Jab bana uska hi bana – Nafis

Hii frndzz myself nafis shaikhh. Mein koi writer nahi hu a ur naahi mein koi regular reader hu. Bus yeh jo mein apni life ka wo sach aap se isliye kar raha hu ki kahi aap bhi wahi galti naa dohraaye. Baat us waqt ki hai jab mein 12th ka exams diya tha. vacation m daddy ne computer kharid kar diya tha kyunki mein computers me bahot intrested tha aur mujhe computer course joined karna tha. Jaise hi computer aaya meine apne mobile k through net start kiya n apni facebook ki id start ki. Mein din bhar apne frndzz se chat karta tha kyuki mere paas pehle mere ph mein chat nahi supported tha n mera thik timepass hojata tha. ek aur mein bahot intresting post bhi karta tha fb pe. Aksar mein note karta tha ki ek ladki mere har Post ko follow kar rahi hai. And uske likes bhi aarahe the bus meine chance dekha n fb p frnd requst bhej di jab ki mein use jaanta bhi nahi tha. Usne requst accept karli thi.

For security reason mein uska real name nahi bataunga bus uska naam aap aaliya (nickname ) tha. meine ek din use hii message bhi kiya. Bus woh sab message timepass karne k liye kar raha tha , kyunki mujhe pyar mein zara bhi bharosa nahi karta tha. Saamne se koi reply nahi aaya. Meine 2nd day reply kiya n saamne se reply aagya. Meine hw r u ka msg kiya usne rply bhi kiya. Fir meine apna intro diya aur usne sirf apna naam bataya fir mein post karta tha mere post sab dard bhare rehte the n wo like bhi karti thi meine uski frnd list check ki wo new thi fb ek 2 month hue the use id banaake . Fir hamari hii, hello, zyada hone lagi mein bhi usse bht baat karne laga tha but woh sab mere liye sirf time pass tha . Fir 1 month tak hamari baat normal hoti rahi. Uske baad jaane anjaane mein uske close hota gya jab ki woh utni close nahi thi mujhse. Pehle hamara kuch fix timing nahi tha fb ka ab hamara fix timing tha use jab kaam hota ya muje hota to hum ek dusre ko time dedete n wahi time p aake chat karte the mera vacation end hone pe tha n results h.s.c ke aachuke the n mein 67% se paas hogya tha n somaiya college m admission hogya tha jo ki reputed college thi. Lekin hamari chat badti chali gayi ab hum chat p bahot close ho chuke the but as a frrnd. Mein use sirf timepass samajhne ki koshish karta tha . Aur hum ek dusre ki bahot care karne lage mujhe bhi bahot accha lagta tha. Humne kabi ek dusre ko dekha nahi tha meine usse pic upload karne ko kaha n meine bhi apna pic upload kiya. Uska pic bhi dekha to masha_allah bahot achi lag rahi thi. Hamara waqt uhi guzarta gaya n hum ab itne close the ki hum ek dusre ko khud se zyada jaanne lage the.

Mein tabhi bhi ignore karta tha ki ye pyar nahi hai. Kyunki aisa attraction 12 ki picnic m mere saath ek ladki ko lekar ho chuka tha. N meine apna past bhi aaliya se share kiya. Mera first year b.com ka 1s t semester aachuka tha n pehli baar aisa hua hoki koi exam ho aur meine us exam ti tayyari naa ki ho. Meine ye baat aaliya ko batayi. Usne mujh se kaha ki ab exams k baad hi baat karenge. Mujhe pehle thoda ajib laga n meine bhi socha Ki exam mera hai isko kya problem h baat karne me. Well meine apna exams diya padhkar n exam k last din jab meine facebook khola to dekha k uska message tha k “inshaallah aap paas hojaoge n sham me milo” meine kaha k “pehle kyun nahi baat kiye” usne samjhaya k agar hum baat nahi karte to aap concentrate nahi kar paate” meine kaha ok well ab mein aap sabhi ko aaliya k baare me batata hu” aaliya ek ache family ki ladki thi .family me uski mummy, choti behen ,ek bada bhai aur ek badi behen jiski shadi ho chuki thi. Aaliya ke daddy nahi the. Bada bhai job karta tha aur wo chote baccho ko ghar me tution padhati thi aur saath hi saath syb.a sndt college se correspndnce kar rahi thi. Aur wo mujhse 3.5 saal badi thi. Yeh baat hum dono jaante the. Well hum dono ki baate yuhi chalti rahi. Mera results aaya mein sab mein paas tha ye sunkar exitement me mujhse kaha thankyun “jaanu” yeh sunkar mein chaunk gaya lekin mujhe andar se bahot acha laga. Agle message me usne mujhse jaanu kehne k liye sorry kaha n maine kaha its ok aapko kehna hai to kehsakte ho usne nahi kahaa. Meine kuch nahi kaha . Mein ab khud se zyada uski care karta tha kyunki woh khane k maamle m susti karti thi. Aur sab pehle khalete the fir khati thi. Mein bhi usse jhut kehdeta k maine bhi nahi khaya hai tab khati thi. Jab ki sach to yeh hai ki mujhe bhuk bardaasht nahi hoti hai.

