Hello friends, aap mein se kuchh ne mujhe notice kiya hoga ulte pulte comments karte hue :P… mera naam badla hua hai kyuki mai anonymous rahna chahti hu, yahan mai Rupali ke naam se hu aur mai New Delhi ki hu(Orignal hai, isko maine change nahi kiya h :P), meri story bahut lambi aur lengthy hai, shuruat mein thik thak hai par end tak jakar complicated ho jaati hai, apko shayad mere decisions par gussa aaye aap mujhe immature kahoge, selfish kahoge… I accept it because this is what I am… and I hate it too… To agar aap isey puri parhne ki soch rahe ho toh please mujhe maaf karna apko bore karne ke saath gussa dilaane ke liye. Agar yeh story puri post nahi hui toh mai baaki comment section mein post kar dungi.
Main usse 11th class mein pahli baar mili thi, isse pahle mere 3-4 crushes the aur ladko par jaise har ladki ke hote hai temporary waale… serious nahi…. umm similar to celebrity crush, bas koi dur se hi achcha lagta hai, par bhaiya tu dur hi rah!!! type… isliye maine kabhi is baare mein apne friends se bhi discuss nahi kiya… kyuki mujhe in sab chizon ke baare mein unse baat karna ajib lagta tha… mai ladko se bhi bahut kam hi baat karti thi aur ab bhi mai aisi hi hu… agar koi zabardasti hi chepne ki koshish karta to mai usko jata deti ki mujhe space chahiye aur mujhe yeh sab pasand nahi… thoda sa meri personality mein feminism bhi included hai… isliye kai ladke mujhse chidte bhi the… pahle mai bahut feminist thi ab nahi hu so it is okay now… 🙂 Mere friend bahut mazakiya the… hamesha hanste rahte… humare group mein 8 ladkiya thi par mai sirf 2 ke sabse close thi… Saumya aur Smriti hum primary school se saath hai ek aur ke saath close thi mai uska naam Neha tha par usne commerce liya hua tha aur mai usko 8 class se janti thi…hamare class ke ladke bhi aise hi namune the ulti-pulti harkat karke hasane waale… mai bhi bahut hasmukh thi us samay… but ab meri personality thodi serious aur introvert ho gayi hai. Haan halaaki yeh sach hai mai yahan par pagalpantiayon waale comments karti hu, par real life mein mai itna nahi bolti jitna yahan aakar bolti hu.
Main ek aisi family se belong karti hu jisme gf bf ya ishq type ki chiz ko bahut kharab maana jaata hai, aur sirf shaadi karne mein believe kiya jaata hai woh bhi 25 ke baad jab apki studies complete ho gayi ho, aur agar aap kuchh ban gaye ho to aur bhi achha hai. Meri family to aisi hi hai aur us samay mai bhi khud aisi hi thi… pyar vyar jaisi fizool aur bewakoofi bhari chizon mien nahi padna chahti thi… Isliye apne close friends jinko ladko se baat karne ka bahut shauk tha(ha mai smriti aur saumya ki baat kar rahi hu) unke beech mai outcast ki tarah rah jaati thi aur mujhe irritation hoti thi jab woh aisi ladko ke baare mein baate karte the isliye during teenage mai Neha ke close aane lagi thi 8th class mein but woh bhi 10th ke baad unke jaisi ho gayi 😛 Par kya karu saalon ki dosti thi… Isliye jab woh ladko ke baare mien discuss karte to mai unse dur jakar kuchh aur karne lagti ya dusri ladkiyon se baat karne lagti…
Saath hi mai kuchh family problems or Parents ki job ki wajah se birth ke baad se hi apne mom dad ke saath na rahkar hamesha nana nani ke saath rahi hu mere nani aur 2 masiyan mere real mom ki tarah hai… aur Nana dad ki taraha… mera 3 saal chota bhai mom dad ke saath hi rahta hai.
To guys back to the story… Jab mai usse mili thi(Rohit) tab bhi mera temporary crush kisi aur par tha jiska naam Devendra tha… woh young, black and white time ke dharmendra jaisa dikhta tha(mujhe purane gaane pasand hai aur mai tv mein kuchh nahi bas raat ko gaane chala kar chod deti hu :D) bahut cute… mujhe uski smile badi pyari lagti thi… par mujhe pata tha, kuchh mahinon mein yeh attraction mit jayegi… aur kisi aur par aa jayegi… Rohit aur main same school mein primary se hi the par fir bhi maine usey pahle kabhi nahi dekha tha mai ladko ki oor bhi kam hi dekha karti thi shayad isliye maine usey nahi dekha aur waise bhi itne bade school mein har kisi ko to nahi pahchan sakti na mai… 😛 …
Boards ke baad yaani 11th mein woh aur mai ek section mein aa gaye the… Shuruat ke 2 months mein bhi maine usko notice nahi kiya tha meri tabiyat bhi us saal thik nahi thi to mai absent rahti thi jab bhi aati tab bahut kam ladko ko aur saath saath Devendra ko hi notice karti thi…
1st term ke exam ke din jab mai aur meri friend saumya apni seat mein baithkar revision kar rahe the to ek ladka aunty! aunty! kahkar chillane par laga hua tha, saumya ne kaha woh hame aisa kah raha hai, mujhe waise hi ladko ke in “dramon” mein include hone ki adat nahi thi, maine saumya se kaha ignore him….
Kuchh derr baad Saumya apne seat mein chali gayi aur kuchh seconds mein, ek ladka mere paas seat ke bilkul samne aakar khada ho gaya aur mujhe peechhe ki seat mein jaane ke liye politely request karne laga… uski personality achhi thi aur mujhe aise ladko ke samne aur bhi uncomfortable feeling hoti hai… to mai bina kuchh kahe aur uski or dekhe peechhe shift ho gayi. Mujhe pata chala ki woh Rohit tha aur woh bhi ek number ka namuna tha… jo teachers ko question karta, mazak karta aur hasta rahta tha… Par mere liye bas woh another classmate tha to mujhe us samay kuchh feel nahi hua.
Exam khatam hone ke baad sports period tha, mai apne friends ke saath tennis court ki oor jaa rahi thi aur basket ball court wahi par tha, achanak ek ball dhaad!!! akar mere sir par lagi… woh ball galti se Rohit ne mujhe khelte khelte maardi thi, mere saath mere class ki ek ladki bhi ja rahi thi, usne usko daata aur kaha ki sorry bol isey. Par Rohit ne sorry bolne ke bajaye chidkar usko ulta jawab diya ki usko nahi lagi hogi ball mein zyada hawa nahi hai. Mai situation ignore karte hue waha se chali gayi.
Next day geography ka exam tha, aur mai apne answer sheet mein apna name, class, roll no etc, fill karne mein busy thi, aur Rohit mere aage baitha hua tha usne mujhe attendence slip dene ke liye apna haath pura ghumakar dena chaha jo mere chahre par chaate ki tarah dhaad se laga… aur mai kuchh seconds ke liye chauk padi ki yeh ladka akhir kar kya raha hai? Rohit is baar darr gaya aur mujhe baar baar sorry bolne laga. Woh is tarah se baar baar sorry kah raha tha ki mera gussa hansi mein badal gaya. Par woh us din baar baar anwers puchhkar mujhe disturb kar raha tha jisse mujhe usse irritation ho rahi thi.
Exam jab khatam hua to mai lunch break mein apni friend Saumya ke saath chit chat kar rahi thi, jisme mujhe pata chala ki woh “aunty aunty” bhi Rohit hi chilla raha tha… Usi samay Achanak fir se Rohit aaya aur usne mujhe ek copy di aur kaha isme koi bhi 10 number likh do. Saumya peechhe se phusphusai ki yeh log truth and dare khel rahe hai. Maine is time uncomfortable feel nahi kiya maine usse copy li aur 1234 aise hi ulte pulte number likhke usey wapis pakda diya.
Saumya yeh sab dekhkar mujhe Rohit ke naam se tease karne lagi. Jisse mujhe chidan machi aur maine kaha ki mai aur aise bandar ko like karungi… aisa kabhi nahi ho sakta! Aur us samay mera devendra par jo crush tha, bas uski ek jhalak se mere chehre par smile aa jaati thi. 🙂
Mujhe apne bhai se pata chala ki Rohit mom-dad waale ghar ke paas hi rahta hai aur mera bhai usko janta hai aur mere bhai ko woh as a friend achha ladka lagta tha(mera bhai mujhse opposite bahut frank hai aur kisi bhi age ke logo ke saath ghul mil jaata hai). Aur mai aur mera bhai ek dusre ko school ki saari baate share karte the aur mera bhai Rohit ko ja ja kar uske kiye harkaton par question karta rahta tha aur is tarah Rohit ko pata chal gaya ki woh mera bhai hai. Mera bhai jab bhi mujhse milne aata woh Rohit ke baare mein bhi batata.
Aur Saumya ke baare mein to mai kya batau?… mera dhyan Rohit ki or jaata bhi nahi tha par zabardasti mera dhyan uski or le jaati, usko dekhkar mujhe ajib ajib se expressions deti aur uska naam mere naam se jodti, mazak karti rahti, aur mujhe gussa aa jaata to aur hansne lagti aur koi mauka nahi chodti mujhe uske naam se tease karne ka.
Aur woh Rohit maine uski madad kya kardi cheating karne mein, usey pata chal gaya tha ki mujhe ladko se baat karna pasand nahi mai uncomfortable feel karti hu to jab bhi woh dekhta ki class mein koi ladka mujhse interfere karne ki koshish kar raha hota to usko puri class ke samne chup kara deta yeh kahkar ki main ek achchi ladki hu aur mujhe woh tang naa kare… Aur aise karne par Saumya ko aur maze aa jaate woh mujhe aise look deti jisse mujhe pata chal jaata ki yeh fir Rohit ke liye shuru ho gayi hai.
Half yearly shuru hone waale the tab achanak se mujhe feel hone laga ki mai Devendra ki bajaye Rohit se attract hone lagi hu… Par yeh feeling mere pahle ke crushes se alag thi aur thodi zyada strong thi. Mujhe Rohit ko dekhne ka mann nahi karta tha kyuki mai andar se bahut zyda nervous feel karti thi… par woh na dikhe to thoda sa dukhi bhi feel karti thi.
Exam shuru hone ke kuchh din pahle mujhe viral ho gaya tha aur mujhse kuchh bhi nahi parha gaya aur mai test dene baith gayi jabki mujhe dizzy feel ho raha tha… us din geography ka hi test tha, jisme Rohit sabse zyada cheating karta tha aur mujhe disturb karta rahta tha, par shayad usey bhi pata chal gaya tha ki meri halat kharab hai, ya shayad woh parhkar aaya tha? maine 25 mein se sirf 4 questions ke answer likhe aur mujhe nind aa gayi aur mai apne desk mein head down karke so gayi.
Honestly main Rohit ko like nahi karna chahti thi isliye maine us samay apne mann mein accept nahi kiya ki main usey like karti hu. Saumya baar baar mujhe chidati rahti uske naam se par main hamesha taal deti ki main aise ladke se kabhi attract nahi ho sakti. Mai Rohit ko bandar kahti thi. 😛 😀 Waise uska look “Nothing gonna change my love for you- glenn mederios” ke video mein jo ladka gaana ga raha hai ditto waisa hi hai. Yeh thoda purana gaana hai par jaise ki maine bataya ki mujhe purane gaane pasand hain. 🙂
12th class mein bhi yahi haal tha… ajib baat yeh thi ki jab bhi mai apne crushes se dur hoti thi to woh is duniya mein exist bhi karte ha…, mujhe yaad nahi rahta tha….. Lekin Rohit ke mamle mein 2 din ki ho, 10 din ki ho, ya 2 mahino ki chhuttiyan ho, jaise yeh ladka Rohit mere dimag se chipak gaya ho… mai hamesha uske baare mein sochti rahti…. Par yeh accept nahi karna chahti thi ki “I really like him”.
Woh ladka Rohit mere baithne ke liye seat chhod diya karta tha, darwaza khol diya karta tha… mujhe aisa treat karta tha, jaisa mai nahi chahti thi ki woh mujhe treat kare… kyuki yeh chhoti chhoti chize mujhe uski oor aur zyada khichti thi.
Hamare class ka monitor Ayush Jo ki Rohit ka bhi dost tha pata nahi kyu baar baar mujhse baat karne ki koshish karta rahta, mazak karta rahta aur woh tha bhi thoda flirt type… aur ek baar to usne mujhe yeh bhi kah daala tha ki “mujhe koi problem nahi hogi agar tum meri girlfriend ban jao to”, par mera dil to Rohit ke paas tha upar se mai apni family ke baare mein hi sabse pahle sochti thi… to maine usko bhai kahkar uski ummidon mein paani pher diya tha… par uske baad mujhe usne jhaad bhi achchi khaasi lagai thi aisa karne ke liye. 😛 Waise woh har dusri ladki ko apni gf banne ke liye kahta hai, usne Smriti ko bhi kaha tha aisa, to its okay ap uske liye bura mat manaiye. Usko bhi Rohit ne mere liye 2-3 baar chup karaya tha.
Hamare finals yaani ki board ke practicals chal rahe the… Is samay maine accept kar liya ki mai usko like karti hu aur maine is baare mein Saumya ko bataya, aur woh to is tarah se khush ho rahi thi jaise ki pata nahi koi badi hi proud hone waali chiz hui ho mere saath…
geography ke viva ke samay 4 bachcho ka ek saath viva liya ja raha tha… Alphabatically Nishu(woh rohit ki hi friend thi), Rohit mujhe aur saumya ko jaana tha.. jab hum Room mein gaye to waha sirf 2 seats thi, hum mein se koi nahi baitha… Rohit achanak se bola, “Rupali, ap baitho na..” aur maine Saumya ko apne sath baithne ko kaha…. Jab hum viva dekar room se bahar aaye to Saumya fir shuru ho gayi “Nishu aur Mai to they hi nahi wahan par sirf tum thi, isliye to tumko hi sirf baithne ko kaha!” mujhe uski baato par hasi aa gayi. Maine Smriti ko bhi sab kuchh bata diya… actually smriti aur mai 3rd class se ek saath the aur saumya aur mai 4th se, Smriti bhi pata nahi kyu sab jankar bahut khush hui jaise ki pata nahi kya baat hai, shayad is liye kyuki in dono ko mujhse aisi ummid nahi thi… usne Ayush se friendship karli jo ki Rohit ka friend tha… aur Rohit se bhi interact karne lagi thi.
Waise maine kah rakha tha apne friends se ki meri family mein yeh sab achcha nahi mana jaata isliye mai Rohit ko kabhi propose karne ke baare mein soch bhi nahi sakti thi… mai nahi chahti ki woh bhi mujhe like kare kyuki main usko date nahi kar sakti. Aur main Rohit ko hurt nahi karna chahti hu, na hi apni family ko.
Par yeh sach tha ki mai is baat se bhi khush nahi thi ki boards ke baad main Rohit ko kabhi nahi dekh paungi. Par jisko aap paa nahi sakte usko better hai bhul jaana… nahi? Aur kisiki ummiden barhane se achcha hai pyar ka izhar hi mat karo aur apne feelings ko hamesha kill karne ki koshish karo… bajaye ki usko aur dusron ko hurt karne ke… aur zaruri thodi naa hai ki apko hamesha woh mile jo aap chahte ho?
Mai pahle apne crushes ko chhupati thi… par Rohit ke baare mein pure time mujhe baate karna achha lagne laga tha… Boards shuru ho gaye the… parhai karne ke baad sone se pahle kuchh derr mai apne friends se text ke through baate kar liya karti thi… Smriti se sabse zyada baat hoti thi…
Ek din Smriti ne bataya ki hamare class ke monitor ne bataya ki Rohit kisi aur ladki ko like karta hai. Mera dil jaise shrink ho gaya ho aisa laga… maine kaha ki its okay… mai chahti hu woh jiske saath rahe khush rahe… Aur Smriti ko good night kahkar mai sone chali gayi.
Next night… mai fir Smriti se baat kar rahi thi tab usne bataya ki woh ladki(Shilpa) Science stream mein hai, aur Rohit aur woh 8th class se friends hai… aur yeh bhi bataya ki us ladki ne Rohit ko 2 months pahle reject kar diya tha aur Rohit bahut hurt hua tha us rejection se. Mai yeh sunkar Rohit ke liye bura laga. Mai sincerely wish kar rahi thi ki usey koi aur achchi ladki mile aur woh Shilpa ko bhul jaaye.
Hamare hindi ka exam tha… hum apne center ke bahar khade hokar revision kar rahe the… Hamare school mein, science stream mein maths aur hindi mein choice thi… Shilpa ne bhi Hindi le rakhi thi. Woh hindi ke subject ke liye hamare class mein aati thi par fir bhi maine kabhi usko notice nahi kiya tha…
Hum poets ke naam revise kar rahe the… maine kisi poem ke poet ka naam puchha… achanak se ek ladki hamare group ghusi…aur usne mera answer diya aur meri or dekhkar smile karne lagi… mai usey janti nahi thi… to maine bhi smile pass back kar diya… woh gayi to Saumya mere kaan ke paas akar kahne lagi… Ki yahi ladki Shilpa hai jiske baare mein Smriti bata rahi thi… “yahi woh ladki hai jisko Rohit like karta hai”
Kuchh din baad hamare boards khatam ho gaye… uske baad chhuttiyon mein maine apna first Facebook profile sign up kiya… Smriti waha pahle se hi thi… maine usko invite bhej diya… usne Ayush aur Rohit ko mera naam suggest kiya… aur un dono ne mujhe invitation bhej diya… Ayush ne mujhse chat karne ki koshish ki par jaise ki mera nature hai ladko ko dur karne waala… main usse rukhey way mein pesh aayi aur usne mujhse dubara baat nahi ki. Baad mein mujhe rude feel hua to maine usko message kiya tha par is baar woh mujhse aise baat kar raha tha.
Rohit ne 2 din baad mujhe message kiya… mai uska message expect nahi kar rahi thi… kyuki humne kabhi properly baat ki hi nahi thi school mein… Ayush to fir bhi samay samay par mujhse baat karne ki koshish karta rahta tha, to mai us samay nervous ho gayi thi… maine usko “Hi” kaha par mujhe ab tak yaad hai ki… meri dhadkane itne zoron se dhadak rahi thi ki jaise mujhe heart attack aane waala ho!!!… 😛 bas usne puchha ki mai ajkal chhuttiyon mein kya kar rahi hu?… maine thoda sa jawab diya aur fir maine jhuta bahana bana diya, ki nani mujhe khaana khaane ko bula rahe hai aur log out karke bhaag gayi.
Fir mujhe dubar rude, embarrassment aur guilt ki feeling hone lagi ki mai aise achanak bhaag gayi….woh kya soch raha hoga ki mai kitni ajib si hu? wagarah! wagarah! khayal aane lage mere dimag mein.
Maine socha next time mai usko message karungi… Par woh 2-3 din tak online nahi aaya uske baad… jab woh online aaya tab maine apni nervousness ko control mein rakhkar usko message kar diya… aur hamari conversation bahut fluent gayi… mai bekar mein itna darr rahi thi usse baat karne se… 😀
Meri aadat thi ki mai kabhi bhi “tu” karke baat nahi karti thi, “ap” ya “tum” hi karti thi. Rohit se bhi mai “aap” karke baat karti thi…
Next time Rohit ne hi message kiya mujhe, aur ham roz baat karne lage… usne bataya ki usko “Aap” “Aap” karne ki aadat ho gayi hai aur uske friends ko uska yeh behaviour ajib lag raha hai… mujhe hansi aa gayi yeh sunkar. Usne mujhe apni family ke baare mein bataya, uski 2 sis hai ek chhoti ek badi, ek cousin bhi tha jo 8 saal ka tha meri hi tarah woh apne parents ke saath na rahkar apne tau(Rohit ke papa) ki family ke saath rahta tha. Hum ek mahine mein close friends ban gaye the… itne jaldi ki ab sochu to mujhko hairat hoti hai… Woh kaafi achcha ladka tha…
Hum dheere dheer bahut baate karne lage the aur ek din Rohit ne mujhse Shilpa ke baare mein bhi discuss kiya… usney bataya ki woh kitna hurt hua tha jab usne usko reject kiya… woh rota nahi hai kabhi par us din woh roya tha… usne bataya ki us dusre ladke ne apni puri class ke saamne aur usi ki aankhon ke saamne Shilpa ka haath pakadkar usko propose kiya tha… Aur Shilpa ne haa kah diya… Par Rohit ke samne usne kaha ki “usey laga ki woh uska haath nahi chodega isliye majburi mein usne haa kahi”(honestly mujhe Shilpa ka yeh haa karne waala logic samajh nahi aaya)… Rohit ne yeh bhi bataya ki woh us ladke ke saath haath mein haath dalkar ghar gayi thi….
Yeh bhi bataya ki ek baar 8th class mein truth and dare khelte wakt jab usko puchha gaya tha ki woh kya kisi ladke ko like karti hai to usne “Rohit” ka naam liya tha…
Maine Rohit ko comfort kiya aur usko bhulne ko kaha… maine kaha ki woh isse better ladki deserve karta hai…
Aise hi baaton baaton mein usney mujhse puchha ki “Is there any guy You like?” maine directly kaha “nahi! mujhe yeh sab chize ‘BEWAKUFIYAN’ lagti hai!” par Rohit meri taang khichne laga aur bola ki “aisa nahi ho sakta… koi to hoga?” maine kaha ki sachme koi nahi hai!
Usne kaha “Sachi mein koi nahi hai?”
Aur bahut derr tak woh mujhko aise hi questions puchhta raha… aur ek baar to mujhko shakk hua ki yeh mere peechhe yeh waala question lekar peechhe kyu pada hua hai? Kahi Smriti ne to nahi isey kuchh bata diya? Isliye maine Smriti se puchha to usne to kaha ki “mai aapki friend hu, mai aisa kaise kar sakti hu?”
Next day jab dubara Rohit se fb mein baat hui, to woh fir shuru ho gaya… aur fir mujhse aise question karne laga.
Maine tang aakar kaha “Okay mai accept karti hu ki mai bhi ek bewakuf hu, kyuki mai kisi ko like karti hu!” aur us samay bhi meri dhadkane barh gayi thi… Aur Rohit to khush hone waale smileys bhej bhej kar pareshan tha… Saumya aur Smriti ki tarah woh bhi bahut khush ho raha tha meri confession se…
jaise ki yeh bahut proud hone waali baat ho? 😛
Fir usne puchha kaun hai woh… Maine kaha mai nahi bata sakti.
USne puchha “hamare school ka hai?”
maine kaha”haan!”
usne puchha “hamare hi class mein hai?”
maine kaha “maine yeh nahi bata sakti.”
usne puchha “Kya mai usko jaanta hu?”
Maine kaha “mai yeh bhi nahi bata sakti…”
Usne kaha “its okay” aur fir smiley send karne laga… fir puchha “kya mai propose karne mein apki koi help kar sakta hu?”
Maine kaha “Mai usko propose nahi karna chahti”
Usne puchha “kyu”
Maine kaha “Mere upar family ki responsibilites hai to mai uske paas nahi jaa sakti… mai usko hurt nahi karna chahti aur na hi apni family ko hurt karna chahti hu.”
Usne kaha “okay, agar kabhi is mamle mein apko help chahiye hogi to mujhe bata dena.”
Rohit mujhko uksaa raha tha us ladke ke paas jaane ke liye jisko mai like karti hu, aur baar baar aise tease karne waale tricky questions kar raha tha ki pata chal raha tha ki woh janna chahta tha ki “woh ladka akhir kaun hai?”
Usne itne saare questions kiye the ki ek baar ke liye mujhe lagne laga ki mai usko sach bata du. Next day… maine usko kaha ki thik hai mai usko aj bata dungi ki woh ladka kaun hai…. woh jis tarah se baat kar raha tha usse woh bahut excited lag raha tha… par usko kahi jaana tha to usne kaha shaam ko batane ke liye…
Shaam ko usne aate hi us ladke ke baare mein puchha to maine kahna shuru kiya ki “Dekho Rohit main expect nahi karti ki woh ladka mujhko like back kare, mai apko reason bata chuki hu kyu.”,…
usne kaha ki “okay… kaun hai woh?”
Maine kaha “mai nahi chahti ki woh mujhe like kar ya mere paas aaye mujhe woh aise hi achha lagta hai…”
Rohit aur zyada curiosity dikhakar uske baare mein puchhne laga. Aur idhar keyboard par mere haath buri tarah kaamp rahe the… shayad dil ki dhadkane bhi tez hoegi but ungliyan hi sambhali nahi jaa rahi thi type karne ke liye… aur typing mein bhi bahut mistakes ho rahi thi.
Aise hi explanation dete dete maine end mein send kar hi diya “Woh, aap ho.”
kuchh seconds tak sannata chha gaya… usne mujhko message nahi kiya… to maine usse kaha “Mai apse kuchh expect nahi kar rahi balki agar aapko lagta hai ki mai galat kar rahi hu to aap mujhe block bhi kar sakte ho… Its okay I can understand mujhko bura nahi lagega…”
Uske baad uska message aaya.. “Nahi mai apko block nahi karunga, aur mai chahta hu ki hum hamesha aise hi friends bane rhe…”
Maine kaha, “thanks for understanding me!” Usne kaha “you are welcome”
Main janti thi uske aur mere beech ki current situation kuchh uncomfortable si ho gayi hai… toh maine hi pahle bolna start kiya… main usko mere friends ke saath hue funny incidents ke baare mein batane lagi…
Thodi derr mein usne mujhse mera phone no. maanga… toh maine usko de diya, usne apne no. se ek sad love quote send kiya. Aur woh fir roz aise hi sad love quotes mujhko send kiya karta… Itna sab kuchh hone ke baad bhi hum dono ab bhi achche friends the…
Mere masi ne mere phone mein ek din uska bheja hua love quote parh liya… unhe laga ki uske aur mere bich kuchh chal raha hai… maine batane ki koshish ki ki aisi koi baat nahi hai… par woh nahi maane aur mera phone le liya aur mere desktop se internet ka access hata diya.
Maine bhi accept kar liya unka decision, mujhe us samay zyada kuchh fark nahi pada Rohit se naa baat kar paane par… Uske kuchh din baad… mai college ke admission waale process mein busy ho gayi aur mujhe mera phone bhi wapis mil gaya… jisme Rohit ke kai messages aa rakhe the…
mai us din apne papa ke saath cut off list ke liye north campus gayi hui thi… jab wapis aayi tab papa mujhe apne ghar le gaye… aur mujhe pata tha ki Rohit yahi kahin rahta hai… Toh mujhe wahan pahuchkar uska khayal aane laga… shaam ko jab mai apne bhai ke saath ghar wapis laut rahi thi tab mere phone mein raste par Rohit ka message aaya “Kis college mein admission hua hai apka?”
Mai chauk aur chaaron or dekha…. yeh sochkar ki kya usne mujhko yaha dekh liya ki mai aai hui hu yahan? Par fir woh nahi dikha to maine message ignore kar diya aur ghar chali gayi.
Mera admission mere ghar ke hi paas ek girls college mein ho gaya tha… pahle hi din meri ek friend bhi waha ban gayi… par ek hafte ke andar andar pata nahi kyu par mai wahan par depressed feel karne lagi thi, Kisi tarah maine ek hafta nikal diya par, friday ke din shaam ko main 5 baje ghar lauti aur apne masi ke room mein jakar achanak se phut-phut kar rone lagi… mere masi mujhe aisa dekhkar bole “Beta, pyar vyar bekar ki chizey hoti hai, Rohit ko bhul jao!…”
Mujhe yeh sunkar bahut ajib sa laga aur mai thoda shaant hokar boli “Masi par mai uski wajah se nahi ro rahi! mai bhala kyu roungi uski wajah se? Aur maine pahle bhi kaha tha apko, ki uske aur mere bich aisa kuchh nahi hai!”
Masi bole “Aaj se pahle to is tarah se maine apko rotey hue kabhi nahi dekha, fir aur kya wajah ho sakti hai?”
Mai boli “Mujhe laga ki mai akelapan feel kar rahi hu, aur apne mujhko Rohit ki wajah se sabhi school ke friends ke saath bhi contact todne ko kah diya… Shayad is wajah se aisa ho raha hai…”
Yeh sunkar mere masi ne mujhko apne school ke friends se baat karne ke liye allow kar diya.
Par un friends se bhi baat karke mujhko thik feel nahi hua… aur mai din par din aur zyada depressed feel karne lagi thi… mai pahle rarely hi roti thi par ab zyada sensitive ho gayi thi aur baat baat ko dil se laga leti… jaise ki mujhe bass rone ka bahana chahiye?
Mujhe tab lagne laga ki kya yeh sach to nahi hai ki mera jo Rohit par jo crush tha woh pyar mein to nahi badal gaya hai?… Ki Mujhe pata naa chal paa raha ho par mai usko miss kar rahi hou?
Par yeh sab sahi nahi tha to maine apne dil ko manana chaaha ki aisa kuchh bhi nahi hai…
Ek raat ki baat hai mai apne new phone ko check kar rahi thi, tabhi Rohit ka message aaya “Hi”
Mujhe lag raha tha ki mai sahi nahi kar rahi par fir bhi maine reply kar diya “Hi!”
Usne mera haal-chaal puchha aur yeh bhi puchha ki mai kis college mein hu?
Fir usse bhi maine yahi puchha to usne bataya ki woh Dehradun chala gaya hai aur woh ab wahi parhega…
Sach batau to… us din mere dil ko ek ajib si khushi mili usse baat karke… bahut dino baad main khush thi… Usse baat karke mai alive feel kar rahi thi..
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Fir mai sone chali gayi aur mujhe laga ki woh mujhko dubara message nahi karega… aur us raat ki wajah se mera dusra din bhi acha gaya…
Par next Raat ko fir uska message aaya, aur humne yunhi normal baatien ki… fir daily raat ko uske messages aane lage the…
mai janti thi ki usse baat karke mai family ki nazaron mein kuchh galat kar rahi thi isliye mujhe guilt ki wajah se irritation hone lagi thi… mai uske saath thoda rukhi tarah se baat karne lagi jaise ki mai pahle aur ladko se karti thi jisse unko pata chal jaata tha ki mai unse baat nahi karna chahti. Par mere aisa karne par Rohit ko laga ki mai aur open ho rahi hu uske saath(waise waale friends jo ki itne frank aur close hai ki ek dusre ko buri baate kahne se nahi darte)…
-*/Ek raat pareshan hokar maine usko apni situation bata di ki mere masi ko lagta hai ki uske aur mere bich kuchh hai isliye unhone mujhse mera phone le liya tha aur fb mein jaana band karwa diya… Isliye mai usse ajkal is tarah se baat karne lagi thi kyuki mai chahti hu ki woh mujhko message naa kare…
Rohit ne yeh jankar kaha “Sorry yr meri wajah se apke saath aisa ho gaya…”
Maine us samay to Rohit se straight forwardly sab kah daala par agle hi minute aisi guilt ki feeling se dab gayi aur aisa laga iska bojh mujhe zameen mein gaad dalega. Mujhe laga ki mai bahut zyada rude hu… mai bhi usko sorry kahne lagi kyuki mujhe bhi uske saath aisa behave nahi karna chahiye tha.
Usne topic change kar diya aur fir hum kisi aur chiz ke baare mein baat karne lage…
Next day apni galti sudhaarne keliye maine decide kiya ki mai usko aj raat message karungi… aur maine aisa hi kiya aur humne fir baat ki… fir uske next day usne message kiya fir kya tha dubara roz baatien hone lagi. Hum dheere dheere din mein bhi baat karne lage
Janmashtami ke din woh delhi aaya, hum dono ne decide kiya tha ki mai apne mom dad ke ghar jaungi aur fir hum dono bhi milenge saath hi waha meri friend Neha bhi rahti thi maine socha usse bhi mil lungi. Mai waha zyada jaati nahi hu kyuki mom dad mujhe nana nani ke hi ghar milne aa jaate hai week mein 2 baar… to mujhe apne us ghar ka rasta yaad nahi tha to maine apne chhote bhai ko bulaya, par woh nahi paya us din mujhe lene aur main nahi jaa paai….Saara plan kharab…
Rohit ne isse pahle mujhko kabhi itna gussa nahi kiya tha jitna ki us din kiya… uske messages karne ke dhang se mujhe pata chal gaya tha ki woh bahut upset hai… mai usey manane lagi toh woh bola ki maine uska mood puri tarah se kharab kar diya hai…
Par mai kya kar sakti thi?
Thodi derr baad uska message aaya “I Love You!”….
Mai us samay apne bed mein baithi hui thi aur sach mein aisa laga ki mere legs mein blood ka flow ruk gaya hai aur woh sunn ho gaye hai… mai thodi ghabra gai thi uske aisa kahne parr…
Maine kaha ki “are you kidding me?”
