wo 30 din – vikas

hello friends mera naam vikas h.. me aaj aapko apni ek reality batana chata hu..mein 10th ka paper dekar chutiyan manane apne nanaji ke ghar per gya hua tha, whi per mein pheli baar unse mila tha, mila kya tha mein khud mama ke sath unko lane unke ghar per gya tha..first time dekne me mujhe wo kuch khas nhi lgi, fir wo nana ji ke ghar per aayi.. mene to soch liya ki is baar chutiya bahut bekaar jane wali h.ab iske aane se sara mazza kharab ho jayenga..aisa me isliye soch rha tha kyuki me hmesha se hi ladkiyon se dur hi rhta tha..fir mere cousins bhe kamine mere se jayda unke sath rhne lga..mujhe bda bura lgta tha..suru ke 3-4 din to hamare bich koi baat nhi hu fir dhere dhere baato ka silsila suru hua..aur badtha hi gya. dhire dhere hmare bich kafi baatein hone lgi hm apna zaydatar time sath hi spend karte the, wo pheli ladki thi jinse mene itni baatein ki thi.. aur mujhe unka ye sath pasand aane lga..aur shayad unhe mera bhi.. hm sath me kafi games bhi khelte, t.v dekhte, aur aksar t.v channels lagane ke naam per hmare bich mitthi takraar ho jati thi..wo mujhe apne ghav apne ghar apni family ke barre me btati thi, aur kabhi kabhi emotional bhi ho jatti thi..aur dhere dhere hm dono ek dusre ke acche friend ban gye..mein, mere cousion, aur wo akser raat me chatt( roof) per masti karte, aur akser antaksari, phaeli, type games khelte the.. mene ek baat notice ki thi wo in sabhi khelo me mere sath hi rhti thi, dusri team me jaana unhe bikul pasand nhi tha, aur hmesha mujhe hi support karthi thi.. ek din hm sabhi baher khi ghumne gye aur wha per unhone mujhe kuch gift lekar di, jise mene aaj tak smbhal ker rka h.. aur mene bhi kuch gift unhe di..us din hmne bahut masti ki.. aur hmari dosti aur strong hoti chali gyi..intne dino ki masti me mein ye bhi bhul gya kab hmare alag hone ka samay aa gya..jis din unko apne ghar jana tha, usse ek raat phele hm dono ne puri raat baatein ki, tum mujhe yaad karonge ki nhi, me tumhe bahut yaad karungi, hm dono hmesha touch me rhenge, mere ghar muujse milne jarur aana, hm dono phone ke throw touch me rhenge, aise bahut se sawalo ki ek lambi katar unhone ne mere samne pes kar di, aur me sabka answer sirf muskura ke de rha tha..in sabhi baato ke dauran mene khi baar unki aankho me aanshu bhi dekhe, phuchne per bola ki yha per sabhi logo ki bahut yaad aayengi. isliye aanshu aa gye. aur phir agle din unke jaane ka time aa gya, wo bahut ro rhi thi, sach khu us time mujhe bahut takleef hui thi, pheli baar mujhe lga mera koi apna bahut khas mujhse dur ho ja rha h, mager mene apne emotions ko chupaye rka, aur haste hue mene unhe jana diya…kal raat ki baat ko yaad rkna , ye aakri words usne mujhse jaate hue khe the..aur mene kha bilkul yaad rkunga.. unke jaane ke baad me ghar se dur chla gya aur bahut roya. shaam ko unki call aayi,aur hmne kafi der baatein ki.. aur is tarah hmari akser baaatein ho jaya karthi thi, wo mujhse baar baar apne ghar aane ko khti, aur ek din mein mama ji ke sath ek shadhi me gye, unka ghar paas me tha hm unke ghar chale gye, mene unhe is baare me kuch nhi bataya tha. kyunki me unhe surprise dena chata tha but wha jaaker mein khud surprise ho gya tha, wo apne mama ji kke ghar shadhi me gyi hui thi..so wha hm nhi mil paye but phone pe hmari akser baatein hoti rheti thi..phir kuch dino ke baad mein delhi wapas aa gya.delhi aane k baad mera man kisi bhi cheez me nhi lagta tha.mein baitha ghanto beeti baato me uljha sa rehta tha. Ha, mujhe pyar ho gya tha.us ladki se, uski masumeyt se, uski her ek baad se. Aur shayad udar bhi yhi haal tha. Hm dono ne hi ek dusre se contact me aane ki kafi kosish ki, but tb na mere paas phone tha na uske paas.uske bad k kuch month mere badi muskil se bite.