Well aise h hume baat kiye 8 month ho chuke the ab hum dono k exams aachuke the uska exam pehla tha mera 20 days baad. Baato mein meine ek din kaha k mujhe aapse phone p baat karni hai usne mera no liya n kaha k first paper k baad wo mujhse phone karegi . Aur meine kaha exam time hum bilkul baat nahi karenge fir b maine kaha aap bus 5 mint k liye phone kar lena. Usne kaha thik hai n exam ka time btaya. Next day mein apne room m jaake 2 bje k baad phone ka wait karne laga. 2.30 bje k karib mera ph bajaa meine dekha unknown no hai meine fauran salaam kiya n usne jawaab diya n masha allah uski awaz bahot pyari thi. Humne karib 10 mint tak baat ki khabar khariyat pucha aur next exam k liye best of luch kaha n kaha k baat karke bahot acha laga. Uske baad wo har exam k baaad college se ghar pahunchne tak baat karti. Ab mein samajh nahi paarahaa tha k yeh pyar hai ya attraction . Well meine kaha jo bhi h thik h. Exam k baad hamari ph p baat nahi hoti thi kyunki wo ghar p baat nahi kar sakti thi. Uski mummy ko love marriage pasand nahi tha. N mein apne ghar me apne daddy se bahot darta tha mere daddy old mind k insan hai. Mera f.y.bcom ki vacation me meine ek call centre joined kiya n kaam karne k wajah se meri aaliya se kam baat hone lagi kyunke mein subha kaam par jata n ni8 me jaldi sojata tha. Vacation khatam hone wala tha meine job chod diya kyunki 2nd year ka college start hone wala tha . Ek din chat p maine aaliya ko propose kardiya waise mein propose karna nahi chahta tha lekin apni feeling rok nahi paya. N uska reply tha i love u 2 but as a frnd meine uski baat samajhli meine ok kahaa n hum abhi bhi bahot acche Freind the. Ek mahine baad aaliya ko apne gaon jaana pada kuch urgency ki wajah s gaon m uski badi sis rehti thi . 15 dino tak hamari koi baat nahi hui n Mein andar se toottaa jaaraha tha fir 15 dino k baad uska phone aya n khabar pucha mein usdin bahut khush tha humne thoda baat kiya fir humne shaam ka time liya chat karne k liye. Chat me n phone pemeri aaliya bahot bechain thi meine reason pucha to usne kaha I LOVE U JAANU ALOT meine kaha kya hua aaliya usne kaha k 15 din mere bina uske life k sabse toughest day the n i love u alot meine kahaa i love u 2 hamesha mein bhi puri tarha se toot chuka tha apke bina. Achanak mere cell ki ghanti baji meine ph upar wale room me jaake uthaya woh ph uska tha jab meine hello kaha to saamne se halka rone ki awaz aarhi thi wo sisak rahi thi meine bhi pehli baar emotional hua n meine phir se i love u kaha n kahaa plz dnt cry. Usne kaha pataa nahi yeh kaise hogaya hamare saath that i love u. Meine use thodi tasalli di n finally uski thodi muskurahat wapas layi;-).