Rohit ne kaha “Yes! I was just kidding!” aur hansane waale smilies send kiye…
Yeh first time tha ki usne mujhse aise baat kahi thi, warna woh hamesha apni limit mein decency se rahta tha… mujhe aur uski yahi decency achhi lagti thi… isliye maine usko jata diya ki mujhe uska yeh mazak pasand nahi aaya.. aur mujhko usse yeh ummid nahi thi… usne kaha ki woh apni female friends se aise hi mazak karta rahta hai agar mujhko pasand nahi aaya toh woh aisa nahi karega. Maine mazak mazak mein puchha ki usne ajtak kitni ladkiyon ko I love you kaha hai? To woh bola mujhe milakar 8 ho chuki hai ab tak…
Uske baad maine usko mana kiya aisa mazak karne ke liye aur woh maan gaya….
Humara milna nahi ho paaya aur woh dubara dehradun chala gaya, aur waha pahuch kar bhi usne baat ki.
Mai kabhi kabhi ghar riksha karke aati thi to kabhi paidal aati thi ek din ki baat hai mai rikshe se ghar aa rahi thi, ki woh riksha palata gaya aur mai gir gayi… maine Rohit ko message ki mera accident ho gaya, woh apni clas mein tha to message nahi kar raha tha par jaise hi maine yeh message kiya uska reply aaya ki “kya? Are you all right” maine usko sab bataya aur bola kuchh nahi mere haath pair mein thode scratches aa gaye hai par kuchh bhi serious nahi hai aisa… usne kaha ki “ki yaar tu paidal aaya kar ghar… paas hi mein hai par riksha use mat karna…”
Uske aisa kahne par main paidal hi ghar aane lagi thi… par mere saath bhi tragedy of errors hotey hai…. Ek din mai aise hi ghar aa rahi thi tab ek galat lane mein aa rahi bike mere ek din purana yaani ki naye bag se takrai aur mera bag phatt gaya, mai jab ghar pahuchi toh maine usko is baare mein bataya to ab woh kahne laga ki “Tu rikshe mein hi aaya kar”…
Usi din aise hi baato baaton mein maine kaha ki “hum ek dusre ko message karte rahte hai par hamari kabhi phone mein baat nahi hui”… Ispar uska achanak call aa gaya… main bhaag kar chhat mein gayi aur phone uthaya…
To usne “hello” bola… Maine kaha main to aise kah rahi thi, maine phone karne ko thodi naa kaha tha…”… usne kaha “mujhe laga ki tu mujhse baat karna chahti hai”
mai boli “nahi mera woh matlab nahi tha. Lekin koi baat nahi” aur mai thoda hansi aur humne ek dusre ko bye kaha…
Uski awaz maine kai baar school mein suni thi aur kai baar meri dhadkane barh jaati thi… is baar aisa laga ki jaise mere dil mein koi musical taar lagi hai, jis mein uski awaz ne chhukar usko baja diya ho… uski awaz bahut achhi hai!
Maine khush thi uski awaaz sunkar… usko yahi message kiya maine ki “Teri awaaz bahut achhi hai”…. Rohit ki aadat thi ki usko compliment do to usko thodi sharm aati thi aur woh compliment accept karne mein jhijhagta tha. Usne bhi jib nikalte hue emoticons bhejkar kaha “Aise kaise ho sakta hai?”
2-3 din baad ek raat ko uska message aaya aur us raat usne bataya ki uska accident ho gaya hai… uski bike ko kisi drink and drive karte hue admi ne hit kar diya aur uska leg fracture ho gaya hai… Yeh jankar meri halat kharab ho gayi… ek to Rohit ki family delhi mein hai aur woh waha par akela… koi bhi nahi uski dekhbhal karne waala, maine usko kaha ki uske mom dad kab tak aayenge usko dekhne?
Rohit ne kaha ki usne apne parents ko is baare mein nahi bataya hai faltu mein chinta karenge aur yahan aa jayenge, saath hi chances yeh hain ki usko dubara delhi le jaaye aur woh Dehradun mein hi bahut khush hai.
Maine usko samjhaane ki koshish ki ki woh apne parents ko bata de par woh nahi maana. Aur jab bhi dard hota to mujhko batata ki usko dard ho raha hai… aur yahan mera dil doob raha tha uski taklif sun sun kar… mai wish karne lagi thi ki kaash mai uske paas jakar uska khayal rakh sakti..
Thank goodness ki kuchh din mein uski mom waha pahuch gayi aur usne bataya usko aisi halat mein dekhkar usko daat bhi padi jise jankar mujhe bahut khushi hui kyuki itni taklif apne aap ko pahuchane ke baad woh deserve karta tha aur saath mein mujhe bhi itna mentally torture kiya tha usney… Uski mom ne usey wapis delhi mein laane ka faisla kiya aur Rohit wapis delhi aa gaya. Usne ek college mein late admission le liya. Aur yahi rahne laga.
7th September 2011…
Kuchh din baad mera birthday aane waala tha… mere birthday ke 2-3 din pahle Rohit ne mujhse kaha ki woh mujhse kuchh chahta hai, maine puchha to woh bola ki woh tabhi batayega jab mai promise karungi ki mai uski yeh wish puri karungi… Mai promises nahi karti par fir bhi mai maan gayi uske liye… usne kaha ki woh mujhse birthday treat chahta hai! to hum dono ne next day hi milna decide kiya… kyuki mere subjects mein 4 ghante ka gap aata tha thursday ko par us thurseday ko last period nahi lagne waala tha kyuki hamari lecturer chhutti mein thi kuchh hafton ke liye…
Aapke saath mai ek funny incident share karna chahungi ki humne raat ke 11:30 baje se pahle message mein next day milne ki planning kar li thi, jab mai apna phone rakh rahi thi, usko good night kahkar tab bhookamp ke jhatke feel hue aur pura bed aur AC buri tarah se hile they 😛 mere dimag mein aaya wow milne ki planning ki khushi mein earthquake aa gaya 😀 hahaha… aap chaahe to google mein search kar sakte 7th sept ke ke earthquake ke baare mein. 😛
Next day main apni college ki friend Sonal ko le kar usse milne gayi… Rohit aur mai first time is tarah se miley the usney apna plaster bhi hata diya tha usne dark green color ka t-shirt aur dark blue jeans pahna hua tha aur woh bahut simple and cute lag raha tha… Par hi! kahne ke baad hum dono ek dusre ki taraf dekh bhi nahi rahe the naa hi kuchh baat kar rahe the… bahut ajib lag raha tha is tarah se milna par fir bhi achha lag raha tha… Sonal hi Rohit se baat kiye jaa rahi thi… mai un dono ke peechhe peechhe chup-chaap chal rahi thi. Aaadhe raste yunhi hum chalte rahe fir Sonal mudi aur boli “Rupali tum bhi baat karo Rohit se mai hi kabse kiye jaa rahi hu…” Tab Rohit aur maine thodi baat karne shuru ki.
Hum teeno restuarant gaye aur maine un dono ko apni birthday treat di. Fir hum ghar aane lage… Rohit ko kahi aur jaana tha, jo ki mere ghar ke raste se guzarta tha to woh mere saath ho liya aur Sonal raste mein college padta tha waha kisi kaam se chali gayi.
Mujhe Rohit ke saath aise akele ghumna ajib lag raha tha hayad mujhko uke saamne sharm aa rahi thi aur main uske saath saath chalne ki bajaye uske aage aage baate karte hue chal rahi thi. Fir jab mera ghar paas aaya tab hum alag hue. Mai ghar pahuchi to usse maine msg mein puchha ki usko mera birthday treat kaise laga…
To woh bola “Treat to bahana tha, mai actually tujhse milna chahta tha…” aur mere hontho mein ek broad smile aa gayi. 🙂
Thodi aur derr baat karne ke baad woh apne kaam ke liye chala gaya aur main bhi thodi derr so gayi.
Mera birthday guzar gaya aur fir ek raat mai usse baat kar rahi thi to firse usne mujhe “I love you” send kiya. To maine kaha “Stop It Rohit mujhe aise mazak pasand nahi hai you know that”…. To usne kaha “Mai to apne sabhi friends ko I love you kahta hu, to fir tu bhi mujhe I love you too kah sakti hai.”
Aur woh mujhe manane laga “I love you too” kahne ke liye… pahle toh mujhko yeh chiz ajib si lagi par fir maine usko as a friend, kah diya jo woh sunna chah rha tha.
Aur us din ke baad woh jab bhi marzi mujhe I love you send karta rahta, kabhi kabhi mai I love you too kah deti par zyadatar “Same to you” send karti thi aur woh chidkar kahta “Kya maine tujhko happy diwali kaha hai jo tu aise reply kar rahi hai?”
26th september ki baat hai, delhi mein messages per Trai rule lag gaya tha aur us din ke baad hum ek din mein 100 se zyada messages send nahi kar sakte the… aur Rohit aur mai to text ke zariye hi baat karte the aur yeh limit to bahut kam thi kyuki mai Rohit ke saath apne friends se bhi text mein baat karti thi.
Raat ko jab main usse baat kar rahi thi tab usne mujhko fir “I Love You” send kiya.
Maine kaha “Same to you!”
To isbaar usne chidkar kuchh aur kaha usne bataya ki woh serious hai aur woh sach mein janna chahta hai ki mai usse pyar karti hu ya nahi?
Mai fir ghabra gayi… maine kaha ki “Rohit tujhe mujhse kahi zyada better ladki mil jayegi, meri family ko meri zarurat hai… plz aisa mat kah!”
Rohit bola “There is no one better than you.”
Mai boli “Tu sabkuchh jaante hue bhi mere saath aisa kyu kar raha hai?”
Woh bola “Tu mujhe jawab bata apna, warna mai kuchh kar baithunga…”
Aur mere hosh ud gaya…
mai boli “Please Rohit aisa waisa kuchh mat karna…”
Rohit “Tu pahle mujhko answer de!”
Mai boli “Mai achchi ladki nahi hu jaisa tu kahta rahta hai, mere family waale mujhko irresponsible kahte hai, even I hate myself for that!, aur upar se mere masi meri mom ki tarah hai… mere mom dad ke paas mera bhai hai par… mere masi ke paas mere alawa aur koi nahi hai… ”
Rohit “Tujhe sirf aur sirf apne family ki padi hai, aur meri koi chinta nahi hai”
Maine kaha “Rohit aisi baat nahi hai!”
Rohit – “Aisa hi hai, dekh le mai kuchh kar baithunga!”
Main darr gayi aur maine janti hu ki yeh sunkar thoda Idiotic lagega aap logo ko par maine ek second mein faisla kiya – “Rohit! I really love you! please kuchh mat karna!”
Thodi derr baad usne message kiya “I was just kidding…”
Aur kuchh seconds mein mera jo saara darr tha gusse mein badal gaya aur maine reply kiya “Mai is mazaak ke liye tujhe kabhi maaf nahi karungi”… Mujhe uske upar kabhi isse pahle itna gussa nahi aaya tha.
Uske baad woh mujhse maafi mangane laga… par maine toh kah diya tha na ki mai maaf nahi karungi… To maine topic change karne ki koshish ki, par usko pata chal gaya tha ki mai upset hu to usne woh bhi nahi karne diya bas mujhe manane laga ki mai usko maaf kar du…
Toh maine usko bas ek mazak bhara badla lene ke liye heart break theme par based shayaris send karni shuru kar di, jisse usko irritation hone lagi. Woh kuchh bhi mujhe send karta mai usko shayari send kar deti… Aur isi tarah puri raat guzar gayi… first time tha jab humne jagkar puri raat baat ki ho… Subah ke karib 4 baje ke aas paas usne tang aakar mujhe end mein send kar daala –
“Tu aisa kyu kar rahi hai yaar? tujhe nahi pata par main bhi tujhe like karne laga hu.”
Aur mere side par saara sannata chha gaya “Yeh isne kya send kar daala?” Mere hontho par halki si smile aa gayi… Par maine uska woh message delete kar diya aur previous message ka reply karke aisa act kiya ki maine kuchh bhi aisa na parha ho.
Maine usko bola ki “Mujhe laga ki tu sachmuch mein kuchh kar daalega… isliye mujhe is mazak se itna gussa aaya”
Usne bola “Awwh I am sho… sorry
Fir usne ek aur message bheja “tu bahut masoom hai…”
Usne bataya ki usne mujhe message karne ke liye 3 sims badle the, aur isi chakkar mein ek phone to gir kar tut bhi gaya. Uske is sim ke bhi sms khatam hone waale they isliye humne decide kiya ki 7 baje phone mein baat karenge.
Mai apne bed se uthi aur taiyar hona start kar diya, aur 7 baje usko call kiya… Hum second time phone mein baat kar rahe the par fir bhi properly baat karne ke hisab se first time tha. Bahut ajib lag raha hum dono ko. Sms mein to hum frank aur comfortable baat kar lete the. Par ek dusre se aisa baat karna thoda different aur ajib sa tha.
Hum pahle to normally hi baate kar rahe the fir usne achahna thodi si sexual chizon ke upar discussion shuru kar di, isse pahle usne kabhi aisi baat nahi ki… Mujhe achcha nahi laga kyuki, hum pahli baar phone mein baat kar rahe hai, mai pahle hi uncomfortable thi aur zyada ho gayi… usko jab maine toka topic change karne ke liye. “Toh woh bola sex galat chiz nahi hoti, isse stress release hota hai”
Maine kaha koi baat nahi mujhe achcha nahi lagta. Toh usne topic change kar diya.
Uske baad thodi derr aur baat kari…
Next day bhi humne thodi derr phone mein baat ki fir shaam ko message ke through baat karne lage. Jab bhi humare paas kuchh discuss karne ko nahi hota to hum dono ek dusre ko random question karke ek game khelte the… usme simple question “what is your favorite color” se lekar “What will you do if you will find out your lover is cheating on you?” type ke question hote the…
Us Raat ko bhi usne kaha chalo game khelte hai par fir usne message kiya ki hum non-veg question bhi puchh sakte hai… Jiske liye maine flatly refuse kar diya.
Agar main kahungi ki mere andar aise desire nahi hai to woh jhut hoga, kyuki hum mese 98% aise hi hain… Par Rohit ko maine jabse like karna start kiya tha sach mein mere mann mein kabhi uske saath kuchh aisa waisa karne waali baat nahi aai thi, balki mujhe usko dekhkar jo ek feeling hoti thi woh divine si lagti thi, pure lagti thi, kisi magnet ki tarah koi chiz mujhe uski or khichti chali gayi thi, to kabhi maine is baare mein socha hi nahi. Aur isliye mujhe usse is tarah ki discussions karna achcha nahi lagta tha. Aur saath hi mai us samay 18 ki thi toh, in sab mamlo mein thodi narrow minded bhi thi young hone ki wajah se. Mai 20 ke baad in sab chizon ke liye thodi healthy way mein broad minded hue hu. Warna mai us samay apne aapko asexual kahti thi aur mujhe yeh sab chizen gand lagti thi.
Jabki ab dekhu to at the end is type ke relation aur unse related feelings to sexuality se hokar guzarti hain aur inka wajud bhi reproduction se hi hai, Right? Ha main aim yeh nahi hota main janti hu, dil ka rishta hi isay last long banata hai…. (Wow agar usne ab mujhe yeh kahte suna to woh sochega mai koi aur hu… Waise sach mein ab mai koi aur hi hu. )
Uhm Uhm aage bolti hu, fir koi baat nikli to maine usko bataya ki kyu mai pyar mein nahi padna chahti thi… maine usko bola ki “mai abhi responsibility uthaane layak nahi hui hu, aur meri family needs me too”
To usne reply kiya “Jab hamare 2 bachche ho jayenge to tu apne aap responsible ho jayegi.”
Uske is reply se mujhe hansi aa gayi… Aise hi hum couples ki tarah baate kar rahe they us shaam… Aap jab kisi ko pyar karte ho to uske saath lifetime bitaane ki jo soch rkhte ho woh normal hai, ha us samay hum young they par jab sahi samay ayega tab toh yeh sab galat nahi hai na? Maine usey yahi kaha “Tujhe studies aur job ki wajah se shaadi ke liye 8 saal wait karna hoga”…
Toh usne kaha “main to aisi girlfriend chahta hu jiske saath mera relationship 5 saal chale fir main usse break up kar lunga, aur fir nai gf dhudunga”
Mujhe laga woh mazak kar raha hai, kyuki uski aadat thi mujhe chidaane ki aur tang khichne ki. Usey maza aata tha agar mai dusri ladki ka naam sunkar thoda jealous feel karu.
Next day jab subah main balkani mein baithkar usse baat kar rahi thi, tab maine achanak se kaha… “Mujhe abhi khaana banana nahi aata, lagta hai shaadi ke baad mujhe teri mom se sikhna padega.”
Usne achanak thodi sad awaaz banate hue kaha, “Tu in sab chizon ke liye itni serious mat ho, mai tujhse pyar karta hu but mai apni mom se zyada pyar karta hu, 40-60% ka antar hoga tujhme aur mom mein., Mai unki pasand ki hi ladki se shaadi karunga.”
Maine kaha “Iska matlab hai ki tu mujhse pyar karta hai par shaadi nahi kar sakta?”
Woh bola “Haan”
Mai boli “Do you even love me? Tujhe agar pata tha ki tu mere paas nahi aa sakta to tune mujhko I love you kyu kaha?”
Woh bola “Aisi baat nahi hai, Mai tujhse pyar karta hu but 40-60% ka antar hai.”
Maine kaha “You don’t love me.”
Woh bola – “Tu khud soch ki kya tu apni family ko mere liye chod sakti hai.”
Maine kaha – “Haan mai tere liye kuchh bhi kar sakti hu.”
Usne kaha – “Please yaar, mere liya aisa mat kar.”
Maine kaha – “Thik hai ab se nahi karungi.”
Hamare beeche 2 minute tak bahas hoti rahi fir maine phone cut kar diya… Usne 2 baar call kiya woh bhi maine cut kar diya fir usney nahi kiya call…
Mujhe is baat par gussa nahi aaya tha ki woh apni mom ki wajah se aisa kar raha hai, mujhe gussa is baat par aaya tha ki usey pata hai ki woh mere saath life time nahi rah sakta fir kyu meri expectations barhai usney, ek toh mujhe kai baar pata bhi nahi chalta tha ki woh kab mazak kar raha hai aur kab serious tha… Usney mere saath mazak kar kar ke mujhe uksaya ki mai apne parents ke alawa uske baare mein bhi sochu, jabki mai aisa nahi karna chahti thi. Aur ab woh khud kya kar raha hai? Aap sab shayad kahoge ki usney bataya tha ki woh mazak kar raha tha… Par fir usi ne to shaadi aur bachcho ki baate shuru ki thi, mai to anjan bankar aisa react karna chahti thi ki mujhe kuchh pata hi nahi hai….
Ek baar bhi yeh nahi kaha ki woh koshish karega mera saath nibhaane ka, uske bajaye usne kaha ki usey 5 saal ke liye ek gf chahiye?… haha achha mazak hai.. Achchi ladki kya khaak achchi ladki, uska bas tarika hai apni manmani karane ka. Kya yeh wahi ladka tha jisko maine kabhi like kiya tha? Jo Shilpa ke jaane par itna depressed ho gaya tha? Kya aisa insan sach me kisi se pyar bhi kar sakta hai?
Mai phone cut karne ke baad bahut derr tak sochti rahi, mujhe laga ki mujhe apne karmon ki saza mil rahi hai, main apne family ke pith peechhe yeh sab kar rahi thi, iska natija hai yeh sab. Sab meri galti hai… mujhe apne faisley se nahi dagmagana chahiye tha… maine apne aap ko khub gaaliyan di apne aap ko bitch kaha, kamini kaha aur mujhe Rohit se zyada apne aap par gussa aa raha. Saari meri galti thi.
Maine faisla kiya ki main Rohit se break up kar lungi. Maine shaam ko usko call kiya tab woh kisi ki shaadi mein tha, mai pure din gusse mein thi, par uski aawaz sunte hi mera gala bhar thoda sa aaya aur aankhon geeli ho rahi thi… Usne mujhse puchha bhi kya tu ro rahi hu?
Maine bola “Nahi mai nahi ro rahi, par mai kuchh kahna chahti hu, dekh maine janti hu ki mom ki tulna kisi se nahi ho sakti, to tujhe aisa kahne ki zarurat nahi thi ki tu mom ka side lega kyuki mere bhi family ki jagah koi nahi le sakta… par mai aise relation mein nahi rahna chahti, hume hamesha ke liye alag ho jaana chahiye… mai jabse tere saath hu mai humesha se hi guilty feel karti aai hu apne parents ke liye, aaj subah jo tere mere bich baat hui mujhe lagta hai ki usme teri koi galti nahi thi, meri galti thi ki maine tujhe apne life mein enter karne diya, mujhe apne parents ke baare mein sochne par aisa laga ki mai kitni kamini insan hu jo aisa kar rahi hai. To aj ke baad hum ek dusre se baat nahi karenge.”
Usne thode gusse se kaha “Tu yahi chahti hai?… To Thik hai bye!” aur usne phone kaat diya.
Meri puri shaam halat kharab rahi, maine ghar mein kisi se baat nahi ki, maine kaha ki meri tabiyat kharab hai aur thoda sa khana khakar chup chaap soney ke liye let gayi. Us samay mere dimag mein kai khayal aa rahe the… mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha, kyuki jab tak hum friends they tab tak to chizen itni smoothly chal rahi thi, par jaise hi hum relation mein aaye jaise sab kuchh gandla gaya ho… kitna achcha tha jab hum sirf friends the toh. Rohit woh ladka nahi raha jise main itne saalon se dekhti aa rahi hu aur samajhti aa rahi thi. Mere mann mein aaya ki itney sudden change ki koi to wajah ho gi shayad… (Ab sochti hu toh, yeh woh waala phase tha “Forgiveness is the final form of love.” ya kahiye main accept nahi karna chahti thi truth ko shayad… ya pata nahi kya?)… Dheere dheer mera mann uski situation ke baare mein sochkar usko understand karne ki koshish karne laga… ifs, buts, maybe? because… aur fir mere mann ne faisla kiya ki woh dubara se friend bankar us
ke paas
kal wapis jayega.
Next day, main college mein thi, aur maine free period milne par usko call kiya… Usne uthaya, aur woh thoda upset sa lag raha tha, pata chal raha tha ki jo baatien maine usko last evening kahi thi woh usi ki wajah se upset hai. Maine usko kaha ki “Hume dubara friends ban jaana chahiye, dekh jab se hum relationship mein aaye hai tab se khush nahi hai”
Woh haa, hmm, okay, nahi sirf aise hi jawab de raha tha… Thodi derr mein woh thoda bolne laga “main shaadi mein tha apne friend ke saath last evening jab tune call kiya. Jab maine tera phone kaata toh mera friend meri shakal dekhkar samajh gaya tha ki kya baat hai… aur usne bola ki :chinta mat kar 1 week mein laut kar aayegi woh tere paas…: Par tu to ek din mein wapis aa gayi!”
Mere paas aisa karne ke liye, usko dene ke liye koi explanation nahi thi… fir thodi derr mein woh explain karne laga ki woh shaadi kyu nahi kar sakta… usme wahi mom ka pyar waali explanation thi… maine socha ki ab hum friends se zyada nahi banenge to uski baaton mein koi logic naa milne par bhi maine haan mein haan mila di aur bahut derr tak sunti rahi, jabki usne jo bhi kaha, usse main agree nahi karti thi.
Mujhe aise logo par bada gussa aata tha jo apne lovers ke zariye bure tarike se treat kiye jaane par bhi unhi ke paas mandaraate the, aur yahi haal aaj mera tha, mere friends aisa kar rahe hotey to mai unko datkar ya beizzatti karke majboor kar deti alag hone ke liye, par maine apni friend Neha ko is baare mein bataya aur jab usne mujhe alag hone kaha aur kai baar ke failed attempt ke baad Neha ko mujhpar bada gussa aata aur usne toh ek baare gusse mein phone bhi cut kar dia, kyuki maine uski nahi suni, usne kaha mujhse baat karna bekar hai. Mujhe pata tha ki mai bas bahaane dhund rahi hu uske paas rahne ke. Neha kahti thi ki mai Rohit se addicted ho gayi hu… dur jaungi to usey bhulne lagungi… Par aaj bhi mai expect karti hu ki woh laut aaye…. Itna samay ho gaya uske paas rahne ki addiction khatam ho gayi… naa jaane yeh waapis lautne waali expectation kab khatam hogi?
Rohit ke saath mera relationship bigadta hi chala gaya, woh friendship mein wapis nahi jaana chahta tha par commitment bhi nahi karna chahta tha… Mujhe samajh aane laga ki mai aur woh bahut alag hain, woh kisi aur duniya ka hai aur mai kisi aur duniya ki… woh mazak karta rahta, kai baar uske mazaak bahut cruel hotey… insulting hotey, usko mana karo tab bhi woh nahi manta, usey meri baatien samajh nahi aati thi aur aur mai bhi uske uske liye confused rahne lagi.
Kai baar uspar itna gussa aata tha ki mai phone cut kar deti thi aur fir mere mann mein yahi baat aati thi ab isse kabhi baat nahi karungi par, par thodi derr mein usko chodne ki sochh torture karne waali lagne lagti…
Woh khud hi kahta shaadi ke baad aisa hoga waisa hoga, mai uski orr jhukne lagti toh woh clear kar deta ki mai uski baaton ko seriously na lu. Bas woh serious hota toh sirf yeh ehsas dilaane mein ki mai usse koi expectation naa rakhu, Aur agar mai serious hona band kar deti fir woh meri feelings ko uksaane lagta. Kai baar mai uski baaton ko aai gayi kar deti, par jab bardasht nahi hota toh kisi time bomb ki tarah phatt padti aur usse ladne lagti, woh mere gusse se bhare sawalon ke jawab dene ke bajay ek hi baat kahta “Tum sab ki sab ladkiyan na ek jaisi hoti ho, hamesha puraani baaton ko pakad kar baithi rahti ho…”
Usey bas dikhta ki mai gussa kar rahi hu, usey yeh kabhi pata nahi chalta ki mai gussa akhir kyu kar rahi hu?
Hamari 2 hafte ke andar andar ek baar toh ladai hoti hi hoti thi. Mai bhi soft se dheere dheer frustrated aur rude honey lag gayi, ab hum dono mein se hi kisi ko bhi ek dusre ke feelings ki chinta honi band ho gayi thi, woh meri beizzatti karta toh mai palat kar usko aur kadvi baate sunaati aur kahti mai toh mazak kar rahi thi, thik usi tarah jaise woh karta tha. Kuchh hi mahino mein meri personality change ho gayi thi, ghar mein bhi mai apne family ke logo se zyada bahesbaazi karne lagi thi, mere maasi ne mujhse kahna shuru kar diya ki main unse dur jaane lagi hu. Par main kya bata sakti thi unhe ki mere saath aisa kyu ho raha hai?
Rohit ko mujhe jalana bahut pasand tha, ek baar usne kaha ki woh apni bahut saari ex banana chahta hai, aur fir ek din jab woh future mein successful insaan banega tab woh kisi hot ladki ko date karega aur uski sabhi exes usko dekhkar jalengi… usne mujhe kaha “Mai chahta hu ki tu mere naam se puri zindagi kilasti rahe…”
Shayad woh mazaak kar raha tha, par maine uski in sab baaton ka shaanti se jawab diya “Tujhe kya lagta hai in sab chizon se teri exes tujhse jalengi? unhe toh lagega achcha hua woh tujh jaise ladke se bach gayi…” 😛
Fir ek aur din ki baat hai jab hum dono ki ladai hui thi aur sulah hone ke baad hum fir baat karne lage the, tab usne mujhse kaha tha, “Yaar tu mere liye serious hona chhod de! tujhe bahut se achche ladke mil jayenge, mai thik ladka nahi hu…”
Maine jawab diya “Par mujhe toh tere alawa koi dikhta hi nahi hai…”
Aur yeh sach tha, mai chaahe usko kitni bhi jali kati suna du, kitni bhi gusse mein buri baat kah du, par jis din se maine usse baat karni shuru kari thi, mujhe aur ladkon se baat karne mein jo pahle jhijhak hoti thi woh band ho gayi thi, koi bhi ladka utna cute aur good looking lagta hi nahi tha jitna Rohit lagne laga tha. Hamesha uske khayalo mein dubi rahne lagi thi main.
Isi chiz se related main apko ek incident sunaati hu, hamari dessehre ki chhuttiyan chal rahi thi, tab papa ke kuchh dur ke relatives dusre state se aaye hue the unke ghar, rishte mein mere ek cousin thi jo mujhse 40 saal badi thi, aur mere 2 bhatijhe jo mere chhote bhai ke age ke the…. woh log mujhse bhi milna chahte the, toh us din mummy baar baar phone karke mujhe apne ghar aane ko kah rahe the, aur maine jaise ki pahle bhi bataya ki mujhe us ghar ka rasta yaad nahi tha… toh maine aane se mana kar diya.
Toh mere maasi ne samjhaya ki woh log itni dur se milne aaye hai mujhse, mujhe jaana chahiye… Toh mai maan gayi, mujhe jahan tak rasta yaad tha main wahan tak rikshe mein chali gayi, phir apne bhai ko call kiya aur woh mere ek bhatije ke saath waha pahucha jo, same mere height ka lag raha tha, mai jaise hi unke paas pahuchi toh woh mere pair chhune laga, aaj se pahle kisi ne mera aashirwaad nahi liya tha, toh mujhe samajh nahi aaya tha ki woh kya kar raha hai aur main achanak se jump karke peechhe ho gayi, 😛 Par phir mujhe ehsas hua meri yeh harkat ajib thi toh maine usey haste hue kaha “jeete raho”… ha thoda embarrass bhi ho gayi thi mai. Fir main ghar jaakar baaki sab se bhi mili
Wahi par commerce section ka ek aur ladka rahta tha jo Rohit ka hi dost tha aur saath hi Neha ka classmate, usney mujhe yeh sab karte dekh liya tha, aur usne Rohit ko saara incident bata diya, aur Rohit ne hanste hue emoticons ke saath mere batane se pahle khud yeh sab mujhe bata diya ki mai kaise jump karte hue peechhe hatt gayi thi. 😀
Maine Neha ko bhi waha pahuchne ke baad message kiya tha, woh mujhse milne mere ghar aa gayi thi, Rohit to mere ghar ki next waali gali mein rahta tha, main wait karne par lagi thi ki woh kab aayega, samne ek ladka bahut chhote black shorts aur white t-shirt pahenkar ek bachche ko cycle chalana sikha raha tha, mujhe uski dressing sense poor si lagi thi, isliye shayad zyada dhyan nahi gaya uske chahre par…. par baad mein pata chala ki woh Rohit hi tha. 😀 😀 😀 Ladke aakhir itne chhote shorts pahente kyu hai? I liked him so much aur mujhe yeh kahna nahi chahiye but sach mein woh bahut unattractive tha!!!
Woh apne cousin ko cycle chalana sikha raha tha, Neha ne bataya woh aisi hi dressing karke ghumta hai, Neha ko pata nahi tha, ki Rohit bhi aa raha tha, isliye usne bhi mujhe thoda gussa kiya, kyuki woh Neha ki friend ko bahut pareshan karta hai, aur waise Rohit pata nahi kyu par jab maine Rohit se baat karni shuru nahi ki thi, tab bhi woh kahti thi woh usko mean lagta hai… Aur Rohit ko bhi pata tha ki Neha usko pasand nahi karti isliye Rohit ko bhi woh pasand nahi thi… Par dono mere wajah se shayad us din ek dusre se thik se baat kar rahe the, hum ek park mein ghumne gaye, aur fir Neha ko ghar se call aaya lautne ke liye, to Neha jaane lagi, maine usey roka, kyuki mai Rohit ke saath akela nahi ghumna chahti thi(accept karne mein mujhe bahut embarrass feel ho raha hai par shayad Rohit se mujhe face to face sharm aati thi mai uski aankhon mein dhekhti hi nahi thi :/ phone mein toh sab chalta hai par aise…)
Aur jab main uncomfortable feel karti hu toh mai zyada bolne lagti hu, toh purey raste main badbadate hue Rohit sun bhi raha hai yaa nahi pata nahi par mai bolte hue aayi, jo kuchh bhi mere dimag mein aa raha hai, bolti hi jaa rahi thi. Andhera honey laga tha toh Rohit mujhe ghar tak chodkar wapis chala gaya. Usey bhi waise pata chal gaya tha ki mujhe akele mein uske saath ajib lagta hai. Aur usne baad mein mujhe phone mein bola bhi tha ki agli baar zabardasti tere gale mein haath dalkar ghumunga… jk 😛
Mera bhai mujhe rikshawa charhane ke liye apne ek friend ke saath chalne laga, jab hum gali se bahar nikle to Rohit ka message aaya ki woh saamne se aa raha hai, mai uski taange dekhkar samajh gayi “Ki yahi hai woh!” 😛 jk woh bhi apne friend ke saath aa raha tha samne se, par uske friend ko dekhne ke bajaye mera dhyan usi ke upar tha, woh jab paas aaya to mere bhai aur usne high-five kiya aur usne meri or haath wave kiya, aur maine bhi smile ke saath usey bye kaha.
