My First and Last Love Awnish – Shubhi

M ek natkhat ldki hu. Har pal ek nai msti karti hu. Ishk bawjud m sant rhti hu. M kisi sy nai milti julti bs apny kmry m hi rhti hu. M ish trh pyar m tuti hu ki pyar karna hi nai h ab. Aur logo ko pyar m dykh k bht dard hota h. Sb mujhy pagal khta h. Sb khta h ki wo glt h. M kisi ko kuch nai khti bs y kh k chali ati hu ki i love awnish. Ushka nam awnish h. Wo mera nai y bat bht phly hi pta chl gya tha mujhy. Bt sath tha to koi gam nai tha. Bt aj wo sath bhi nai h. Chod k chala gya h mujhy akyla pta nai kisk bharosy py…

M yha akyli aj bhi ushki intjar m hu. Jo kbhi nai ayga y janty hue bhi usi ka intjar h. m 12 m thi tb ek din tution jany k dau
sory clg jany k dauran m ushy auto m mili. M ushy time puchi nd ushny bta diya. Fir myny ushka nam pucha. Ushny awnish btaya. M apny clg ps phuch k ushy by boli. M itni dr m phli bar ushy dykhi nd thn jb tk wo chala nai gya tb tk dykhi. M ushka no bhi mang li. Clg aa k bht hsi ai khud py ki kbhi ldki sy bat nai ki aj sidhy anjan ldka sy bat.. Nam nd phn no.. Bht hsi aa rhi thi khud py.. Khair m y bat 1 hfty m bhul gai bt sdnly ushka ek din cl aya. I m sock nd tlk. 5 min bat kar k m phn ct kr di. Fir roj cl any lga. Mujhy lga ki flrt kr rha h to m roj bhana bna k phn kat dyti. Mere birthdy py m apni frnd k ghr kuch nots lyny gai kyuki clg bnd hony the nd wo clg nai ati thi. To nots ghar ja k lyna pdta tha. M ushk ghar aksar jati. Hm skul sy hi dost the infct we r bst frnd. Bt she cheats me badly. Ushk bf ka frnd mujhy lik karta tha. M mna kar di ushy. Y bat wo bardast nai kar ska nd meri frnd anchal(meri bst frnd) k sath mil k usi k ghar ush din apny dosto k sath mil k mera rape kar diya. M chilla bhi nai pai. Mere muh m hnky tha. Nd sb ny mil k mujhy pkda tha. M bhag v nai skii
Jb wo sb rum sy gy tb m roty hue apny kpdy phny aur wha sy jldi sy nikl gai. M railway station sucid k liy gai kyuki hmara privar sahar m ijtdar privar h. Mere karan daag lg gya mere privar py m y brdast nai kar pa rhi thi.. Mere sath jo darindgi hui wo bht tklif dy rha tha. M wha ja k bhi khud ko nai mar pai aur m ghar aa gai

M ghar aa k chup chap so gai. Ma sy njr nai mila skti thi. M clg jana bnd kar di bt prcticl clases start ho gy.. Mujhy jana pada sirf ghar m y dikhany ki i m nrml. M rasty m har kisi ki njr dykh k saham jati. Darty hue clg aty jaty the. Ansu ko rokny ka bht kosis karti m lykin jb nai brdast hota to chat py ja k roti

Aur chehra dho k nichy aa jati dimag m kuch bhi nai hota bs roti rhi M lad nai oa rhi thi khud sy. Kisi py chila dyti thi. Bht jada mis behv karny lgi m. Ma ny mujhy isi m thapad mar diya ab to no chnc ki m smbhlti. M ghar sy apna crtifict nd 12000 mny ly k nikal gai.
M wha sy gyaa gai par polic ny dhundh liya mujhy. Aur m ghar aa gai ma meri ish hrkt sy tut gai. Ek kalank lga chuki thi dushri ghar sy bhag k lga di. Ma mujy ly k papa pas aa gai. Meri study chut gai. M puri trh dprtn m chali gai. Bs jinda thi to ma paa k liy. Meri jindgi nark jysi ho gai thi na hsna na rona bs chup chap ek kmry m pady rhti. Ghar ka sb kam karti bt koi msti nai. Ns duity ki trh kam kar k apny kmry m.

