhi bhi call kar deti thi. mene frustate hoke usse breakup kar liya. Humara relation hardly se 1 month chala hoga.

Mene ye baat divya ko nhi batayi thi, wo mujhe kehti thi ki tum jab bhi kisi ladki se baat karte ho ya uske baare me mujhse batate ho to mujhe jealous feel hota h. to me use jealous feel nh karna chahta tha, so me ye baat divya ko nh batayi.

Divya ab raat me apna phone chura ke laane lag gyi n mujhe msg karti thi. hum roj raat me chat kiya karte the. Me divya se koi baat nhi chupata tha, to mujhe acha nh lag rha tha ki mene divya ko kiran ke baare me nh bataya, ek din mene use kiran ke bare me sab bta diya. She said ki “awwwww nh,,nh nh.. mat kiya karo kisi or ladki se baat. She laughed n said I was just joing”.

Ab divya apna phone dheere dheere apni mumma ke saamne bhi use karne lagi thi. ab uske parents kuch nhi kehte the.n hum ab khulla baat karne lage. Raj muhse divya ki baate karta rehta tha kabhi kabhi. N me use bta deta tha ki she is happy n fine.

Ek raat divya n me chat kar rhe the, rat ke 2 baj gye the, but mujhe neend nh aa rhi thi, bcoz, me jab bhi divya se baat karta tha mujhe kabhi neend ya boredom feel nh hota tha. us raat baat karte karte, divya ne mujhe msg kiya, “ek baat batau?”

I said, “yes, sure.”

She said, “I had a crush on u, jab me Raj ke saath relationship me thi.”

Raj se breakup hue abt 2 saal ho gye the.

I said, “me bhi ek baat batau?”

She said, “yes.”

I said, “I too had crush on u, but tum raj ko like karti thi, to mene kabhi bataya nhi, n waise tumne kabhi kyu nh bataya”

She said, “mujhe dar tha ki kahi tum frndsip na tod do, bcoz me tumahre frnd ki gf thi n agar me tumhe bta deti to tum mujhe gamdi ladki smjhte”

I laughed.

Hum daily baat karne lage n roj baat karne se hamara bond or bhi zada strong ho rha tha.

Hum ab ek dusre ko feel karne lage the. Hum ek dusre ko khayal rkhne lage. N I started liking her most. We started saying “love u” to each other. Ni really meant those words.

Hum dono me se kisi ne bhi ek dusre ko propose nhi kiya tha. but we were in love with eachother.

I asked her to download whats app for chating.

Humne saath me shaadi ke sapne bhi dekh liye the, hum pyaari baate karte the, as I was in love.

Hum dono ek dusre se shadi karna chahte the. Mene divya se ek baat keh rkhi thi ki hum kabhi gf-bf nhi banenge, hum sirf hamesha best frnd hi rahenge. Bcoz gf-bf relation me breakup hota h but best frnd relation me kabhi breakup nhi hota h n so, hum sirf frnds hi h, best frnds. She agreed.

Hum ab whats app me chat karne lage.  Ab wo pura pura din mujhse chat karti rehti thi, really, wo voice msgs send karti thi n sab mast chal rha tha.we started sharing our pics n videos n do lot of fun.

Talking with ur girl on whatsapp creates lots of mis-understandings.really, ye social media ki wajh se bahut se relationship toot te h. like, mene 11:12 pe msg send kiya, n usne ko reply nh diya, n uska last seen 11:20 dikha rha ho. To lagega ki isne reply kyu nh kiya n u will get hurt. Last seen agar late night ka h to, dimaag me aata h, ki itni late kyu online thi,kisse baat kar rhi thi n all. So, I request other couples plz try to avoid these type ko misunderstandins n save ur relationships.

September 2013

Ek din uska whats app pe msh aaya ki ab hum baat nhi karenge. Meri mumma chahti h ki mere 12^th me acche marks aaye, n uske liye mujhe bahut mehnat karni h. mujhe kisi bhi halat me select hona h, mujhe doctor banna h, so,better rahega ki hum baat na kiya kare bcoz whats app ki wajh se bahut zada time waste hota h n mujhe bahut padna n hardwork karna h, whats app ki wajh se me pura din tumse hi bata karti rehti hu, hamri shaadi tab hogi jab humkuch ban jaayenge. So, its would be better if, u too do study n get selected. Mumma ne mujhe bahut daanta h aaj, n me whats app uninstall kar rhi hu, n ab hum jab select ho jayenge,uske baad baat karenge.