Jab mai ghar pahuchi toh, Rohit ne text mein bataya ki uska friend kah raha “Woh tere baare mein kah raha tha ki, She is cute!”
Toh mere haatho apne aap mann ki baat type ho gayi, “ohh, usne aisa kaha, thanks, par main kya karu maine toh uski orr dekha hi nahi, mai tujhe hi dekhe jaa rahi thi”
Ispar Rohit ne bahut saare hear aur smile waale emoticon bheje the…
Rohit kabhi kabhi toh meri feelings ko accept kar leta tha, par zyadatar samay mujhe push karne mein laga rahta, aur agar main sach mein dur jaane ka mann manati to dubara pull karne lagta tha… hum dono ka relationship push and pull ke game type ka aap kah sakte hain.
Ek baar woh yahi samjha raha tha mujhe ki mujhe uske baare mein aisa nahi sochna chahiye, usne kaha “Mujhe toh meri mom ki baaton se lagta hai ki unhone ne toh mere liye koi ladki bhi dhund kar rakhi hui hai… pata hai tujhe meri mom ne mujhe ek baar kaha ki beta tujhe jitne maze karne hai abhi karle, baad mein tujhe meri hi pasand ki ladki se shaadi karni hogi…”
Sach batau toh mere parents aisi shikhsha to mujhe kabhi nahi de sakte “Rupali bitiya abhi tujhe jitne maze karne hai karle????” wow!!! woh uski mom hai aur hume uski hi nahi par kisi ke mom ke baare mein aisa nahi sochna yaa kahna chahiye par “Maze?”… Matlab pyar, emotions, bonding Rohit ke liye hi nahi uske mom ke liye bhi maze the…. Rohit ne yeh baat kahi hoti toh mai usko chaar baate sunati, par jiske parents ne hi apne bachche ko aisi shiksha di ho uska aap kuchh nahi kar skte…
Maine shaant mann se usko jawab diya “Tere mom ne yeh bahut hi selfish waali baat kahi hai, unhe bas apne bete ki chinta hai, us ladki ki nahi jo uske bete se pyar karti hai…”
Main janti hu, ki parents ko apne baccho ki chinta hoti hai sirf, par kisi aur ke sincere emotions ko “maze” ka naam dena “trash” kahne se kam nahi hota. Kyu jab tak kisi chiz ko use karne mein maza aata hai aata rahe, par fir jab man bhar jaaye toh, wohi maze ki chiz trash ban jaati hai jisey humko phek dena chahiye, nahi?
Isliye shayad mujhe jitni nafrat Rohit se kabhi kabhi hoti hai ussey zyada apne aap se, kyuki mai shayad sirf ek chiz thi kyuki maine apne aap ko aisa banne diya, sirf isliye kyuki mujhe apne emotions par control nahi tha, saari galti meri hai… pata nahi yeh saanse kab rukengi taki main yeh emotions aur pain feel karna band kar saku. Mai un logon jaisi ho gayi hu jinse mujhe nafrat thi, isliye shayad main apne aap se bhi nafrat karne lagi hu. Usne sahi kaha tha ki mai zindagi bhar uske naam se kilasti rahungi.
WOh mujhse break up nahi karna chahta tha, woh kahta ki hum dono ka relation Raadha- Krishna jaisa hai, woh dono ek dusre se pyar to karte hai par woh milte nahi hain. Par mujhe toh Shiva- Sati ya, Shiv Parvati jaisa relation chahiye mai usko kahti.
Mai pure vegetarian hu aur woh non vegetarian… is chiz ko lekar bhi woh mazak karta rahta, ki shaadi ke baad mujhe uske liye non veg cook karna padega aur woh mujhe apne haathon se yeh sab khilayega…(well mai nahi khaungi, to chinta ki koi baat nahi hai)
Woh drink smoke kuchh nahi karta tha, is mamle mein woh sharif tha, par mujhe kahta ki shaadi ke baad agar usney mujhe kabhi drink karne ko kaha apne saath, toh mujhe karni padegi.(nahi kabhi nahi karungi 😛 )
Kabhi kahta ki usey mujhse puri cricket team chahiye… kabhi kahta ki suhag raat mein kya kya hoga?… woh zyada kahne lagta toh mai usko chup kara deti ya topic change karne ki koshish karti, kyuki mujhe in sab baaton se had se zyada sharm aati thi shayad… toh woh kahta mai bilkul bhi romantic nahi hu, par saath hi usne ek baar kaha tha ki mai un ladkiyon mein se hu jo sirf apne husbands se hi sachcha pyar kar sakti hai…
Uski yeh baat ek tarah se compliment to lagi thi par us samay mujhko aisa laga tha ki Rohit ke hisab se physical relation waala level hi sachcha pyar hai, jo ki mai usse nahi karti… usne bhi ek baar hamare rishte ko pyar ke bajaye Neha ki tarah addiction kah daala tha. Par dusri or alag hone ki baat se woh kahta ki kya fayeda physically alag hokar jab ap mentally jude hue ho toh?…. (Argh!!! Yeh ladka sach mein bada confusing hai!)
Ek din mai rohit ko 10th class ke ek incident ke baare mein bata rahi thi, ki preboards ke baad meri jaldi chhutti ho jaati thi to main apne bhai ka wait karti thi school ke bahar aur Smriti aur Saumya ke saath, ek baar Smriti ne kaha hum thodi dur walk karne chalte hai paas hi mein ek rose garden tha to woh hum dono ko waha le gayi, usne mera phone manga usne kaha ki yahi paas mein uske friends rahte hai toh woh unko bulana chahti hai, mere parents ne safety reason se khud mujhe school mein phone le jaane ko kaha tha aur jab bhi mai ghar aa rahi hoti thi, to pahle call karti thi ghar par. Is baare mein sirf hamari group ki ladkion ko pata tha ki mai school mien phone laati hu. Maine usko phone de diya… thodi derr baad waha 2 ladke aaye, haa woh smriti ke hi friends the… Smriti ne un mein se ek se mazak mazak mein kah diya ki woh usko apna ghar dikhaye… toh woh sach mein apne ghar le gaya… mujhe thik nahi lag raha tha, par mai akele wapis nahi jaa sakti thi… toh mai
n bhi pe
echhe ho li unke… jab hum uske ghar se bahar nikle toh maine Saumya ko kaha aj ke baad main tum dono ke saath kahi nahi jaungi.
Rohit ko jab maine yeh sab bataya to usne bilkul mere masi ki tarah daat lagai… “Tu Pagal hai kya!!!, tu kaise jaa sakti hai kisi anjaan ke ghar? Woh bhi 2 ladko ke saath, tere saath kuchh ho jaata toh? Jaanbujh kar gai thi kya tu? Ki kuchh ho tere saath? Mujhe tujhse yeh ummid nahi thi!!! Tu achchi ladki nahi hai…” wagarah wagarah karke mujhe bahut derr tak sunata raha aur uske baad puri shaam taaney marta raha… maine usse kaha mujhe apne family waalo ki tarah tujhse bhi yeh baat share nahi karni chahiye thi… par sach batau toh us din toh Rohit ne mere parents ki kami puri kar di thi daatte daatte… us din aisa laga, ki woh karta hai meri care… mujhe uski daat mein apnapan feel hua tha.
Woh khud mujhe kisi aur ko apna boyfriend banane ko kahta(kyuki woh nahi chahta tha ki mai usse apni attachment barhau), par saath mein mujhe aise ladko se dur rahne ko kahta tha jo usko kharab lagte the. Haan jab maine usko Ayush ke baare mein bataya tha, to woh kah raha tha ki woh to mera bhai hai tu uske paas ja sakti hai… par jaise maine pahle bataya tha Ayush ko to mai apna muhbola bhai bana chuki thi. 😛 Woh mujhe uske baad bhi bahen nahi manta tha yeh alag baat hai.. Par mere liye Rohit ke siwaye aur koi nahi…
Mai kisi aur ladke ke baare mein sochu aur Tarif karu jisey woh nahi janta tha, to woh uski buraiyan nikalega… par apne friends ko mujhe suggest karta jo usey thik lagte… aur usne ek baar apne ek cousin ko bhi kah daala tha ki Rupali ko date karle… par main unhe bhi bhaiya kah kar bulati thi, isliye woh khud mujhse baate karne se ghabraate the…
Kai baar to mujhe aisa lagta ki, Rohit bas unke saamne show off kar raha hai, ki uske peechhe kitni loyal ladki padi hui hai, jisko mai jaisa bhi treat kar lu woh wapis lautkar aaigi kisi Loyal Dog ki tarah jo apne owner ke peechhe peechhe ghumta rahta hai chaahe uske owner ne usko buri tarah se bhi kyu na treat kiya ho(well, kuchh logon ko meri aisi comparing buri lagegi, but agar aap notice karo to Dogs insaanon se better hotey hai aur kabhi dhokha nahi dete aur apse itna pyar karte hain ki apke liye jaan de bhi sakte hai aur le bhi sakte hain, I love dogs, meri pomeranian pet jise mai apni sis kahti hu, jab bhi main upset hoti hu woh mere god mein aakar baith jaati hai, jabki family mein sabko lagta hai ki that I am okay… kai baar toh mujhe apne pain se zyada uski care ko dekhkar rona aata hai) … Aur usko mujhpar bharosa bhi bada tha bada… Ek do baar mazak mazak mein maine usse jhut bola tha, jab sachchai batai toh usko meri is baat par yakin nahi hua ki maine usse j
hut bola
tha.
Usne bataya tha ki uski friend Nishu ne usse koi ring kharidne ko kahi thi jab woh Dehradun mein tha, aur woh badi mushkil se jungle wagarah ko paar karke ring kharidne gaya. Mujhe honestly thodi thodi Nishu se jealousy hoti thi… mujhe aise comparing nahi karni chahiye par mai ek incident share karti hu aap logo se… ek shaam ko jab mai aur Rohit text mein baat kar rahe they toh usne bataya ki Ayush uske ghar aaya hua hai aur Rohit ne mujhe phone karne ko kaha, par Masi ghar par they toh maine usey bol diya ki main abhi call nahi kar sakti…. Ayush aur Smriti ne same college mein admission le rakha tha, aur meri ek novel Smriti ke paas rah gayi thi jo usne mujhse boards ke last day ke samay li thi. Toh maine Rohit se kaha ki woh Ayush se kahkar Smriti se meri book delwaade… Rohit ne us samay toh haan kah diya… aur pata nahi usney Ayush ko kaha bhi ya nahi, woh book mere masi ne lakar di thi mujhe… toh shayad apko sunkar ajib lagega par ek tarah se mere liye aur chiz
on se th
odi si zyada precious thi woh book… mai usse thode thode dino mein puchhti rahi ki meri book kab Ayush le aayega… 2 mahine guzar gaye… Rohit ne mujhe flatly mana kar diya ki woh isme meri help nahi kar sakta. Shayad mai over think kar rahi hu aur shayad chizon ko narrowly le rahi hu but mujhe thoda bura laga tha, kyuki woh ring sirf Nishu ka shawk thi, aur woh book mere liye zaruri thi, aur yeh baat maine usko batai thi.
Ek aur aisa incident tha, jiske liye shayad mujhe bura nahi lagta par, Neha ki wajah se shayad main aisa sochti hu, ya shayad mujhe bura lagta hai, aur main sirf Neha ko excuse bana rahi hu. Rohit ka birthday December ko tha, semesters ke baad jab chhuttiyan pad jaati. Aur november start ho gaya tha, main chhuttiyon mein usse birthday treat nahi le paati to, maine usse baat karke phir milne ka plan banaya, aur yeh tai kiya ki hum wahi milenge jaha usne mera birthday banaya tha… Maine yeh baat Neha ko batai toh woh bhi zid karne lagi, mujhse milne ke liye… main is baar bhi Sonal ko hi apne saath le jaati(well, apko pata hai Rohit ke saath akele mein mujhe thoda ajib lagta hai)… Woh dono jab mauka mile ek dusre ki mujhse burai karte rahte hai, Rohit usko moti kahkar mere saamne baat karta tha kyuki usey pata tha ki Neha mujhe usse dur jaane ko samjhati rahti thi, aur Neha ko toh gussa aata hi tha uspar kyuki woh mujhe confuse karta rahta tha…Toh maine pahle Neha ko mana
kia, pa
r Neha nahi maan rahi thi aur mujhse milne ki zid karne lagi, Toh maine socha ki main Sonal ki bajaye Neha ko hi apne saath le leti hu…
Rohit toh waise expect kar raha tha, ki main usse is baar akele milu, par jab usko pata chala ki Neha aa rahi hai, toh woh thoda upset hua, par maine kaha ki woh maan hi nahi rahi thi… Toh woh meri baat maan gaya… Next day main Neha ke saath us jagah pahuchi, aur bahar khade hokar wait karti rahi, par ek ghante beet gaye aur Rohit ka kahi ata pata hi nahi tha, maine usko call kiya toh Rohit bolne laga ki raste mein usko kisi puraane dost ne pakad liya aur apne saath zabardasti le gaya, aur woh aane nahi de raha… maine normally kaha ki its okay…
Jab maine phone cut kiya toh, Neha ko thoda gussa aaya uspar ki woh kyu nahi aaya, shayad Neha ko bura lag raha tha ki Rohit ke liye maine itni derr intazar kiya par woh nahi aaya… usne dekha ke mera mood thoda sa down ho raha hai toh mazak mazak mein boli “Lagta hai woh mujhe treat na dekar apne paise bachana chahta hai isliye nahi aaya…” aur mujhe uski baat par hasi aa gayi… hum dono ne waha khaana khaaya aur icecream bhi khai aur ek dusre ki photos khichi… photos mein maine notice kiya ki main achchi nahi dikh rahi thi us top mein jo maine pahni hui thi… to mujhe thodi rahat mili ki achcha hua aaj Rohit nahi aa paya :P…
Main jab ghar pahunchi tab Rohit se baat hui, toh woh fir bataane laga ki kyu woh nahi aa paaya… usney mujhse puchha ki mai upset to nahi hu na?… toh maine bola nahi par Neha tere baare mein aisa bol rahi thi… maine toh usko aisa thodi khichai karne ke liye bola tha… par Rohit ka dimaga kharab ho gaya… Neha ka ghar bhi uske ghar ke paas tha, aur woh wahi ghumte hue mujhse baat kar raha tha, usne kaha uska mann kar raha hai ki woh Neha ke ghar jakar usko jhaad lagaye, usne mujhe yeh bhi gusse mein kaha ki “Usko bol diyo ki mujhe paison ki chinta nahi hai, agli baar apne friends ko bhi saath le aaye, mai unko bhi treat de dunga….”… maine usko shaant karne ke liye kaha ki shayad usko bura lag raha tha mere liye, isliye usne mazak mazak mein mujhe hasaane ke liye aisa kah diya… par Rohit ne kaha ki Neha ne uska aj ka din kharab kar diya hai… aur mujhe ehsas hua ki mujhe Rohit ko is baare mein nahi batana chahiye tha, isliye maine Rohit ko apni taraf se bhi aur N
eha ki t
araf se bhi sorry kaha. Woh din Rohit ko manane mein beet gaya.
Hum yunhi baat karte rahe, hamari ladai hoti par koi na koi hum mein se dusre ko mana leta, hamar relation tha bhi ajib kabhi kadwa kabhi bahut hi sweet, aur is tarah se kai aur din beet gaye, Diwali aa gayi, aur us din Rohit apne friend ke saath mere nana-nani waale ghar yaani ki mera original ghar, ke paas pahli baar mujhe dekhne aaya apne ek friend ke saath, jo uske saath tab bhi ghum raha tha jab main mom dad ke ghar se ja rahi thi. Ha wahi mujhe cute kahne waala :P. Usne mujhe chhat par khade hone ka kaha aur humne ek dusre ko dekhkar fir wave kiya, Rohit ne aasman mein ek Rocket bhi chhoda tha mere ghar ke thode se aage…
Diwali ki chhutti ke baad college gayi, to class mein sirf 3-4 ladkiyan aayi thi toh hume lecturer ne kah diya ki itni kam ladkiyon ko kya parhayengi woh, aur ghar jaane ko bol diya… Us din Rohit apne friends ke saath mere ghar ke paas waale theater mein movie dekhne ke liye aane waala tha. Toh Rohit ko pata chala ki mai ghar jaa rahi hu toh usne mujhe college ke bahar uska wait karne ko kaha, usne kaha woh mere saath jayega… woh apne friends se pahle nikal gaya tha, taki uske friends mujhe aur usko tang naa kare… Usne white t-shirt ke upar ke violet color ka shirt daal hua tha, maine usko first time shirt mein dekha tha, warna hum jitni bhi baar pahle mile the, tab woh t-shirt mein tha… aur usne kaha bhi ki usne shirt pahli baar pahni hai, warna woh t-shirt hi pahenta hai… Par honestly woh shirt mein bhi bada cute lag raha tha. Usne mujhe bhi apne saath movie dekhne ko puchha but mai ghar mein bata chuki thi ki mai aa rahi hu. Usne mujhe ghar tak chhoda, phir akela
wapis c
hala gaya, kuchh minute baad uska phone aaya aur usne kaha ki ki woh Rasta bhatak gaya hai. 😛 Maine usko location ke baare mein batane ko kaha aur balkani mein akar khadi ho gayi, to dekha ki woh hamare ghar ke saamne waale park mein khada ho rakha tha… maine usko puchha hum jis raste se aaye they wahan se na jakar tu yeh kaha ghus gaya hai? aur mujhe hansi aa gayi. Maine usko direction bataya, woh mere ghar ke samne se hokar guzra… aur mujhe usko dekhne ka thodi derr ka hi sahi par ek aur mauka mil gaya tha 🙂 … Thodi durr jab woh gaya toh woh phone mein mujhse kahne laga ki, uske chest mein halka halka dard ho raha hai aur uski saans phool rahi hai.
Mujhe laga sab normal hai, kyuki jab mujhe excursion hota hai to mere saath bhi kai baar aisa hota hai, mujhe laga shayad uske saath bhi aisa kuchh ho raha hoga. Fir woh movie dekhne chala gaya apne friends ke paas.
Maine uski ek chiz ko kabhi seriously nahi liya, jisko shyad mujhe seriously lena chahiye tha… Woh chiz thi ki Rohit din mein kamse kam ek baar Shilpa ka zikra zarur karta, haan wahi uska pahla pyar…
Jab maine Rohit ko first time 11th mein notice karna shuru kiya tha, tab ki baat hai… ek din roz ki tarah main school ke bahar baithkar apne bhai ka wait kar rahi thi to achanak maine mere right side se hawa ke jhoke jaise tezi se daudta hua ladka guzra, woh ek school bus ko pakadne ki koshish kar raha tha, par woh bus start hokar chalne lagi thi… usne chalti hui bus pe charhne ki koshish ki par woh buri tarah roll hota hua sadak par gir pada…aur woh bus aage chali gayi… uski shakla tab mujhe dikhai di, woh Rohit hi tha… usne haar nahi maani itni buri tarike se girne ke baad bhi woh utha aur daudkar us bus par charh hi gaya akhir.
Maine jab is baare mein Rohit ko puchha toh pata chala Nishu aur Shilpa us bus mein jaate the, aur usne unke saath ghar jaana decide kiya tha… uska ghar paas mein hi tha par Shilpa ki wajah se woh kai baar us bus mein hi jaata tha.
Maine usko bola ki tu itni buri tarah se gira tha tujhe chot nahi lagi…
toh usne kaha “mai kya kar sakta hu?” mujhe samajh aa gaya tha ki chot toh zarur lagi hogi usey…
Maine usko datte hue kaha, tu agar meri masi ka beta hota na, pahle teri dande se pitai hoti fir dawai lagti. 😛 Waise yeh sach hai, mai apni pup sis se khelti rahti hu, woh kabhi-kabhi aggressive ho jaati hai aur 7-8 baari woh mujhe kaat chuki hai phir bhi mai baaz nahi aati, ek baar toh mera haath hilana bhi mushkil ho gaya tha, jab bhi mai katti hu, usko saza deni ki bajaye masi se mujhe daat padti hai. Waise galti meri hi hai, mai hi aisi harkate karti hu jabki ghar mein aur sab usse thoda darte hai, waise ghar mein uske saath khelne waali bhi sirf mai hi hu, woh mera entertainment karti hai, mai uska entertainment karti hu. Uske saath khelne mein jo maza hai woh kisi bhi chiz mein nahi. 😉
{Mai yeh kahani 3 hafto se likh rahi hu, aj 8 september 2016 hai, jab hum first time school se nikalne ke baad mile the… kal 7 september tha jab 2011 mein humne milne ki planning ki thi aur raat ko bhukamp aaya tha… coincidentally jab mai mom ke ghar kal gayi thi… mai car mein thi maine usey uske kisi friend ke saath samne se aate hue dekha, itne dino baad maine usey dekha aur mere pair sun ho gaye the thik us din ki tarah jab usne mujhe first time I Love you kaha tha… Maine apne baal thode aage karke sir dusri or mod liya taaki woh mujhe na dekhle… kitni ajib si baat hai, is tarah ke din mein woh mujhe dikha… Pata nahi kismat mujhse kya chahti hai aisa behuada mazak karke? Mai ajkal waise hi itna sochne lagi hu uske baare mein aur aise coicidence mere dil ko aur uksaate hai.}
Chhodiye in baaton ko, november ki hi baat hai, semester shuru hone waale the, aur mujhe admit card ke liye 11 baje college jaana tha, mai subah ke 9 baje se Rohit se baat kar rahi thi, sach batau to baat nahi kar rahe the hu dono, is mahine pata nahi kya ho raha tha mai usse aur zyada possessive hone lagi thi, kai baar hum ek dusre se baat nahi karte the par hamara phone on rahta, woh mujhse baat karne bluetooth kaan mein lagaye rakhta aur mai earphone zyadatar lagakar rakhti… mai apni dark pink jacket dhund rahi thi, kyuki thand thodi hone lagi thi… aur baar baar nani se puchh rahi thi ki unhone kahi dekha ya rakha hai kya usey? Toh woh peechhe se bolne laga kuchh aur pahen le… maine kaha woh jacket kisi bhi chiz ke saath match karti hai isliye dhud rahi hu, aur maine dhund hi nikala usey, phir main apne aap mein hi cup board se 2 shirt nikal kar badbada rahi thi ki dark blue achha lagega ya purple?… toh peechhe se Rohit ne kaha ki Dark blue… mai usse puchh toh na
hi rahi
thi, par uske kahne par okay kahkar maine dark blue hi wear kiya. Fir college se admit card lene ke baad 3:00 baje mai ghar ke liye nikalne lagi, tab tak Rohit ki bhi college ki chhutti ho gayi thi, toh usne mujhe wait karne ko kaha, woh aj bhi mujhe ghar tak chhodna aane wala tha. Woh jis bus mein aa raha tha woh kharab ho gayi thi, toh usko aadhe ghante se zyada lag gaye aane mein, uske baad hum saath ghar jaane lage, ab bhi mujhe thodi sharm toh aati thi aur uski aankhon mein mai direct nahi dekhti thi par thodi comfortable feel karne lagi thi Rohit ke saath akele chalte hue bhi.
Bich raste mein Rohit ne kuchh mazak mazak mein kaha, jiski wajah se mai smile kar rahi thi, Mujhe smile karte dekhkar woh achanak bola – “Teri smile badi sweet hai, Shilpa ki bhi smile aisi hi thi…”
Mai Shilpa ke liye hamesha accepting thi, toh maine baat ko badal diya…. Thodi derr mein woh bolne laga ki usko pyas lagi hai, mere paas water bottle thi, par maine usko nahi diya kyuki woh juthi thi, aur hamare family mein bhi hum na kisi ka jutha khaate hai ya khilaate ya pilaate hai… bahut galat maana jaata hai… Woh ghar tak mujhe chodkar chala gaya, aur ghar ghuste hi nani ne mujhse bottle mangi paani dene ke liye… earphone to chala hua tha, Rohit ne sun liya, aur shocked hokar puchha “tere paas paani tha toh, tune mujhe bottle kyu nahi di?”
Maine usse kaha woh jutha tha, to usne kaha “Tu pagal hai! mujhe itni pyas lag rahi hai, aur tujhe pata hai? mere chest mein bhi dard ho raha hai aur saans phul rahi hai… pata nahi kya hai jab bhi tere yahan aata hu aisa pata nahi kyu hota hai…”
Well, maine janbujhkar aisa nahi kiya tha, par ab sochti hu toh guilt feeling hoti hai. (Abhi 2 mahine pahle jab usse dubara baat hui thi toh mujhe pata chala tha ki hum dono ke alag hone ke baad uski medical reports mein pata chala tha ki usko tuberculosis tha, par khushi ki baat hai uska ilaag ho gaya tha… 🙂 aur ab woh bilkul thik hai…)
Usne apna test december mein karaya tha jab ek baar mujhse baat karte wakt hue usne cough karte hue blood notice kiya tha aur usne phone cut kar diya tha, us samay mai bhi bahut ghabra gayi thi, aur jab dubara baat hui to maine usko kaha tha ki usko kuchh nahi ho sakta…
November end aa gaya tha, aur exams start ho gaye the, ek shaam jab main parhai kar rahi Rohit ne mujhe call kiya woh bahut pareshan lag raha tha, aur usne mujhe bataya ki Shilpa uske colony ke saath waali colony mein rahne aa gayi hai aur Rohit ke friends se Rohit ke baare mein puchh rahi hai.. maine Rohit ki baaton ko seriously nahi liya, par mujhe yeh baat thodi atpati lagi ki mere hotey hue, usko Shilpa ki itni chinta kyu ho rahi hai? Uski baate sunne ke baad mai phir exams ki taiyari karne chali gayi.
Us din ke baad se Rohit ne Shilpa ka zikra aur zyada karna shuru kar diya, woh usse na milne ke liye apne hi ilaake mein chhupta phirta tha ki kahi uski mulakat na ho jaaye Shilpa se, usne ek do baar usko samne dekha toh rasta bhi badal liya tha.
Rohit waise toh mujhe push karta rahata dur hone ke liye, aur kisi aur ko apna boyfriend banane ko suggest karta rahta par kai baar usne mujhe yeh ehsas dilaya tha ki ab usne female friends banani band kar di hai sirf meri wajah se, kyuki woh mujhe prove karna chahta tha ki mere loyality ko loyality ke hi rup mein return kar raha hai, matlab ek loyal boyfriend ki tarah hai jo kisi aur ladki ki or nahi dekhta, maine jabki usko aisa karne ke liye mana nahi kiya, han yeh usey pata tha ki mai thoda insecure feel karti hu agar woh kisi aur ladki ko appreciate kare toh. Par woh Shilpa ka zikra karta rahta tha… shayad isiliye ki usey pata tha ki mai bhi Shilpa ko aur ladkiyon ki tarah nahi dekhti hu, woh kabhi uska pyar thi, jis sach ko badalne ki soch bewakufi hai, yeh mujhe bhi pata hai.
Woh pichhle dino itni baar Shilpa ka zikra kar chuka tha, ki mujhe thoda sa laga ki yeh insan mujhse pyar nahi karta shayad ab bhi Shilpa se hi karta hai… par fir mujhe laga mai bekar ki chize soch rahi hu aur Rohit par shak kar rahi hu.
Ek shaam fir se Rohit ka phone aaya, woh us shaam bhi ghabraya hua tha, usne kaha ki woh nap le raha tha aur usey ek bahut bura sapna aaya… maine usse puchha kya sapna aaya?
To woh bola “Maine apne sapne mein bhagwan ko dekha aur usme tu aur Shilpa bhi they, bhagwaan mujhse kaha ki mujhe in dono ladkiyon mein se kisi ek ko chunna padega…”
Mai boli “fir”
Rohit bola “phir mer nind tut gayi, par agar real life mein kabhi aisi situation aai na to mai tum dono mein se kisi ko bhi nahi chununga…”
Apko meri baat shayad idiotic lagegi ki mai ek sapne ko lekar aisa react kar rahi hu, par uski baat ne jo meri rahi sahi ummid thi ki, usko mujhse pyar hai, usko achanak se duba diya. Mujhe Rohit ke push and pull game se pahle hi feel hota tha ki is insan ko mujhse koi pyar nahi hai, Neha bhi yahi kahti thi uske baare mein. Neha jeet gayi, mai haar gayi thi us din. Mujhe saath hi aisa laga ki ajtak bas Rohit mujhe use kar raha tha Shilpa ke liye apne feelings se move on karne ke liye. Yaani ki mai kabhi thi hi nahi, sirf Shilpa thi aur Rohit the…
Meri aankhon mein aansoo aa gaye, maine Rohit se kaha “Rohit mai tujhe force nahi karungi apne saath rahne ke liye, tu agar Shilpa ke paas jaana chahta hai ja sakta hai”
Rohit – “Yaar aisi baat nahi hai”
Mai – “Aisi hi baat hai, aur maine aj nahi pahle bhi kai baar aisa feel kiya hai. Ek bhi din tere saath aisa nahi guzra jab tune Shilpa ka zikra na kiya ho…”
Rohit – “Tu galat samajh rahi hai…”
Mai – “Mujhe bura nahi lagega, balki agar hum dono saath rahe to hum dono mein se koi bhi khush nahi rah paega…tu ab bhi usi se pyar karta hai”
Rohit kahta raha ki aisi baat nahi hai aur mai usko galat samajh rahi hu… par mere dil mein yeh baat baith gayi thi ki woh Shilpa se hi pyar karta hai… warna woh mujhe option ki tarah kyu treat kar raha tha, jab ki mai uske hamesha saath thi aur us Shilpa ka jab apne boyfriend ke saath break up ho gaya hai tab usey Rohit ki yaad aa rahi hai.
Rohit ne kisi tarah mujhe samjhakar chup kiya, usne topic change kar diya, par mera bilkul mann nahi tha baat karne ka, toh maine kaha mujhe parhna hai aur maine call cut kar diya.
Maine is baar seriously mann bana liya tha ki Rohit se alag hona hai, yahi sahi hai hum dono ke liye, Neha se baat karne ki koshish ki par usko laga ki mai hamesha ki tarah lovers fight waale drame kar rahi hu, aur usne kaha usey Rohit ke baare mein kuchh nahi sunna aur apne aap ko busy batakar usne phone cut diya.
Puri raat mai Roti rahi, uski kahi hui baate soch sochkar mera dimag phatt jayega aisa laga, woh pain unbearable tha, mujhe laga isse achha hai ki mai mar jau… mujhe us raat nind nahi aai, aur woh raath shayad meri zindagi ki sabse lambi raat thi.
Uske next day chhutti thi, maine subah phone mein baat karte wakt Rohit ke samane waisa hi react karne ki koshish ki jaise mai aur din karti hu, maine usey nahi bataya ki pichhli raat mai kis type ke pain se hokar guzri hu, woh bhi mazak ke mood mein tha, meri khichai karne ki koshish kar raha tha, usne kaha ki “tu mujhse pyar nahi karti, tu mere looks se pyar karti hai”…
maine bhi kah diya ki “ha mai tujhse pyar nahi karti hu shayad…” toh woh aur ulte pulti baatien karne laga. Isi beech maine usse puchha ki woh apne birthday ki treat kab dega?
Toh woh kahne laga ki “Mera birthday to November ke starting mein tha, maine tujhse jhut kaha tha ki mera birthday December mein hai”…
Maine kaha “okay…”
Rohit – “Aur mai tujhse ek saal chhota hu…”
Maine kaha – “kya? tu mujhse chhota hai, yeh toh galat hua, mujhe apne se chhote ladke, bachche lagte hai isliye mujhe woh pasand nahi”
Rohit – “Mai phir jhut bol raha tha…”
Maine taunt karte hua kaha “Yahi to tu hamesha karta hai, hamesha jhut bolta rahta hai, tu iske alawa aur kar bhi kya sakta hai?”
Rohit hanste hue kahne laga – “Maine tujhko gussa dila diya, maine tujhko gussa dila diya!!!”
Shayad pichhli raat ka mental pain ab mujhse sambhala nahi ja raha tha aur woh gusse ke rup mein nikal raha tha, maine kaha ki “haa mai gussa hu”,
mere haath mein ek copy thi, jiske pages mai itni zor se palat rahi thi ki unme se zoron ki awaz aa rahi thi aur usko phone se sunai de rahi thi, mujhe tab hosh aaya jab Rohit bola “Itne zoron se pages mat palat fatt jayenge!!!”