Ab mein bhi usse pyar karne laga tha pata nahi chala yeh sab kaise hogya but meine khuda ka shukra ada kiya ab mein ne facebook p apni ek secret group banayi jisme sirf hum the. Ab tak hum kabhi ek dusre se mile nahi the . Well ek din meine use milne ko kaha usne b kaha use bhi mujhse milnaa h. Hum plan banane lage usne ghar p exam k time table dekhne k liye sndt college jaane ka bahaana kiya hum 10 bje milne wale the usne mujhe santacruz k bus stop p milne ko kaha. Mein b subha 8 bje college gya n ek lecture pehle waha se nikal gya aur 10 bje se pehle stop p pahunch gya mujhe santacruz ka zyada kuch pata nahi tha n milne k liye wo aur uski choti sister aane waali thi uski choti sis mere age ki thi use humdono ke baare m pataa tha . Meine ek din pehle hi apni aaliyaa k liye gift lekar aagya tha n mein stop p khada hogya 10.15 ho rahe the meine saamne wale stop p dkha to ek bus nikalne jaa rhi thi. Meine msg kiya k kaha ho uska reply aya mein bus mein baithne jaarhi hu aap bhi aajao. O teri mein opposite stop p wait kar raha tha. Bus nikalne jaarhi thi mein fauran dauda and chalti bus me chad gaya . Ab us bus m aage k ladies m sab naqab m the mein aage gya n fir piche jaakar baith gya.kyunki sab naqab m the isliye thodi confusion thi. Fir mujhe msg aya k hame sndt college k paas wale stop p utarna hai . Meine reply kiya madam pehle btao to baithe konsi seat p ho fir reply aaya kyun aap nahi pehchaan paaye. Tabhi meine dekha second seat p do girls mujhe h dekhrahe the mein pehchan gya but fir b confusion thi k dono me se hai kaun. After all mein msg kiya k mujhe stop nahi pataa ab aapka kaam h mujhe bus se utarna. Jab stop aya to wo dono piche aye aur ishara kiya aur piche se utarne lage. Finally woh lamha aya jab m apni jaan se mila. N meine dono se handshake kiya fir hum college ki taraf badhe n college m humne 4 ghante saath guzaare wo 4 ghante mere zindagi k sabse khubsurat 4 ghante hai. Hame kaafi late hogya tha ab humne waha se rickshaw kiya aur Station ki aur badh gaye. N jaane ka dil to bilkul bhi nahi tha but majburi thi. Ghar pahunchne par humne ph p baat ki aur hum bahot khush the apni life se. Dusre din jab mein book nikalne k liye bag khola to thoda shocked hua usmein ek chota sa gift box tha n ek letter tha meine jaise hi dekha next lecture class se bahar aagya aur campus m aake gift box khola usmein ek bahot pyara sa specs( chashma) tha aur saath hi meri jaan ka letter tha.

Us letter m bahot kuch aisi baate thi jo hamare liye thi mere aankho se aansu aagye n maine ph kiya k iski kya zarurat thi aur bas i love u babu kaha woh b mujhe reply di n ek flying kis di. Waqt isi tarha guzarta gya. Ek din baato baato me shadi ki baat nikli . Hum dono bahot pareshan hogaye mein bahot depression m aagya kyunki age factor ki wajah se mere daddy kabhi nahi maante the aur uske gharwale b nai ab mera depression usse dekha nahi gya n hum ek dusre s milne k liye bechain the uski mummy kuch kaam ki wajah se bahar gaye the humne juhu m milne ka plan banaya hum santacruz station par mile n waha se choupati gaye rickshey m bus hum dono ek dusre ko dekhe jaarahe the mein uski aankhon m woh dard saaf dekhsakta tha mein uska hath apne hath m liya aur use tasalli di. Hum jaise h juhu pahunche ek shant si jagah par baith gye bahot dur. Ab humne ek dusre se shadi k topic p baat ki aur koi results p hum nahi pahunch paarahe the kyunki yeh humdono k liye bahot mushkil tha aur aaliya kabhi apni mummy ka dil nahi dukhasakti thi. Finally hum is decision p aaye ki jab tak hai tab tak ek dusre ka saath nahi chodenge aur sab kuch upar wale k bharose chod diya n maine kaha jaan aap 3 years wait karlo mein aapke elawa kisi aur ka soch b nai sakta. Usne kaha y mein koshish karungi kyunki sab mummy k hath m hai n daddy k jaane k baad mummy ne hi sab kuch kiya h . Us din se uski izzat meri nazar mein aur badh gyi kyunki meine pehle baar kisi ko dekha tha k familiy k khushi k liye apni khushi kurbaan karna. 4 mahino baad usne bataya k uska rishta uski mummy n gaon mein relative s tay kar diya hai. Aur next month shayad gaon jaarahe hai shadi k liye.