& then hm dono ki fir se mulakaat hui. Hm ne ek dost ki tarah baate ki, but pyar k wo teen shabd nhi bole. Then after some time uski shaadi fix ho gyi. Sun k dukh hua, but mein kuch nhi ker skta tha. Kuch din k baad uska call aaya, mene use mubarkbaad di. Usne kha tumhe sun k accha lga, mene kha hain. Then usne mujhse apni shaadi me aane ko kha & mein bola men nhi aaunga.jis din uski shaadi thi raat bhar bister pe pda mein na jane kya kya sochta rha.fir mene usse baat krne ki kosish hi nhi ki.mene apna number bhi change ker liya.but mujhe uski sari details pta thi..kyunki uski shaadi meri mausi ki hi relation me hui thi.apne aap ko sambhlne me mujhe kafi time lga. Fir kafi mahino k baad usko phone kiya, uska number aaj bhi whi tha, normlly baat ki..uske touch me rehne k liye mene uske husband se bhi dosti ker li.fir aise hi kabhi-2 mein usse baate ker leta h….dhire dhire mein apne aap ko kafi hd tk sambhal chuka tha. Fir march 2011 me, mein apne ghaav gya.usi beech me uske bhai ki shaadi fix ho gyi, so shaadi se phele ki rasmo me mein bhi uske ghar gya.2 year k gap k bad hm wha mile, mujhe lga wo kafi khush hongi..but shocking thing is that usne mujhse thik se baat tk nhi ki, meri her baat ka be-man se answer diya..mein samag nhi pa rha tha ki ye sb kya ho rha aur kyu ho rha h. ‘agar mauka mile to sochna ki tum kitna badal gyi’ ye mere usse khe hue last words the.mene apni bike start ki & wha se apne ghar chala aaya.mene piche mud k dekha tha to uski aankho me anshu the, aur mere bhi, jisse hm dono hi rokne ki kosish ker rhe the..& tb ka din h and aaj k din h, mene kabhi us se baat nhi ki, na usne ki…hm dono k paas ek dusre ka number h, but usse dial karke baat karne ka hak ab hm dono hi kho chuke h..lekin uski life me kya ho rha h mujhe sab kuch pta . & usse mere bare me sb kuch pta h. Mein is baat ko leker 100% sure hu ki wo aaj bhi mujhe pyar karti h, & mein to usse hmesha hi pyar karta rhunga..uske jaane k baad aaj almost 5 year ho gye h,zindagi me pta nhi kyu, kuch kami si lagti h.phele ki tarah hasne wala vikas ab kafi serious rene lga h.tb se meri zindagi me koi bhi nhi aaya h, mene kisi ko aane dia bhi nhi h.abhi jaldi me hi mein apne ghav gya tha, mere cousion k throw uska mujse milne ka msg aaya..but mein fir se us dard se nhi jhelna chata tha, so mene usse mulakaat even baat tk nhi ki….dosto in sb mein sbse mzzedaar baat jante ho kya h. Ki hm dono k baare me kisi ko bhi kuch bhi khabar na h, na thi.khair kahne ko to kafi batein mene is me nhi khi h..mene ese kafi formally likh diya h.but mein isme jayda dard nhi likna chata tha….tum jha bhi raho kush rho… zindagi me kabhi na kabhi tumse jarur milunga & tumare us din k behaviour ka reason puchonga..but usme abhi time h..meri chinta mat karna, mene ab khud ko sambhalna sikh liya h, ha kabhi-2 purani yado ki hawa aake dard ko bda deti h….,mager ab is dard ka kya kare, ye to zindagi k sath hi jayenga….

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