Maine ruki aur maine gusse se kaha “Aaj ke baad mujhse kabhi baat mat karna!” aur isse pahle ki woh kuchh kahta maine phone cut kar diya. Usne mujhe dubara call kiya to maine usko bhi cut kar diya aur apna phone silent mein laga diya.
Mujhe aisa laga mera dimag ab gusse ke maare explode ho jayega, aur mujhe first time aisa gussa aaya tha ki mujhe headache hone laga tha. Par us gusse ka nikalna zaruri tha… mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki mai kya karu, fir maine apne laptop mein fb khola aur Rohit ka chat box kholkar usko apne dil ki saari bhadaas likh daali woh saari baate jo mujhe taklif deti aa rahi hai, jab se mai uske saath relation mein aai thi. Maine gusse mein sab baate likhi thi, isliye mujhe yaad nahi hai ki maine kya kya likha tha, bas 2-3 baate itni yaad hai ki maine kaha tha, ki woh mujhe bewakuf bana raha hai, aur yeh ki last time jo shilpa aur mere baare mein usne kaha tha, uska seedha sa matlab tha ki woh mujhe usse compare kar raha hai.
Dopahar ke 12 baj rahe the, sir mein dard hone ke karan aur last night jage rahne ke karan, mujhe nind aa gayi. Aur meri nind 5 baje tuti, ghar mein sab ko lag raha tha ki meri tabiyat thik nahi hai. Maine apna phone check kiya usme Rohit ke 12 miss calls aa rakhe the, aur 2 messages aaye hue the, ek kisi website se usne kiya tha, kyuki usko mere phone na uthaane se laga tha ki maine uska no. block kar diya hai. Usme likha hua tha “Tu mujhe block karke mujhe ignore karne ki koshish kar rahi hai?, aur zara batayegi ki maine kab tujhe Shruti se compare kiya?” Usne same message apne no se bhi send kiya tha…
Maine uska message ignore kar diya, kyuki mera uske muh lagne ka mann nahi tha, mai pahle hi itna tortured feel kar chuki thi, ab jakar thoda mera dimag shaant hua tha. Mai apne next test ke liye study karne baith gayi.
Raat ke 9:30 baje maine usko message kiya, maine likha “naa hi mai tujhe ignore kar rahi hu, na hi maine tera no. block kiya hai”
Uska reply aaya “Tu ab mujhe yeh bata rahi hai?”
Maine kaha “Mujhe achanak se gussa aa gaya tha aur head ache ho raha tha, isliye maine aisa kiya”
Usne kaha “Mujhe laga tu mujhse sach mein baat nahi karna chahti, maine gusse mein tujhe fb mein block kar diya aur tere saare messages bhi delete kar diye”
Maine apna fb check kiya to pata chala ki usne sach mein mujhe block kar diya tha.
Usne mujhse puchha ki maine Shilpa ke baare mein aisa kyu kar rahi thi?
Toh maine usko kaha ki “isliye kyuki teri baaton se mujhe aisa feel hua ki jab tune kal kaha tha ki woh Shilpa aur mujhe kisi ko nahi chunega, kyuki mai tere saath thi phir bhi tu mujhe Shilpa ki tarah treat karega… Iska matlab hai ki mai tere saath hokar bhi kabhi tere saath thi hi nahi… aur tune ek baar meri smile usse compare ki thi, mujhe lagta hai ki tu mujhe sirf use kar raha hai usko bhulne ke liye, tu usse ab bhi pyar karta hai kyuki ek bhi din aisa nahi gaya jab tune uske baare mein mujhe kuchh na kuchh bataya na ho.. mai tujhe force nahi karungi apne saath rahne ke liye…”
Maine ek aur message kiya “Tu mujhe hurt kar raha hai mere saath rahkar, mere liye yeh bahut painful hai, tujhe pata nahi hai ki kal raat mai soi bhi nahi aur puri raat aisa lagta raha ki mera dil aur dimag dono hi pain se phatt jaenge… mai mar jaati par mujhme itne guts nahi hai ki mai suicide karne ki koshish karu, please tu chala ja, kyuki mere liye yeh sab bahut zyada painful hai…”
Usne mujhe bas itna kaha ki “Tu bas kuchh ulta pulta mat kar baithiyo, jakar soja tu, mujhe bhi apne exams ki taiyari karni hai mai baad mein baat karta hu tujhse…”
Woh chala gaya, aur us raat ko bhi meri halat pichli raat jaisi hi thi, woh meri situation avoid karke chala gaya kyuki woh aage shayad sunna hi nahi chahta tha.
Next subah usne mujhe call kiya, par mai wahi baat pakad kar baithi thi ki woh mujhe chodkar chala jaaye, par fir se mujhe avoid karne ke liye, usne kaha ki usey kuchh kaam hai aur woh mujhse baad mein baat karega, jabki woh sirf apne friend ke saath bahar ghum raha tha…
Neha bhi busy thi, usne mera call nahi uthaya, aur is taraf mera dil ro raha tha, mujhe mere chest mein heavyness feel ho rahi thi, mai us subah bahut zyada stressed thi, aur aansoo mere aankhon se nikle jaa rahe the, kuchh derr baad mera mann kiya ki mai apne nana ke room se kuchh din pahle color pencil ko chhilne ke liye ek blade lekar aayi thi, mera mann hua ki, mai usse apni nas kaat du, mai mar jaungi toh mujhe is pain se hokar nahi guzarna padega… mai us blade ko lene ke liye barh hi rahi thi, ki mai mentally tut gai, jo decision maine liya tha Rohit se dur hone ka woh bhi dol gaya, maine blade ki bajaye phone apne haath mein liya aru, bina soche samjhe ROhit ko phone mila diya maine kaha “Rohit, mujhe chodkar kabhi matt jaana, mujhe aisa laga ki mai marr jaungi”
Rohit ka usi samay call aa gaya usne kaha “tujhe ho kya gaya hai?”
Maine usko sab bata diya ki main kaisa feel kar rahi hu, usne mujhe kaha ki kabhi bhi aisa waisa karne ki sochna bhi matt. Usne mujhe shaant kiya, fir usne bataya ki woh apne friend ke saath ghum raha tha, usko laga ki mera koi normal message aaya to usne apne friend ke samne hi khol liya, ab uska friend puchh raha hai ki kya chal raha hai yeh sab?
Maine kaha its okay, “kisi ko bhi meri chinta karne ki zarurat nahi hai, agar mujhme guts hote to mai kar chuki hoti sab kuchh, bajaye ki tujhe message karne ke.” Us samay mein jaisa koi marne ka nasha achanak charhh gaya tha, ab sach mein main normal feel kar rahi thi, isliye maine usey samjhaya ki mai aisa kuchh nahi karungi.
Aur saath hi fir se mai usey push karne lagi apne se dur jaane ke liye, woh first time meri baate sun raha tha, warna mai jab bhi pareshan hoti toh woh topic change kar deta aur mazak karne lagta ya phone kaat deta kahkar ki usey kuchh kaam hai, Shayad meri is harkat se darr gaya tha woh. Honestly main aisa nahi chahti thi, mai chahti thi ki woh pyar ki wajah se mere saath rahe bajaye ki marne ki dhamki ki wajah se… mujhe aise logo par gussa aata hai jo apne lovers ko marne ki dhamki dekar rokne ki koshish karte hain. Mai aisi insan nahi banna chahti thi Rohit ke saamne, mai chahti thi woh tabhi ruke agar woh sach mein mujhse pyar karta hai bajaye ki darr ki wajah se ki kahi mai kuchh kar naa baithu. Par pata nahi mujh duffer ko us samay ho kya gaya tha, jo maine aisi harkat ki? Sach mein samajh aata hai ab ki Neha itni frustrate kyu hoti thi mujhse baat karke.
Rohit meri aur complaints bhi sunna chah raha tha, par uske is sudden change se mujhe ajib sa laga aur maine kaha mujhe exam ki taiyari karni hai aur main chali gayi… Uske baad raat 10 baje ke karib uska phone aaya, mai living room mein baithi hui thi, aur ghar mein sab so rahe the,
usne mujhse kaha “Tu mujhse alag hona chahti hai?”
Maine kaha “Haan, kyuki mujhe nahi lagta ki hum ek dusre ke saath khush rah sakte hai.”
Rohit bola “Tu kah rahi hai ki hame alag ho jaana chahiye… par kya fayeda aise alag honey ka?… Tu khud hi soch, Hum dono sirf physically hi dur ho paenge, par hamesha mentally jude rahenge aur ek dusre ke baare mein sochte rahenge… Hum mentally ek dusre se alag nahi ho sakte hai toh isse achha hai physically bhi saath rahe, jab tak rah sakte hain…nahi?”
Maine usko aise baat karte hue, chizon ko explain karte hue pahli baar suna tha, warna woh sorry kahkar mazak karne lagta tha… woh jis tone mein bol raha tha… mai uski baaton mein haan kahti gayi.
Hum dono ne uske baad woh chize share ki jo hame ek dusre ki buri lagti thi, aur hum dono ne ek dusre ke liye better hone ki koshish ki, uske baad hamare beech arguements bhi hone lagbhag band ho gaye the, aur hum ek dusre ko aur bhi zyada I love you kahne lage the.
Par ek aur change aaya tha Rohit mein woh tha ki woh kam bolne laga tha, toh kai baar mujhe lagta kahi mai usko pressurise toh nahi kar rahi? kahi woh meri us din suicide waali baaton ki wajah se yeh sab toh nahi kar raha? Rohit ne mujhe push karna band kar diya, yeh ehsas dilana band kar diya tha ki main usse commitment expect na karu. Par kya woh sach mein achanak itna change ho gaya tha? kyuki woh mujhse pyar karta hai? honestly batau toh mera yakin karna bahut mushkil tha. Mujhe apne upar toh kya? apne pyar ke upar bilkul confidence nahi tha ki woh kisi ko change kar sake. Uske is sudden change se mujhe khushi se zyada guilt hoti thi ki woh bas darr ki wajah se mere saath hai. Par mann mein selfishness bhi thi ki woh mujhse dur na ho…
Semester khatam ho gaye aur Mere nanaji ki tabiyat december mein achanak se kharab hone lagi thi, aur unko hopitalize karna pada, us samay mujhe laga ki situation itni serious nahi hai, mujhe laga woh thik hokar aa jaenge… mere mom aur nani uske saath wahi ruk gaye, mere masi unke liye khaana lekar jaate the, aur mom aur nani mere hi phone mein call karte agar masi se bhi unko baat karni hoti. 19th december ke samay ki baat hai, mere masi mumma se baat kar rahe the mere phone par tab Rohit ka message aa gaya, jisme woh mujhe call karne ko kah raha tha. Maine uska naam save nahi kiya tha jaanbujhkar. Maasi uska number milane lage to, maine roka toh, unhe aur shakk ho gaya, to maine give up kar diya ki yeh Rohit ka hi number hai… Mere masi ne usi samay usko call karke kaha ki “Rupali se kabhi ab baat mat karna, woh aisi waisi ladki nahi hai…” Rohit kuchh bolna chah raha tha, par masi ne phone kaat diya.
Phone kaatne ke baad mere masi ne kaha ki maine unka vishwas toda aur unke bharose ka fayeda uthaya hai… unhone meri ek nahi suni, mere phone ka sim nikalkar distroy bhi kar diya… aur kai ghanto tak daatte rahe. Mera dusra sim dusre phone mein dala hua tha, mai jab apne room mein gai toh maine I am sorry Rohit kahkar usme se message send kiya aur us phone ko chhipa diya. Us din maasi ne mujhse fir baat nahi ki, mai bhi razai ke anadar chhupkar rone lagi, sab kuchh aisa lag raha tha jaise koi bura sapna ho… fir kab nind aa gayi pata hi nahi chala…
Mujhse next day maasi ne yeh puchha ki mai Rohit se shaadi karna chahti hu ya nahi toh woh uske parents se baat karenge… Maine mana kar diya kyuki us samay hum dono young the, dusra mai sahi thi ya nahi mujhe pata nahi par mujhe yehi lagta tha par Rohit ki commitment na karne waali baat ab bhi yaad thi… Phir unhone mujhse puchha ki kya hoga agar mai pregnant ho gayi toh? maine kaha ki mai aisi harkat kabhi nahi kar sakti…(ajib baat hai ki Rohit ko is mamle mein mujhpar zyada trust tha bajaye ke us insan ko jo mujhe 18 saal se apne bachche ki tarah treat kar rahi thi… mai usse pyar karti thi par maine Rohit se kabhi direct aankhen bhi nahi milai thi)
Masi ne mujhse baat karni band kar di, Kuchh dino baad Nanaji bhi ghar aa gaye, January ka month start ho gaya tha. Mere colleges fir khul gaye, aur 2ndmai bina phone ke college jaane lagi, maine Sonal ko sab kuchh bataya, toh usne kaha ki mai agar Rohit baat karna chahti hu toh kuchh din aur wait karu jab tak sab kuchh shaant nahi ho jaata, maine puchha mere maasi ne usko bade harshly kaha tha mujhse baat karne ke liye, kya usko mujhpar gussa nahi aayega? Sonal boli ho sakta hai ki woh gussa kare… mai yeh sunkar thodi darr si gayi thi.
Sonal ne us semester top kiya tha, uske baad lecturers ka uspar dhyan gaya aur unhone usko encourage kiya aur bhi events mein participate karne ke liye, toh woh free periods mein bhi busy rahne lagi thi, aur college mein sirf wahi meri ek friend thi. Kuchh dino baad main apne ek classmate se baat karne lagi jiska naam priyanka tha, aur hum friends bann gaye, Maine Rohit ke baare mein usse share kiya, pata nahi usne aisa kyu kaha par usne kaha ki hum dono kabhi mil nahi payenge. zyadatar 90% relations mein aisa hi hota hai… usne yeh bhi kaha ki usey Rohit thoda gunde type ka ladka lag raha hai aur aise ladke thik nahi hotey…
(waise yeh sach tha, woh 10th tak bully type ka ladka tha aur dusre ladkon ko dara kar rakhta tha, par mere saamne to woh hamesha cutie pie banke rahta tha… mujhe is baat ka tab pata chala tha jab maine Rohit se 9th class ka incident share kiya tha… woh section A mein tha aur mai B mein… jab hum ek baar science center gaye the tab hightwise line mein mai apne class mein sabse peechhe lagi thi kyuki mai apne class ki ladkiyon mein sabse lambi thi, ya yeh kahiye mere class ki ladkiyan chhoti chhoti si thi. saumya aur mujhe saath mein dekhkar teachers hum dono ko tom and jerry kahte the, kyuki saumya sabse chhoti thi aur cute bhi aur mai sabse lambi… mere peechhe section B ka sabse chhote hight ka ladka laga hua tha, jo apne age ke hisab se bachche jaisa lag raha tha aur mujhse bhi chhota tha, peechhe se ladkon ko koi ladka dhakka maar raha tha, toh woh 2 baar mujhse takraya aur sorry kahne laga, par dusri baar kiya toh fir maine usko jhaad lagai thi. to dubar aisa karna
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ne band kar diya… Rohit ko jab maine yeh bataya, toh usne kaha tha mai hi dhakka maar raha tha peechhe se, maine surprised hokar bola “Kya sachh mein tu hi kar raha tha?” TOh usne bola “haan main hi tha, kyuki mere saath koi aisa karta toh woh baad mein pitta…” aur uske baad woh shuru ho gaya tha aur ladko ko peetne ke kisse kahaniyan lekar… AUr sach batau toh mere masi bhi gusse mein kah rahe the ki jis tarah se Rohit baat kar raha tha phone kaatne se pahle, woh gunde jaisa lag raha tha… honestly batau toh, mujhe woh aisa nahi lagta)
Priyanka ne dekha mai uski baaton se upset ho rahi hu toh woh samajh gyi mujhe uski baate thik nai lag rahi hai, usey yeh bhi pata chal gaya ki mai Rohit ko bahut zyada miss kar rahi hu… toh usne mujhe apne bag se phone nikal kar diya aur kaha usko call karlo…. phone samne dekhkar mai confuse ho gayi… maine kaha woh kya mujhpar gussa nahi hoga? Priyanka ne bhi Sonal jaisa hi same jawab diya…. Maine socha nahi tha ki mai usse kya kahungi, maine Priyanka se kaha mai ROhit se kal baat karungi…. maine Priyanka ko thanks kaha meri help karne ke liye.
Maine decide kiya ki mujhe kya baat karni hai Rohit se, maine socha tha sabse pahle toh mai usko sorry kahungi, aur baaki jo woh kahega ya decide karega dekha jayega…
Maine jab ghar pahuchi tab dekha Nana ji ke bhai aur unke bete yanni mere chachere mama aa rakhe hai aur un ko phir hospital leja rahe hai kyuki unki tabiyat achanak se aur kharab ho gayi thi, mujhe laga ki woh phir thik hokar laut aayenge. shaam ko mai bhi gayi thi unko dekhne masi ke saath but unka dialysis ho raha tha toh woh room mein nahi the. Last days jab woh ghar mein the, tab unhe ROhit waali chiz ke baare mein nahi pata tha shayad, par us samay achanak se woh mujhe zyda praise karne lage the, nani se puchhte rahte ki mai kya kar rahi hu kaha hu, jaha mere masi ne mujhe Slut aur prostitute se compare kiya tha, wahi Nana ji baar baar kahte ki mai bahut achhi aur hoshiyar ladki hu, aur bahut aage jaungi… pata nahi woh aisa kyu kahte kahte the, kyuki yeh sach nahi hai, shayad unhe mere na kahne par bhi pata chal gaya tha ki mai dukhi hu… isliye woh mujhe khush dekhne ke liye aisa kah rahe hai,{damn… mere aansoo kyu nikal rahe hai ab!!!} but I desperatly wish ki ma
i jaisa
unhone kaha waisi ladki hoti…
Next day, yaani ki 19th January 7 baje hi mere masi hospital chale gaye, unko mumma ne bulaya tha kahkar doctors bula rahe hai. Mai college jaane ke liye taiyar ho rahi thi aur mere mann mein yahi chal raha tha ki Rohit se kaise baat karni hai… par 8 baje land line mein masi ka call aaya, woh ro rahe the(mere masi rarely hi rote hai), isliye mujhe feel ho gaya ki kuchh galat hua hai, Unhone bataya ki Nana ji nahi rahe… aur mujhe unki baat par yakin nahi hua… Kyuki woh subah har normal subah jaisi thi, aise mein aisa kaise ho sakta hai?
Ek din mein sab badal gaya tha, aur aisa lag raha tha, Rohit se alag hone ke baad jo bura sapna chala ja raha tha woh aur darawana hota ja raha hai aur bura hota ja raha hai, par tut nahi raha tha… aisa lag hi nahi raha tha ki Nanaji kahi chale gaye hain.
Mom, nani, masi sabki halat kharab thi… ghar ki situation dekhkar kuchh din baad maine Rohit ke paas jaane ki hope ko give up kar diya, aur decide kiya mai apni family ko support karungi aur Rohit ke liye wish kiya ki woh khush rahe jahan bhi rahe, jiske saath bhi rahe… din guzre, hafte guzre,
20 February ki baat hai, mujhe viral hua tha aur mai medical certificate banane apne college ke paas waale clinic gayi thi apne masi ke saath, mai gaadi mein hi wait kar rahi thi, masi andar clinic mein the. Achanak maine Rohit ko aate dekha saamne se apne kisi friend ke saath, woh mera vaham tha ya woh sach mein waha ghum raha tha… par woh dikha mujhe, par 8 baje andhere mein uska shayad mai dikhai nahi di… Mai waise aisa faisla lene ke baad chahti bhi nahi thi ki woh meri or dekha…
maine dheere dheere Rohit ki buri baaton ko yaad karna shuru kar diya, isliye ki mai ek darpok aur selfish insan hu, jo darti hai ki woh apni family ki chinta na karke fir Rohit ke paas jayegi. isliye mai usse nafrat karne lagi…
Maine 1-2 baar apne bhai se puchha tha ki kya woh ab bhi Rohit se milta hai, toh mere bhai ne kaha ki usne bahut dino se Rohit ko nahi dekha ghar ke aas paas kahi bhi.
Mujhe depression hone laga tha… mai wish karne lagi thi ki mai mar jau, mai roti rahti, jaisa ki maine pahle kaha tha ki Rohit se mai nafrat karti hu to usse dugni nafrat mujhe apne aap se hoti hai… maine family mein kisi ko pata nahi chalne diya ki mere saath aisa ho raha hai… maine apne aap ko kisi tarah sambhale rakha par 2 saal baad mai tut gayi thi, jab mai bimar hui, mera assignment aur parhai chhuti aur is wajah se meri ER aa gayi thi final year mein, mujhe DU mein prostgraduation ke liye admission nahi mila, maine tab kai baar suicide letters likhe, par phad kar phek diye, kai baar blade kalai mein ra…
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DU mein prostgraduation ke liye admission nahi mila, maine tab kai baar suicide letters likhe, par phad kar phek diye, kai baar blade kalai mein rakha par, himmat nahi hui kalai kaatne ki… kai baar socha ki nani ke medicine box mein sleeping pills hai unhe kha lu… par nahi hui khaane ki himmat. Us samay mujhe Rohit se baat karne ka mann karta tha… aur coincidence dekhiye… usne mujhe mere naye FB profile par message kiya tha kyuki maine apna purana fb page deactivate kar diya tha jisme woh mera friend tha…”Tu fb pe? Kaisi hai?”… jab maine first time uska message dekha to maine, usko reply karna chaaha, type bhi kar liya tha message ki “Mai thik nahi hu…” par fir kisi chiz ne mujhe rok liya aur maine message send nahi kiya. Ajib baat hai us raat bahut tez baarish ho rahi thi aur mujhe laga jaise ki aasman bhi mere saath ro raha hai…
September ki shuruat mein maine ek institute mein admission le liya, ya yeh kahiye mere maasi ne suggest kiya mera mind in sab chizon se divert karne ke liye… maine bhi thoda hoshiyar banne ki koshish ki aur apne aap mind ko divert hone diya, jo course maine chuna tha usme bahut saara kaam karna padta tha, toh mai pure samay usi mein lagi rahti, ghar mein bhi college mein bhi, maine apna full concentration apne is course mein laga diya… aur mai is tarah se Rohit ke baare mein, apne ER ke baare mein kam sochne lagi thi. Ek nasha sa sir mein sawar ho gaya tha, lecturers bhi mujhe waha ke appreciate karne lage.
Mera ek senior tha 3rd year mein usi college mein uska naam Prateek tha, humne October mein thread work ke art mein saath mein participate kiya tha, tab se humari baat hui thi, waise woh mere same age ka hi tha kyuki usne school ke baad yahan direct admission liya tha, Pata nahi kyu par mujhe apne class ke bachchon ka friend banna pasand nahi tha, aur mai saari help teachers se hi leti thi, mere class ke bacchon se september ke baad se hi meri aaye din ladai hoti rahti, aur mai unse baat nahi karti thi, toh unhone ne bhi chhod di, mai alag aur akeli hi rahti thi class mein aur mujhe wahan aise hi achcha lagta. Par Prateek senior tha isliye uske saath aisa nahi kar sakti thi, aur woh achhce se hi baat karta tha. Usne mera number bhi manga tha, par maine nahi diya… par usne mere classmate se baad mein le liya tha kisi kaam se. College mein woh lunch period mein aakar mere paas baith jaata aur baat karne lagta, uske features thode thode Rohit se milte the, baal bhi curly the but lambe the, Rohit chhota haircut hi rakhta tha, aur awaz bhi lagbhag Rohit jaisi hi thi, uske baate karne ka dhang bhi Rohit jaisa hi tha. Par Rohit toh baat baat mein mazak karta tha, Prateek bhi karta tha par utna nahi. Thodi din baad mai Prateek ke saath as a friend close ho gayi, aur college mein wahi mere iklaute friend tha. Maine usko Rohit ke baare mein bhi bata diya, par Prateek ne uska wahi push and pull aur sudden change waali baat sunkar kaha ki ROhit mujhse pyar nahi karta, usne yeh bhi kaha ki Rohit ladkiyon ko use karne wala zyada feel ho raha hai, aur aise ladke mind games khelte hai taaki woh ladkiyon ko woh sab kara sake jo woh chahte hain(Thik woh baate jo mere masi ne bina Rohit ko jaane kahi thi 2011 mein jab unko mere aur ROhit ke baare mein pata chala tha)… usne kaha maine sahi decision liya uske paas na lautne ka…
Ek din ki baat hai, Prateek aur mai college ke garden mein baithe hue the, woh mera lunch share kar raha tha… kyuki woh khud ka lunch nahi laata tha, uske baad hum college ki baate karne lage, mai apne classmates ki buraiya kar rahi thi, maine kaha ki mujhe lagta hai mai 4th class ke irritating bachchon ke saath parh rahi hu, toh prateek ne mujhe shaant hone ko kaha, fir woh kisi aur chiz ke baare mein baat karne laga, aur yun hi baaton baaton mein usne kaha “I think I am in love with you”… mai ek takk usey pahle toh dekhti rah gayi… woh smile kar raha tha…
mujhe uski baat ka yakin nahi hua maine bhi hanste hue kah diya “Tumne mujhe Rohit ke mazaak ki yaad dila di…”
Toh woh bola ki “Mai us ladke jaisa nahi hu, mai mazak nahi kar raha, I really love you…”
Maine dusri muh kiya aur mere muh se thoda frustrate waale tone se nikla “Yeh kya problem hai?”
Prateek ne meri baat sun li thi, usne kaha ki “Mai tumhe force nahi karunga, par please ek baar is baare mein zarur sochna, aur mujhe baad mein sabkuchh soch samajh kar batana, I will wait for your answer…”
Aur usi samay lunch khatam ho gaya tha, toh Maine thoda confuse hokar kaha “Okay… fir baad mein milte hain… bye…” aur mai chali gayi wahan se.
Us samay college mein mai itna busy thi ki shayad isliye mujhe aisa kuchh feel nahi hua, ghar aai toh Prateek ki kahi hui baat yaad aai. agar main yeh kahu ki mera dil waver nahi hua tha, toh yeh jhut hoga… mai Rohit ki yaadon se pareshan thi, aur Pratik mujhe thik ladka laga tha. Par kya yeh galat nahi hoga Pratik ko use karna Rohit ko bhulne ke liye? Maine pichhle saalon itna tortured feel kiya tha ki Family ke baare mein sochne ki baat ab mujhe hypocritical lagne lagi thi… Par mere dil ne is temptation ko apne upar haawi nahi hone diya.
Maine decide kiya ki main Prateek se dur rahungi… mujhe darr tha ki agar woh sach mein mujhse pyar karta hai toh mai usko hurt karungi, mai 2 saal usse alag rahkar bhi usey bhul nahi paai thi, isliye main yeh faisla kiya.
Par Prateek ko dur karna itna aasaan nahi tha, woh itne achche se baat karta ki aap usse rudely baat kar hi nahi sakte, par mujhe uske aas paas rahne se stress waali feeling hoti thi… Hamare college mein har saal health mela lagta tha, aur uski taiyari karne ke liye teenon year se group banaye gaye aur badkismati se mai aur Prateek fir ek group mein aa gaye. Mujhe usse help leni thi kyuki woh mera senior tha aur woh experienced tha, toh mujhe usse baat karni hi padi… woh friendly way mein hi baat karta tha, toh maine bhi socha ki mai usko aise hi treat karungi isse zyada nahi. Woh kaafi helpful tha, supporting tha… mujhe ek baar toh lagne laga tha ki yeh mera naya crush ban raha hai, kyuki ab jab woh dusri ladkiyon se baat karta tha toh mujhe thodi jealousy hoti thi.
Par dusri or mai Rohit ka message roz check karti thi usko delete karne ke bajaye, mujhe pata tha ki reply nahi karna fir bhi mai karti thi, Rohit se mai nafrat toh karne hi lagi thi, uski sirf buri baate yaad thi…mujhe Rohit ki woh baat yaad aati thi ki jab mujhe push karte wakt woh hamesha kahta ki tujhe koi aur achcha ladka mil jayega… tab gusse mein mai sochti “Ki tujhe toh yahi lagta hai ki mai kisi aur ke paas nahi ja sakti, isliye tu aisi bakwas karta tha na? kya mai teri kahi hui baat ko sach kar du?” Kitna achcha lagega jab mai tujhe bataungi ki mai apni zindagi mein kisi aur ko le aai hu?… shayad mai Rohit se badla lena chahti thi, tabka badla jab mai uske saath thi par woh meri feelings ko seriously nahi leta tha, mai bhul gayi thi ki baad mein woh badal gaya tha, ya yun kahiye ki mujhe yakin nahi tha ki woh badal bhi sakta hai…
Mai Prateek se aur bhi zyada baat karne lagi thi, aur shayad isi chiz ne uski expectations barhai,
Ek din Prateek apne school mein jeete hue medals aur prizes ka bakhan kar raha tha, aur bata raha tha ki woh kitna talented hai, toh maine bhi mazak mazak mein kah diya, “Wow, Prateek mujhe toh tumse shaadi kar leni chahiye…”
Usne bhi mazak mazak mein kaha ki “Mujhe bhi yahi lagta hai, chalo abhi kar lete hai…”
Maine hanste hue kaha “chalo”, Toh usne kaha “aj se tum meri wife ho…”
Maine bhi mazak mazak mein kah diya “Okay Pati Dev…”
Usne kaha “I Love You Jaan”
Maine bhi kaha(Par mazak ko continue karne ke liye… mai apne puraane college mein apni girlfriends ke saath aksar aise mazak karti thi) “I love you too Jaanam”
Aur phir woh baate karne laga apni family ki, ki kis tarah se woh mujhe unse introduce karwayega, agar hamari shaadi hogi toh kaisi taiyari hogi, kaise hamari shaadi hogi?, woh hanste hanste saari baate kah raha tha, toh mujhe laga ki usey pata hai ki mai mazak kar rahi hu, aur mujhe laga woh bhi mazak kar raha hai.
Next day jab woh mila, tab mujhko yeh ehsas hua ki woh meri baaton ko seriously le raha hai, toh maine usko sach bata diya… aur woh gusse ke maare pagal ho gaya, usne kaha ki maine uski zindagi barbaad kar di hai, usne kaha ki maine uske pyar ka mazaak bana diya… maine usko sorry kahkar shaant karne ki koshish ki, par woh nahi maana, aur uski aankhon mein aansoo aa gaye the aur laal ho rakhi thi aankhen, woh apni classroom mein gaya, main usko samjhaate samjhaate uske peechhe aa gayi thi, waha koi nahi tha aur usne apne bag mein se papar cutter nikala aur apni kalai kaatne laga, aur main buri tarah se shocked ho gai, uske haath mein cut lag gaya tha, par maine usse cutter chhina jiski wajah se mere haath mein bhi cut lag gaya, maine chilla kar kaha “Tu pagal ho gaya hai kya?”… Usne kaha “Please Rupali yahan se chali jaao warna mai kuchh galat kar baithunga”… maine kaha “I am sorry Prateek…” Par woh zor se gusse mein chillaya “Tu chali jaa yahan se!!!” fir shaant ho kar bola ki mai kuchh bhi nahi karunga apne saath so don’t worry tum chali jao please… mai wahan se nikal gayi par main buri tarah se kaamp rahi thi aur mere haath mein se blood nikal raha tha, maine apna haath washroom jakar dhoya… aur fir tissue paper se lapet kar apni class mein aakar baith gai… mai bahut zyada darr gayi thi us din ke incident ki wajah se, Mujhe kuchh achche se sunai nahi de raha tha, na mai lectures mein concentrate kar paa rahi thi. Chhutti hui toh maine Prateek ko dekha, woh apne friends ke saath khada tha, uska friend meri or hi dekh raha tha, Prateek ne meri or dekha phir woh waha se chala gaya. aur mujhe samajh nahi aaya ki main kya karu?
Main ghar jaane lagi toh mujhe dizziness feel ho rahi thi, ghar pahuchi aur bathroom mein gai aur muh dho rahi thi, toh notice kiya ki mere naak mein se blood nikal raha tha… masi ne mere haath mein lage cut ke baare mein puchha toh maine kaha tute hue desk se cut lag gaya hai, unhone bataya ki mai bahut weak dikh rahi hu to maine unhe yeh bhi bata diya ki mujhe dizziness feel ho rahi hai aur naak mein se blood nikal raha hai, unhone kaha shayad main ajakal kuchh zyada hi studies ko lekar apne upar pressure daal rahi hu isliye aisa ho raha hai… unhone mujhe so jaane ko kaha. Mujhe Nani ne khana diya toh mujhse khaya nahi gaya, mujhe laga ek nivaale se hi mujhe vomiting aa jayegi… toh mai sone chali gyi. Meri shayad us din ke incident se halat kharab ho gayi thi.. woh din bahut darawana tha.. sirf meri ek bewakoofi ki wajah se itna sab kuchh ho gaya tha. Main soti rahi, next day bhi meri halat kharab thi, mai college nahi gayi aur nahane dhone ke baad fir notice kiya naak se blood nikal raha hai, aur fir dizziness feel ho rahi hai, pure din mai fir soti rahi aur us din bhi kuchh nahi khaya gaya aur uske next day bhi yahi hua yaani ki pure 3 din tak mere saath aisa hota raha.