M bht hi aln rhti. Koi ata bhi to m nasta dy k apny rum m M bht bimar rhny lgi. Mere pet m infcn ho gya aur m bed rst py aa gai. Sb kam ma krti. Ek din bed py lyti thi to ek wrng no sy cl aya m rcv ki nd bat ki ldk ka awaj tha aur mere bary m puch rha tha. M dar gai. Bt fir bhi bat ki. Jb nam puchi to awnish btaya. M bht khus ho gai aysa lga jysy sb mil gya ab. M ushy dost mamti thi bt ushy bat hony py m bht khus thi. M batai ki m hi shubhi hu. To fir hmari bat hony lgi. Wo sms pack dlwa diya taki m baty kar paun M ushy bat karny lgi. Isi bich apna fb acnt bhi bnai

Dono bht khus rhty ek dushry k bina man nai lgta m dprsn sy bahar aa gai.. Aur agn msti suru. M bht khus rhti. Ab khan m swad lgta mujhy. M ushy psnd karny lgi aur ushy mob py hi i love u bol di wo sarma gya ush waqt nd lv u 2 kh k cl kat diya. Ab hm aur bhi jada baat karty wo kbhi gandi baty nai karta. Bs lv wali baty. Bht sy spny sjay hmny par sb spny ek jhatky m tut gy. Ushy mera past pta chl gya wo mujhy apnany sy mna kar diya. M rony lgi bt khs rhti kyuki wi pura din gusa krta bt sath rhta ushk bhi sb spny tut gy. Wo apny ghar m mujhy lana chahta tha par sb khatm. Dono ish dard ko bardast nai kar pa rhy the. Chuup k roty rhty dono.isi bich ushk birth dy aya aur m itna jada tnsn m rhti ki m ushka birthdy bhul gai. Saam m jb yad aya m jldi sy msg kar k birthdy wish ki wo bola chalo yad to aya tmhy warna aj ka din bht bekar lg rha tha tmhary bina. M sory khi ushy ushny maf kr diya ish bich ma ko ghar jana pda to papa bhai aur bhn k skul jany k bad m pura din bat karti ushy. Wo mujhy radio khta kyuki m ek bsr suru hoti to rukti nai thi

Dhiry dhiry lv badhta gya aur itna jada ho gya ki har khabar ek dushry ki bina btay pta chlny lgi Bt kuch mahino phly wo mujhy chod diya kyuki mere sath koi future nai tha nd m raoed hu. Bs ush glti ki sja dy gya jo m ki nai. 5 sal ka lv khatm kar diya wo. Aj bhi m usi k wait m hu aur aj tk kisi ko apna nai pai hu.

M aksar jhuth kh diya khti ki m kha li hu bt usy pta chl jata ki m jhuth kh rhi hu. Nd wo dant k khana khilata mujhy. Uski dant m itna mja ata ki m janbujh k dant khany ka kam karti. Din bhar ghar m uchlti kudti rhti aur jb chot lgta tb ja k roty hue bat karti ushy aur wo chup krata mujhy Ushka drm tha mujhy apny god m bytha k rkhny ka Jb m khti ki i wana hug hu to wo khta laga liy kas k gly tmhy hwa bhi nai h hmary bich…. Dil ko chu jata y andaj ushka wo poor fmly sy h bt mujhy kharch karny m bilkul nai hichkichata tha. Jb bolti tb recharge aa jata mob m m ushpy load bhi nai dalti. Urgnt hony py hi recharge krwati. 5 sal sy m ushy bina dykhy lv kiy ja rhi hu. Jb pic mangti tb kuch na kuch kh k taal dyta bat. Par m har tisy – chuthy din apna pic dyti ushy.

