A TRAGIC JOURNEY OF My Heart – South ALTAF

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In a beautiful kashmir there lived a beautiful girl named siya.She is only 20 years old.Everyday she went to duty and came back home.She always sat at her cellphone and chatting with people.Her days went really boring.Her mom and papa also worked in government department.She was on only child at home because her other brother and sister remains outside from home for their education.So that no one had time for her.She watching TV and chatting with people.She felt really lonely.Her days went boring doing the same thing all the time.

One evening I was astonished after getting messages from siya on my Facebook account she accepted my friend request and the message said,hi,I just love you so much after all those years I couldn’t tell u I don’t why I felt really happy.But I didn’t know why I thought to myself,is she just joking or what? and then I wrote a message back to her saying.Are you really saying this or you are just joking? please tell me the truth.The girl didn’t reply right back, because she was not online at that very time.But I waited and waited.Next day after my work I saw an unread message it was from siya .No why would I lie? Believe me I really do love you.And I want to marry with you,My face turned into red.Because I was really happy as something might change in my life after all I looked at siya’s picture and I was liked her not her beauty but her beautiful thoughts .In every time I was thinking about siya’s all the time siya was telling me I want to meet you after few days.But those days not come true.Behind it there was her fake promises and she use me for all this as her pretends.I thought I could see her in coming days.Eight years passed we couldn’t meet with each other.Im really falling in love with siya.And it seemed like siya is really in love with me also we were really sweet to each other.I stopped my study because siya took all my time and I was happy too.

One day after I get back from higher secondary, because professionally I was working as contractual lecturer in chemistry.i saw some different activities of siya.Her phone   number seen in waiting and she was not interested towards my messages.After the few days she sent me an inbox message,a message was “Forget me I could not Live with you,as I m in love with my Ex boyfriend”.I love him ,he is my life. I was really crazy I wrote to her .who that boy is but she didn’t reply suddenly,I feel disgusting.My eyes starts tears I couldn’t stop my tears,and I thought everything is over between siya and me.

After few months I received a call it was siya . She said wow ! I was just joking, I have a boyfriend and his name is…..ilove him so much. I had a really great time laughing about how stupid you are. I felt angry and sad ,my eyes starts crying again.And it seemed I will sad for ever. I didn’t let anybody in my room.Because I was feeling lonely.All the time not for this siya doesn’t love me.But for her cheating with me, behind this the only reason was using me for achieving her exboy friend.Im too disappointing.I hated everybody and I was just lonely.she all doing this for the last eight years.In every time ,

when she communicates with me for one week,or few days, after that her words are forget about me,I’m sorry.behind it she calls me only for this her exboyfriend jealousy and he will come close to her.when they close to each other she said all these words,I’m sorry, forget about me,I feel guilty.She used me for her goal every time.But still i love her.I honoured her ,and i cant forget siya,in eight years my heart goes pieces in every time.

The beauty of my love, lost
Its prime,
She left for some unknown .
But I’m now all alone ,
Feeling the aches of her absence .
I lost my pateince ,
Its because of her goodness .
That I’m lost in wilderness ,
Tearss are trickling down my eyes .
Oh! I am in search of that Noble prize ,
Though she threw me out of her heart .
Yet she is the theme of my art.

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Once again my life line my dream girl come back in my life in last year Oct 2019  that was a nice evening for me .I was I friends home my phone ring up loudly I saw an unknown no was calling me .I PIC up the call when I heard hello I was excited and feeling too much happy after simple greeting to know about each others I said him I will call u back after reached home .but unfortunately due to lack of balance in my phone I was anxious to talk with him. finally she called me and talking stats to know every thing which was happened for that long spell of time.finally we told each other about the engagement both sides was free and agree to hold each others hand for life time. but it was some thing difficult for me to make trust on him.because she had not Left any stone unturned to hurt me with full of cruelty .but it was the mercy of her little sis my breath if she needs anything from me I will not refuse because she is my sis and I will give him last drop of blood. she is highly qualified and good thoughtful girl .on her assurance I make my new journey with my munu g my sole.we were lived happy and loveable life with full of trust.we shear every thing related to ownslef and own families. but munu g was some thing in doubt because she was thinking own doings as she had done in past.her theart was tit for tat may he can do with me as I have.she forced me to make my talk with own family members as I do .now both sister’s have given their introduction with my family members. and munu g also introduced me with her colleagues life was happy. after sum days these sister s said parents need munu g marriage u should tell about it in ur family I told my whole family they give me assurance where ever u want u can do with an emotional feelings. and from munu g side  there my friend his is working in sukst shalimar as an profasar  I also told him about it that a girl from ur side I want to marry with him.plz do this for me he also give ma assurance if u want I will talk with her father about it. but munu refuses. now every one is well known about us.but day b day I was feeling there will happening wrong my heart was un satisfied .I was feeling some thing restless when ever I approached to munu about my restless she was telling may be ur going to be engaged from my side every thing is fine.finally a night that was good for munu but unfortunate for south ALTAF .I think I was normally talking but munu said ur tone is not good it hurts me.I can’t live with u.in next morning I was planing to go for picnic with my friends I beg permission from munu I want to go on picnic with my friends would I go.she said go with blessings of Allah. in full day she can’t call me. befor munu her lovely and trust worthy sis blocked me on whatsaap i thought now nothing is posiable now .it was her sis who makes our relationship strong and it is she who breaks our relationship i was not expected this is she can do this.my sis i am i pain un beariable pain .in that evening she said I have told my parents about my marriage where ever u want u could I was in shock. I said him how could u do this.she replayed I told it in angry mod and muma has took it easy don’t worry nothing will b happen.after that she used to make gape day to day.finally she said live ur life happily our marriage is impossible. after it I crayed loudly my whole family members have came in front of my Rome’s door and knocked what happen open the door.after opening the door they said what happen I told them I was crying for job.but my dii was felt that maybe there is the problem between them.she said is munu calling u.I said yes we r fine.but she said I want to talk with him. I told munu plz call the dii save my image. but munu was busy with her new partner .she refused my all request finally I beg u munu plz call the dii then she call her.but still my family members looking me as a theave .whenever they feel my mod is not good they realize that some thing’ is wrong .

our communication is now cut .as we was on call every time.  I was not able to say munu can I drop my phone I have a work ,because I was not make munu hurt .I higher him I respect him as like President. I was just like her mom when she slept perfectly after that I was sleeping and during sleeping if she calls me I was weak up as soon as possible to give him company. if munu could tell me u have to Wake up me in early. if was in deep sleep I was call him on right time.because I was love her. but once again she fell me from sky to on earth.I don’t know what is my guilty. she was deceiver she is deceiver as well as my breath my lil sis.now I am in pain .u r happy how u feel now u r brave clever .this is not fear I told u my lil sis is this fear .was I deserve all this.I am in shock I am crying for what .what is my sin.why u have play with me my feelings. it is the game of more than 13  years game as she played with me with new player her highly qualified sister.
now once again I would like to explain my pain full love story in few stanza s.
the beauty of my love last its prime
she left for some unknown .
but I am now all alone.
feeling the aches of her absence.
I last my patience.
it is because of her goodness.
that I am lost in wilderness.
tears are trickling down in my eyes.
oh I am in search of that noble prize.
though she threw me out of her heart.
yet she is the theme of my art.