4th day main college nahi gayi par nani doctor ke paas le gaye, toh unhone kaha dhup mein zyada derr rahne se drynesss ke karan aisa shayad ho raha hai, unhone kaha dizziness weakness aur dehydration se ho rahi hogi, maine unhe nahi bataya ki asal mein hua kya tha, aur mai bata bhi kaise sakti thi? Ghar pahuchi toh Prateek ke upar gussa aane laga, maine whatsaap khola aur usko kalai cut karne waale incident ke liye gussa kiya aur kaha ki kabhi kisi ladki ke liye aisa mat karna, kyuki jo ladki tumhe aisa karne ko majboor karti hai woh tumhe deserve nahi karti. Jo insan tumhe deserve nahi karta uske liye kabhi aisa mat karna, aur congrats tumhari wajaha se mai dizzi feel kar rahi hu aur mujhe nose bleed ho raha hai… ab toh tum khush ho rahe hoge na?
Uska reply nahi aaya aur saath hi usne mujhe whatsapp mei block kar diya.
Mai dubara college jaane lagi thi, prateek ek mahine tak college nahi aaya, toh mujhe chinta hone lagi, maine uske ek friend se puchha toh usne kaha ki woh usi din se nahi aa raha hai. Mujhe apne kiye par bahut zyada pachhtawa ho raha tha, par Prateek ke aisi harkat se gussa bhi aa raha tha, ki itni chhoti si baat ko lekar woh itna sab kuchh kar chuka tha… (I understand, kyuki mere saath bhi aisa Rohit waale samay mein hua tha, but mai ek galat insan hu aur maine yeh sab Prateek se expect nahi kiya tha… main janti thi yeh sab meri galti hai, par usey aisa nahi karna chahiye tha)…
Woh ek mahine baad dubara college aaya, pahle maine socha ki usse baat na karu but fir jo itne dino ki guilt frustration mein badal gayi thi jo mujhe pareshan kar rahi thi, aur mujhe usse maafi mangna zaruri tha. Jab woh mujhe free mila toh maine usko uske friends ke saamne hi kaha ki mujhe akele mein usse kuchh baat karni hai… aur main usk park mein le gayi… maine usko samjhaya dubara wahi repeat kiya ki usey woh sab nahi karna chahiye tha… aur sorry bhi kaha un sab chizon ke liye jinki wajah se usne yeh sab kiya… Prateek ne kaha ki woh apne cousin ke shaadi mein gaya hua tha isliye nahi aaya, usne kaha ki woh mujhe bhulna chahta tha isliye usne waha ek ladki se flirt karne ki koshish ki par shaadi se aane ke baad us ladki ne usey contact nahi kiya… maine bhi kaha its okay, hum dono relationship mein nahi hai, toh woh kisi bhi ladki ke paas ja sakta hai.(Ab soch rahi hu toh woh shayad aisa kahkar mujhe check kar raha tha ki mera reaction kya tha, ki mai jealous hu ya nahi… but mujhe aisa kuchh feel nahi hua tha us samay, kyuki mujhe clear ho gaya tha ki mujhe usse pyar nahi hai aur mai sirf Rohit ko bhulne ke liye uske saath aisa react kar rahi thi)…
Main Prateek se roz as a friend baat karne lagi thi, aur woh mujhse dusri ladkiyon ki baate kai baar is tarah se karta, mujhe feel hota woh mujhko jalana chaah raha hai, par mujhe kuchh feel hi nahi hota tha… woh thoda sa change ho gaya tha, woh pahle is tarah se baat nahi karta tha. Jaise woh mujhe kahega ki Shalini kitni cute hai na mujhe lagta hai woh mujhe like karti hai aur mujhse baat karne ki bhi koshish kar rahi hai… Toh kabhi kahega ki woh ladki cute hai kya mai usko pataane ki koshish karu? Maine aj us ladki ko I love you bola… etc etc…
Aapki story padne k baad mujhe lagta hai aap samjhdar k sath sath bewakuff v hein rohit jaise insan fillings imotions kuchh nhi sajhte mujhe toh tab hi rahul ganda lag gaya jab aap dono first time phone pe the jab usne aap k sath sexual baren kiya tab hi mei samjh gaya ki iska kuchh nhi ho sakta mei aap se nhi kahunga ki rahul k sath rista tod den yeh aap toh manege nhi isi liye kehraha hun k nayen riste v banaen unhen thukraen nhi haat aae riste ko thukra den toh samjhiye ki life ka the end ehi hogya aap rahul k bare mein sab janke v pyr karte chalege yeh pyr nhi aap andhere k aurr paste chale jarahe hein agr koi taldal mein adha v dhas gaya toh v koi thos ko pakd k nikal sakta hai lekin sar tak dubne k baad bhgwn khud v bacha nhi sakte chahen pass mein koi thos chiz hon tab v….kyun ki tab tak dono haat v dhas chuke honge isi liye aap v samey rehte hi sab samjhlen aap toh samajhdar hein hi aur yeh v janti hein ki ek simple si taali v ek haat se nhi bajte aur pyr kaise akele complete ho sakta hai insan jivn mein sirf pyr hi chahta hai agr hume kisi insan se wo pyr nhi milta jo hum diserv karte hein toh iska ek sath rehne ka kya mtlb balki hume usi ko dhundna chahiye jo hume deserv kare aur hum use deserv pyr ka koi limt nhi hota jo rohit 5 saal ka bna diya kya koi movie hai kya pyr karna jo 3 ghante mein khtm ho jaae mera ek kaha manlen plz bhale hi aap rohit se rista naa tod paen lekin nayen riste banane ki kosis karen dekhiyega kitni khusi paenge aap….
Shayad rohit aur rahul naam ek jaise h isliye apko confusion ho gaya hoga… But uska asli naam Rahul hi h…. Bas confirm karna chahti hu… Ap koi aise insan to nahi ho na jo hum dono ko jaante ho offline? 😛 Rahul ka itne dino baadRmaine parso unblock kiya tha…uska kal story post hone ke baad mujhe fb pe message krna thoda ajib tha? Usne mujhe bina puchhe yeh bhi kah diya h ki woh aage barh chuka h… To lagta h meri confusion durr ho gayi h ab… Ap use jaante ho toh thanks kahna.
main ek baar canteen mein akeli khadi thi toh ek ladka aakar mujhse phone no. maangane laga… par maine nahi diya… thodi derr mein Prateek waha pahucha aur maine usko is baare mein bataya toh, Prateek ke hosh ud gaye, jaise kisi ne uski girlfriend ke saath flirt kiya ho, mujhse gusse se puchhne laga ki kaun tha woh… par maine usko first time dekha tha, toh mujhe nahi pata tha ki woh kaun tha? Mujhe Raston ke saath saath logo ki shakle bhi aasaani se yaad nahi hoti… Prateek ne mujhe wahi par dubara “I love you” kaha… mai uske saamne harsh nahi hona chahti thi, toh maine kaha ki as a friend I care about you… aur fir us din ke baad kamse kam ek baar woh din mein mujhe I love you bolne laga… aur mera jawab same hota that I care about him.
Mujhe laga tha us din ke incident ke baad woh samajh gaya hoga ki mai usse pyar nahi karti… par lagta hai mai galat thi, woh mujhse mera pyar expect kar raha tha… aur mai uske aas paas fir se stressed feel karne lagi thi, mujhe darr lagta tha ki kahi maine usko sach bataya to woh fir se waisi harkat na kar baithe, (Mujhe aisa laga kismat mujhse us din ka badla le rahi hai jab maine Rohit ke saath aisa kiya tha, mujhe laga maine apni kabra khud khod li hai)
Main college mein aisi situations avoid karne lagi jaha woh mujhe mil sakta tha, maine uske classroom ke paas ke raste ki bajaye dusre raste se aana shuru kar diya, lunch mein bhi un jagah jaana band kar diya jahan woh ghumta tha, class mein hamesha kisi na kisi kaam mein busy rahti, ghar par phone ko silent mode par rakhne lagi thi mai.
Par woh aur mai ek hi college mein the toh chaahe mai jitne precautions le lu baat ho hi jaati thi, phir jaisa ki maine bataya ki usse baat karo toh usko escape kar paana mushkil ho jaata…
Ek din free period mein usne mujhe greeting card diya jisme usne ek poem likhi thi jo bahut pyari thi, jab maine use parha toh mere honthon par smile aa gayi thi, usne mujhe dubara I Love You kaha, woh jis tarah se kaha raha tha, mere muh se bhi “I Love You too” nikal gaya. Aur woh bahut zyada khush tha us din… aur mai confuse ho gayi… ki maine aakhir aisa kyu kiya? Phir situation ke saamne maine give up kar diya. Maine uske pyar ko accept kar leti hu, Mujhe nahi pata ki maine aisa kyu kaha us samay, shayad isliye ki woh bahut zyada insist kar raha tha aur mai usko na kahne se darti thi… maine socha mai usse pyar karne lagungi, maine apne mann ko manane ki koshish ki ki mai usse pyar karti hu, maine apne mann ko manaya ki mai Rohit ko bhul jau, 1 hafte tak sab thik laga par uske baad toh main aur zyada stressed feel karne lagi thi. Ab toh mujhe college aane ka bhi mann nahi karta tha, aur ajib baat thi ki main Rohit ko aur zyada miss karne lagi thi, mujhe us samay laga mai is chiz ke liye Rohit ko message karke usse help mangu ki mujhe kya karna chahiye? but I was really embarrassed ki maine bina feelings ke hi sahi par kisi aur ko date kiya hai aur Rohit ke siwaaye kisi aur ko apne life mein le aai. Isliye maine fir Rohit ko message karne ki himmat nahi hui, maine us samay bhi message type ki tha ki mai pareshaan hu, par sab erase kar diya.
Aur sochti rahi ki Prateek se kaise peechha chhudaya jaaye, mujhe college jaane ke naam se hi bahut zyada anxiety hone lag jaati aur mujhe rona aane lagta. Is college mein admission ke baad se main thoda normal ho gayi thi, par ab dubara waisa hone laga tha, mai itna pareshan thi ki mujhe fir suicidal feeling hone lagi thi…
Mere masi ko laga ER ki wajah se mujhe fir depression ho raha hai…. tab mere masi ne mujhse kaha tha”Duniya mein koi bhi chiz itni zaruri nahi hai jiske liye jaan di jaaye, agar is baar apse nahi hua to kya hua, fir next time try kar lena, par kabhi aisi chhoti si chiz ke liye give up mat karna!” aur saath hi unhone kaha ki “Agar aapne apni jaan deni ki koshish ki toh sab mujhe blame karenge ki, meri aisi parwarish thi ki apne aisa kiya, socho mera kya hoga?” unhone yeh bhi kaha ki chaahe jo bhi ho woh hamesha mera saath denge…
Itne saalon mein first time aisa laga ki masi meri care karte hai, warna Rohit ke mere life mein aane ke baad, hum dono mein duriyan aa gayi thi, aur ek baar toh aisa lagne laga tha ki, meri family ko meri parwah nahi hai… mujhe unki in baaton se bahut rahat mili. Shayad mai itni dari hui isliye hi thi ki mujhe laga mai akeli hu… aur koi mera saath nahi dega, maine Rohit se contact todne ke baad apne sabhi close friends se bhi contact tod diya tha, warna shayad mai sabse pahle aisi situation mein unke paas hi jaati.
Main socha ki jab maine Rohit ke jaane ki soch se suicidal feel kiya tha tab bhi dekha jaaye toh maine apne aap ko control mein rakha tha kyuki mujhe pata tha mai galat kar rahi hu, aur maine us samay Rohit ke baare mein bhi socha tha isliye ki “Mai kahi usey force toh nahi kar rahi?”… Par Prateek usey meri chinta hi nahi hai, woh bas apne liye mujhe chahta hai, aur meri feelings ka kya? Jinki wajah se meri yeh halat ho gai hai?… Mujhe Prateek ka aisa karna selfish lag raha tha… kyuki jab maine Rohit ko marne ki baat kahi thi, mai janti thi ki mai sirf apne baare mein soch rahi thi ROhit ke baare mein nahi… Mujhe pata chala ki log kyu kahte hai suicide karne waali chiz ko selfishness, kyuki hum dusre ke pain ko ignore karke sirf apne pain ko dekhte hai… chaahe dusre ka pain humse zyada hi kyu na ho… hum darte hai zimmedariyan lene se, unka bojh uthaane se, suicide is just an easy escape from everything. Aur main bhi toh aisi hi hu. Sach kahiye toh Prateek ne mujhe aaina dikha diya tha.
Main 1 week ki torture bhari chhutti ke baad college gayi, maine mann bana liya tha ki, ki main Prateek se break up kar lungi, aur mujhe pata tha ki mujhe usse kya kahna hai, but woh us din aaya hi nahi tha… sach puchhiye toh mai dari hui thi us din bhi, par main dekh chuki thi bhaagne se bas woh mere peechhe aayega isse achha hai ki usko sach bata kar mai hurt karu kyuki mai ab “Mai Marna Nahi Chahti”… Main usko bataane waali thi ki mai jab bhi uske paas hoti hu mai stressed feel karti hu aur mujhe lagta hai mai mar jau, isliye agar usko meri sach mein chinta hai toh woh mujhse dur rahe, kyuki maine usko bataya tha ki maine pahle bhi aisa karne ki koshish ki hai…
Mai chhutti ke samay Riksha se ja rahi thi, woh andar ki kisi gali se mujhe le ja raha tha, jo maine pahle nahi dekhi thi, beech raste mein uska Riksha kharab ho gaya, woh bana rikshaw thik karne laga tha, par derr ho rahi thi, toh maine kaha bhaiya mujhe derr ho rahi hai aur 20 rupay pakda kar waha se nikalne lagi, mai waha pahle bhi aa rakhi thi mujhe feel hua, par mujhe Rasta yaad nahi tha, ek park dikha toh yaad aaya mai school time mein apne friends ke saath ghar aate wakt isi ke andar se guzri thi… toh maine socha wahi se jau, andar dekha gai toh, park ke right side mein thodi si durr, couples baithe hue the, par mai ignore karte hue nikalne lagi, un logon ne bhi mujhe notice nahi kiya… par achanak se mujhe feel hua ki woh ladka usey main jaanti hu… maine dekha toh wahi red t-shirt aur blue jeans jo Prateek pahenta tha, aur kandhe tak curly baal… Us ladki ne shorts pahne hue the… aur woh park ki deewar par baithi hui thi, Prateek ne uske thighs mein haath rakha hua tha aur us ladki ka haath uske haath ke upar tha, woh uske saamne khada hua tha, meri or uski peeth thi aur achanak us ladki ne usko apna face aage barhakar, kiss bhi kiya… side mein zameen mein usne apna bag rakha hua tha(diesle ka light brown color ka bag), aur mujhe pata chal gaya yeh Prateek hi hai…
Wah, jis ladke ke baare mein sochkar mai itne dino se tortured feel kar rahi thi, woh college bunk karke yaha kisi ladki ke saath gulchharre udaane mein laga hua tha. Wah wah wah… It was really disgusting. Par sach puchhiye toh, meri jaan mein jaan aai, mai kitna guilty feel kar rahi thi Prateek ke liye aur yahan par toh bhagwaan ne woh Rikshaw kharab karke mujhe bacha liya… ya fir woh Rikshe waala hi bhagwan tha shayad… Maine thoda sa confused feel kiya, kyuki jis tarah se Prateek baatien karta tha, Rohit par bhi mujhe kabhi puri tarah trust nahi tha jitna ki Prateek ki baaton mein tha… aur woh Rohit ko apne aap se compare kar raha tha… Ki main Rohit jaisa nahi hu? Tu Rohit jaisa ho bhi nahi sakta… USne kaha tha ki ROhit jaise ladke jo chiz chahte hai usko paane ke liye kuchh bhi kar sakte hai… Rohit ne mujhe push kiya tha, mazak kiya tha, par woh itna insensitive nahi tha ki mujhe ki mujhe woh chiz karne ko force kare jo mai nahi karna chahti.
Main ab itna nahi darr rahi thi break up karne se jitna pahle darr rahi thi….
Ek incident share karna chahti hu jo is kisse se mujhe yaad aaya, jiske baare mein mujhe Rohit ne bataya tha… Tab ki baat hai jab hamare 12th ke boards ka result nikla tha, tab Rohit apne kisi friend ke ghar pass hone ki khushi ki party mein gaya tha… uske kuchh friends drink bhi karte hai, to unhone vodka aur sharab etc wagarah mangaaye aur Rohit ko bhi kaha par usne mana kar diya, uske friends ne us ghar ke desktop pe apne facebook ID kholni shuru kiye… woh log nashe mein the, jo bhi ladki online dikhti usko I Love you send karte, aur kahte “tumne na kiya toh mai marr jaunga”… Rohit ne bataya ki maximum kya? saari ladkiyon ka reply tha “Jaa marr jaa!” ab pata chalta hai ki ROhit ko mujhe “Masoom” kahne se matlab kya tha. ki mai ek number ki duffer hu, jo mazak aur sach mein differentiate nahi kar paati… Rohit ne isi darr ki wajah se us din waha apna fb nahi khola warna us din shayad mujhe bhi aise message aa jaate, Par Rohit ne bataya ki woh waha sprite peene mein laga hua tha, jisme uske kisi friend ne vodka mila diya tha, aur usey uske taste se pahle hi ajib feel ho raha tha, fir nasha bhi lagne laga aur woh ghar chala gaya aur baar baar vomiting karne laga aur mom se daat bhi bahut padi usey aur chhoti bahen mazak kar kar ke hans rahi thi uski is halat par… (Jab usne mujhe yeh bataya tha, to mujhe bhi hansi aa gayi thi…)
Next day maine bhi usko jaan dene ki dhamki dekar aur emotinal blackmail se bhari jhuti baatien kahkar break up kar liya, maine usey is baare mein nahi bataya jo maine park mein dekha tha… waise mujhe zarurat bhi kya thi? woh toh mera secret jackpot tha jiski wajah se maine guilty hona chhod diya tha… uske baad Prateek mujhse dur rahne laga, aur college mein bhi sab kuchh normal ho gaya…
Mai dubara apni parhai mein full concentrate karne lagi… Finals mein mere achhe marks aaye, sabse zyada khushi thi ER clear karne ki, bahut tarsaya tha is ER ne mujhe, mere assingments ke marks nahi jude the isliye 100 tak count nahi hone the… but mere 75 mein se 72 marks aaye the… 😀 Main bahut khush thi apne results ki wajah se pichhle saal…
Prateek bhi chala gaya, uska final year jo tha… Mujhe nahi pata mai sahi hu ya nahi but to be honest kai baar main sochti hu, ki Prateek ko pata tha ki mai usse pyar nahi karti shayad isliye usne waisa act kiya, ya pata nahi… mai sure nahi hu… But I don’t hate him for doing that… Par mujhe lagta hai Rohit hota toh shayad usey zinda khaa jaati main!!!
2nd year bhi mera complete ho gaya hai, mai apne final year mein hu aur is saal meri internship bhi hai, 3 month pahle ki baat hai (aj waise mera birthday hai, I am 23 years old now) 😛 …. Achhe results nikalne ki wajah se mujhe shayad itni zyada khushi mili ki us khushi mein maine Rohit ko bhulna shuru kar diya tha(ab lagta hai ki mai galat thi)… 1 saal guzar gaya mujhe laga ki maine finally move one kar liya hai, but 3 mahine pahle mujhe apne pelvic joint mein pain ho raha tha, Jiski wajah se mujhe chalne mein problem ho rahi thi… Toh masi mazak mazak mein bole “Apne aap ko jaldi jaldi thik kar lo, warna langde ho gaye toh kaun shaadi karega aapse?”
Mujhe family ke samne shaadi wagarah ki baat karne se mai bahut zyada embarrass feel karti hu, isliye maasi mujhse aisa mazak nahi karte… isliye mai unki or dekhne lagi ki woh yeh kya kah rahe hai? Toh masi bolne lage ki “Kyu bhai aise kyu dekh rahe ho? Main nahi rakh sakti apko puri zindagi”
Maine uski baat ignore kardi, par usi ke kuchh din baad nani ko mumma se akele mein baat karte suna ki papa aur mom mere liye ladke dhundane shuru kare… mere mom ne kaha ki woh toh abhi sirf 22 ki hai.. toh nani bole, achche ladke milne mein time lagta hai, isliye abhi se dhundane start karna padega…
Unki baat sunkar, pata nahi kyu mai fir se Rohit ko miss karne lagi hu, mujhe lagta hai mai kisi aur ladke ko apne liye accept nahi kar paungi, aur Prateek waale incident ne to meri is soch ko prove bhi kar diya hai, us samay mai itna zyada usey miss kar rahi thi ki maine kai baar socha ki usko us 2014 waale message ka reply kar daalu, par bahut saari chize mujhe rok rahi thi family ka darr, mera apna low confidence, guilt, prateek waale incident ka guilt, Rohit ke side se rejection ka darr bhi…
Achanak se woh saari hateful feelings jo Rohit ke liye mere mann mein pichhle 4-5 saalon se thi woh kisi aur ladke ko life-partner banane ke naam se gayab ho gayi… isi dauran maine is website ko dhunda “The lovers point” kyuki mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki mai sahi kar rahi hu ya galat, maine yaha story bhi post ki jo share nahi hui…
Maine apne aap ko bahut roka par 22 july 2016 ko maine usko message kar hi diya, par usne mujhe reply 23 july 2016 ko kiya tha… maine socha tha ki usko puchhungi ki “kya mai uska wait karu ya mom dad ko apne liye life partner dhundane du? kyuki mujhe nahi lagta mai uske alawa kisi aur ko apni life mein enter karne de sakti hu.” Par meri himmat nahi hui usey yeh kahne ki
Rohit ne mujhse puchha ki kya chal raha hai meri life mein? maine usko apne studies ke baare mein bataya, usse bhi maine puchha toh pata chala woh post graduation ke saath internship kar raha hai… usne yeh bhi bataya ki usko 2011 mein blood waali khaasi aur chest pain tuberculosis ki wajah se ho raha tha… maine usko ER waali baat bhi batai aur yeh bola ki “itne saalon baad mai itni khush hu, toh mujhe khush hone de”
Mujhe us samay toh yeh feel nahi hua par baad mein feel hua ki shayad Rohit ko laga mere kahne ka matlab hai ki mai… usse baat karke itne saalon baad khush hu. Kyuki usne mujhe dherr saare smiling emoticons ke saath bheja tha “Itni khush kyu hai tu?”
Par maine us samay usko bewakufon ki tarah send kar diya “Mai is pure saal khush thi, result nikalne ke baad”….
Mai usse baat karke khush thi toh sahi, smile karte karte mere cheak bones mein dard hone laga tha… par jab woh chala gaya tab dhyan aaya mujhe…
Hamari 2 ghante tak baat hui aur mai usse aur baat karna chahti thi, par masi office se aa gaye the toh maine usse kaha ki, baad mein baat karte hain…
Mujhe usko khud dubara message karna ajib lag raha tha aur mai expect kar rahi thi ki pahle ki tarah woh mujhko message kare, par 2 week ho gaye, usne mujhe message nahi kiya, toh maine socha mai fir usko message karu, par mere low confidence ne mujhe fir roka toh maine Smriti ko contact kiya aur 5 saal pahle uske aur mere beech jo kuchh bhi hua tha woh batakar, usse puchha ki “Kya mai Sahi kar rahi hu?”
Smriti ne mujhe rok liya, usne kaha ki shayad woh sachme dar gaya tha meri suicide waali baat se, usne kaha jitni bhi story usne suni usse usko yahi lagta hai ki Rohit sirf time pass kar rahi tha, usey mujhse koi pyar vyar nahi hai, usne kaha ki woh mujhe confuse kar raha tha… kyuki usko mere emotions ki koi chinta nahi hai.
Smriti ne yeh bhi kaha ki maine apne 5 saal aise insan ke liye waste kiye hain jise meri koi chinta nahi hai, aur mai isey continue na karke Rohit ko bhul jau… Smriti ne kaha ki main bahut emotional hu, aur ROhit jaise log isi baat ka fayeda uthaate hai… aur mai usko block kar du fb mein, taaki woh uske contact karne ka akhiri zariya bhi khatm ho jaaye. Aur maine uske kahne par aisa kar bhi diya… Smriti ke ladkiyon se zyada friends ladko mein hai. TOh maine socha ki woh unko achche se samajhti hogi. Mujhe laga mai Smriti ki baat sunkar sahi chiz kar rahi hu.
Par mera dil darta hai, ki mai galat toh nahi kar rahi? Mujhe Prateek waale incident ke baad se is baat ka yakin ho gaya hai, ki kisi aur ko mere life mein enter karne ki meri permission bilkul aisi hai jaise ki mai apni maut ko dawat de rahi hu…
Par bahut si chize mujhe Rohit ke paas jaane se rokti hai, shayad mujhe sabse bada darr yeh lagta hai ki agar sab log sahi hai Rohit ke baare mein, toh mujhe darr hai ki mai bardasht nahi kar paungi, kyuki mujhe nahi lagta hai woh mujhe sach kabhi batayega… par agar woh log galat hain to mai apne aap ko kabhi maaf nahi kar paungi… Isliye kai baar aisa bhi lagta hai ki itna shakk karne ke baad toh mai usko waise hi deserve nahi karti… Par agar mai uske paas nahi gayi, toh bhi mujhe lagta hai ki mere saath kuchh galat hoga… Agar woh mere paas abhi aaya toh I promise, ki main ab uska haath nahi chhodungi… ap sab yahi kahenge ki mai apni family ke baare mein ek baar sochu but mujhe lagta ki mai 5 saal pahle jo galti kar baithi hu, uski wajah se mai family waalo ke liye bhi burden hu, toh Rohit se zyada toh unki wajah se maine depressed feel kiya hai, I am twisted, Iske baare mein sochu toh mai hypocritical feel karti hu… Mai selfish ho gayi hu. Mai unnhe hurt na karne ke chakkar mein apne aap ko hurt karti aa rahi hu, par ab mujhse bardasht nahi hota…
Mai ek behad selfish insan hu, isliye sabse zyada mujhe apne aap se darr lagta hai. Par sach batau toh mai kabhi nahi chahti thi ki aisa mere saath ho aur mai aisi ban jau, par aisa lag raha hai, sab kuchh mere control se bahar hota ja raha hai… mai woh banti ja rahi hu, jo mai kabhi nahi banna chahti thi. Aur mujhe lagta hai, ki Rohit hi mujhe rok sakta hai, kamse kam woh mujhe yeh bata de ki “Usne mujhse pyar kiya hai bhi ya nahi? ki sach aakhir kya tha, ya toh woh mujhe accept kare ya fir reject karke hurt kare aur mera bhram meri expectations khatam kar daale”, Mujhe lagta hai mere saath aisa ho hi isliye raha hai kyuki mai confused hu… Aur dusron ke suggessions aur advise par mujhe yakin nahi hai. I really really wish ki mujhe sach ka pata chal jaaye woh bhi Rohit ke apni zuban se.
Your story is real. Mujhe toh kafi time lg gyea story read krne ke leye. Apne bohat suffer kea hai apne life mai. Story read krte time mujhe esa laga shayad rohit apke sath thek nhi kr raha tha. Kyoki app ko pata hi nhi chlta tha ki kb wo serious hai aur kb mjak kr raha. Mostly wo apke emotions ke sath kehlta tha. I am sorry agr apko burra laga ho. But i understand your feelings. Agar kese se love ho jaye toh bhulana bohat difficult ho jata hai.
Mujhe laga tha mujhe gaaliyan padengi… Isliyemaine pahle storylikhkar post ko cancel karadiya… Is baar shaant mann se detail mein likhi aur fir darr rahi thi… Raman ji Apke comment se mujhe rahat mili… Actually maine Rohit ko apne birthday waali raat ko unblock kar diya, yeh story post karne ke baad… aur wish kar rahi thi ki woh mujhe message kare… Aur meri wish lagta h puri ho gai h… kal raat ko uska message mujhe aaya… Jiska maine abhi subah ke samay reply kiya tha… Par woh busy tha… Toh usne kaha baad mein baat karenge… I hope ki wo sab kuchh clear kar de taaki meri confusion durr ho jaaye… Wish me a good luck. Mera manna h jo kuchh hota h maximum time ache ke liye hi hota h.
Oh my my!!! Such a LONG stry :-/ i tuk mny brks 2 read d whle stry n cmnts sectn n finally i cmpltd it….! 😛
jokes apart, rupali di u’ve gne thru dis painful “lv” n abi tk mje ye bat smjh ni aai “did he evr lvd u or jst tympasd?” apne glt kaha u r nt selfish, slfish tho o Rohit tha he jst playd wid ur emotions! Bht glt kia apke 7 i cnt undrstnd hw u beard dis torture… Whenevr a rd a stry i usd 2 chek 4 ur cmnts cuz i fl u say crct n i lyk d way u suggest! Actualy “he dsnt deserve u, u dsrve a gud prsn” cuz his nature is smwht dfrnt n ur nature is cmpltly dfrnt, 5yrs relation widout comitmnt?! He is so MEAN! I knw lv meks us tek sch stupid dcsns! Jst clear wid hm whthr he lvd u, if he rly lvs u he shud try 2 cnvnce hs parents, atlst he shud giv a try….
If he denies thn jst liv hm di u’ll get a betr guy thn hm “loving n caring”
I rly hpe ki ap khush rahe… May god shwr hs blsngs ovr u….
N SORRY if I’ve spoke wrng i dint mn 2 hrt u…
Nahi Anjali ji mujhe apki baat ka bura nahi laga 🙂 Mai apki jagah hoti toh yahi comments deti… kyuki aap ek third person ho… aur kaha jaata hai ki, third person ko chize clear dikhti hai… mai shayad abhi is chiz mein fasi hui hu isliye confused hu… Shayad nikal bhi chiku hu, par baar baar mudkar dekhne ki latt lag gai hai. 😛 Apne aap ka kya karu mai? Par apkne jo baate boli uska dhyan rakhungi mai… ap meri favorite ho waise bhi yahan par.
Hehe wow apko mra nam yad h! Hmm n thnq ap b mri fvrt ho 😛 sachi….. I alwys wt 4 ur cmnt… Hmmm rohit mvd on??? 🙁 so u shud also mve on yar i mn ur so nyc, i lykd ur nature u dsrve a betr guy…!!!
Oh apko bhi thank you jenny ji. 😛 aur Dekhte hai ki kya hota hai aage… thank you once again. 🙂
Rupali ji…. Ur story is too cutee but i wanna say one thing is that ki apko rohit se saaf saad puch lena chahiye tha ki vo apse pyar krta bhi ya nhi or kya chahta h apse so apko clear ho jata or apko kisi guilt me kisi frustation k sath jeene ki jrurt nhi hoti infact ap khushi se apni life spend kr skte the…
Nd one more thing is dat ur r also too cute… ????????
I love the way u talk nd i wish aage apko kbhi bhi aoni life me struggle na krna pde….????
Angel ji thanks :)… Maine usse 5 saal pahle kai baar puchha tha ki woh mujhse pyar karta hai ya nahi? par tab usne kabhi mujhe satisfying jawab nahi diya…
Abhi isi week mein tuesday ko meri usse baat hui thi, to maine usse maafi mangni chaahi us chiz ke liye jo mere masi ne usse 5 saal pahle kahi thi… Toh woh kahne laga ki mai kyu in sab chizon ko pakad kar baithi hui hu?… Usne kaha ki woh bahut aage barh chuka hai… aur bhul chuka hai sab kuchh… aur baar baar puchhne laga ki mai kyu sochti hu in sab chizon ke baare mein?…
Maine bahut odd feel kiya uske aage barhne waali baat se toh meri “Do you love me or not?” waali chiz puchhne ki himmat hi nahi hui aur maine topic bhi change kar diya… Kya apko lagta hai fir bhi mujhe usse ek baar puchh lena chahiye tha?
Omg! Sch a lng cmnt!!! Ufffff……
Arey baapre baap itni bdi lmbi story padhke mera halat hi khab ho gya….
