My prince charming- Mera Para Part 2 – by Shika

Pahle somnath then next day dwarka. Bt us din para mujhse sahi se bat nhi kar rha tha mera kahin mann nhiblag rha tha ghumne ka excitement bhi khattam ho gya tha. Bht weird tarike se usne bat ki mujhse mai so nhi pa rhi thi. Subah mandir gyi nd bht wishes mange. Nd wish kiya that next time mai jab bhi dwarka aungi to para ke sath hi aaungi. Mandir me darshan ke bad hm sab fir hotel gye wahan se saman pack karke fir Ahmedabad ke liye nikal gye. Nd surat aane ke bad mai sahi se bat ki usse wo man gya. Kuchh dino bad mai patna aa gyi. Regularly jaise bat hoti thi hone lagi bt mujhe kuchh kami sa feel hone lga. Ab wo utna expressive nhi rha. Jitna pahle wo serious tha relationship ko lekar utna ab nhi tha. Holi ke din bhi sahi se usne bat nhi kiya tha. Jhagde bht jyada hone lage. Wo tym nhi deta tha mujhe. Na kuchh utna btata na mujhme utna interest hota. Maine is sab ignore kiya ye samjh kar ki padhayi nd career ko lekar preshan hoga. Usne mujhe btaya ki cricket khelna use bht pasand hai nd uska dream hai ye. April me usne academy join kiya. I was really happy. Seriously mai bht hi jyada khush thi ye jan kar ki usne apne sapne ke taraf first step liya. Nd use kuchh help chahiye hota to kar deti.  Bt ab hmari baten bhi kam hone lagi thi nd mila jhulna bhi. Mai kabhi gussa bhi ho jati thibis bat ko lekar to ulta mujhpe hi gussa ho jata nd mai aur gussa ho jati thi kabhi kabhi alag hone jane ki baten kar deti gusse me bt fir shant ho kar mai khud use mna leti nhi ye sochti that wo busy rhta hai so tym nhi milta hoga. Mai koi apni pic bhi send karun to koi achha reaction nhi milta uska. Kabhi kabhi lgta ki mai trust nhi karti uspe is bat se gussa ho jata bt har bar mai usse mna leti thi. Ab wo bilkul bhi waisa nhi rha jaisa pahle mujhe mila tha bht dhundne ke bad fb pe. 24 june this year hmari fight badh gyi nd maine kaha tm chahte kya ho usne I don’t love you anymore isse jyada kya clear karun mai. Ek frst tym usne aisa kaha bt bht royi bt fir achhe se bat ki nd mna li use. Aise ek do bar us din ke bad har 3-4 dino pe aisa hota bt har bar mai usse bad me sahi se bat karti nd sab bhul jati. Jo hua sab ignore kar deti thi. Manti hun maine bhi gussa kiya bt sirf uska pyar chahti thi nd uska time, chahti thi uska thoda attention mujhe mile. Bt hmesha fights hote the. Bt jab usse milne jati lgta hi nhi ki wahi para hai jo itna ignore karta hai nd bilkul tym nhi deta. Usse milne ke bad sab sahi lagne lgta nd mai sab bhul jati thi jo bhi hua hota. Bt agar kuchh puchhun usse like mai ab tmhri liye nhi rahi etc to wo mere questions ignore kar deta. Mai bhi ignore kar deti ye soch kar ki wo to khud tensed rhta hoga mai bhi usse preshan karne lgti hun.  Actually cooking meri hobby hai nd achha cook kar leti hun. Use kadhayi paneer nd naan bht pasand hai mera bnaya. Use jab mann hota to mai bna kar de deti thi. Colony ke pas aa jata tha. Nd uske kha kar btane ke bad hi mai khati thi. Aise hi chalta tha ladna jhagdna bt in sab ke sath mai bas itna janti thi agar mujhe kisibke sath life karni hai to wo para hai. Mai kitna bhi lad jhagd lun bt usse kabhi dur nhi hona chahti thi. Maine apni love me bht kuchh khoya hai bt para ko kisi bhi kismat pe khona nhi chahti thi.