Meine yeh sunte h phone cut kar diya aur phek diya aur letkar bahot roya aisa lagraha tha dil m bahot dard ho raha h lekin meine apni jaanu k baare me nahi socha k uspe kya beet rahi hogi shayad kuch pal k liye mein khudgarz hogya tha. Meine rote hue ph thik kiya aur phone lagaya saamne se choti sister n phone uthaya meine kaha aaliya kaha h use ph do usne kaha jiju baaji ko bht tez bukhar hai aur eyes me infection hogya h abhi ammi doctor k paas lekar gayi h . Isse bura mere saath aur kya hosakta tha mujhe bus apni aaliya se milna tha meine uski sis se kaha k plz jab wo aaye ph karke baat karaane aur fauran apne jiju se bike maangkar uski ghar ki taraf nikal pada badkismati shayad mujhpar haawi thi aur meine bike chalate wapt bike mujhse sleep hogai aur mein bike lekar gir gaya jaha gira waha kuch pehchaan k the unhone foran abba ko phone kiya aur jab mujhe nazdiki Hospital lekar jaya gaya aur mein right side gira tha to right hand s blooding thi aur poora fracture hogya tha aur mera ph b switched off tha aur ghar m tha. Jaise h hosh m pura aya to gharwalo ne pucha to bus meri aankhon se aansu nikal rahe the aur ghar p bataa b nai sakta tha . Meine fauran mobile mangwaya aur mein aaliya ko bataa bhi nai sakta tha ki mera accident hogya aur hospital se mein ghar aane laga mere pure hand m plaster tha. Meine himmat karke ek message kardiya agle din ki mera accidnt hogya h lekin kaha k halka sa hand p chot lagi hai. Doctor n 45 days k baad plaster kholne ko kahaa tha aur mein apni jaan ko dekhne ke liye tadap raha tha tabhi ek ph aya meine recieve kiya ph p uski choti sister thi humne thodi baat ki fir usne phone liya aur meine halki si smile k sath use salam kiya usne bahut baithi awaz me jawab diya n puchne lagi kya hua meine kaha kuch nahi chota sa accidnt hua h usne kuch nahi kaha aisa lagraha tha maano meri aaliya ro rahi thi.

Meine uski tabyat puchi usne kaha sab thik h bus ek tu nahi hai. Mein kuch keh nahi paya. Aur kaha ab ph rakhta hu thodi der k baad baat karta hu. Meri himmat nahi horahi thi ke shadi k baare me puchu k kya hua. Hum sham me chat p mile fb par aur usne kaha bus 1 month hai mere paas aap mujhe apna banakar le jao meine usse kaha mein try karunga n meine kaha aap apni mummy se baat karo to usne kaha aap pehle baat karo aapke gharwale approve karle to hum bhi kuch kar sakte h.mein kaha thik hai. Aur mein apne ghar m eklauta beta hu meri 3 sis h badi sab ki shadi hogai h. Mere daddy yeh sab k khilaf bahot sakht h hamare khandan m ladke ki age zyada ho to chalega but ladki ki zyada nahi honi chahiye. Ab mein bahot gehri soch m tha wajah yeh thi ki meri padhai start thi use khatam hone me ek saal lagta aur naahi mein abhi tak apne pairo par khada tha. To bhi mein apni badi sis k paas gaya aur socha k usko batadu meine kaha k mujhe koi pasand hai itna kehna tha ki usne mujhe chup karaa diya aur kaha abhi yeh sab mat soch padhai karle aur daddy ko pata chalega to bahot bura hoga. Mein zyada idhar udhar bhi nahi kar sakta tha kyunki mere hand pe plaster tha. Apni sis ki baat sunkar mein thoda darr gaya. Meine socha agar sister itna boldi to daddy kya karenge. Mein bus usi k baare me sochta rehta 5 din hogaye the meine un 5 dino m aaliya se zyada baat nahi ki thi aur use plaster k baare m bhi nahi bataya tha. Uske baad jab meine baat ki to usne kaha mummy ne date fix kardiya 1 month baad ka aur gaon jaane ki tayari kar rahi hai aur uski awaz me bahot dard tha aur pucha apne baat ki. Meine kaha ki but koi faayda nahi hua gharwalo ne mame plaster tha jo ki mein aaliya ko nahi batana chahta tha. Fir mein apne aapko rok nahi paya aur Kaha hum milenge bahot jald usne kaha plz zyada der mat karna . Jab se hame shadi ki baat pata chali na wo khushi se baat kar paati thi aur naa mein. Maano hum baat nahi ek dusre ko tasalli de rahe h. Mere ghar m mere relationship k baare m sirf mere ek frnd ko pata tha aur thoda bahot badi sis ko. Woh roz kehti thi kab miloge aur mera yahi jawab aya bahut jaldi. Din beet ta gaya aur ab uske gaon jaane me 2 din bache the aur mere plaster ko abhi bhi time tha khulne ko. Finally meine haa kaha aur kal milne ka plan bnaya wahi jaha pehli baar mile the college me kyunki use college se LC lene jaana tha. Jaise hi hamne ek dusre ko dekha bina kisi ki parwaah kiye ek dusre ko hug kiya. Usne plaster dekha aur uske aankhon se aansu nikal rahe the.