Chalo apne kam se kam parhi toh… Sorry and thanks ajay ji 🙂
tmhri stry pd ke mje apni strt yd aa gai…..aise mere sth b hua tha..kbi mzk kbi pyr mai kbi smj ni pai ki mai kya smjhu….mje kbi smj ni aya ki mai usse bt kru ya na kru….bt ab ye condtn ho gai h meri ki mai bt ni krna chahti hu…jaise tmne btya ki tmhri lyf me koi or aya…meri lyf me b koi or aya mai apne bf ke bre me sb bta dia…fir b dusre bnde se maine mna kr dia..ki maine sirf ek se hi pyr krte h…uss hi krege…wo ni mana usne mera 1 yr wait kia…….tb mje usse pyr ni tha…..fir b propsl accept krna pda…maine bol b dia tha…ki mai pyr kbi ni krugu tmse….wo man gya….bt yha prateek ne tmko cheat kia…bt 2nd wala mere liye loyal tha…….
Ankita ji, I am glad ki apko aisa loyal insan mila… mai samajhti hu apki feelings kyuki aap hi ne kaha hamare saath similar chiz hui hai… Mai apke liye pray karungi ki aapke saath jo bhi ho ab se achcha ho… Kyuki mai apse emphasise kar sakti hu, toh mai yahi kahungi… jo apko thik lagta hai woh karo, kismat mein jo likha hai wahi hoga, aur maximum time jo hota hai achche ke liye hota hai… 🙂
pyr lyf me kch ni hota h…scha pyr whi h ..jha undrstng ho…..trst ho..loyalty ho…pyr to sb krte h…bt nibata koun h….tmne jaisa kha..ki tmhe strtng me ldko se bt krna psnd ni tha…uncmfrtble feel krti thi…mera b kch yhi hal tha…bf bnne ke bd himmt aai h…ldko se bt krne ki….
hi rupali seriously apki st0ry bhut achi he kal mane read ki 2 to 6 baje tak itne achi thi ki incompalte kese choad skti thi. apne jo bhi btya use ye to pat lgta he ki aap use kitna pyar krte ho har ek movement ko share kia he ek choti se choti bat btai h aapne jo aapne struggal kia infact koi hi ldaki itna krti puri sidat se apne pyr ko nibhya but rohit acha ladka he agr vo galt hota to apki fikr nhi krta apki care nhi krta but pyar krta he ya nhi ye ni smjhm paye hum kya rohit ne ye story padi kya use pta he apne ye sab likha he plz unhe btao or agr vo apse pyr krt e he ya nhi plz hume bato
Divya ji… mai usko yeh story dikha deti… par is story mein kai jagah suicide waale incident bhi maine share kiye h… toh mai nahi chahti usey is baare mein pata chale… jaisa ki maine kaha hai ki mai usko marne ki dhamki se wapis nahi laana chahti apni life mein 😛 … yeh galat hoga… par apne sahi kaha ki, Rohit care toh karta hai, par pyar karta hai ya nahi? yeh pata nahi chal pa raha… aur meri friend Smriti ne bhi yahi kaha tha ki “Akhir yeh ladka chahta kya tha?”… par apka suggestion mere dimag mein hamesha rahega… thank you so much meri story ko appreciate karne ke liye. 🙂
payr bhut khubsurt eahssah he jisko bhi milte he vo sari duniya bhul jata payar ek viswas he payr ek dusre ki care he ek dusre ki undarstanding he apka pyar vo he jo bina bole samjhe its wonderfull
rupali may apse conectid rahna chati hu ye janan chati hu ki kya hua daily to es to es site pr nh dekh sakti agr or koi option he to btao
Hi rupali yar bhut time lga aapki story padhne m BT koi nhi
Rupali aapne Jo v btaya h rohit k bare m use padh kr aisa lagta h rohit bura ladka nhi h use aapki fikr h or sayed pyar v krta h aapse or uski mjak krne ki aadat thi esliye wo aisa bolta tha. Or waise v kV kV aisa hota h aap jb tk sath ho aapki kadar nhi hoti h dur Jane pe hi aapki kami mahsus hoti h etne salo k bad aapne rohit se bat ki h ek bar aap unse pucho wo kya chahte h fir aap design lo aapko kya krna h fir koi confusion nhi rhega OK.
God bless uu dear.
Sorry and Thanks Sushmita ji 🙂 Yeh toh mujhe bhi feel hota hai ki Rohit bura ladka nahi hai, par mai kya karu mujhe samajh nahi aa raha sach mein, mai apko bhi wahi kahna chahungi jo maine Angel ji ko reply kiya hai.
How long story!Rupali ji aapki story me sachai h n ye b pata chalta h ki aap Rohit se bahut pyar krti h but jo b batein apne uske bare me kahi that clearly show ki wo apse pyar nhi krta bcoz koi b pyar krne wala apki feelings ka majak nhi banata aur apko nhi uljhata. Ye baat apke dil ko b achche se pata h that he doesn’t love u aur shayd kabhi karega b nhi phir aap kyun apne aapko jyaada uljha rhi ho I m sorry to say but u deserves better than Rohit. I know apne pyar ko bhulna bahut mushkil hota h but what if jisse aap pyar krte ho vo apse pyar nhi kr rha n sirf confuse kar rha h in fact mujhe to uspr gussa aa rha aap usse itna pyar krte ho aur vo apke sath sirf time pass kr raha h plz don’mind but u should move on n focus on ur carrier.
THanks Indu ji mai apko baat se agree karti hu, mai bhi isi wajah se ruki hui hu kyuki mujhe bhi yahi lagta hai ki koi insan kisi se jab pyar karta hai toh woh uski feelings ka mazak nahi bana sakta, par fir bhi aap jante hi hoge agar apne kisi se pyar kiya hai toh, ki apko 0.01% bhi chances dikhte hai toh aap tempt ho hi jaate ho aise situation mein… Par phir shayad aap sahi ho… I will keep your suggestion in my mind. 🙂
Thank you guys itni lambi story ke liye wakt nikalne ke liye… 🙂 Dekhte h ab aage kya hoga maine sab kuchh luck pe chhod diya h par kuchh galat nahi karungi… Ap logo ke suggestions mere dimag mein hamesha rahenge. Mujhe lag raha h maine yaha pahle story na post karke galti kar di… Aap logo ka bahut bahut thanks support ke liye.
Rupali dear pta h Maine kl puri raat jg k apki story read ki ksm se bht hi sad h story
Awwwh Saba ji apki baat se meri honthon pe smile aa gai hai ki apne mere story ke liye aisa kiya … I am Sorry taklif ke liye aur saath saath thank you so much for reading it. 🙂
Very nice story & vary long
2 din se time nikal k padh rhi hun ab ja me puri hoi
Really NYC story …
NYC story …its too long ..kyuki apne dil se har ek baat ..har ek feeling jaheer ki hai …
mje kafi tym laga story padne me but I really enjoy and miss my school days….thnx for u …
Thank you Jassi ji. 🙂 I am glad you enjoyed it.
Aapki story jst abiiee par k cmplt kariii humne….pure 3 hours lage humko parne meiin aur smj’ne meiin…bas itta kehna chahnge hum!!!! K…ye pyar kya hota h hum’me pata ney bczzz I jst 17 years old boY 🙂 🙂 par love story parna hum’me bht accha lgta hh…. 🙂
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listen :O dear Js leave him and move on in ur lyf….u deserve,sme1 betr den him…wen u knw he is doing all dis den y u still believe on him…aI know aap real love krte ho aapke liye sab kch itna easy nai h but dear use some brain with urheart u will be more happy …..Ek baar aap k saath past mein sab ho chuka h…jabardasti ki relation rkhkr aap wahi situation dobara create kr rhe ho …..…move on in lyf…lyf is not incomplete without boyfrnd..believe me….Make new frnds ..spent tym..and chill in lyf… <3
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And happy birthday dear :-* :-*
aap always happy rahe Thats awl ii want aapko jo chahe saB mile Mere pass aapke lie gifts to Bhot hai par de nai sakta cuz aap mese iti dur jo hai….. 😀 anyways jb Milege taB hisaB pura karlege HAHA 😀 😛 joke
Again happy birthday <3 god bless :-* :-* take care <3
Dear bro… Mai janti hu ki life is not incomplete without a boyfriend… Baat boyfriend ki nahi h… Rohit ke aane se pahle toh mai single hi thi, koi boyfriend. Nahi tha… Aur mai bahut zyada khush thi us samay… Aur mai aisi hi normal life yaani ki single life jeena chahti hu.. Mujhe koi boyfriend nahi chahiye… Mai apko bhi wahi baat kahungi jo maine apne maasi ko kahi thi… “Mai uske paas nahi jaana chahti thi, par mai fir bhi uske paas chali gayi…” woh chiz mere control se bahar ki thi… I agree ki zabardasti ka relation kabhi successful nahi hota. Toh mai is baar aisi harkat nahi karungi aur na hi mai karna chahti hu… Kyuki mujhe pata h ki yeh galat h… Thanks birthday wish ke liye… mera birthday waise aaj nahi h… sunday ko tha 🙂 Par fir bhi thanks nice to meet you.
Thank God almost in 3 days I completed your story not bcoz I feel bore its bcoz I have limited time in a day.
In your story you have describe all the things about your friends smriti , Neha about rahul & Rohit.
You was wrong as you told that it will make us feel bore but trust me I didn’t feel bore for a single moment.
I feel all of what you have gone through in love…
Nice story and its a real story …
Thank you so much Prem Ji. Aap toh writer ho toh, apki taraf se story ke liye appreciation toh aur important hai… 🙂
Rupali itni lmbi story hone k bad bhi padhte waqt ek sec k liye bhi bor nai lga mujhe..kafi acchi trh se aapne apni life,emotions and feelings ko express kiya hai.jo mujhe bahut accha lga.aapne ye nhi btaya ki jb aapki masi ne unhe phone pe aage aapse kbhi bat na krne k liye kaha usk bad unhone kbhi koshish nai ki apse bat krne ki??????
….ek bat mai khna chahungi ki mujhe rohit glt insan nai lge..uska ye khna ki aap physicaly door ho skte hai but mentaly nhi ye uska pyar hi hai shayd jo aapse door nai hona chahta tha…baki sach kya hai ye to waqt hi btaega….aap Rohit se bat jrur krna and hme bhi apni aage ki story jrur btana..wait rhega mujhe….
Ana ji… Jab mere masi ne hame baat karne ke liye mana kiya tha, uske baad masi ne mera FB page jisme woh mera friend tha woh deactivate kar diya tha…saath hi jis number se hum ek dusre ko contact karte the woh sim card bhi destroy kar diya…
maine apna naya fb page 2012 mein hi bana liya tha 12 january ko mummy ke phone se, usi ko contact karne ke liye banaya tha actually,(mai story mein add karna bhul gayi) par fir… usi dauran nanaji ki death ho gayi thi january 19 mein…to maine usko us page se bhi message nahi kiya… uske baad usne mujhe seedha 2 and a 1/2 year beet jaane ke baad fb mein message kiya tha… (“Tu fb pe? Kaisi hai?” <- yeh tha uska message… shayad usey laga hoga mai fb mein nahi hu, par smriti aur mere aur 2-4 friends uske bhi mutual friends the, isliye pahle toh mujhe lagta raha tha ki usey pata hai mai fb mein hu par phir bhi woh mujhe ignore kar raha hai)
jab mai apne final year mein thi, aur meri ER aai hui thi tabhi ki baat hai jab uska message aaya tha july 2014 mein(woh message mere other messages waale inbox mein tha toh mujhe notification bhi nahi mila aur maine 2 hafte baad uske message ko dekha)… par usse pahle dhai saal ke beech kabhi mujhe uska koi message nahi aaya.
Waise sach batau toh, mujhe bhi uske physically dur ho jaane waali baat se hi lagta hai ki woh karta tha shayad mujhse pyar… par agar mai is incident ke alawa, aur chizon ko dekhu toh mai unsure feel karti hu.
…Waise bhi kal meri usse fb mein baat hui thi, usne mujhe kaha ki mai kyu ab tak 5 saal purani baaton ko pakad kar baithi hu? aur usne yeh bhi kaha ki woh bahut aage barh gaya hai aur sab kuchh bhul chuka hai… So i think it is the end now.
Sorry Rupali..mujhe to lga tha end me sb thik ho jayega…but its ok jo hota h acche k liye hota hai….aapk liye god ne usse bhi accha kisi ko bnaya hoga…i wish ki vo aapko jaldi mile..:)
Take care
What the hell is this????????
Kisi ne poori story read kr li ho toh mjhe short mein bata dena ????????????????
Aap july ki ek story mein “School waala love” naam ki story search karo, uske comment section me maine short mein aur bina detail waali story likhi thi.
Rupali di….I m 16 and I read ur story today itself..u hv suffered a lot..I m inspired..how could u be so courageous ..n ur life taught u many lessons di …I m in class 10th n in relationship with a boy named Rohit ..For over a year now …19th August 2015 se….n I hv been blessed to get such an amazing boy…He is 19 yrs old …di give ur blessings to us as because I really am full of tears after reading ur story…u r a wonderful girl..I would like to hv a brief talk with u
…loads of love n affection
N remember di…aapke jaese achhe insaanon k saath god kbhi kchh bura nhi kr sakte …u may have suffered bt ultimately things will get in ur favour …
Thanks Rashmi ji, well ab Rohit naam reveal ho hi gaya hai, toh yeh unfair hai ki mai bhi chhupi rahu, actually apka aur mera naam same hai. 🙂 I really really wish ki aap dono hamesha saath raho aur khush raho. May god bless you… Aur thank you so much mere liye itna sab kuchh wish karne ke liye. 🙂 <3
And di…plzz let us know about any further developments in ur love life ..regarding rohit
Hehe u r mst wlcm Rupali jiiii…..
Kis bewkuf ne itna lamba story likha h
Ajay ya Vikash Jo v ho…koi kitni v details mein kyun na likhe isse aapka kyun phate jaraha hai story padhna hai toh padhiye nhi toh nhi kam se kam ghatiya soch ko yahan mat utariye aap…kisi ko koi problem nhi hai yahn is story se balki sab khus hein yeh story padhke main khud v khus hoon is story se so just mind your mentality…
Prakrutik ji, i agree with you.
Itni long story likhna oh God. …kese kese pagal log h is duniya me..itna details ki kya jarurat h..jis ne bhi story likha h sach me mental patient h….
Bhai tu hoga mental patient kyuki aur kisi ko problem nahi… Tujhi ko ho rahi h… Vikas, ajay… Kamse kam email to change kar leta tu… Pattern change ho jaata comment karte wakt… Tum jaise log had hotey ho… Is website mein bas kisi ladki ki story honi chahiye… Fir attention seek karne ke liye jaisa chaahe waisa comment karo… Apna check up karwa bhai..kyuki har Ladki psychiatrist nahi hoti. Tum jaise ladko ki wajah se aur ladke badnam hotey… Sharam aani chahiye tujhe.
Dimag thik nhi h kya story likha h jis ne bhi…aur yha film thodi ban rha h..ye to kisi movie ki script lgti h…bewkuf log kahani itni long nhi honi chahiye
Aur tu zyada bakwas mat kar anparh gawaron ki tarah… Mai literature ki student rah chuki hu… Isliye mujhko tujhse zyada pata h… Stories and script ke baare mein… Bhagwan ne dimag diya h na? Usey use kar liya kar (ya fir sach mein tu retard h to tu woh kar hi nahi sakta shayad)… Parhne ka mann nahi h mat parh aur yahan se dafa ho. Ehsan nahi kar raha tu kisi par.
very nice story…..3din se padh raha tha….aaj puri pdh paya hoon…
O M G !! Very longggggg story but superbbb !!!
very nice & sad story
3 ghante lage puri story read karne me , time nikal kar maine specially aapki story read ki itni achhi story hai ki incmplte nahi chhod sakti thi
itni lambi story but ek second ke liye bhi bore feel nahi hua in fact aapke liye sad feel ho raha hai sachhi !!!!
aapne true love kiya but Rohit is a timepass boy Kaash WO aapse bhi sachha pyaar kare aapke pyar ko samjhe q ki pyaar ko bhulna impossible hota hai !! shayad aap use kabhi nahi bhul paoge
plzz bura mat manna but mujhe Rohit samajh me hi nahi aaya ! pata nahi q har koi sachha pyaar khojte rahte hai aur jab kisi ko sachha pyaar milta hai to use uski kadra hi nahi hoti hai
I pray to God ki aapke saath Sab achha ho & u deserve someone bettre den Rohit Jo aapse pyaar kare aapki care kare & loyal ho & sirf aapka ho!!!
SORRY agar kuchh galat kaha ho to!!!
Jammy ji, ab mai kya kahu apke response ke liye? balki un sab ke liye jin logo ne time nikalkar meri story read ki aur saath mein unhe achchi bhi lagi… honestly, thanks is a really small word. 🙂 Maine itna zyada sach mein expect nahi kiya tha. Thank you so much Jammy ji.
hyy rupail
howz u
aapki story padhne me time laga but aapki story mujhe achi lagi or jaisa aapne likha h aisa bahut k saath hota v h
pata h wo earthquake wali baat mereko bahut funny lagi????????
but aapke situation bahut buri hui love dear
or acha kiya jo aapne move on krne ki sochi dear
best of luck for urs future nd God bless u????
hamesa haste raho aap????????
areeee….. yr kitni long story thi 4dayz m cmplte hui bt intrsting thi bs ek bat achi nhi lgi pyar m hath ki nas katna never baki sb thodi funny thodi sad thi or ha suspense puri story m tha ki ab kya hoga ab kya hoga by the way gr8 nd heart touching story
Thank Nishi ji and Ankur ji, i am glad ki maine aap logo ke saath smile bhi share ki… Thanks time nikalkar meri story ko parhne ka mauka dene ke saath saath appreciate karne ke liye… 🙂
Hey Nishi
hey Jammy????????
rupali g aap chae bura mano ya sahi mene es site me kuch logo ko kisi ki b sad story pe aise cmnt karte dekha jisse story likhne wala banda heart b ho sakta h en kutto wale cmnt o se meri request un sabhi se jo ye kutte wali harkate karte h sambal jaye nahi to es site pe kahi b apni sakal na dikhaye galti Se b nahi
Calm down A.S. Negi ji… 😛 jesus christ ne kaha tha ki un logo ko maaf kar dena chahiye, jinhe pata hi nahi unki galti kya hai… guilty toh wahi feel karta hai na jise pata ho ki woh kuchh galat kara h?… Chhodo, immature bachcho ko maaf kar dena chahiye kyuki unme samajh nahi hoti. Just Chill 😀 Aur saath mein thanks bhi.
Rupali ji… Tho apka naam Rashmi h??? Nyc nem 🙂
😀 Hanji mera real name Rashmi h… thank you Anjali ji <3 🙂 apka naam bhi bada pyara h. 🙂 <3
Hiii rupali yr mujhe story read krne me Bhut jyada Tym lg Gya headache ki wjh se mene kafi gapes deke ab complete ki h.
read krke feel hua Aapne hr Ek movement ko Yha share kiya h Bhut achi Lgi mujhe to aapki story but sath ye bhi lga ki Kitna stressed n tortured feel kiya wo bhi itne long Tym yr
n rupali rohit ki sirf Ek mazak wali aadt ki wjh se he aap ab Tk itna confused ho..
I think aapko Usse Ek aage hoke puchna chaiye ki kya wo Sach me aapke sath life spend krna chahta h ya ni agr ni to aapko or suffer na kr ke aage bdh jana chaiye
n god bless you dear 🙂
Waise toh woh mujhe apni taraf se bol chuka hai baaton baaton mein, but last time meri apni taraf se confirm karne ke liye mai usse puchh lungi. Maine decide kar liya hai ki kya puchhna hai? kaise puchhne? Waise mujhe pata hai 99.9% woh nahi maanega, toh mai rejection ke liye hi taiyar hu. Par fir bhi mai dil ki tassalli ke liye aisa kar leti hu, jaise ki apne kaha ki mujhe bina suffering ke aage barhna chahiye…. THanks Khushi ji for your support. <3 🙂
hlo rupali g date pe chalogi 😀
Arjun ji… Itni lambi story likhne ki dushmani nikal rahe ho? 😛 hehehe jk
Hehe thnq Rashmi ji…
Hmmm
You welcome anjali ji 🙂 <3
Rupali g apki story kafi lambi beshak thi bt isse padhne k baad ye ehsas hua ki pyar to hota h bt use smjhne wala b hona chahiye…..apke sath jo b hua wo nhi hona chahiye tha Rohit ki kuch baato se mujhe b nafrat hui h jaise ki usne apke sath time spend kiya bt apni Ex gf ko bhulan k liye apke dil m apne liye crush or love b bdaya bt use sach m serious rhna chahiye tha use majak nhi krna chahiye th apki serious baato ko sunn kr usne ye bhut bdi glti ki thi…or apke sath mind game khelna nd push ir pull krna baat baat ko lekar ye use apke sath kya kisi ldki k sath nhi krna chahiye tha..,,qki jb dil tutta h to kitna hurt hota h mujhe pta h…
Bt apke suicide wale case k baad i think wo change hua tha beshak apne use dara diya tha ye kh kr ki aap suicide kr lengi ye baat janne k baad use darr to lga tha bt uss darr m usne bhut kuch janna or feel kiya hoga…..
Apko use baat krni chahiye qki aap to uske alawa apni life m kisi ko entry nhi doge or wo b apko kbi nhi bhula skta i m sure for this…..,
Or rhi baat family ki to sbke family member unse ye khte h ki kisi ldki ya ldke k chakker m mt pdna bt sach khu to pyar sbko hota h chahe koi b ho,,,, infact m to apse chota hu mujhe b hua pr mere sath jo hua kash kisi k sath na ho i pray to God…
Nd m apke apke liye b bhagwan se pray krunga ki apko apna fisrt nd last love “ROHIT” mil jaye….
Qki pyar ek bhut pyara ehsaas h….i will pray 4 u
Thanks vikrant ji. 🙂 mai apki kahi hui baat ka dhyan rakhungi… Kya aapne apni story yhan Share ki h?… Apne jis tarah se comment kiya h… Woh bahut emphasizing sa laga… Toh mai apki story ke liye curious.ho rahi hu… i hope ki ab se apke saath jo ho achcha ho. 🙂 thank you so much vikrant ji. 🙂 🙂
Vese mein kabhi bhi love story ni pdta…sirf doosro ke comments se guess krke comment de deta hu.. !! ????
Pr mene tumhari poori story pdi a to z ???? mjhe bhi ni pta mene kese pad li….!!
Mujhe ye bhi ni pta tum itna sb kuch yaad kese rk leti ho ohh gOd ????
Or haan phle mujhe gussa aaya???? tumne prateek jese ldko ko mna kr diya…baad mein pta chala ki ye ldka toh parayi ldkiyo ke saath guljarre uda rha tha…
Fr laga sahi kiya tumne????
Vese tum meri jesi ho 19-20 ka farq he bs .????
Tumhari massi such mein bhut achhi he…unhonhe tumhe encourage kiya aage bdne ke liye….us bad situation se bahar nikalne ke liye.
Best of luck your future…
And yaar pyar vyar ghantaa kuch ni hota…such mein..jab insaan ki shaadi ho jati he sb bhool jata he….inta mt socho….tum kese bhoologi etc etc ????
😛 Zayn ji Aapne sachch mein puri story parhi hai? ya sirf last paragraph? Sirf confirm kar rahi hu…? 😛 Kyuki apne Rohit ke baare mein kuchh nahi kaha… Waise fir bhi thank you… sach batau toh, mujhe bhi aapme aur mujhme thodi thodi similarity dikhti h, isi liye shayad aap bhi mere favorite logo mein se ho is website mein. 😀 Thank you so much itni lambi story read karne ke liye and appreciate karne ke liye… 🙂
OMG! Zyan zayn Sonu haha aftr mny days…… Mene bht mis kia…
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Apko nhi 😛 apke funny cmnts ko 😉 hehehe 😀
Yeh dekho meri ek aur favorite yahan par -> Jenny ji 😛 😀 <3
Hehe ek dusre se krte h msti hm haha gud evng rupali ji ji jiiii
itni rspct q q q? Jst cl me Jenny!
Okay ji, Ajib lag raha aur mujhe… jenny ji kahne mein hi maza aata hai :P… par koi nahi good evening Jenny. 🙂
Umeed h Rupali g apko meri khi baat dhyan rhe hamesha nd maine apni story yha share nhi ki blki jisse m apni duniya manta hu jo mera pyar h(kanak) usne hi share ki thi….bt m nhi janta ki use kya ho gya usne mere sath aisa q kiya m hrr raat uske liye rota hu ki q usne aisa kiya….
Or usne kiya ye ki mujhe chh diya or kisi or k sath relation bna liya????????
Maine use bht bar phucha ki usne aisa q kiya bt usne mujhe ek barr b nhi btaya…
Or aap meri story b pdh skti ho bs direct search kr lena “kanak nd vikrant love story” i hope ki apko apna pyar mil jaye…
Haha okieee drrr as u wish….. 😛
@Rupali ji….i think rohit ka aapka first love he yahi vajah he aapko usme sb achha najar aata he…..!! Mene isliye ni kaha kyoki usme aisi kuch quality he hi ni jo mein uski tareef karu..ab kya batau….jab se mene uska wo statement pda….mein sirf apni mom-dad ki pasand se shaadi krunga. Tumhare saath sirf 5 saal tak relationship rakhna chahta hu. Such mein mera man kr rha tha ????????.
2nd ussse aapki fellings,emotions ki koi value hi ni he.
Rupali ji…first love mein sab cheeje control se bahar hoti he….hm karna bhi ni chahe toh bhi hm wo krte he.
Par haan ye achhi baat he ki rohit mein ki usne aapko kiss???? touch tk ni kiya….5 saal ke relationship mein.
Or haan mene tumhari poori story read ki he koi shaq ni he isme ????
Pr wo baat alag he tumhara titanic ka jahaj manjil pr jaane se pahle hi ludak gya..????????????????????
Hota he hota he sabke saath hi aisa hota he ????
Toh Zayn ji aap bhi 70% jansankhya mein shamil ho, jisme mere saari family and freind h!!! Aur aapne bilkul Smriti ki tarah baat kahi ki is insaan ko mere emotions ki koi value nahi h. Meri bhi yahi soch thi, pata nahi 3-4 mahinon se ho kya gaya hai mujhe? Shayad ap sach kah rahe ho ki woh mera pahla pyar hai isliye har chiz achchi lagti hai uski…
Apke previous comment ke liye jo apne mere masi ji ke liye kaha woh sach hai, kai baar aisa lagta hai ki agar woh nahi hotey toh pata nahi mera kya hota? (family ki baat aati hai to thodi sensitive ho jaati hu 😛 isliye pahle kuchh nahi kaha)…
Well, also I think you are misunderstood ki… “5 saal pahle” maine usko date kiya tha, 2011 mein, april ke starting mein baat hui thi pahli baar usse aur, december 2011 mein hum alag ho gaye the. Yaani ki mai sirf “9 months uske saath thi.”
Usne bataya tha ki class mein ek baar truth and dare khelte hue, kisi ne usko dare diya tha ki mujhe kiss kare, Par Rohit ko apne daant, kiss karne se zyada pyare hai… Mai shaant hu par kabhi kabhi kans mama ke avtar mein aa jaati hu, yeh usko bhi achchi tarah se pata hai… 😛 😀 😀 😀 …
Chalkar ab dekhte hai ki is ludke hue Titanic ko akhiri baar bachaane ki koshish ki ja sakti hai ya nahi.
are kaat dena… You are misunderstood 😛 sorry.
Loveria hua h apko 😛 hehe jst kidding…. Rupali ji ap b mri trh sensitve ho n angry bird b hehe pta ni kese jhel rha h mra bf mje haha bichara 😀 😛 😀
Rupali…
Mein tumhe apni hi choti si story btata hu…..fr tumhe shayad clear ho jaye.
Hua ye mere jo first love tha school time pr…mein is kdr pagal tha uske liye mein uske mount everest pr bhi chad jata. Q ki first love ,love ki pure form mein hota he thats why usme itni power hoti he insaan kuch bhi kr skta he.
So jab mene use propose kiya toh usne rufuse kr diya..
Jbki hint phle usne diya kuch kuch rohit ki story ke jese.
Toh uske baad toh bhut sad upsate rhta he jo ki sad love ke symtops he wo aane lage.
Fr kuch month baad mere life mein ek ldki aayi usko mjhe first love ho gya..ab wo ldki poori trh se pgl thi,jese mein tha apne first love ke liye same same. So wo khti thi mein tumharr liye ghr chod dungi…..tm jese chaho vese rh lungi…actually she is very rich and i belongs to middle class family. Fr bhi wo sbkuch chodne ko ready thi…mujhe uske liye koi fellings ni thi…mein uske saath sirf jabadsthi ka relationship tha….then ek din mujhse kahti he sonu agr tumne mujhse shaadi ni ki toh mein tumhare bhai se shaadi kr lungi jisse mein tumhe sirf dekh saku….(mere bro ke saath uski baat cheet hoti thi)
Wo ekdum pagalo ki trh pyr krti thi.
So rupali ji first love aisa hi hota he…hum chahe samne wala bura ho fr bhi hmhe sirf achha hi dhikai deta he…or dil chahta he ki wo khush rhe kisi bhi hallat mein.
Aisa hi aapki story he aapki trh se first love he………uski trh se ni…yahi vajah he wo apne 100% effort ni daal rha….wo sirf jabardasthi ke relationship mein he.
Agr uska bhi first love hota toh i promise you…wo aapko kabhi saath ni chodta….!! ????
And jese aapne 99.9 % kha use bt ni krni chahiye!!! Mein kahta hu 100% ni krna chahiye.
Bcz every action is opposite and equal reaction….so ????
Rupali ji aapne ek word use “divine” !
Divine ka matlab hota he soul and supreme soul…jb in dono mein love develop hota he toh use true love ,divine love khte he. Ye love ki highest form he. Iske example he krishna radha, krishna-gopiyaan.
So jab krishna flute bajate the tb gopiyaan apne husband ,household duty ko chodkar krishna ke pass aakr unke saath rasa leela dance enjoy krti thi.
Or krishna apne aapko expand krte the hundreds of forms…or wo gopiyo ko divine pleasure dete the. (SOUL-SUPREME SOUL)
Actually is world mein 99.9 % logo ko true love ka mtlb ni pta na hi uska taste pta he kese hota he,kese feel hota he.
Mene practically ye taste kiya he divine love….such batau he is millions of millions time better this material love.
Jb tum ek baar divine love taste kr logii…bhool jaoungi ye love.
So ye jo love he jo hm aajkal dekh rhe he(soul-matter) ye sab kuch real love ka shadow reflection.
Real love mein aisa kuch ni he pain,expectation,fight etc….
Real love apne pure form mein he…bs hmhe jroorat he uske jagane ki ????
Or bhi bhut shocking knowledge he mere pass…jo ki mene hmre old scripture mein likhi he..!!!
And rupallii aajkal love sirf skin ke base pr hota he…usi ke base pr hmre cruse vagairh bante he ????
Indians log sb apni old culture bhool chuke he…unhe western culture ne jakad liya…he !!! So isliye hamri poori society mein loveria gus chuka he…
Ek indians report ke according indian mein 17 saal ke km ldkiyo ke har month 1 lakh abortion hote he…
70% indians love ke naam pr kisi n kisi vjh se preshan rhte…toh mjhe lgta he yahi vjah he hmra india aage ni bd rha he…sirf ek kaam mein population mein uska bhi reason false love he …
Pyar kro..ishq ladao…shaadi kro…fr bachho ki line lga do????????????????
Ohh god kya hoga pta ni ab…
Isliye rupalii hmhe hmesha apne parensts apne bdo ki advice manni chahiye…ve hmse jyada well experinced hote he…wo jo krte he hmare achhe ke liye krte he……!!
Khair tumhare saath problem ye he tumhari chanchalta i mean to say tumhari sense wo control se bhr chali jaati he baar baar….iska ek hi solution…tm apna dhyan study mein lgaya kro….usse hi sense ko control kiya ja skta he…warna tumhari sense tumse desite kregi …
Come on lets enjoy this…this way that way…wo kbhi satify ni hogi never…. ????????…so krishna kahte he bhahwat geeta mein…. mind is the greatest enemy and also greatest friends…..!!! Ye sb tumhr uper depend krta he tum apne brain ko kese use krti hooOoo….
Brain ko sirf or sirf knowledge se hi control mein kiya ja skta he…!!
Mjhe lagta he tmhe ye sab mein fr se ni pdna chahiye….apni study complete kro….fr jhaan aapke parensts chahe wha shaadi kro…isse society family sb kush rhege aapse ????
Is tarah socho….!!
Please mere liye pray kariye ki mai apki baat samajh lu aur maan lu, Apki baat parhkar aisa lag raha hai, Smriti ki baat na mankar maine bahut badi galti kardi, Rohit ko maine unblock kyu kiya?