Mera heart bahut jor jor de beat karne lga. Wo jab bhi aise chord ke jaane ke baare me aise bolti h, mujhe dar lagne lagta tha ki kahi wo mujhe chord ke chali na jaaye, wo mujhse dor jati thi to mujhe bilkul bhi accha nhhi lagta tha. me use studies ke liye kabhi nh rokta tha. n usne aisa pehle bhi kayi baar bola tha but kuch hours baad wo khud msg kar deti thi.

Thodi der baad usne apna whats app unintall kar diya. Mujhe pta tha ki wo thodi der me phir msg kar degi. But 2 din ho gye the uska koi msg nhi aaya. Mujhe rone jaisa feel hone lga. Mujhe uske bina bilkul acha nhi lagta tha, me jab tak usse baat na kar lu mera day complete nhi hota tha. mene call kiya to uska phone switched off jaane lga.my life became hell. 1 week beet gya uska kuch ata pta nhi tha. me smjh gya ki ab ye june 2014 me selection ke baad hi msg karegi, agar use me yaad rahunga to. Mene is baat ko accpet kar liya tha.

8 din baad divya ka msg aaya, “Rahul, I cant live without u,I really love u a lot, u r my life. I just love u. I m sry,. I need u. I know tum bahut gussa hoge but I m so sorry baby”.

Uska msg dekhte hi, I started feeling very power full. Mene uska jaise hi msg pda. Mujhe bahuut accha feel hone lga. It was like bisleri water is given to a thirsty from years.

I replied I love u to n I want a hug, n thn our relationship became normal.mujhe ab bahut accha lagne lga tha.

She was my life.

Uski coaching me uske frndsthe, wo jab bhi kahi ghumne jaati thi, to aake mujhe btatai thi, aaj me wha gyi thi n yha gyi thi, humne bahut maje kiye n all. Me khush hota tha bcoz uski happiness me hi meri happiness thi .use jab koi gift deta tha to wo muhe btati thi, koi ladka bhi agar deta tha to wo jarur btati thi n me jealous feel karta tha, but me control karta tha. sab normal chalne lga.

Jan 2014

Wo whats app pe chat karte time mujhe bola karti thi, “rahul I m a bad grl. Don’t love me that much. I don’t deserve that”.

Me kehta tha, “who said, u r a bad grl?, u r my good n best n beautiful girl I ever met in my life”.

Wo asia baar baar kehti thi, mene ek raat ko chat karte time usko force ki mujhe aaj batao ki tum bad girl kyu ho? Muhe aaj jaana h ki tum bad girl kyu ho? Agar koi prob. To share karo, share karne se hi prob. Solve hogi. N I  promise methumhari prob. Solve kar dunga.

Usne mujhe bataya ki ek ladka h meri coaching me, uska naam anil h n mujhe aisa lagta h ki me use like karne lagi hu.

Uska ye msgs padte hi the earth slipped frm my feets. I heart started pounding. I just kept on reading her msgs without replying.

She said, “mujhe uske saath acch lagta h, wo jab bhi mere samne aata hmujhe kuch ajeeb sa feel hota. I thik I min love with him. N he game me gifts so, I guess he likes me too. Plz. Rahul gussa mat hona, I just don’t want u to get anger on me.”

I said, “you told that u love me.”

She said, “I love only ur thouhgts, I like u, but I think I like ur thoughts”.

My heart was pounding. Mene jaise taise khud ko control kiya, I was feeling like cry.

Me apne hert pe rock rakh ke keh diya ki, “its ok. Meri kismat me yahi h, but I love u a lot, but u love anil n anil loves u, so, mujhe bich me nh rehna chahiye, meri wajh se tum dono nhi mil paa rhe ho, me tumhari life se chala jata hu, ye better rahega. Me nhi chata ki meri wajh se tum dono ke bich me koi prob aye. U r free to go with him. Agar tumhe pasand h to, maybe wo accha ladka hoga.”.

She said, “nhi, I m confused,tum mujhe mujhe chord ke kahi nhi  jaoge, I want u wid me as a frnd.”

I said, I m sry divya, but I cant, I made my heart strong bcoz it got too much wound.”

Mujhe rona aa rha tha.jaise taise mene khud ko sambhala.

