Dairy (Darling always i remember you) – Shiv Pandit

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Soch ke asman me jb hm duur nikl jate h,jaha tum or m ka frk mit jata
h..to yad aati h meri dairy mujhe….
likhti hu or lbzo se bate krti hu…
Dairy kbhi plt kr jvab to nahi deti ,pr sukun deti h bina bole hi…
Sayad ruuh h isme bhi…
M payal chohan or ye meri dairy…
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2008…mere scool ka akhiri saal..
aage na pdha tha ghr me koi or na m pdhne vali…
kyuki isse aage jane ki na izazt thi na suvidha…
meri didi…vanshika..mujhse teen saal bdi h..
pr dost se bhi jyada acchi h..
Or mujhe bahut pyar krti h..
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yu to pyar,muhbbt mujhe hmesa boring lga,pr kai bar vikrm ki vjh se
mushkil ho jati..
vikrm ka ghr hmare ghr se duur tha pr rhta vo hmare muhlle me hi tha..
jb dekho tb apne fitur se dosto ke sath gli me ghumta rhta..
or kabhi kabhi mujhse tkra jata,to uske sval jan le lete..vanshika
kesi h..??khana wqt pe khati h na..??mujhse bat kyu ni krti vo..??
use mera ye kht de dogi kya..??
ese sval..
page 4
vinu di vikrm se pyar krti thi,or vikrm bhi di se love krta tha..
m bahut bar unke kagz ek dusre ko deti,to chori chupke pdh leti thi..
i know ki dusro ke lettr pdhna is bad hebbit…pr mza bahut aata tha yar..
Dono ek dusre ko sory likhte,love u khte or sbse mst lgti thi kht me
likhi shyri..
M khush thi, kyuki vo dono bahut pyr krte the ….
page 5
Ek din vikrm mujhe scool se ate wqt mila..
di ke bare me puchne lga..m bs di ki khbr bta rhi thi ki vikrm ka
dost,jo uske sath tha,mujhe ghur rha tha.
m uski trf dekhna nahi chahti thi pr vikrm ki or dekhne se vo dikh rha tha..
M jyada ruki nahi,,chl pdi..
kuch dur hi chli thi ki vikrm ka dost aaya or mujhe thanks bol kr chla gya..
m puchna chahti thi pr puch na pai ki usne kyu bola ye…
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din nikl rhe the…m khush thi..or apne kamo me bzy rhti thi..
pr kbhi kbhi vikrm or uske dost dikh jate gli me to vo thanks yad aa jata..
Bahut bar vikrm ke dost ka chehra mere zhn me aa jata..fir khud hi hns pdti..
sochne lgi ki kash ek bar or mil jaye vo…
or duaa kubul hui..
page 7
Mere bdy ke din mujhe di dress dilane le gyi..vikrm ko m phle din hi
kh chuki thi ki di se milne aa jana market me..
vo aya or us dost ko bhi sath laya..
Hm shop pe the,dresses dekh rhe the,apni apni psnd bta rhe the…pr
vikrm ke dost ne jo dress btai,vo mujhe psnd aa gyi..didi ne dila di..
mene bhi usko thanks bola..
to hm dono me kuch bat hui..
page 8
Gourv nam tha uska…smart sa …collage kr rha tha…or vikrm ke ghr
ke pas hi ghr tha uska..
mene bhi apna nam btaya,or bato bato me gorv ne vikrm se kaha ki ab in
gliyo me jb bhi aao to mujhe bhi sath lana yar…m bhi payal ko dekh
lunga..
mene kuch nahi kaha..bs muskura rhi thi..
page 9
Gorv roz hmari gli me ata..chahe vikrm aye ya na aye..pr vo ata..m
dekhti to khil uthti…vo jb meri trf muskurata to dil nachne ko
krta..pr mushkil se apne ko kabu krti..
smjhna mushkil tha ki mujhe ho kya rha h..kyuki m pyar muhbbt se dur thi..
pr roz roz use dekhna,uska intzar krna..or scool se ate wqt milna..sb
shuru ho gya…
gorv subh mujhe scool jate wqt,fir ate wqt milta..hm bat krte..fir
sham ko gli me ata to isharo me bat krte..
bate chlne lgi hmare drmiyan ab….
page 10
hmare shr me ek devi maa ka mndir h..phle nvratre ko hm sb gye the..m
apne pure privar ke sath thi…vikrm or gorv bhi the..
Gorv chupke se mujhe ek toffy or ek kht de gya..
mene us wqt to rkh liya pr ghr akr khola,pdha…or feel hua ki gorv ko
mujhse pyar ho gya..
us kht me gorv ne mujhse pyar ka ikrar or izhar dono kiya tha..
page 11
M bhi dil de bethi thi gorv ko..bahut accha lgta tha mujhe..jb sochti
uske bare me to kahi kho jati..