Ya fir aap logo ke paas driving license hai toh jenny ya zayn aap mein se koi aakar mujhe kisi gaadi se hit kardo… taaki meri yaaddasht chali jaaye. Dimag ke aise sire par hit karna jahan 7 saal tak ki yaade mit jaaye… 😛 I am embarrassed of my past. Chinta mat karo… mai apne pocket mein note rakhungi accident ki wakt ki “Mujhe hit karne waale ki koi galti nahi hai, mai gaadi ke aage aai thi!” 😛
Haha???? vese idea achha he ……
Omg! Zayn do u read bhagwat geeta??? :-O
Itne kharab log ho sach mein hit karne ke baare mein soch rahe ho? 😛 … Waise Zayn ji apke brain wash karne ka tarika zyada achcha hai… means less physical pain hai!!! 😛 Jk… I mean aap sahi kah rahe ho, Aur toh aap hi ho Sonu? mujhe laga tha ki woh koi aur hai… 😀
Yeh jo bhagwan hai naa, yeh bhi Rohit ki tarah hain, mai jab jab inse pyar karne lagti hu, tab tab aisi situation lakar khada kar dete hain ki mujhe puchhna padta hai “Are you even there?” Ya Shayad mere pyar karne ka tarika hi galat hai, ya shayad mera pyar, pyar hi nahi hai, I accept it…
Ek jagah maine parha tha ki bhagwan ki marzi se patta bhi nahi hilta… isliye aap divine love bhi tab tak nahi chakh sakte jab tak bhagwan ki marzi na ho.
Shayad unki marzi thi toh Zayn ji apko allow kar diya, Par mere liye unki marzi hi nahi hai, mere mehnat ko barbad karne mein lage rahte hai woh… aur jab jab atheist banne ki sochu, tab hint dete rahte hai “I am here!, I am here!”. 😛
Ruaplii i will tell you about a story….
*One sided Love Affair*
On Thursday, Mumbai court sentenced 25-year-old Ankur to death for an acid attack on 23-year-old nurse Preeti Rathi at Bandra Terminus in May, 2013. Her eyes, stomach and lungs were severely damaged when he threw two liters of sulfuric acid on her. She died a month later from her injuries in a hospital. Why did he throw acid on her? Because he was having one sided love affair with her, and when she rejected his proposal he raged with anger, followed her till Mumbai from Delhi to kill her. How can lover be the killer?
This is the nature of material world, where satisfaction of own personal senses has prioritised over other’s, and if lover rejects the love then there is anger and frustration. One hardly bothers about loved one, but that’s not love. Love means sacrifice, service to the lover, Being satisfied in satisfaction of loved one. Love is not force it’s a choice of heart. Love is when other person’s happiness is more important than our own. What goes on the name of love in today’s world is simply lust and gratification of senses.
There is big difference between love and lust. It’s like gold and iron both are metals but values are totally different. Practically love doesn’t exist in material world. Love exist in spiritual world between God and His devotees, whose only aim is to satisfy God unconditionally. There is no limit between their loving dealings. God is so loving that He has given free will to us, He never forces us to love Him. When we abandoned Him and came to this dirty material world He accompanied us as paramatma, He didn’t say, “you people left me, now suffer”, no… He respects free will, He never demanded surrender.
In fact He provided all necessities to all of us, not only this but those who deny his existence, He is taking care of them too!! He has provided all kinds of pleasure in all species of life, even in the life of pig, He is never envious of anyone but always compassionate and forgiving like true lover. So if we consider all these points we can find that He is the only ‘One sided lover’ because we never bothered to love Him. Just see His kindness He also never forced us to love Him, He just want to see us happy. This is real lover, not one who just want to exploit us. And when someone starts loving Him, He is ready to reciprocate with him, it’s said if we take one step towards God He takes 100 steps towards us. Is there anyone in this world who can do this for us? So it’s our choice with whom we should fall in love, the Supreme person who is loving us unconditionally from time immemorial or person who is after his own sense gratification which is full of conditions?
Hanji Zaynji, I agree with you with that acid throwing incident, and coincidentally hamare class mein bhi isi incident ke baare mein hame parhaya gaya tha kuchh hi din pahle. Balki 5 saal pahle Rohit ne bhi ek baar mujhe aise incident ke baare mein bataya tha, par usme Ladki ne ladke ke saath aisa kiya tha… tab maine bhi yahi kaha tha ki “Koi jab kisise sach mein pyar karta hai toh woh usko is tarah se hurt kaise kar sakta hai?”
So i can feel you Zayn aur mai samajh rahi hu ki aap kya bataane ki koshish kar rahe ho. Ab pata chalta hai ki log dil se kaam lene ko kyu kahte hai, kyuki dil kabhi kisi ko hurt nahi karta aur hamesha khush dekhna chahta hai…
Aur wah Zayn ji apko itni knowledge hai aur apka samjhaane ka dhang bhi aisa hai ki, insan feel karne lagta hai jo bhi aap kahte ho.
Agli baar se mera dimag dubara control se bahar jayega, apke paas dubara aaungi sachchi!!! 😀 😛 Aapse mai ek baat share karna chahti hu, mera bhagwan se bharosa uth chuka tha kisi incident ki wajah se, aur mai holistic healing ka course kar rahi hu actually, toh mai ab bhagwan ki bajaye energies mein yakin karne lagi thi, mere hisab se yahi energies ek tarah se bhagwan hain. hamari aatma bhi ek energy hai but utni powerful nahi jitna ki bhagwan hai. Aur hamare culture mein jab bhagwan ki puja ki jaati hai toh purvajon ki bhi puja hoti hi hai, jab mere nanaji ki death hui thi, tab mere masi ne kaha tha ki, nana ab bhagwan mein veleen ho gaye hai, isliye ajkal jab bhi mai problem mein hoti thi na, bhagwan ko to awaaz nahi deti thi kyuki maine unhe manna band kar diya tha, par parso shaam ko maine apne nanaji ko yaad kiya aur kaha ki please meri madad karo, mai kuchh galat kar rahi hu toh please mujhe rasta dikhao!!! mujhe samajh nahi aa raha ki mujhe kya karna chahiye!!!
Phir Kal raat jab maine apka comment parha aur iske baare mein sochte sochte so gayi. Mere sapne mein kal raat mere nana ji aaye the. Woh hamare ghar mein hi baithe hui the, unhone meri orr haath dikhakar ishaara kiya ki jaise woh kah rahe ho “Shaant ho ja, aur intazar kar, sab thik ho jayega!”… aur mujhe aaj subah anxiety aur stress nahi ho rahi sachchi jaise aur pichhle dino ho raha tha woh bhi band ho gaya hai. Mujhe nhi par mere dil ko aisa lagta hai ki aap jo baat kah rahe ho woh sahi hai. Mai un chizon ko chhod dena chahti hu, unhi ke haal par jinme mera control nahi hai, mujhe lagta hai yahi abhi ke liye thik hoga. Jo hona hai woh hokar rahega, toh mai kyu itna torture kar rahi hu apne aap ko?
Yes rasmi ji… ???? ekdum se yaad aa gya.. ????
Haan actually rupalii jo hone wala he…jo 1 second ke baad hone wala wo sab already likha hota he.
Pr hum sochte he hm aisa krege…hm vesa krege…par hota wohi he jo likha hota he.
I mean every action is opposite and equal reaction.
Thats why krishna say in bhagwat geeta.
O Arjuna, as the Supreme Personality of Godhead, I know everything that has happened in the past, all that is happening in the present, and all things that are yet to come. I also know all living entities; but Me no one knows.
Chapter 7
O Arjuna, as the Supreme Personality of Godhead, I know everything that has happened in the past, all that is happening in the present, and all things that are yet to come. I also know all living entities; but Me no one knows.
Sach kahu toh, yahi chiz mere bhi dimag mein aa rahi thi Zayn ji. Par fir wahi na dimag jab control mein nahi hota toh woh apke sahi faislon ko bhi pare kar deta hai.
@jeeny jii
Mujhe inta bhi chane ke jhaad par mat chadaAo ????????
Haha super !dea Rupali bt mje gadi chalana nai aati zayn ji ap unki help kijiye hahaha….
Hmmm rupali ji I tnk frm nw onwrds u’ll try 2 4get hm i mn hs memories, etc etc
Hahaha ufff chane k jhaad nai h hmare ghar pe i mn garden me haha aam ka ped h, anar aur neem k b ped h hehe
Offo! Zayn ji mra naam Jenny h Jeeny nai huh
actually jenny, mujhe fever ho gya he, isi vajah se typing bhi teek se ni ho pa rhi he ????
kya farq pdta he tumhara naam jenny ho ya jeeny pronuciation toh ek jesa he na… ????????
Ji nhi pronunciation dfrnt h zayn ji hehe hmm apko fvr hua h tek mdcn n ya rst b…. Get wel soooooon…..
Tumhe pta he…mene dctr se kaha ???? mt lgana….lga diya usne mere papa ke kahne pr…abhi bhi pain ho rha he …????
Pr haan fever toh kam hua????
Or haan jenny i have read bible,bhagwat geeta,quran,guru granth,or bhut sari old scripture books…
Mujhe god ke bare mein janna achha lgta,bhagwaan ne ye duniya kese banyi,kese kaam krti he sb kuch ke baare.
Or haan love ke baare mein bhi likha he achhe se… ????
Omg! :-O Zayn baba…. Wese acha kia dctr ne 😛 haha 😀
Mujhe ye smj ni aata…jenny..
Rupalii konse badam khati he jo inta sab kuch yaad rhta he..????????????
Mjhe toh ye bhi yd ni he kl konsi movie dekhi thi…sersly????????????
😛 Aisi hi choti choti chize yaad rahti hai, warna mai bhi bhulakkad kamm nahi hu, kuchh din pahle galti se college jaldi chali gayi aur bina dekhe galat room mein ghus gai, phir sir uthakar dekha toh puri class aur lecturer mudkar mujhe ghurne mein lagi hui thi… maine kaha sorry!!! toh woh hansne lag gaye aur mai waha se bhaag gai. 😀 😀 😀
Haha ????
Even mere sath bhi aisa ho chuka he school time mein, pr mujhe yaad ni kab or khaan hua tha…????????…
Vese generally dekha jaaye toh sabki mom ko sabkuch yaad rhta he….!! Choti choti bchpn ki yaadein, or hm sunke shocked ho jate he..
???? kya such mein, mein aisa tha bchpn mein ????????????????
😛 Aap kya mujhe moms se compare kar rahe ho? Yeh toh hai… moms ko sab yaad hota hai, aur mere paas to 3-3 moms hain…
Arey haan Zayn ji, maine yeh comments parhe the par fir jaldi baazi mein bol nahi paai… Toh ab bol deti hu ki Get well soon buddy and Apna khayal rakho. Aur apne jo apne baare mein bataya, hum dono to achche se emphasise kar sakte hai ek dusre ke saath. Aapne sahi decision liya isme koi shakk nahi, aur mai bhi yahi soch rahi hu ki apke nakshe kadam mein hi chalu.
Rasmi..pahle se ittu si???? fine he ???? bss…
Or na head mein aisa lag rha he jese kisi ne mere uper earth ka sara weight rakh diya ho… ????
Or haan i know…tm jo bhi decision logi wo best hoga..
Isn’t he? ????
Hehe ????
Sonu ji, 😛 Mera naam Rashmi hai aap baar baar mujhe Rasmi kah rahe ho… shayad jeeny waala asar hai. 😀 matlab tabiyat thik nahi hai isliye shayad.
But I am glad to know ki aap ittu sa hi sahi par thik feel kar rahe ho… Ap healing loge? I mean Reiki? agar aap believe karte ho in sab chizon mein toh? Agar loge toh bata dena kis time leni hai aur apko main kya problem ho rahi hai… have proper rest. take care.
Haha sahi kaha tumne…dimaag hi kaam ni kr rha…rashmi..
Such mein mene pahli baar is healing meditation ke bare mein suna he.
Well, agar tum kah rahi ho toh believe ka sawal hi paida ni hota…. ????
Kindly please tell me….what should i do? ????
Reiki, ek energy healing hai, similar to a prayer, bas mai yaha baithungi aur 5 minute ya usse zyada ke liye, meditation type ki healing karungi ki taaki aapki problem thik ho jaaye… aapko kuchh nahi karna bas aap apne mann mein laao ki aap healing receive kar rahe ho. bas aapko apni main problem batani hai ki apko hua kya hai? Viral ho rakha hai na apko? Ho sakta hai ki yeh immediate asar naa kare thodi derr mein kare… nahi karega toh bhi sach bata dena… waise zyadatar toh karta hai 😀
Omg !! Ye such mein kaam kar rha hu…
How can you do this ? Really its amazing.
Now i am felling better srsly…even mere face pr smile aa gyi…????
But abhi bhi mujhe samaj ni aa rha ye tumne kese kiya….
😀 Haha I am really glad it worked. Mujhe apni samajh se bas itna pata hai ki, is duniya mein negative energies bhi hoti hai aur positive energies bhi… Rieki humko positive energy ko control karna sikhata hai… aur hamare body ke andar ke chakra ko heal karta hai.
hamare Rieki ke teacher ne bataya Dr. Mikao Usui jinhone Rieki ko 19th century mein rediscover kiya tha, woh japan ke the aur waha kisi university mein Principle the, ek baar unke students ne unse puchh liya ki, is duniya mein jitne bhi bhagwaan(Krishna, buddha, christ, prophet) hai unke contact mein akar log kaise apne aap puri tarah se heal ho jaate the?…
Unhone iska jawab dhundane ke liye wakt maanga. Unhone saari library chhaan li par unhe jawab nahi mila. Toh woh apni job chhodkar, meditation karne ke liye mount kurama mein chale gaye… waha unhone 21 days tak meditation kiya. 21st day mein jab unki aankhen khuli toh unhe, aasman mein bahut se sacred symbols, om, cross, sanskrit ke shlok aur kai aur religions ke signs aasmaan mein dikhai diye, unhe pura aasman color se bhari light se chamakta hua dikhai diya, fir woh behosh ho gaye. Jab woh jage, toh unko bhuk lag rahi thi to woh pahad se utarne lage aur gir pade aur unke ghutne mein chot lag gai, chot par haath maara aur phir ek resturant mila raste mein toh waha ghus gaye. Woh kisi monk jaise lag rahe the…
Jo us restuarant ka malik tha uski ek chhoti se beti thi jiske tooth ache ho raha tha, aur swelling aa rakhi thi aur woh pareshaan ho rahi thi, toh Usui ji ne us bachchi ko apne paas bulaya aur pyar se uske gaal mein haath rakha. Aur dusre hi moment swelling aur pain gayab ho gaya. Aur woh bachchi chilaane lagi ki in monk ke haath mein jaadu hai… Usui ne apna ghutna check kiya toh woh bhi thik ho gaya tha. Uske baad unhone Rieki dusre logo ko bhi sikhai taaki woh aage jakar dusro ke kaam aa sake. Toh logo ne seekhi, phir Reiki ko unke kuchh student japan se bahar bhi le aaye. Aur is tarah yeh hum tak bhi pahuchi.
Well, bas mai itna kahungi ki hum sabke andar aisi takat hai, aap jis tarah ke insaan ho na zayn ji, spiritual type ke, matlab jitna maine feel kiya hai, apke andar mujhse shayad zyada power hogi, bas bhagwan ki parchai se bhi insan heal ho jaata tha, hum insan hai isliye thodi zyada mahnat karni padi hai… aur Rieki hame hamari is takat ka istamal karna sikhati hai… Natural chiz hai jaadu nahi hai 😛 🙂 Waise maine apne bhai ko kiya tha toh woh bhi daant nikalkar kah raha tha Jaaaduuuu!!!! 😀 😀 😀 Aapko lage apko healing ki aur zarurat hai toh fir bata dena Zayn ji aur aap bhi jenny ji. 😛
Yeah tumne jo bhi word kahe he, wo ek ek word sahi he. Actually healing jo meditation he wo bhi yoga ke form he. Bhagwat geeta mein is yoga ko mystic shhidhi kaha gya he. Jo ki 9 tarah ki hoti he.ye unme se ek he !!
And thank you so much !! rashmi mere liye itna sab kuch karne ke liye..!!
GOood night..
Sweet dreams….
You are welcome Sonu ji. ????????????
rupali agar abhi kuch nhi karogi to shayad kabhi na kar pao. Agar tmhara dil kehta hai ki tmhe rohit se baat karni hai,to phone uthao and just call him. Puri baat batao use…pyar hai tmhara koi halwa nhi hai. Samjhi…and apne pyar pe bharo rakho…ok.
Apki story bahot achi hai 8 din me complete hogayi par thoda bhi bor nahi hua bahot achi frnds mai ne bhi apni story post ki hai pls frnd meri bhi story zarur padhiye our comments ache dijeye pls
Hi rupali ji mujhe apki story me aik cheez bahot funny lagi jab apne achank se jump kiya uo bahot funny and ap hamesha khush rahiye???????????????? our mera kahena hai ke aik bar ap rohit se baat karke dekhiye our sab bataye rohit ko
Hahaha, uske baare mein ab bhi sochu toh mujhe hansi aa jaati h, I am glad you enjoyed it too Farha ji. Dekhti hu Farha ji, kya karna hai aage, fir upar waale ki marzi. 🙂 Thank you so much for reading it. <3
Haha no no rupali me apko hit ni krungi aur naahi zayn ji ko hit krne dungi bcz u r my chwt cute frnd hahaha 😛
Ohh Jenny ji 😛 thanks mujhe chhodne ke liye 😀 😀 😀 and awwh thank you 🙂 You are my chaw chweet friend too. <3
Oh yr gaav se Ho kya Jo persnelty
Persnelty lga rakha h
Hmmmm
Ab story pr aate h
Wese mene max puri story pdi but meko yhi lagta h yr apke me bhot Himmat h
Jo ki really aapke cmt Se. Lagta
nhi lagta h
Bytheway Rohit ko aap Abi to kya kbi bhul NI sakti vo aaj b Aapka sab kuch h
Wese Rohit aapko pyar NI krta
Ya krta tha but kyoki dur hone ke bavjood b Rohit ne apse contect krne ki kosis b NI ki
U keh lo ki Rohit aaya aapke dill me pyar jgaya n pyar jga ke chala gya…..
Rohit ko pyar tha NI kbi aapse
Bas ek apna pan tha jo ab NI h
Kismat ne aapke saat bhot khela h really
Or me sahi tha ki aap Chang Ho gai Ho pyar ke baad &
Jo aapke liy jruri tha
hyy
rupali ji
howz u dear????????
I am fine nishi ji, aap kaise ho? 🙂
mai bilkul achi hu ????????
or kya kr rhe ho aap
Aaj to sunday hai toh rest kar rahi hu 🙂 aap kya kar rahe ho.
mai barish enjoy kr rhi hu ????????
Ohh, mere yahan toh badal chaaye hue hain par baarish ka naamo nishan nahi hai. :/
aap kaha se ho
Mai New delhi se hu aap?
Aur me Hyderabad se hu 😛 hehe south indian
Mujhe badminton ki yaad aa rahi hai, yeh sunkar Jenny… 😀 PV Sindhu ki bhi… Mujhe bahut sunna pada masi se… Sikh is ladki se kuchh sikh, tujhse bhi chhote umra ke log padma shri lekar baithe hue hai. 😀 😛
Oh wow! Reiki??? Rupali ji u r gona heal zayn frm der jst by meditation! :-O kya aisa ho skta h???
Hw r u zayn?
Yeah anything possible…such mein ye rashmi ladki ni koi bhut bdi chamtakri jaaadu garni he…sersly it’s working….jenny
Healer hu dosto 😛
jharkhand se hu????
Nice buddy. 🙂
????????
aap avi padhae kr rhi ho
kvi jharkhand aae
par aapke aane se earthquake toh n aaega na????????
😛 hanji abhi parh rahi hu… aur nahi ji mai kabhi nahi gayi hu jharkhand… par nishi ji mai iski mai guarranty nahi de sakti ki mere wahan aane se earthquake aayega ya nahi! 😀 Isliye achche se soch lo invite karne ki soch rahe ho toh. 😀
no problem ji jinko n bhulaya wo aaenge par aapko bula rhi hu toh aap jarur aana maine ache se soch liya ????????
Okay Nishi ji. Mai samajh rahi hu ki aapke anusaar Bhukamp aa gaya toh sab aapki zimmedari 😛 Mai toh apne upar blame nahi lungi aur yahi kahungi “gaur se dekhiye is seedhi saadhi si dikhne waali praani ko” 😀 😀 😀 jk… again thanks invite karne ke liye.
Haha so funny rupali…. 😛 u went 2 sm othr cls haha we tho n0 1 bhulakkad hu zayn
Offo! Itz ‘ME’ nt ‘WE’ :->
Hehehe jenny ji, Lekin yeh bhi sach hai ki ulti pulti chize yaad rahti hai jo mujhe bhul jaani chahiye, isliye kaha tha mujhe car se hit karne ke liye 😛 caution : mai mazak kar rahi hu, seriously mere ghar ke aage gaadi lekar mat pahuch jaana koi! 😀 😀 😀
Dnt wry Rupali ji, me kisi ko aane hi nai dungi haha agr koi apko harm krne aaye tho dichkeww
Hello Rupali…mene aapki puri story read ki….bahoot vaqt laga…bt aapne har us ehsas ko likha h..jo aapke pyar ki gahrai dikhai…nice story..n God bless uh
Thanks Annu ji 🙂 <3
Hehehe <3
Hi rupali ji mai ne bhi apni story post ki pls rupali ji hamari bhi story padhiye name hai love story farha khan pls date.16 sep ko post hui hai pls frnds apbhi padhiye our comments dijye khas apke liye rupali ji hamari story bhi thoda time nikal ke padhiye
Omg! I rly cnt blve dis zayn hehehe itz amazing Rupali ji datz d pwr of meditatn 😛
Wow! I wana learn dis….. Rupali can dis Rieki heal any type of disease???
S rupali evn i want dat healing 😛 bt i cnt share my health prblm here 🙁
Mai honestly batau toh, depend karta hai disease par, accute hai toh 1-5 sitting mein thik ho jaata hai par chronic hai to, apko lagatar aur roz us insaan ko rieki deni padegi jabtak ki woh puri tarah se thik na ho jaaye. Kai baar aisa bhi hota hai ki, woh insaan thik nahi ho raha healing se toh kisi aur rup mein situation/circumstances aise ban jayenge aur woh cure ho jayega. Toh yeh ek tarah se indirect way mein bhi kaam karta hai. Koi nahi mai apke liye bhi kar lungi, yeh kahkar ki aapki jo problem hai woh thik ho jaaye. aap bas apne mann mein bol dena ki mujhe yeh problem hai. 🙂 Aur apka mann hai toh mai yahi kahungi ki zarur sikho… 🙂
So swt of u, thnq so much Rupali
Jenny, asar karega toh mujhe zarur batana.. maine ek sitting to ki hai abhi thodi derr pahle, agar koi asar nahi hua bataoge toh dubara karungi. okay? and you are welcome. 🙂 bhukh lag rahi hai khaana khaane ja rahi hu ab us Rahul ke bachche ki wajah se bhukh mari hui thi bahut dino se… 😛 4 kg ka nuksan bhi ho gaya hai mujhe bina dieting. hehehe…
Thnq drr bt I cnt fl d chnge nw it’ll tek tym 🙂 pet bhrke khalijiye rupali jiiii 😛
gud nyt dr swt drmz….
Gud nyt zayn baba 😛 😀
Anjali bahena ab Kuchh change feel hua? mujhe lagta h Sonu ji ke baare mein mujhe shayad thoda andaza ho gaya tha shayad isliye unhe asar kar gaya… apka pata nahi h isliye lagta h shayad mai energy ko sahi jagah focus nahi kar pa rahi hu… :/ thoda sa kharab feel hota h jab naa kar pao toh 🙁 its okay sir ne kaha tha kabhi bhi hame healing ke results pe nahi jaana chahiye. Lekin Fir bhi you know? :p…
Rashmi ji koi bAat ni hoga, thoda waqt lagega.
aajkal energy par focus karna bhi toh bhut musqil he.
tumne dekha hoga TV ya Discovery par Nepal side ke jo monk hote he, wo log energy ko control karke hawa mein 4-5 foot uper tak ud jaate he. !!
iske liye bhut saalo ki practise krni pdti he.
tumhe toh abhi kam waqt hua hoga practise karte karte…..toh syd yhi wajah he kai baar jaadu kaam ni krta ????
😀 aapka comment parhkar mai yaha zoron se hass rahi thi ???????????? “Jaadu?” Waise Mera matlab tha ki mujhe pata tha ki apko fever aur head ache hai, isliye maine healing waha par focus ki thi. Jenny ji ka mujhe andaaza nahi lag pa raha ki kya problem hai. Phir bhi asar toh hona chahiye tha thoda bahut!… 🙁 🙁 Waise sahi kah rahe ho, mujhe aur practice karni padegi shayad. Haar nahi manugi. 😀 Fighting!
May be jenny sahiba jhoot bOl rhi ho ????
Ab kya tumhari teesri aankh he kya jo tumhe pata chal jayega, jenny ko ye prblm he.
Ab doctor ki bhi toh btana pdta he na “hmhe ye problem he” !!
Aisa tHodi na hOta he rasmi…bina bataye sab kuch pta chal jaaye…..uske liye hmhe lord shiva ki worship krni pdegi na taaki wo hamhe teesri aankh de de.
So toh hai Sonu ji, Waise mai shiv ji ki hi bhakt hu, haan yeh sach hai ki main puja nahi karti… par yaad karna hota hai toh inhi ko hi yaad karti hu, ya mahamrityumjay mantra ka jaap karti hu, toh ab shivji se baat karni padegi aur third eye chakra ko strengthen karna padega fir dekhna padega ki, Anjali ji ke saath aakhir chal kya raha hai? o.O jk 😛
O o Rashmi ji dnt b sad actually me apni prblm bta ni skti so jst chillll…. N zayn ji me jhuth q bolungi huh 😛
and
kbi kbi mra dil bht zor se dhadakta h…. Bht tensed ho jati hu pta ni q huhuh
😛 Usko dekhkar mera bhi dil dhadakta tha. Toh chinta ki koi baat nahi hai. ???? 😀 😀
Farewell ke din meri friend force kar rahi thi, uske paas jakar photo khichaane ko… mai gai toh nahi par apni friend ki is harkat se mera dil itni zor zor se dhadakne mein laga hua tha ki thodi derr mein meri saans phulne lagi thi… ghar pahuch kar coffee pee uske baad bhi thik nahi laga… so you know na? 😛 jk
Koi nahi fir koshish karungi. 🙂
Hehe hmm smjhgai…. Bt i’ve nvr yet seen hm 🙁
jenny menny mein samaj sakta hu…???? aapko koi aisi bimari he jissne batane mein aapko bhut jor se sharam mahsus ho rhi hOgi ???????? well its alright…
hm force bhi ni krege vese….
tumhe doctor ke pass jana chahiye agr koi serious prblm ho toh ????
or haan rashmi ji mein toh aapka bhakt hu aaj se…aapki aagya ka palan karna hi mera dharam he ????????????
Hanji jenny ji jaldi se thik ho jaaiye… aap unsey mile nahi ho naa. koi nahi jald hi mil loge, fir delhi aana hum bhi milenge 🙂 You are really cute sis.
Zayn ji please mere bhakt mat baniye, mai ek number ki idiot hu. 😛 Pata chala krishna ji ne mujhe bhasm kar daala. 😀 😀 😀 Balki mujhe aapka bhakt banna chahiye 😛
Hehe u r absolutly ryt zayn 😀 n yeah i’ve consultd a dctr n m tekng mdcns 🙂
rashmi jiii ye toh mera promise he aapse !! agar aap mujhe se mtlb 1% bhi spiritual knowledge bhi samaj loge or use practical apni life mein follow kroge….toh aapki life perfect ho jayegi….!!
vese sahi btau toh aap love shove ke liye bani hi ni ho????
aap toh kisi or purpose ke liye bane ho….bs jarurat he toh use samajhne ki……. baaki aap mein koi kami ni he…..aap ek achhi observer ho…!! yahi feature aapko doosri girls se alag krta he i mean hat ke he ????
just like aap iphone 7 jesi ho…baaki girls jo he wo normal phone ki tarah ????????less quality ..
Sonu ji isliye toh apke comments ko importance deti hu. Kyuki apki zyadatar baaton mein “I agree with you” waali baat se zyada “I can feel you” waali baat hoti hai… Man dukhi ho, aur aisa lagta hai ki, kuchh thik nahi ho raha toh apki baate parhkar rahat milti hai 🙂 Rahi baat aur ladkiyon se alag hone ki, 😛 Sabme apni kamiya aur khubiyan toh hoti hai. 😀 Saumya hoti toh woh mujhe bolti chalo chalo!!! isey zyada chane ke jhaad par mat charhao, utaaro neeche… 😛 jaise aap upar bol rahe the jenny ji ko apne liye. 😀 😀
my dear…rasmi jii.
soch lo, fr mat khaan fas gyi mein????????
😛 Soch liya hai Sonu ji 😀
zayn ji suniye????????
Wow its to long stryyy ndddd Occchhhmmmmm stryyyy Rupali
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or mje kch puchnaa bhii h ki Rohitt abbb kahaaa h kyaa apki abbb kbhii battt huiii h us see
Apkii stryy kafii long h mne iss site p kafiii stryy read ki h bttt uhh ki stry amazing h bttt h kafiii long ndd mje kafiii tym lggg gyaaa iseee pdneee m Ndd Rupali uhh ki stryy kafii long h so kafiii loggg mzkkk bhi bnaaa rh h isss battt k bttt m innaa khnaa chahugii ki stryy likhnaa bhi koi aam batt nhi apnee kitni sariii yade samet k rkhii h Rohit ki harrr ek batt Apnee btayii h Rohit s judiii h Appp real m bhuttt love krtiii h uskii bttt Rupali mekoo ASA lgtaa h usee tmhre pyar ki koi kdrrr nhi Jo ldkaa tmhra pyarr itne years m smjh nhi payaa abbb kya khakkk smjhegaa WO I think app usse bttr ldkaa deserve krti ho usee bhulll k aage bdooo ylll becz Apke pyar ki usne kdrrr hi nhi ki kbhi bass oll tym apki harrr battt ko mzk m liyaaa Mje to ASA lgtaa h usne kbhi pyarrr hi nhi kiyaa apsee haaa bttt ek batttt to h WO buraa ldkaa to nhi thaaa bttt WO apke pyarrr ko kbhi smjh nhi payaa or nahii apki feelings ko
I can understand what you are saying Aradhya ji, aap Angel ji waala mera comment check karlo… Thanks for reading my story madame and also for appreciating it. 🙂
Ndd Rupali Agr apko ajjj bhi ussee pyarrr h bsee pyarrr to ussee app krtii h or AGR app chahtiii h ussee battt krnaa to plzzz abbbb wait kiskaa kr rh ho call kro usse or batttt kro or sbbbb btaooo useee or sbbbb kch clr krloo ussee battt kr k
Sidrah ji hum aapse naraj ni he ????
Aap khush rahiye.
Hehe jarur aaungi rashmi di… Wese delhi(ali) me mri aur ek frnd h 😛
zayn hmmm les quality??? Dis is nt fair…… :->
n u r ryt rashmi ji dfrnt h, hr way of thnkhng n obsrvatn is sprb….
Super se b upar 😛 😉
Anjali ji, aisi baat nahi hai. 😛
O my god rupali ji aap kitna kuch sehte rahe i wish aapko life me bahut khusi mile itna ki aap dukh ko bhul jao god bless u rupali ji
aradhya g….ap fb inbox ma aao apse kuch baat krni h…
hyy
rupali ji
kaha ho or kaise ho
bhul gyi kya
Well mai toh yahi hu aur thik hu, 🙂 kaise ho?
good rupali hamesa aab good raho ji
or kya kr rhe ho aap
Aapse baat kar rahi hu 😛
aap fb pe ho
Well, nishi ji haan mai hu toh sahi. Par wahan mere saare family aur school and college freinds added hai, toh unko ajib lagega agar mai unke liye kisi unknown ko add karungi toh… I hope you understand… :/
you can* sorry
its ohk????
no problem
Well, thanks for understanding me Nishi ji. 🙂 Koi nahi mai yahan regular hu, ap yahi yaad kar liya karo mujhe. 🙂
hi rupali actully may kafi time se es site pr aai hu to mujhe ye btao rohit se bat hui uske bad kya hua
Okay Divya ji, aap jaanna chahti hain toh mai detail mein batati hu… 12th september raat ke 10:30 baje mujhe uska message aaya tha “hi”, par mai thaki hui thi toh us din mai jaldi so gayi, subah maine usko 8 baje reply kiya… us samay usne kaha woh abhi busy hai thodi derr mein baat karega… usne 10:30 mein message kiya, us samay mai busy thi toh maine fir 12 baje reply kiya. Usne mujhe fir belated birthday wish kiya… aur mujhse birthday treat maangne laga ki mai kab usse milkar birthday treat dungi… maine mana kar diya kyuki mere ghar mein problems chal rahi hai, jis wajah se mai college ke liye bhi bahut zyada absent ho rahi hu, toh usse milne ki baat toh dur ki hai…. fir puchhne laga ki aajkal mai kya kar rahi hu? toh maine kaha “kuchh khaas nahi”(Usko pata hai ki Mai abhi MA nahi kar rahi, par mai apne current course ke baare mein usse share nahi karna chah rahi thi)… fir mazak karne laga ki kya maine apne liye husband dhundana start kar diya hai?