Ab pahla jaisa hmara relationship nhi rha. Wo kabhi kuchh nhi kahta. Mujhe jab bhibuske pyar hi jarurat hoti use bht miss karti thi tab uske pure texts nd hmare purane pics dekh kar khush ho leti thi nd texts padhne ke bad lgtavtha usne to promise kiya hai mujhse ki wo kabhi chhod kar nhi jayega na kabhi hmare relationship ko tutne dega. Nd smile kar leti thi. Bt jab bht mann hota mera ki para mujhse sahi se bat kare to mai usse puchti kya hai kya mai hi pyar se baten karti jisse wo kuchh to bole bt nhi. Mujhe ignore karta. Kabhi kabhi online ho kar mere text ka reply nhi karta. Text seen karke chhod deta. Ek bar gussa ho gyi thi uspe nd maine janna chaha kyun karta hai wo aisa mere sath bt usne kaha I don’t love you anymore seriously. Agar mai tmhe ignore karta hun excuse deta hun to ye bhi to kuchh smjho. Maine sahi se bat karna chaha bt usne kaha hm sath nhi rah skte kabhi. Hmare bich kabhi understanding ki prblm nhi khattam ho mai kabhi badal nhi sakti. Mai waise nhi hun jaisa usne socha tha,  disrespectfully baten karta kabhi jaise sach me mai kuchh hun hi nhi. Mai bht  hurt huyi mai ye sab sunn kar nd mai bht jyada gusse me thi. Uske diye gift ko maine tod diye the. Nd use block kar diya. Do din bat usne call kiya ki bas aise hi usne kah diya. Maine kuchh nhi kaha nd 2-3 dino bad use call ki bt us tym wo nhi bad karna chahta tha chahta tha hm alag ho jaye. Bt mai bht manne ki koshis ki nd mann gya. Bt fir bhi aise bar bar hota kabhi mai mai block kar deti use bt bt khud bat karne chali jati thi nd use mna leti. 17 sept usne call kiya sham.me mai busy thi to bat nhi kar payi. Fir maine 10:30 pm me call kiya thodi der bat huyi bt usne mujhe hold kar diya koi aur call pick karne ke liye approx 25 mins tak. Maine puchha kaun tha usne kaha sister thi. Mujhe bht bura lga usne hold karke chhod diya ek bar bta deta wo busy hai bat me call kar lega bt 25 mins tak hold karne ka kya matlab hai. Is bat ko lekar maine kuchh kaha to wo gussa ho gya. Bt mera mann nhi lgta uske bina so mai hi is bar bhi bat karne chali gyi nd 21 sept mai usse last tym mili thi mai ,mummy , mera bhai nd bagal ke bhaiya bhabhi sab hmare city me Disneyland fair gye the maine use bhi bulaya tha. Uska b’day 28th sept ko aata hai. Approx ek saal mujhse bada hai. 22nd b’day tha uska. Mai usse puchha tn ghar ja rhe ho. Usne kaha obviously ghar hi jaunga tmhre sath waise bhi mai kabhi celebrate nhi karunga. Mujhe bht bura feel ho rha tha. Mai to ye sochti thi abhi nhi to bad me to obviously uske b’day pe sath rahungi hi na. Bt uski ye baten kuchh aur hi indicate kar rhi thi. Bt still maine sahi se bat ki last tym nd usse dur hone ka mann nhi kar rha tha pta nhi kyun alag hi feel kar rhi thi. Maine socha bhi nhi tha ki wo last tym hm sath the nd kabhi nhi milenge uske bad. Bt next day mere ghar ke side hi uske kisi frnd ka exam centre tha so wo aaya tha nd use kuchh achha khane ka mann tha wo maine bna kar bhai se bhejwa diya. Uske liye jab bhi kuchh cook karti thi to ek bht special si feeling hoti thi nd ek test jaisa lgta tha use pasand aayega ya nhi. 24th sept ko wo ghar chala gya hasanpur nd hmari baten normal hone lagi waise bhi wo ghar jata to utni baten nhi ho pati hmari. 