Ek ghr dikhta vadiyo me..jiski khidki jhrno ki trf khulti ho..jaha
mosm ka hr mahina savn ho..
der tk khoi rhti..jb khyalo ke tar tut te to hosh ata…or khud pr hi
hns pdti..ye kya din the..kya rte thi..uske hone se din rat sb acche
lgte..tnha rhna chahti taki soch sku gorv ko…
or silsila chl rha tha..
page 12
pr khushiyo ki dhup dhlte vqt kitna lgta h??..mera scool pura ho rha
tha..kuch din hi jana tha bs..
m bhi udas thi or gorv bhi..ki ab milna km hone vala h..
ek din gorv mujhe scool ke bad ghumane le gya..m raji nahi thi pr usne
zid ki to m mna nahi kr pai..
vo mujhe apne ek dost ke ghr le gya..koi nahi tha vaha..m dr gyi..pr
gorv pr yakiin tha..jo tut gya us din..
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ye nahi ki usne jbrdsti ki…pr usne zid ki..or m uske zid ke aage
haar gyi..hm vaha se ghr aa gye..
mene didi ko bhi kuch nahi btaya..
bahut mushkil me thi..glt kiya ya sahi kiya ye fesla bhi nahi kr pa rhi thi..
ek dil khta glt kiya,to dusra dil khta ki jb gorv k ho chuki hu to dil
jigr jan jism sb se ho chuki hu…
bs din niklte gye,,mera scool pura ho gya..ab bs ghr hi rhna h..jb tk
shadi nahi ho jati..
page 14
Ab mera or gorv ka milna km ho gya tha..vinu didi or vikrm bhi km hi
milte..mahine me ek bar ya kbhi to do mahine me ek bar…
m bhi jb gorv se milti to gorv mujhpr gussa krta.khta ki milne ka wqt
nahi deti ho..
m btati ki hme bina kam ghr se bahr nahi niklne dete..koi kam to hona
chahiye..or ab scool ke bhane bhi nai aa skti..to kese aau …
gorv ruth jata ..jb mnati m to usi room me jane ki bat krta jaha hm
gye the ek din..m saf mna krti pr gorv zid krta..
or ruth jata..
page 15
Dhire dhire milna km hua..kyuki gorv gli me km aata..kabhi to do din
bhi nahi ata..mera dil ek pl ko bhi na lgta..bar bar gli me
jhankti,,pr gorv bahut nahi dikhta..kabhi dikh jata to bat nahi krta..
pta nahi kyu mujhse dur dur rhta tha..phle ki trh na to meri trf
dekhta tha,or na meri choti choti hrkte,bate note krta..
page 16
M smjh gyi ki kya hua h use…uska dil bhr gya tha mujhse..m bevkuf
thi ki use apna sb kuch man ke sb kuch de bethi,,socha ki bahut pyar
krta h gorv mujhe,or bhi krne lg jayega..pr esa hua nahi…m roti to
bhi chupkr roti..kyuki didi ko btana nahi chahti thi..
dhire dhire gorv gli me ana hi bnd ho gya..vikrm ata pr akela..
ek din mndir me vikrm mila to m puchne lgi..gorv ke bare me..to vikrm
khne lga….
page 17
Gorv dusre shr chla gya h pdhne ke liye..ab km hi ata h yaha,or aata
bhi h to is gli me nahi ata..
m khta hu ki chl yar payl tujhe dekh legi..
pr use koi frk nahi pdta ki use kon dekhna chahta h..
vo nahi ana chahta payal…bhul ja use..
vikrm ki ye bat bahut tklif de gyi mujhe…pr jan gyi  thi ki vikrm
sahi bol rha h mujhe…
page 18
ab gorv nahi milta mujhe..pr m bhul nahi payi hu use..ye nahi ki vo
pyar nahi krta tha mujhe..pr m bahut pyar krti thi use…
vo isliye chor gya ki m use wqt nahi de pati thi,,m uske sath bar bar
us room me nahi jati thi..ya use mujhse behtr koi mil gys..m nahi
janti..
pr itna janti hu ki pyar krna sbko nahi ata..apni didi or vikrm ko
dekhti hu to khush hoti hu ki wakai pyar krte h dono..
page 19
mene kya nahi kiya gorv ka pyar pane ke liye..ho skta h ki agr vo
mujhe yakiin dilata to m jindgi uske sath guzar leti,ho skta h kismt
me kuch likha hota ki hm kese milenge hmesa ke liye..
pr hua kuch nahi..
m lela bnna chahti thi pr mjnu phle ho muh mod gya…
kya krti…ab koi tlash nahi h..jo kismt me hoga vo hi mere hmsfr
bnega..jo mujhse bde tay krenge..
or ha..mujhse behtr tay krenge..janti hu…
page 20
pr drd to hota hi h andr..ki chor gya mujhe,.sayd m isi layk thi..ab
jb bhi akeli hoti hu to dairy likhne beth jati hu..apne dil ka sb kuch
kh deti hu..or ye dairy mujhe kabhi chor kr nahi jati..pr bhulti nahi
m,meri glti,ya gunah,ya muhbbt,bs yahi h….
ab kosti nahi m gorv ko..kyuki janti hu..mene usse pyar kiya tha..usne
mujhse nahi….

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