myny study bhi karti hu ushk khny py warna padhai k nam sy bhagti hu m aj bhi wo chahta h m sucesful bnu. Apni pyro py mhnt sy khada houn wo aksr jid karta ki m kisi aur sy sadi kar lun bt m nai manti ushki bat.wo meri har jid ko todwana janta tha bt y jid wo kbhi nai todwa paya. m kud ko kisi aur ki baho m nai dykh skti. jo spny awnish k sath sajay ush spny ko kisi aur k sath m nai ji skti. wo kisi aur ka ho jayga y bat soch k hi atma kaap jati h. Jo mera h wo mera nai rhyga. Jindgi m koi bhi aysa rista nai mila jo sirf mera ho. Ma papa bhi sirf mere nai mere bhai bhno k bhi h. Bt awnish sirf mera h. Par wo bhi chin gya ab koi psnd nai ata M aksr ushy chidhsti thi kisi bhi bat ko ly k. Bt ulta wo mujhy hi chidha dyta.

m jb bimar hoti wo mera pura khyal rkhta. M khai ki nai. Aj kya ki. Medi li ya nai. M bhi ushk bimar hony ushki care karti. Wo aksar barish m bhig jata aur bimar pad jata. wo tution pdha k apna aur ghar ka kharch chalata. Wo ghar ka bda byta h. Ushk papa 5 bhai h nd wo joint fmly m rhty h. 5000 m kisi trh ghar chlta h. sbka madad karta h bt apny hlp ko kisi ko nai khta h wo mujhy birthdy py hand bag.. Choclt… Wrist watch… Memory card Aur ek sim diya h y sb mere pas h Wo y sb sman bus sy bhjta h. meri bhny aur bhai ushy apna ideal manty h. Koi dikt hony py usi sy hlp lyty h. m tin bhn hu. Ushmy m bich m hu. Bhai sbsy chota h.

m aksar usy amrud k ped k nichy byth k khti babu m amrud k ped k nich hu aur 12-14 amrud njraa rha h pka hua wo turnt khta bhukhad khana nai mila h tmhy. Mt dykho udhar wrna khany ko mn kryga aur tmhy snflia h na. m roj ish pyar bhari dant k liy amrud k ped nichy byth k msg krti ushy m ushy hug karna chahti hmesa. Sbsy surprisn ehhsas to y tha ki m hath m mob lyti aur ushka cl aa jata. Awnish k sath aksar aysa hota wo pockt sy mob nikalta aur mera msg turnt milta ushy. wo khta wo mere andar hi bytha hua h wo jb bhi stdy ki bat krta m bht bore hoti thi.. Aur bhana kar k cl cut kar dyti.

ushy kai bar bulati bt wo kbhi nai aya milny ishliy m bhi kh dyti ushy ki tm mere liy khi bhi kbhi bhi nai aa skta tmy itni himt hi nai ki tm mere liy ao. wo dubara cl kar k khta ki jb padhai ki bat kro bill m ghi Bil m ghush jati ho. M hs dyti ish bat py ushy bat kar k sb tnsn hi dur ho jata mera. Raht h wo mera Luck h wo mera wo jis din chod gya mujhy ushk do din bad mujhy phn py dhmki mili ki mujhy kidnap krwa diya jayga. Dimag itna garm hua ki phn py hi jam k danti m.. .. phir koi cl nai aya. mere exams chal rhy h aur m ushki yado m padh nai pa rhi hu log sympathy dyty h bs. Sath koi nai dyta h. wo mera bht sara nam rkha h. Bndariya… Muhfulli… Rsmalai.. Babu.. Bauua… Sona… Meri beti… Meri bachi… Janu… Jan… Sajni… Sanam… Darling… Aur bhhi bht sara nam Mujhy choti bachi ki trh tret karta jishy bilkul smjh nai duniya ki.