Meine uska aansu pocha aur use accident k baare me bataya aur maafi bhi maangi aur usne mere muh p haath rakh diya aur kaha plz nafis aap maafi mat maango. Mein har ek pal usdin apni aaliya k sath jina chahta tha. Aur us din mein aaliya ke liye koi gift bhi nahi le jaa sakaa. Humne college se L.C liya aur waha se nikalkar campus me baith gaye. Hum bus us din ek dusre ko dekh hi rahe the aur uske aansu band bhi nahi horahe the mein usko manaya tab jaake uske aansu ruke aur shayad mein bhi ro raha tha. Aur usne kaha aap kabhi mat rona n ammi abba ka khayal rakhna aur career p dhyan dena aur ty mein acche % se paas hona yeh uska sabse bada gift hoga aur sath hi me usne apne bag se ek chota sa gift box diya. Mein bus uski baat sunta jaa raha tha aur kuch mere muh se nikal hi nahi raha tha aur use hi dekh raha tha aur soch raha tha yeh waqt yahi ruk jaaye. Aur meine uska hath pakda aur apne sir pir rakha aur kasam khane ko kaha k wo b khush rahe usne kasam nahi khaya but promise ki k try karungi jine ki. Waqt zyada hogya tha uske ghar se phone aaraha tha. Ab hamare bichadne ka waqt aaya aur humare aankho me sirf aansu the. Meine use station tak choda aur hum waha se alag hue aur ph p baate kar ne lage waise sirf phone ki line shuru thi naa wo kuch keh paa rahi thi aur naa mein. Hum aisehi ghar pahunche gaye. Hum dono apna dard ghar par chupa rakhe the sirf uski choti sister ko pata tha mera to wo haal tha ki kisi ko bataat bhi nahi sakta tha bus apne room me leta rehta aur rota rehta. Jab use jaane ka din aaya usne kaha k aakhri baar wo mujhe dekhna chahti h aur borivali station p bulaya tha lekin uski train subha 7 baje ki thi. Meine kaha thik h mein ajaunga. Lekin mein kaise jaapaata kyunki upar m sota tha aur jaane k liye 5.30 ko mujhe ghar p nikalna padta lekin daddy niche sote the unse kya kehta itni subah kaha jaa raha hu kyunki utne time thoda andhera bhi rehta tha. Mein nahi jaapaya aur shayad woh mere life ki ek badi galti thi. Uske baad se meine aaliya ke no p phone b lagaya aur uske mummy k no p bhi but sab switched of the. Meine fauran fb khola to dekha uska message tha k jaanu aap nahi aaye apko dekhna tha aur mis u n love u aur jaldhi milenge fb p aisa message tha. Meine socha gaon pahunchkar. Wo message karegi but agle 15 din tak har pal uski yaad aur next message ka wait kar raha tha 16 days k baad usne post kiya hamare group me jisme likha tha “JAANU HAMARE SAATH AISA KYUN HUA” mera reply tha shayad iska jawab mere paas bhi nahi aur uska comment aya k jald baat karenge agle 1 mahine tak na koi message aur naa koi call aya aur mein puri tarah toot chuka tha aur 3rd semester me mein 4 subject me fail hogya tha aur bahot smoking karne laga tha fir meine uske ghar ka no try kiya uski choti sister ne phone uthaya aur meine pucha to kaha k kuch der k baad apko ph karti hu kyunke ghar p mummy thi. Phir kuch der intezar karne k baad uska ph aya n meine cut karke khud kiya. Aur haal chaal puchne lagaa usne kaha sab thik h n aaliya k baare m pucha to usne bataya wo gaon m hai aur zyada kuch nahi bataya aur kaha ye 9 ko wo mumbai aarahi hai. Meine ph cut kiya aur muje re exams dene the sab paper ke mein uski tayari karne laga kyunki mujhe uski har khwaish puri karna chahta tha jo jo usne kaha tha aur 9 ka wait karne lagaa. 