28th sept 12 bje maine call kiya bt usne pick nhi kiya bht se call kiye bt nhi so fb pe maine use b’day wish kiya nd whatsapp pe bhi. 3:30 bje usne dekha. Fever bhi tha use so maine jane diya bt thoda naraz thi. Maine bht wait kiya tha uske is b’day tha socha tha uski sari shikayten mujhe dur ho jayengi. Bt its ok agar wo ghar gya to hmesha family members ke sath celebrate karta hai to kare. Sochi thi jab aayega tab mai uska b’day celebrate karungi nd memorable day bnaungi. Uske liye maine wrist watch purchase kiya tha nd handmade card bnayi thi. Us din usne khud call kiya maine wish kiya use. 2-3 sahi se bat huyi. Bt 30th sept hmari last tym sahi se bat huyi thi. Hm phm me baten.kar rhe the nd ek quiz tha game types jisme usne money ko life me priority di instead of love. Maine bas usse puchha kya love important nhi hai tmhre liye usne kaha nhi money is more important. Mai socha its ok nd maine puchha usse mai important to hun na tmhre liye usne koi answer nhi mere kisi bhi questions ka. Mai bas chahti thi thoda payar se bat kar le mujhse. Bt wo gussa ho gya. Hmesha ki tarah wahi I don’t love you. Don’t expect anything from me. Don’t say anything lovable to me coz I hate these things maine block kar diya. Fir 2 dino bad unblock bhi kar diya bt usne block kar rakha tha fir usne bhi block kiya maine sorry bola use achhe bat karke manne ki koshis ki wo mann gya nd thoda tensed tha coz  uske dadaji ka death ho gya tha old age the. Mai sab bhula kar sahi se bat karnw ki koshis ki bt wo relationship todna chahta tha nd mujhe block kar diya whatsap nd mere sare no mummy bhai sabka. Mai kisi ke no se call kiya use ek no to usne block kar diya bt maine dusre no se call kiya to bat huyi usse. Usne yahi kaha that uske koi reason nhi hai jisse wo relationship continue kar sake. Usne kaha tmhre pas aane se na ab meri heartbeat badhti hai na mai tmhe feel karta hun na tmhre kabhi ab sapne aate hain. Nd na hi meri mummy tmhre bare me kuchh positive sochti hain. Bt fir bhi mai bht koshis ki mnane ki bt nhi mna. Mai bht royi bht jyada hurt ho jati thi uske is behavior se. Meri frnd bulayi thi milne so gyi nd usne puchh mujhse mai btaya so usne kaha mai bat karke dekhti hun shayad tm uske bat ko negatively le rhi ho. Maine kaha thik hai bat kar lo. Usne bat kiya usse bt para jis tarah se bat kar rha tha usse aisa lga sab thik ho jayega use ab bhi care hai meri. Bt uske bad mera koi no unblock nhi kiya usne. Diwali ke din maine sham me call kiya wish karne nd kaha unblock kar do mujhe so that mai tmhe pics send kar sakun bt usne kaha mujhe tmhri koi pic nhi dekhni. Bt still maine kisi aur ke phn se use whatsap pe pics send kiya. Red saree pahni thi mai us din. Coz mujhe yad hai ek bar maine puchh tha that kis dress me mujhe dekhna chahte ho normal dress ke alawa. Usne kaha tha mai red saree me tmhe dekhna chahta hun ek bar. Bht pahle ki bat hai call pe bat ho rhi thi tabhi usse puchi thi. So red saree me khud ke pics send kiya usse ye soch kar shayad kuch achha response aaye nd sahi se bat karne lage bt aisa kuchh nhi hua. Mai bht royi. Meri tabiyat kharab ho jati hai rone se nd weak ho jati hun. Actually mujhe anemia hai so thodi prblm ho jati hai. 22oct ko mummy ne bagal wale bhaiya ka phm lekar use call kiya jisse wo bat kar le mujhse. Bat to huyi usse nd whatsap se unblock bhi kiya usne bt yahi chahta ki hm alag ho jaye ye sab karna ab bekar hai mai koi koshis na karun ab. Coz uske dil me ab mere