i love her but she doesn’t..- Rishu

Hello friends…….my name is rishu.ye baat tb ki hai jab maine 11th me naya naya admission liya tha.chunki main middle class se belong krta hun , isliye govt. School me padhta tha.hamara school co-ed tha isliye ladke aur larkiyan dono padhte the. Mere 10th me acche marks aaye the isliye maine commerce liya tha . Mere class me ladkiyan kam hi thi 45 students me se kewal 15 ladkiyan hi thi . main shuru se hi padhai ko jyada importance deta tha aur ek chupchap rahne wala ladka tha….aur ladkio se baat karne ke mamle me toh bahit hi sharmila tha. Dhirey-dhirey time gujrta gya aur class me kuch ladko se meri dosti bhi hogai..par ladkio se main kam hi baat krta tha. Barsat ka mausam aa gaya tha aur is bar delhi me kuch jayada hi barish aa rahi thi. Ek din main subah jab school jane ke liye utha toh joro ki barish aa rahi thi. Mere parents kahne lage ki aaj school ki chutti kr le par na mana aur chatri le ke school chala gaya. Jab mai waha pahuccha to dekha ki class me bahut kam students aye hain .4 ladkia thi aur 6-7 ladke the. Mera koi friend bhi nhi aaya tha . Barish ki wajah se teacher bhi kam hi aaye the aur hamari shuru ki 3 periods khali the .main baith kar accounts ke problem solve karne lga.tabhi ek ladki mere paas aayi aur boli ki uska ek a/cs ka question nhi nikal rha .uska naam pooja tha.maine uska question 2 min. me solve kar diya(i am quite good in this subject). Usne kush hokar thanks kaha aur apni seat par chali gai. Main bhi dil hi dil me khush hua aur uske bare me sochne lga………aur tirchi nazro se chup chup kr use dekhne lga .dhirey-dhirey humari batcheet badhne lgi. par main abhi bhi usse khul kar baat nhi kar pata tha, kyonki mujhe ladkio se baat karne ki aadat nhi thi. Mujhe dar lagta tha ki use koi baat buri na lg jaye.khair din bit rhe the aur mid term exam bhi aane wale the. Ek din meri aur pooja ki duty class me lgi thi . Sari class assembly me gai thi aur khali hum dono hi class me the. 15 min me class me bachhe aane wale .hum dono bate kr rhe the exam ko leker.achanak usne pucha ki rishu yar tum itna kam kyon bolte ho . Maine kaha : aise hi yar , shuru se hi main ladkio se baat karne me sharmata hun… Wo hasne lagi aur boli : kyon, itna kyon sharmate ho…yar hum kat to nhi lenge tume…(aur hasne lgi) Main bhi hasne lga…. Wo boli:chalo aaj se hum friends hain…..ab toh nhi sharmaoge mujh se….. Ye kahkar usne apna hath aage badha diya(for hand shake). Maine bhi hath aage kr dia ir hand shake kia. Aur is tarah hamati dosti shuru ho gai.samay gujrta gya aur mid term exam bhi khtm ho gye. Hamari dosti bi badhti jaa rhi thi .school me khali time me aur recess me hum sath hi rahte aur baate karte. Mere kai dosto ne mujhe uske naam se chidana bhi shuru kr dia tha wo samjhte the wo meri bandi(g.f) hain . Aur kuch kuch mujh me bhi uske liye feelings aane lagi thi .par main use kahne se darta tha.aise hi time gujrta rha aur hamare 11th ke main exam bhi khtm ho gye.mere 80% marks aaye the aur uske 65% the .result wale din maine pahli baar use rote hue dekha. Mujhe bhut dukh hua aur na jane kaha se mere aankho me bhi do bunde aa gai..mujhe uska rona bahut bura laga. Main uske pass gya aur kaha ki koi nhi chinta mat karo 12th me acche no aa jayege aur wasie bhi 11th ke marks ki utni value nhi hoti.isse wo kuch shant toh hui aur uthkar bina mujhse kuch bole chli gyi.. Aur dosto is tarah 1 sal bit gya tha aur hum 12th class me aa chuke the life fir normal ho gai thi.. Is bar maine soch liya tha ki use bol k hi rahunga ki main use like karta hun..per mujhme itni himmat nhi ho rhi thi.khair hum dost to the hi hamari batcheet pahle ki tarah ya pahle se jyada hone lagi thi . Lekin dosto hum sochte hain ki sab kuch thik thak chal rha hain par agle hi pal upar wala (god) apni lathi chalata hain aur sab kuch badal deta hain. Ek din main jab school gya toh maine dekha ki hamari class me kuch naye bacche aaye hain. actualy hamari class ke kuch bacche dusre section me gaye the aur kuch bacche hamare section me aaye the. Unme ek Rahul naam ka ladka tha, maine dekha ki aaj pooja kuch yada hi kush thi aur usse bate kr rahi thi .mujhe usper thoda gussa aaya. Par maine socha shyad wo use pahle se janti ho . Recess me maine use pucha ki usse kya baat rhi thi . Do min. ke liye wo chup ho gai phir boli: yar rishu wo ladka mujhe bahut pasand hai yaar…… Uske itna bolte hi mera sir ghum gya mere pairo tale zameen khisak gai thi… mujhko lga jaise mera dil hi toot gya ho…..meri ankhe naam ho gai maine dusri taraf munh kr lia.. Usne kaha: kya hua…. Maine kaha: kuch ni shayad aankho me kachra chla gya….main abhi aaya Itna kahkar nain toilet me bhaag gya.. muje apne upar bahut gussa aa rha tha…main usse bahut pyar karta tha , par use kah nhi paya….maine usse pure din baat nhi ki. Aur ghar par aakar bhi uske bare me hi sochta rha.mujhe lagta tha ki wo bhi mujhe like karti hogi per main galat tha wo toh sale rahul ko like karti thi….puri raat main thik se so nhi saka or maine thaan liya ki kal usko bol k rahunga.. subaha main jaldi utha aur badiya se tyar hokar school gya. Raste bhar main bhagwan se mannat mangne laga ki wo haan bol. School pahuch kar sidha main uske paas gya aur bola ki mujhe tumse bahut jaroori baat karni hain ganes je period me class me ruk jana.usne kaha : kya baat hain abhi bata de na… Maine kaha nhi usi time bataunga . Wo bhi kuch kuch samajh rhi thi……… Us din mera man padhai me nhi lag rha tha ..aur main besabri se games j period ka intzaar kar rha tha aur man man hi dar bhi rha tha ki kahi wo na ,na bool de… Khair games ka period bhi aagya sare bacche bahar ground me chale gye.main sar dard ka bahana bna kr class me ruk gya…wo bhi bahar chali gai thi…. main uska intjar karne laga. 10 min baad wo aayi…..aur mere paas akar boli: haan kya kam tha? Kya kahna hain? main do min toh chup rha phir bola: pooja,,,, i luv u….. Wo surprise rah gai or ektak mujhe dekhne lagi… Phir achanak boli: tu pagal toh nhi ho gya …….. we are friends…. Maine kaha: i know par….. i love… “Shut up” meri baat kat te hue wo boli aur gusse me bahar chali gai….. Mujhe lga jaise meri duniya hi khtm ho gai hain…..main apne jajbato pe kabu na rkh saka aur rone lga……. Iss baat ko 2 saal ho chuke hain aur main clg me 2nd year me hun. us din k baad aaj tak maine pooja se baat nhi kari…. but i still love her…..i m incomplete without her….come back pooja i miss u…:-(:-(:-(:-(:-(:-(

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