Mene use anil ke saath jaane ke liye keh diya,n khud uski life se nikalne ki kosis karne lga. But me use nhi chordna chahta tha. she was my life. Mene divya ko smjhana shuru kiya, ki how much I love her, me uske bina nhi reh skta, me usne bahut smjhaya. I said ki tum use bf banaogi, th breakup hoyega thn, tum koi or bf banaogi, n tum bhi bf changing girl jais ban jaogi.

Wo meri baat smjh gyi thi, she said,  “ yes, n mere parents ko pta chal gya to accha nhi hoga. Mera baut dimaag kahraab ho rha h,.”

“thik h me decide kaerti hu. Mujhe koi bf nh banana h me kisi bhi ladke se aaj ke baad baat nhi karungi. Except u. I m sry, I love u a lot, ab me tumhe chord ke kabhi nhi jaungi. I promise.i pakka wala promise”.

Thn, ek din anil divya ke ghar apne dad ke saath pahunch gya, anil divya ko apne bhai ki shadi ka invitaion card dene aya tha. n he said ki jaur ana. Anil full try kar rha tha divya se relationship bnane ke liye. But divya, ab use avoid karne lgi. Usse baat karna kam kar diya. Usne whats app uninstall kar diya, wo na hi facebook use karti thi ab. Usne sab chord diya tha, now, uska pura concentration uski studies pe tha. wo mujhse text msg me chat karti thi.

Divya e mujhe sab bataya. Mene divya se kaha, “divya mujhe koiprob. Nhi tm kisi bhi ladke se baat karo. Anil is ur frnd n u should have to treat him nicely. Don’t avoid him. Talk him nicely. Go in his bro’s marrige.he is ur frnd na. its ok, I don’t mind.”

Mujhe ye lagne lga tha ki divya kabhi bhi mujhe chord ke jaa skti h, so, mene apna apna dil rock ka bna liya tha. ab mujhe koi farak nhi padta tha.wo chahe jo bhi kare. Me bas use khona nhi chahta tha. me hamesha uske saath rehna chahta tha.

Divya anil ke bhai ki shadi me nhi gyi. Mujhe accha feel hua, but me usse keh rhatha ki tumhe jana chahiye, humara relation phir se normal chalne lga tha. ab wo mujhe hamesha bola karti thi ki rahul me tummhe chord ke kabhi nhi jaaungi, I promise. U r y everyting, tum bahut acche ho, tum bahut mehnat karo n select ho jaao.

Me merchant navy ki prepration kar rha tha n she was in n12th n preparing for the medical enteance exams.

Ek din usne mujhe msg kiya ki rahul, me apna phone switch off kar rhi hu, mujhe padayi pe dhayan dena h, mujhe select hona h, so hum exams ke baad baat kare to zada accha hoga. Ab mene apna dil pathar bna liya tha. I simply said, its ok, as u say” . She said, “thnku rahul, u r the best u r so great, I love u a lot”.

N usne phone switch off kar liya. Exams ko katam hone me abhi 1.5 month the. Mene socha 1.5 month me liye gyi ab. Tabhi 4 ghnte baad hi uska msg aya, rahul, I cant live without u, I just love u. me nhi karungi phone switch off. I want to talk wid u. u r soo cute. I love u. I m cho shollie”.

I found it cute when she talk like a small child. She is so damn beautiful.

Humari life acchi chal rhi thi, n 5 months se sab normal chal rha tha, hum ek dusre ko or bhi zada pyaar karne lage. Divya ko medical entrance exams clear karne the to wo sirf apni studes pe dhyan deti thi n mujhse baat kiya karti thi, n mujhe motivate karti thi, jab bhi divya depress hoti thi to me use motivate karta tha. everything was perfect.

July 2014

Mera selection merchant navy me ho gya. Mene iske liye bahut struggle kiya.

Divya ko koi govt. medical institute nh mila. Wo bauht sad ho gyi. But mne use khud motivate kiya. N said her to do again.

August 2014

I got selected n came in campus for training on 1^st aug. new place, new faces, everything was new. Now I have, lots of frnds there. Divya apne entrance ki tayari kar rhi thi. n hamri love life bhi perfect chal rhi thi. koi prob nhi, always happy. I aslways make her smile. I just needed her. She was my life.