liye thodi bhi feelings nhi hai. 2-3 din aise hi chalta tha koshis karti rahi bt kuchh nhi hua. maine usse ye bhi kaha wo jaisa chahta hai mai waisa hi karungi use jo jaise chahiye sab waise hi hoga mai khud lo uske according bna lungi bt use nhi lgta kabhi aisa hoga. 27th ko call pe bat huyi thi maine call record kar liya tha. Wo thoda tensed tha usi ne call kiya tha mujhe uski 3 behne hain. Nd unke side ladkiyon ki shadi ke bare me 19-20 hone ke bad sochne lgte hai parents. So uske parents chahte hain that uska iti complete ho gya hai so job kare apne career pe focus nd cricket chhod de. Unki financially help kare. Baton baton me usne bataya uske cousin jo usse ek sal chota hai uski shadi tak log soch rhe hain so maine pucho tm to bade ho to tmhri bhi to soch rhe honge usne kaha haan nd waise bhi mere job lag jane ek 1 saal bad kahenge hi mujhe. Maine kaha to tm unhe haan kar doge usne kaha achhi ladki mili to haan kah dunga. Seriously us tym jo maine feel kiya wo mai express nhi kar skti. Jaise usne mujhe meri puri duniya chin li. I was crying bt still maine puchha mera kya para ? Usna kaha wo sure nhi hai mujhe lekar that wo apne parents ko kabhi bataya bhi ya nhi mere bare me coz seriously he doesn’t loves me. Wo chahta tha bas as a frnd uske sath rahun. 29th ko meri last tym usse bat huyi mai bht koshis kar rhi thi sab thik ho jaye bt uski ek jidd thi kuchh thik nhi ho skta kabhi. Maine purane rexts ke copy send kiye pics send kiya uske promises yad dilaye bt wo sari chije use guilt feel.karwa rhi thi. Use ye relationship hi galat laf rha tha. Maine use call karne kaha ye soch kar ki last tym call pe bat to kar lun. Usne mna kar diya shayad busy tha na kar skta tha. So mai purane text padhne lagi thi nd use send kar rhi thi screenshot le kar mujhe yad hai usne kya kaha tha nd wo usne last words mere liye ‘are tm chup nhi rah skte kya, dhokha dena kise kahte hain bataun kya tmko bat to kar hi rha hun hun shant raho cool raho. Fir mai 3 text kiye use nd mai khud usse dur ho gyi. Bt I love him a lot, kya itna easy tha sara pyar khattam ho gya 9 sal se jante se the hm. Bht sab khattam. Use frustration feel ho rha tha mere sath. guilt feel hota tha mai wo mujhse kabhi mila hi kyun. Use jo pasand nhi hota mai nhi karti. Use mera ladko se baten karna pasand nhi tha maine apne sare male frnds duri bna li. Ek din gussa ho gya tha mai kabhibuse pahle gud morning wish nhi karti so us din se mai alarm lga kar soti thi. Uska ek bar me call pick kar lun mai phn ko silent mode se hta diya. Galti uski hoti thi bt fir bhi mai use mna leti thi. Gussa hoti thi to bas isiliye coz mujhe thoda pyar chahiye tha jo uska attention jaise pahle milta tha even tab to mai khud ko utna express bhi nhi kar pati thi fir bhi wo achhe se baten karta nhi bht se promises kiye the usne sare bas aise hi rah gye. Usne to easily kah diya wo koi achhi mil gyi to haan kar dega bt mai to kabhi uske alawa kisi aur ke bare me soch bhi nhi sakti. Maine para ko apna sab kuchh mana. Meri life me happiness sirf usse hai bt use mai nhi chahiye. Ab pyar nhi bacha mere liye. Maine bht soch kar khud ki feelings uske samne confess kiya. Bht trust kiya that khud bhi ho jaye mera para mujhe kabhi chod kar nhi jayega. Mujhe kabhi khud se alag nhi karega bt sab kuchh galat nikala uske sare promises uski sari baten.