9 ko bhi koi phone nahi aya meine 15 tak wait kiya aur jab exam deke ghar aaraha tha tak ph p uski mummy k no se missed call aya tha . Meine fauran ph kiya usne salam kiya n maine jawab diya aur wo khamosh hogai fir meine pucha kaisi ho to usne kaha thik hu aur aap kaise ho. Apni jaan ki baat sunkar mujhe aisa laga k jaise wo meri aaliyaa hai hi nahi. Hamare paas baat karne ke liye kuch tha hi nahi kyunki ab hamare bich shayad kuch nahi baaki tha. Usne bhi mummy daddy n sabki khabar puchi aur meine jawab diya usne kaha ek hafte k liye mumbai aayi hu aur saath me wo b aaye hai. Mein zyada kuch nahi kehpaya aur bus ph rakhte waqt mis u kaha n uska reply aya k aur kuch nahi kehna h aur meine kaha k shayad ab mera hak nahi h wo kehne ka. Aur mujhe lag raha tha wo ro rahi thi meine kaha k aap ro rahe ho usne kaha nahi aur kaha k ab wo ph rakhti h fir kbi karegi. Humne phone rakh diya. 5 din baad fir uska phone aya aur shayad wo hamara last phone call tha usne mujhse bahot normal behaviour k saath baat ki aur mujhe fir se bht samjhaya jo pehle samjha chuki thi. Humne thoda baat kiya aur usne kaha subha wo hamesha k liye shayad gaon jaarahi h. Aur usne rote rote i love u kaha aur meine jawab diya phir usne alla hafiz kehkar phone cut kar diya. Us din k baad aaj 4 month hogaye h aur hamari koi baat nahi hui kabhi mahine me ek baar uske ghar phone karke choti sister s baat karke uski khabar khariyat puchleta hu aur wo meri lekin uska jawaab har baar yahi rehta hai k baaji bahot khush h aur thik hai ek din meine usd use uski baaji ki kasam di ki k kyun uska jawab yahi rehta h k baaji khush h to usne bataya k shadi se pehle kahi ki jab bhi nafis ka phone aaye to yahi kehna aur usne fir bi yahi kaha k thik h aur khush h meine b use kasam di k kabhi aaliya ko ye mat batana k m tumhe ph karta hu aur uske baare m puch ta hu… Dosto aaj 4 month hogaye aur aaj bhi mein har subha apna cell p ek baar msg ya fb check kar leta hu k koi to. Message aaye aur mein aaj bhi pachta raha hu k kaash mein us waqt nai darta aur ghar p baat ki hoti to aur aaj meri life kuch aur hoti.. Y jo maine apne baare m bataya hai iska sirf ek h maksad h aap mere jaisi galti mat karna. Mein har din har pal pachta raha hu aur use hi yaad karta hu. AND I LOVE U SHONA SO MUCH . Ab life ka ek h maksad h jo usne kaha tha use pura karna aur un yaadon k sahare mein apni puri life bitaa sakta hu. Aur maafi chahunga dosto agar mere likhne me kuch galti hogai hoto. Bus itna aim hai ki aap wo galti mat karna.aur ha meri aaliya k liye plz dua karna wo jaha bhi rahe khush rahe aur mujhe bhul jaye”. Good bye .allah hafiz

 

 

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