mere pas ushk alawa kuch nai khony ko aur paany ko. Ushk alawa kuch yad nai. m ek wek m do bar sucid atack ki aur hsptlizd ho gai wha mujhy jb hosh aya tb bht mukil sy m ma papa ko phchani. M sb bhul gai bt awnish ko nai bhuli aur na ushka no. Meri di sock ki mujhy kuch yad nai bt awnish ki hr bat yad h. m apna brn ka kuch part damg karli medi k ovrdz k karan m kuch samay bad chijo ko bhul jati hu bt awnish yad h mujhuy ushk sath bitsya har pal yad h ushka pyar yad h m ushy apna pti man chuki hu.aur kisi ko ab mera hony ka hq nai siway awnish k M aur awnish ek hi city k aur same cast k h. Bt fir bhi alg h.

Ek ho k alag ho gy hm aysa lgta jysy wo mera hissa h aur m uska m aj bhi usi k intjar m hu. janti hu nai ayga wo par bharosa h ki ayga wo. m ti ushy khti thi ki tmsy na budhy hony k bad bhi pyar karungi. jb tm kuch kha nai paogy tb m tmhy khilaungi. ankho k samny bs whi 5 sal phly ka chehra aj bhi h aur rhyga hmesa usi chehry m didar karti hu ushka.
ushy mera gana bht psnd tha m aksr gana ga k sunati ushy. Ushy tarif karny nai ata aur mujhy manana nai ata. wo mujhy pal bhar m mna lyta. Darsal ushki awaj sun k hi gusa gayb ho jata mera aur dher sara pyar ata ushpy ishliy wo turnt mna lyta. Bt agr wo gusa ho gya to mnany k bdly m gusa ho jati aur khud ko hurt karti. Nd fir ushy hi mnana padta mujhy. wo jb gusa hota to pta hota ushy ki mnana ushy hi h aj bhi na jany kysy mujhy y pta chl jata h ki wo kha h kya kr rha h. Khaya ya nai. Aj kya kiya. Tbyt kysa h. Kha ja rha h. Bt ab m ushy kuch nai kh pati.

ushk birthdy py jbrdsti ishbar i love u bolway.. Aysy bola jysy ehsan kar rha ho kh k. dil ko bht lgi h y bat nkhy hmesa roti h Hmny apny bcho ka nam awni aur shubh socha h. Myny kha h ushy ki m tmhari nai ho pai ish jnm m bt wo apny bcho ka nam yhi rkhy. agr ma papa frc nai kiy to m y janam awnish k nam kar dungi. Kbhi sadi nai krungi… Usi ki rhungi m
ushy to roj pyar badhta hi ja rha mera nfrt hoti hi nai. wo mere bina khus h to m ushki yad m khus hu i love him so much….Wo mujhy birthdy wish mera har nam k sath jo ushny rkha h sb k sath hpy brthdy likh k karta h. Ish bar pta nai woo wish kryga ya nai wo mujhsy ek sal ek mahina ek hfta 3 din bda h.

Hm dono nam bhi aysa h jishmy dono sath h.
Awanishubhi….

mujhy nak sy khlna bht psnd h aur m ushk sath nak ldana chahti hu. awmish k alawa kuch nai h khny ya sochny ko mujt Mujhy mujhsy koi kuch bhi bat kary koi asr nai hota bt ushki baty jb hoti h tb bht khusi hoti h Lif whi h aj bhi jha wo chod k gya h mujhy ushk nam ka hr iljam mnjur j I love u babu i love so mhch…. Ummmmmmmahhh… m hmesa khti ushy ki pyar ho gya h tmsy.. Jbki hmy pyar m pdy 5 sal ho chuka h

i love u awnish.
I love u so much.
ummmmmmahhh
Ushki yado m itna jgi hu ki din m soti hu aur rat m jgti hu

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