Bt agar wo khus hai mujhse dur ho kar to thik hai. Nd ab lgta hai sach me mai ignore karti thi wo sach me nhi rhna chahta tha is relationship me bt mai hi use jabrdsti mna leti thi. Coz mai nhi chahti thi hmare relationship kabhi tute. Maine use as life partner hi treat kiya hmesha. Kis couple ke bich ladayi jhagde nhi hote. Ye soch kar sab normal karne ki koshis karti. Kaise bhul jaun sab kuchh uske sath bitaye tym uski baten uske promises. Use mujhse aur bhi kuchh shikayten thi bt mujhe lgta tha aage ja kar sab sahi ho jayega after all hme sath hi to rahna hai hmesha bt mai galat thi. Uske bht memories hain. Kaise bhula dun sab maine to kabhi expect nhi kiya tha aisa kabhi kuchh bhi hoga. Balcony me usse call pe baten karti thi wo jagah kaise bhul jaun. Rat me apne room ke Window ke pass baten karti thi kaise bhul jaun sath. Khud ko kaise bhul jaun use hug karke achha feel hota tha. Usne to sab kuchh bhula diya mai kabhi nhi bhula paungi. Para hmesha mere liye ek special person tha nd hmesha rahega. Uski jagah mai kabhi kisi aur ko nhi de sakti. Even mai to trust bhi nhi karungi ab kabhi apni life me kisi pe coz bht mushkil se trust kar payi thi uspe bht logo ne mera trust toda tha jise maine story me mention nhi kiya bt kuch frnd nd relative the. Har mai para ko mnane ki koshis karti aur mna leti is bar bhi sochi bt uske texts nd call recording sun kar nhi karti. Ab wo mera bina rhna chahta hai. Use ab kabhi preshan nhi karungi mai. Hm kabhi as a stranger bhi milenge ya nhi I dont knw bt mai ab kabhi uski life me interfere nhi karungi. Nd agar wo ye padh rha hai to mai bas yahi kahna chahungi usse ki plz ek bar khud ko meri jagah rakh kar ye story padhna bt mujhe nhi lgta wo kabhi padega bhi coz ye sab bakwas lgta lagega. Nd mai hi galat lagungi. Mera Prince charming ka sapna tut gya nd fir se wahin aa gyi jis feelings ke sath mai rah rahi thi usse milne se pahle. Ye sochti hun ki isse achha to mera bachpan hi tha isse kam dard the. Ek hope najar aata tha shayad ek din sab thik ho jaye. Bt abhi lgta hai kabhi thik nhi ho skta. Mai hi buri hun. Mai yahi chahti para tm jahan bhi jiske sath bhi rahoge khus rahna mai kabhi tmhre life me interfere nhi karungi. Hmesha khud ko tmse alag rakhungi. Thank you mera ab tak sath dene ke liye. Kuchh tym ke liye hi sahi thank you pyar dene ke liye. Mai gussa hoti thi tmpe to apna haq samjh kar kar bt ab na tm mere ho na mera haq hai tmpe. Be happy.

Agar use lgta tha mai galat sochti hun to sahi kya hai ye bhi to kabhi usne nhi bataya. Hmesha khud jo sahi lgta wo karti thi. Bas mai yahi chahti thi wo sath rahe mere. Bt agar wo chahta sath rahna mai uske liye compromises kar leti. Use jaisi mai chahiye waise khud ko bna leti. Mai bas uska sath chahti thi end tak. Bt mujhe nhi pta tha uska end do saalo ka sath tha bas. Sach to ye hai ki ab wo mera para nhi hai kho gya wo kahin jo ab kabhi wapas nhi aayega. Bt mai bas uska sath chahti hun uska pyar chahti hun bt kabhi use kahne nhi jaungi coz mai nhi chahti uske life mai koi prblm banu. Mujhe uski smile bht pasand hai nd I wish uske chehre pe hmesha smile ho. Hmesha khush rahe ho. Bs mera dil bhi mann le sab khattam ho gya hai. Uske liye ye sab asan tha bt Para u r my frst nd last love. I promise you tmhre bad ab kisi ke liye bhi koi jagah nhi hai. Thank you all for reading this. Bht se baten thi jo kahna chahti thi bt Jitna bhi likhun kam hi hoga.