October 2014

Mere campus me camera wla multimedia phone allowed nhi h, agar tum chupa ke campus me la sko to tum chala skte ho. Me apna phone ghar chord kar aya tha. mene socha ki me apna phone by courier apni ek frnd jo pune me rehti h uske paas bhijwa du, tn, wo chupa ke campus ke andar easily la skti h.

Mene Raj ko bola ki mera phone leke is address pe send kar de.Raj mere ghar gya n wha se mera phone liya n apne pass aa gya, mere phone me touch ki halki si prob ho gyi thi to mene raj ko bola ki usko thik karwa ke jaldi se jaldi pune wali frnd ko bhej de.

Ek shaam ko Raj ka call aya, Raj mera 7 saal se dost tha, me call pick kiya, usne bola ki “tera phone thik hone me time lagega n pura phone format ho jaayega, to format kar du?”.

I said, “haan kar de , no prob.”.

Raj said, “isme tere frnd ke kuch acche acche msgs h, wo bhi del ho jayenge,”

I said, “koi bata nhi.”

He said, “teri best frnd divya ke bhi msgs h isme, or unme shadi karne ki baate bhi likhi hui h, tune mujhe bataya tak nhi ki tera relation divya ke saath chal rha h, me like karta tha use.”

I said, “I m sry yaar, mere me courage nhi tha tujhe batane ke liye. Verna me tujhe bta deta. But agar tujhe aaj nhi pata chalta to me tujhe is baare me jarur batata baad me”.

(Mene apne n divya ke relation ke baare me kisi ko nhi bataya tha. kisi ko bhi is baare me kuch nhi pta tha. me is baare me Raj ko batana chahta tha, but mujhe smjh nhi aa rh atha ki me kis muh se use is baare me baatu, ki  teri ex-gf ke sath mera relation chal rha h.)

Raj said, “bhai, me tera phine thik nhi kara skta, n aaj se teri meri dosti kahtam. Aaj se tu apne raste n me apne raste”.

I said, “I m sry yaar. Plz aisa na bol, frndsip kyu tod rha h. do u find it right?”

He said, “yeah, I find it right. So, frm now, u r on ur way n I m on my. Bye.. tc. Never try to contact me ever n I m returning ur phone to ur mum.”

I said, plz yaar aisa na bol.

Usne phone cut kar diya. Me apni training me bahut busy tha, hame bilkul bhi free time nhi milta h. n it effected a lot to me. Raj was like brother of me.he helped me a lot. We had funny moments.n it was like I lost everything thing. I started feeling guilty that I did wrong.

Mujhe khud pe bahut zada gussa aane lga. Mene apne ek frnd ko is baare me bataya n usko bola ki plz Raj ko smjhaye, I don’t want to spoil our frndsip forever.

Thn, usne Raj ko smjhaya, n hum waps frnds ban gye. But the things change. He must be having a doubtful feeling for me. But I m hgappy that my frnd isback. I told about this to Divya, she supported me a lot . she aslo said, “rahul, us time me ek bacchi thi, mujhe sahi galat ka bhi pata thi tha, wo do yr ka relationship bhut hi stupid tha, me bas 14yr ki thi tab. Now, I m grown up, now I know, what I want n I just want u kisi bhi kimat pe, I love u a lot baby, I need u. .”

I love Divya so damn much, hum roj baat karte . hum ek dusre se shaadi karna chahte h, I know ye abhi bahut dorr ki baat h shaadi karna n all. But we feel like that. I feel like we are husband n wife.

Raj n mera frnd, jisne raj ko mere liye mnaya tha, wo kehte h ki, tu jo kar rha h kar, but Divya se shadi mat kario, ye hi accha hoga. But I want to marry her. She too want to marry me. She is my life. Really, its going to be 6 yrs with her since we met on that multiplayer game our world. This too much of time had created a strange bond b/w us. I really want her n I want to me wid her.

Me kabhi bhi Divya se mila nhi hu.we had planned ki, jab divya ka selection ho jaayega me tab use milne jaunga.  Raj aaj se 4 yr pehle Divya se milne gya tha jab wo uski gf thi..

Humne ek dusre ko sirf pics me dekha h, hum apni pics share karte rehte h ek dusre se. she is so damn cute. it’s a long dist. Relationship. I m in merchant navy so, I will be away frm my home n her. So,, I don’t know what to do next… kindly u guys sugest me. Mujhe divya se shaadi karni chahiye ya nhi? Plz give sugessions, n thanks a lot for reading my story. Thnku.

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