Toh maine kaha ki yeh kaam mere parents ka hai, aur waise bhi 25 se pahle nahi.
Toh usne puchha ki kya unhone dhundana shuru kar diya hai?
Maine kaha, woh baat toh kar rahe the aapas mein dhundna start karne ki…
Toh usne kaha ki “Tu M.A. karle unko lagega ki tu parh rahi hai aur woh teri shaadi nahi karayenge.”
Maine mazak mazak mein kaha “kyu? shaadi ke baad M.A. kar lungi.”
Toh woh kahne laga ki “Yeh toh tere husband par depend karta hai..”
Maine fir mazak mazak mein kaha “Chhaat kar dhundenge, jo mera achche se khayal rakhega, tu uski chinta mat kar…”
Fir maine kaha “chinta mat kar agle saal karungi.”
Fir maine dubara kaha tera kya scene hai? tune toh kaha tha 30 ki age ke baad shaadi karni chahiye?
Toh woh bola ki haa mera toh ab bhi wahi hai, Zindagi ke saare maze luto.
Toh maine kaha “Thik hai maze karte rah”
fir hame baat karne ko nahi mil raha tha, toh maine kaha ki “Well mere masi ne jo tujhe 5 saal pahle last time kaha tha, uske liye mai tujhse maafi maangna chahti thi…”
Toh usne kaha ki “Mai bhul chuka hu sab kuchh, aur bahut aage barh chuka hu”
“Tu kya ab tak wahi atki padi hai?”
Maine kaha “Kabhi lagta hai, ki mai bhul gayi hu, fir kabhi achanak se yaad aata hai sab kuchh”
Usne kaha “Aap bhi aage barh jao…”(Woh actually jaldi jaldi message kar raha tha mere aisa kahne par)
“Kyu yaad karti hai tu in sab chizon ko?”
Mujhe uske yeh replies se feel hua ki ab kuchh kahne ka fayeda nahi hai ab.
Maine topic change kar diya yeh kahkar ki “Is chiz ko emotional mat bana, mujhe jo sahi laga maine kah diya…”
Hamare paas kuchh bataane layak tha hi nahi, hum lagatar ek dusre se kahe ja rahe the “Aur bata?, tu bata? Puchh?”…
Usko maine bataya ki mai thak rahi hu…
Usne fir puchhna start kar diya ki mai kab usko milkar treat dungi?
Maine usko bata diya ki mai kyu nahi abhi mil sakti, aur usne fir mujhe force nahi kiya.
Fir hamare paas kuchh tha hi nahi baat karne ke liye toh usne kaha thik hai rest karle, bye, take care. karke chala gaya…
The end.
ok to ab apne kya decied kia he kya kroge
Move on karne decide kiya hai… Woh aage barh gaya hai, kya fayeda ab uske baare mein sochne ka? I will feel nothing but tortured.
Pahle maine socha ki, agar mai usko saaf saaf bata du ki shayad mai ab bhi usse pyar karti hu, toh shayad better rahega, shayad wo “Mai bahut aage barh gaya hu” isiliye kah raha hoga kyuki usey laga hoga, maine 5 saal tak usko contact nahi kiya, to woh sure hoga ki mai aage barh gayi hu.
Par baad mein mann mein aaya… Ki 5 saal pahle bhi toh yahi hua tha? Maine usko bataya tha ki mai usse pyar karti hu…
Agar woh bura ladka nahi hai, to mai sure hu ki usne us samay meri feelings isliye accept ki hogi kyuki woh nahi chahta tha ki mai hurt feel karu… Woh ab mujhe aisa dekhega aur shayad ab bhi agar usne mujhe accept kar liya… toh woh wahi hogi similar to “Daya” waali feeling, woh pyar nahi hoga.
Kuchh saal pahle jab tak mere mann mein Rohit ke liye grudges bhare hue the tab mai shayad usko blame karti aur aapna dil jalati…
Par ab dekhu toh, pyar waali chiz feelings ke upar hoti hai, aap kisi ke feelings ko control nahi kar sakte. Khaskar ki woh feelings jo tenderness waali ho aur genuine ho.
Agar aap kisi ki genuine feelings ko control karne ki koshish karoge, toh woh hurt hoga… kyuki control karne ka matlab hai usko force karna badalne ke liye. Maine bas itna seekha hai ki ek ladke aur ladki ke Pyar mein sirf “aar ya paar” waali chiz hoti hai… Sincere ya insincere, genuine ya fir fake…
Aur agar aap kisi ki genuine feelings ko change karoge toh woh uska ulta “Fake” mein badal jayegi.
Tenderness ki feelings tabhi genuine hoti hai jab woh apne aap aa rahi ho. Warna woh fake, dikhawa aur jhut hai.
Isliye uske aur mere beech mein, kaun kise deserve karta hai yeh, baat aati hi nahi hai, kyuki feelings hi nahi hai,
mai uske paas jaungi woh mujhpar daya(mai hurt feel na karu) karke mujhe “haan” kahega… woh stressed feel karega, fir mai bhi stressed feel karungi aur fir se extreme level mein jakar apne aap ko hurt karungi, fir woh bhi hurt hoga… kyuki woh aisa nahi chahta tha isliye usne mujhe haan kaha tha….
Fir yeh cycle roz chalega… aur hum dono ek dusre ko hurt karenge aur ek dusre ki zindagi barbad kar denge… Fayeda kya hai?
Hii rupali ji
Hello Misha ji 🙂
Hvy rainfal in hyd Huh ting tong Rashmi ji…
I was missing you jenny 🙂 Yaha par toh autumn shuru ho gaya hai shayad, subah garmi aur shaam ko halki si thand.
Hehe awww cho chwt…. Evn i misd u…. Yha pe tho 2din se barish hori h…. Dis nyt is criticl 4 us it seems n floods also occurd in sm areas huh
Aap safe to ho na anjali ji?
Yeah m safe drrr 🙂
Hmmm Rashmi di cul dwn na…
Okay jenny ji i will cool down…i think i need a break.
I am glad to know that you are safe… phew…
Aur apki health kaisi hai?
And also I am Sorry aaj maine jo kaand kiya uske wajah se aap bhi usme include ho gaye. Mujhe kharab laga jab meri wajah se apko jawab dena pada… Par fir bhi thanks sis.
Hmm thankfully our area is safe di n dnt tel sry he msundrstud u huh, choti si baat ko issue bna k rkha h apne unke frnd k stry pe glt cmnt kia hi nhi u cmntd on hs wrd “bewafa gfs” n ufff he med it a big issue….
Wahi toh Jenny ji aur log bhi uske peechhe peechhe ho liye… maine balki uske “no. of gfs” par comment kiya tha… “Tujhe baar baar pyar ho raha hai? kaisa pyar hai?” <- mera matlab yeh tha…
aur usne kya bakwas karna start kiya toh bas aur log aa gaye aur story ko lekar mujhe bolne lag gaye. Ek time ke liye toh laga mai galat hu aur maine hi kuchh galat likha hoga…. par aap samajh gaye toh , ab mujhe thodi rahat mili. Sahi mein aisa lag raha tha, ki woh kah raha hai ki "Mai kitna mahan hu! meri itni saari gfs hai!"….
aur aapne notice kiya ho toh usne yeh baat ki meri bahut si dhokebaaz gfs thi mere khayal se 2-3 baar kaha tha. balki aur stories mein bhi uske comments maine parhe isi type ke the… Isliye khundak toh mujhe us par pahle se hi charhi hui thi.
Isliye maine straightforwardly kah diya ki tu desperate lag raha hai toh baat bigad gayi. 😛
But I am really glad ki you understood me. 🙂
Hii jenny
Bye ???? everyone
Hlo nikhil 🙂
Yeah Rupali ji evn i rd hs cmnts n 2nd stry whch ws abt hs so cald “gfs” hmmm u knw dose knd of boys ryt who show off haha u actualy spoke abt hs gfs so he dsnt want 2 bcm bad so he chngd d topic i mn blamed u 4 no reasn sayng dat u cmntd wrng abt hs frnd datz y many suportd hm dey msundrstud n i dint lykd it….
Jenny Mera mann kar rah hai ki yeh mujhe abhi mil gaya na saamne toh goli se uda du isko! 😛 😀
Haha tek dis gun… DichkewwW haha mje prfct hindi nai aati islye englsh me cmnt krti hu mri hndi bht khrb h i cnt spk in prfct hndi hahaha
Thanks gun ke liye…:P Koi nahi jenny mujhe sab samajh aata hai jitna bhi aap type karte ho. Dil ki baaton ke liye kisi language ki zarurat nahi hai, YOu know? 😀 <3
So frm nw onwrds u r my hindi tchr hehe 😛
😛 Okay ji waise bhi mai bachelor of arts hu hindi literature mein 😀 Pahle meri family teaching field mein hi mujhe daalna chahte the. 😛
Mai jitni bhi stressed hou… par aapse baat karke hamesha chehre par smile aa jaati hai. 🙂
Awww u r cho cho chwt hehe u alwys brng a smile on my face…. Hehe u knw wt strtng me ap mje rply ni dete the (on othr stories) so i usd 2 fl bad bt nw m so hpy dat m chtng wid u…. 🙂
Well, iski wajah yeh hai ki, jaise ki maine kaha ki tha meri story mein ki jo ladke mujhe achche lagte hai mai unke saamne aur bhi zyada uncomfortable feel karti hu… thik mere saath aisa ladkiyon ke liye bhi hai, ki jo ladki mujhe apne se achhi lagti hain, mujhe unke saamne bhi shy shy 😛 type ki feeling hoti hai. Mujhe lagta tha ki mai apke saamne aisi harkat na kar daalu, ya kuchh aisa na kah daalu ki jisse apko lage “Rupali kaisi ajib si ladki hai?” Isliye mai darti thi apko reply karne se. 😀 😀 😀
I cnt stp laughng hahaha 😀 n on dis site I reveald my name 2 u hehe b4 I dint felt lyk revealng it 2 any1 u r smthng spcl 2 me Rashmi ji…. My distnce cute swt frnd 😉 🙂 😛
Waise sach batau toh, Rahul toh bas bahana ban gaya. Mere mann mein aaya tha ki “kya Jenny ne dekha ki maine apna naam reveal kar diya?” 😛 Kitna ajib lagta mai agar apko direct aakar kahti, “Ki anjali ji mera naam Rupali nahi rashmi h” 😛 Aap sochte ki yeh ladki kuchh ajib hai, apne naam kyu badal badal kar bata rahi hai, kabhi rupali kabhi rashmi. 😛
Mere isi behavior ki wajah se mere masi kahte hai “Apna chhota sa dimag kam chalaya kar” Unhe bhi aur mere sabhi school friends ko pata hai ki bahut zyada sochti hu. 😀
hyy
waise rupali ji aapne jo last me kiya bahut acha kiya
good decision ????
Oh hello nishi ji, 🙂 ap Kaunse decision decision ke baare mein kah rahe ho?
Hahahahaha:-D me tho apki hr cmnt rd krti hu n clg se ghar aate hi 1st i wl txt my budhu n thn apki stry opn krke apki cmnt chek krti hu hehe n me mamma ko btati hu apke brme ki mri ek frnd h delhi me bht a6i h etc etc haha
Hahahahaha:-D me tho apki hr cmnt rd krti hu n clg se ghar aate hi 1st i wl txt my budhu n thn apki stry opn krke apki cmnt chek krti hu hehe n me mamma ko btati hu apke brme ki mri ek frnd h delhi me bht a6i h etc etc haha thodi der phle hi yaad kia apko
divya Ko jo bataya h
Ohh, thanks nishi ji, 🙂 maine explain bhi kiya hai ki mai aisa kyu kar rahi hu? kaash ki maine aisa pahle kiya hota par mujhe sab kuchh jaankar bhi apne upar confidence nahi tha… Abhi yaha jo mere new friends h, unhone samjhaya aur direction diya aur mujhe apne dil ki baat clearly sunne mein madad ki…
kai baar aisa lagta hai, ki inke address mangkar direct inke ghar pahuch jaau thanks karne ke liye 😛 😀
Haha then dfntly cm 2 my home rashmi ji nt 4 thanking….. 4 party hehe n hmm apne crct dcsn lia….. 🙂
Done jenny ji!!! 😀 Itni tarif mat kiya karo, mai itni bhi achchi nahi hu. *blushing* 😛 aur Mumma ko meri or se namaste kahna 🙂
Hehe mamma ne apko smile pas kia 🙂
Jenny ji Mai yaha se smile back kar rahi hu unko. 😀 😀 😀 aur aapko bhi 😛
rupali isme aapki koi galti n
love k aise situation me log samajh n paate kya unke liye sahi h ya galat
ache instructor ki jarurat hoti h uss time or aapke pass n tha waisa koi
but good ki aapko ache decision mile????
I completely agree with you Nishi ji. 🙂
hi friends…. kesi ho sb log
ohk ji ????????
good luck for ur future rupali ji????
Thank you so much, Nishi ji. 🙂
Endlessss Story..
Itni badi sty kon padega….
I will not force you to read it bro… aapko jo thik lage woh karo.
welcome dear????
aapka dinner ho gya
Nahi, nishi ji, mai abhi banane ja rahi hu. 😛
O wow u evn cook?!!! Hehe vry gud rashmi ji me aa rhi hu dnr krne
You are most welcome Jenny :P…
Hehe thnq thnq :p
You are welcome jenny 🙂 good night abhi ke liye…
Guddi guddi mrng Rashmi jiii 🙂
hv an awesm day ahead…..
Jenny ji, kal raat 2 baje soi thi aur subah 10:30 baje uthi hu. 😛 Aur pure din busy thi… ab jakar online hui hu… so good evening 😀 😀 😀 I hope ki apka din achcha tha… 😀
Hiii frndss…
hlo friends
Hmmm hlooiiii
Hmmmm Zayn….. Apki tbiyt kesi h???
i am fine jenny ???? ……what about you ????
Hehe m fine sonu ji 😛
Omg! 2am ko soye the ap hehe kbi kbi me b bht late soti hu hehe n yeah my day went gud… 🙂
Hw ws ur day???
Thik raha… bas late utho toh pure din aur zyada nind aati hai 😛 Abhi fir aankhen band ho rahi thi nind se. 😀 😀
Hehe I woke up jst nw 😛 😛 😛
😛 Anjali ji, ab raat ko kya hame nind aayegi?
Chalo Raat ko jaag kar hum saath saath chamgadad bankar udenge… *fly, fly* kitna maza aayega!!! ????????????????????
Haha bht maza aayega 😀 puri raat jaag k masti krnge 😛 😀 😛
Ulta latak ke chaand ke nazare bhi dekhenge 😛
aap cooking jaanti ho awesome ????
mujhe v kuch khila dena kvi rupali ji????
Maggi k shiwae kuch n aata hame
toh aapse cooking class lungi ohk????????
aap dogi na ????????????
Ohh thank you nishi ji…. Maine abhi 2-3 saal pahle seekha tha apne course ki wajah se… Mujhe lagta tha difficult h par ek baar banana shuru kiya toh pata chala ki koi badi baat nahi h. 🙂 pahle maine isliye nahi sikha tha kyuki aap jaante hi hoge ki rishtedar comment karte rahte h ki “khaana banana seekh le shaadi ke baad pati ko kya khilaegi”
Aur mujhe yeh sunkar itna zyada gussa charhta tha ki mai kahti thi ki “mere paas kuchh bettet nahi h kya karne ke liye jo mai shaadi karugi aur khaana banaungi?” aur isliye seekha bhi nahi.
Fir mere masi ne kaha ki khaana banane ka matlab thodi na h ki shaadi karne ki taiyari karna… Kabhi mujhe akele independently rahna pada toh? Mai roz roz toh bahar ka nahi kha sakti na? Aur waise bhi kisi ko effort karke kuchh banakar dena ek tarah se apna pyar show karna h… Aur cooking ek tarah se pyar waala effort h… 🙂 tabse mujhe cooking pasand h… Aur ajkal toh ladke bhi family se jo alag rahte h job ya study ki wajah se unhe bhi cooking aati h yaha tak ki mere bhai ko bhi aati h… Aap bhi aana khaane ke liye kabhi 😛
Haha bht maza ayega rashmi ji 😀 puri raat jag k masti krnge 😛 😀 😛
ohh fly fly.. ????
dheere boLOo..
kahii spider men ne sun liYa tOh behosh hi ho jana he ????????????????
???????????????????? Koi nahi usey mai healing dekar zinda kardungi aur Aap bhi aa jao jeeny ji ke saath party karne… Aap toh batman lagoge :p party mein chaar chaand lag jayega ????????????????
Haha cooking tho mje b nai aati classes kbse join kru??? 😀 jb me 10th me thi water melon halwa bnai thi tv pe dekh k, gharpe sbko khilai 😛 n thank god kisi ko ku6 nai hua 😉
hahahahaha 😀 😀 😀
n zayn ji tho multi talented h batman, superman haha
what the helL matermelon ka halwa????
mene kabhi ni suna aisa naam…. ????
kuch aisi healing doO pakisthan waloon ko ,ki wo border pr aane se phle hi behosh ho jaaye????????????
Hmmm zayn apne meli dish ko “wt d hel” kaha 🙁 eeee ngi ngi ngieee(cry) i hurtu ;-( huhuh i hate uuuu
Mai bhi online recipe search kar rahi thi… ????
Koi nahi Koi nahi jenny hum chamgadad hain aur menu mein aaj insects hain 😛 apko machchhar pasand hai ya moth?…. ????????????
mai apke garden ke amrud khaane ja rahi hu… Mai vegetarian hu…. ????????
Zayn ji terrorism ko rokne ka achcha idea h. Lekin behosh karna yaani ki kuchh galat karna ???? pata chala mai behosh ho gai.
Hmmm :->
Jenny ji sirf hmmm?
Haha menu tho spr h rashmi ji 😛 mje non veg psnd ni h ap mosquito 65 bnake zayn ji ko khilaiye
Jenny ji 😛 bas chiz pasand naa aae toh zayn ji ko pakda do?
Haan hehe 😛
mata rani ka pap lagega tumhe ????????
Hahaha q q q?
niii????
tum border par khadi ho jAna….pakisthani aisi hi behosh ho jAyege????
Aapka matlab kya hai? o.O
girls are naturally beautiful….????
so when they saw beautiful girl at loc…
they are flat on you ????????????
Baat banana koi Sonu maharaj ji se sikhe… 😛 ????????????
rasmi jiii..
hmm means..
h= haan
m= meri
m= maa
now,you will understand ????
Mujhe us din ki yaad aa gai jab hum apni pomeranian bahen ko pahli baar ghar laaye the… Uske kucch din baad… Woh living room se aa nahi rahi thi aur shaitani karne mein lagi hui thi… mai bula bula kar pareshan ho gai… End me maine kaha “aaja meri maa” fir daudte hue mere paas aai khushi khushi .???????????? ????
Haha I 4got 2 tel u di evn v hv a pomeranian, 😛 uska naam munni h, bht pareshn krti h hm sbko jb dekho upar niche daudti rhti h n shez scared of crackers, 😀 jb b o baat nai sunti me red chilli bomb n mtch stick leke usko darati hu haha 😛
Saare puppies aise hi hotey h diwali ke din bahut darte h… par meri waali toh bahut mahan hai… Diwali uska favorite tyohar h… Bomb ki awaz sunkar ghar ke bahar nikalkar dekhti h aur khushi ke maare pure balkani mein daudne lagegi… Andar zabardasti band karna padta h taaki kaan na kharab karle apna 😛 … Ghar mein lage hue diye bujha bujhakar apni gufa nein jama karti hai… Ek baar toh uska pair bhi jal gaya tha kyuki pair mar mar kar diye bujhati h… Phir bhi baaz nahi aati…
Machis jalakar darao toh bhaag toh jaati h par fir… Jab apka dhyan nahi hoga toh machis ka dabba gul aur pure ghar mein machis ki tiliyan bikhri hui milengi…. Masi kahte h bilkul mujhpe ja rakhi h 😛
Aur mere kapde bhi uthakar le jayegi pure ghar ka pochha lagayegi… Sandals kha jayegi…. Mere phone par nakhun marti h… Screen card saara barbad… Bed se niche patak degi phone ko… Laptop chalao to us ke upar aakar baith jayegi…. Books ke panno mein bhi uske pairon ke nishaan rahte h… Aur daat mujhe padti h. 🙁
Mai bolu ki “tujhe ek chaata lagaungi”… Toh akar mujhe kaatna shuru kar degi… Jab tak sorry na bolo chhodti bhi nahi h… Kitna atyachar karti hai mere upar woh ???????????????????? ????????????????????
haha???? diwali wale din na ulte rocket chalane mein maja aata he… ????????
Hahaha actualy me bht stressed feel kr rhi thi but apka ye msg pdhke bht hasi aayi mamma ko b btai evn she startd laughing….. Hmari munni tho diwali pe bahar hi nai aati bed k niche jake sojati h bht darti h crackers se bichari
actually, mene ye naam kabhi ni suna, isliye pooch liya..????
vese bhi mujhe dog society se shakt nafarat he….q ki un kutto ne mujhe ek baar kaat liya tha???? poore ke poore 5 injuctions lage mere…????
Awwh sonu ji ???? mai samajh sakti hu… Hamare ghar mein koi bhi naya insan aata h jise pahle kisi ne kaata hua h… Woh yahi bolta… Koi nahi meri pixie ghar ke bahar ke logo ko nahi kaatti… Ajibo garib hai sirf ghar ke hi logo ko kaatti h 😛 ghar ke bahar ke logo ko bahut pyar karti h… I am sure usko apse bhi pyar ho jayega 😛 mere haath pair mein meri bahena ke bites aur scratches lage hue h… Kind of Domestic abuse you know? ????
Jenny… 😛 apko toh maine bata diya na ki woh thodi opposite h aur pups se ???????????????? kabhi laana munni ko… Suna h pomeranians apne prajati waalo ko bahut like karte h 🙂
pata he rasmi …..mein apne best friend ke saath saath uske ghr ke pass wale garden mein goom rha tha ????…achanak se uski gf ka call aaya…toh uska call aate hi hm uske ghr ki taraf chal diye…or wo mbl pr baat kar rha tha,mein uske saath saath chal rha tha…wo apni gf s kh rha babu ne khana khaya…babu ne homework kiya..babu ne ye kiya..wo kiya….????????mujhe us time itni jor se hasi aa rhi thi…???? are babu kya bachha he kya….. ???? ni poochega tb bhi babu ki bachhi khana kahyegi had hoti he…????….itne bhi pta ni khaan se ,bhgwaan jaane ek pgl kutta aaya, usi gali mein rhta tha……mtlb wo faltu hi tha…kuch dino baad wo pagl ho gya…bhgwaan jaane q pgl hua???? or us kutte ke bachhe ne kaat liya ????…or mere pair ke ander tk uske daant chale gye,jiski vajah se mjhe foran hospital jana pda…wo bhi jaipur ke sabse bde hospital mein???? fr us dctr ne injection lgaya….or udr us babu ki bachhi ka phone aa rha tha ???? kya hua, kisne kutte ko kaata,
wo smj rhi thi usko kaata he kutte ne….????????????babu ki bacchi kahi ki…
vese uske chakkr mein ye sab hua tha….huh babu ki bachhi…..
fr pata he kuch din baad hi mene hi breakup ho gya un dono ka….???? mein bda kush tha….or mein apne besr friends ko tease krta tha.. hehe ????????
fr mera best friends jo tha wo bhut upsate rhne lage…bike lekr uski gali ki chkkr kaatne lgte he..uski vajah se mujhe bhi uske saatjh jaan pdta tha ????
fr baad mein pta chala us ldki ka phle hi si koi bf he…or mjhe toh phle hi shaq tha pr mera tapori dost manne ko ready ni tha ????….fr sb clear hua..wo alag rhne lga or upsate bhi jese sbhi romio ldke rhte he vese ..????
???????????????????? bichare aap 😛 mujhe bhi injectiom lagane ki baat chal rahi thi par… Blood test karana alag baay hai aur vaccination karana alag baat h… Waise toh meri bahen ko injections lage hue h… Fir bhi precautionary wajah se… Par mai kaap rahi thi jab mujhe despensary le gaye the… Aur thank god ki unhone kaha ki safdarjang (delhi ka ek bada govt hospital ) jaana padega… 😀 toh mai bach gai. Apke friend ke liye bura laga. Kabhi kabhi mere mann mein aata h ki yeh time pass karne waale log apne jaise logo ke saath time pass kyu nahi karte?
Aur us Rahul ka bhi kal raat mujhe fb mein msg aaya tha… Par maine reply nahi kiya… Pata nahi kya problem h isey… Maine jab sach mein mann banaya ki peeche mudkar nahi dekhna… Tab chaahe kisi aur wajah se kyu na aaya ho? Par fir bhi kyu msg kr raha h? Shilpa ke time par iski kya halat thi isey pata nahi h kya? Jo mujhe bhi nahi samajh paa raha? Aap sahi kah rahe the us din ki sab ke sab exs ko goli markar uda dena chahiye.
mera best friend tha na..wo kahta tha bhale hi iske 10 bf ho..pr mein use krunga…mene sale tapori ko smjhaya ????
tb pheeche hata ..
rasmi ji actually baat ye ki jese ab rahul ka msg aaya….
toh ab yhan….mind or intelligence…
mind toh kahega…yes mujhe msg krna chahiye…..bcz msg krne se hi meri sense ko satisfication milega…saath saath..
intelligence tumhe msg krne se rokegi…no no..msg ni krna kya….fayda…baar baar hurt hone se…..isse achha hum apne apko strong banate he aage bdte he life mein….apni satisfication ke liye kyu hum doosre logo ko hurt krege like aapke parents…masi ji..
rasmi ji…control your mind..be strong…..msg mt krna….mein kahta hu tm block hi kr do….
tmne msg dekh liya he toh kiya iska reaction bhi hoga ????
ab karna tmhe he…..
vese pyar ki maa ki aankh kuch ni hota ise…sab gdhe gltfhmi mein jee rhe he pyr hi sb kuch he life mein ????
my dear friends rasmi ji..
control your mind through intelligence (knowledge)
wo kahaa se aati he?
college jaane se…study krne se….????
so i hope you understand….
Hmmm I think Zayn ji is ryt…. Block him Rashmi ji agr blok nai kiye tho rply krne ka man krega….. U’ll get disturbed again….
Main kya kahu us chiz ke liye jo apne sonu ji mujhe kahi h mujhe kuchh samajh nahi aa raha? Sach mein mera dimag block ho gaya h.. I think i need sometime to think about all these things when i will calm down… Aaj ka pura din bhi waise busy gaya… Toh lagta h waise hi thakaan ke karan dimag kuchh soch nahi paa raha h. But i will keep all these things in my mind that you both told me my friends. Thanks buddies I am feeling lucky because both of you… Good night sweet dreams. 🙂
achha , tum bhi shikho mujhse
baatein bannaa ????
saath mein gappe ladana ????
Sikhaiye sikhaiye 😛 mai toh bhakt hu apki waise bhi.
Huh Rashmi ji mra b dimag block hogya is 2nd internals k wajah se huh n BRS topic ko dekh k rona aa rha 🙁 ;-(
hmm relax dr dnt b too bsy 😛 calm dwn n thn thnk abt al dese thngs cuz u shud nt regret later on ur decisions!!! N yeah same hre evn I fl lucky 2 hv u as my frnd seriously! 🙂 😛
gd nyt rashmi ji n zayn ji
Hanji jenny ji aap sahi kah rahe ho… Kal pure din itna saara kaam tha college mein bhi aur ghar mein bhi 🙁 mujhe pelvic joint mein dard ho raha aur chalne mein problem ho rahi h… Aj mai college bhi nahi gai… Rest ki zarurat h thik ho jayega… Toh chinta ki baat nahi h… 🙂 aap kaisi ho?
BRS kis chiz ke baare mein h?
Ohh huh proper lijiye rashmi ji thik hojaynge ap n BRS(bank reconciliation statement) is a sum, my stream is accounts…. Kal tk bht confused thi aj clarity mili nw m bit ok wid it, actualy our intrnls r gona strt frm tmrw, kal 2 exms h accounts n economics huh so mra dimag khrb hogya! Oh my Jesus…. Help me……
OMG! 5 injctns hahahaha cho sad hahaha 😀 😀 😀
Wow jenny… Mujhe toh aapke subjects ke naam se hi chakkar aa rahe hai… Maths se related subjects mujhe bahut difficult lagte h … Mujhe toh history ke dates bhi yaad nahi hote the 😀 good luck sis
Thnq di huh kal 3exms h ;-( 🙁 :-/
Best of luck sis… Zyada stress mat lo… Achche se likhna! 🙂 god bless you.
hii friends
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or ye pomeranian kya hota he…..????
Hehe zayn…. pomeranian is a breed of dog….. 😛
Hii friends…
Hi sagarika 🙂
hi friends kya me aap sab se dosti kar sakta hu kya
Rupali….ap ho kya???.
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Itniiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeee short story ke liye……ap ko paramveer chalaer@@@@.
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.ap jaldi se parent ki marzi se shadi krl.
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Okay apki marzi sir aankhon mein bhai.. Par Aap bhi isse pahle mere liye bhabhi le aao jaldi se 😛
Comment.. Hmm thnq di gd nyt swt drmz tc
Gud nyt sweet❤ 🙂
Ahaan.
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Acha advice h………tqqqqq.
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Good afternoon… Exam kaisa hua jenny?
Hehehe rashmi ji my exms went gudddd sooo gud lyk kfc! 😛
N Zayn me hindu hu bt christ ko manti hu… I studies in christian schl n my princi ws an Anglo Indian… Jesus k brme roz batate tho so frm thn I studies blvng in christ…. 🙂
Well done jenny!!! 😀 ????✌???? wow ???? sirf aaj tha ya abhi aur tests bache h?
Kal 2 the n aj 3! Katham hehehe
Wow sis, ek baari mein itne saare paper? Daag deni padegi aapke dimag ki!… Mujhe zombie waali feeling ho rahi hai ab 😛 Aapne “Warm bodies” movie dekhi hai kya?
Huh no… N my clg is autonomous so they follow their own stupid rules huh…. Ek sath 2, 3 exms huh i ws tnsd
Ohh, yaani ke yeh finals nahi the, ek tarah ke assignments type ke paper? Hamare is tarah se sessionals hote hai… mere next week hai 2 sessionals.
jenny are you christians? ????
rasmi jii kis bhabhi ki baat kar rahi ho aap… ????
Sonu ji mai )-(earty bhaiya ki future wife ke baare mein bol rahi thi 😛 ???????????? jab tak woh shaadi nahi karenge mai bhi nahi karungi…
Internals r part of finals…. We follow semester process, intrnls=30marks n
extrnls=70marks
intrnls khthm hogae, extrnlas nxt month me h di :-/
hanji Raani mai samajh gayi hu… Good luck once again. 🙂 Arrey haan mujhe Poster making mien consolation prize milne ki baat chal rahi hai apne department mein… first toh nahi aai hu pure college mein… par apne department mein first hu. 😛 Unhone mera poster library mein lagaya hua hai… World literacy day par based tha…. mai apko photo bhejti apne poster ki agar, yaha photo send karne ka option hota toh 😀 😀 😀 … isliye touch-wood mera mood aaj bahut achcha ho rakha hai. 😛
Oh wow cngratz my pyari pyari diii 😛 hehehe me b 1st intrnls me top kia, clas me tho chup beithti thi, mam ko proper ans nai deti thi cuz i usd 2 feel nervous n aftr seeing my prfrmnce she named me “chuparustam” haha 😛 😀
ohh wow or kya kya chupa rakha he, tumne jenny ????
rasmi ji wo toh baramchari rhega…toh kya aap bhi shaadi ni kroge ????????????
Jenny aapne mere ghar par microphone toh nahi laga rakha na? Meri drawing dekhkar mere teacher bhi mujhe chhuparustam kah rahe the 😛 unhe in 3 saal mein pata hi nahi chala ki mai drawing bhi karti hu.
Zayn ji apki baat mein point hai… 😛 Par agr yeh brahmachari h toh yeh theloverspoint mein kya kar rahe h? 😛 think! Think! ????
pata he rasmi ji..
mein kabhi kabhi sochta hu, ye jo ladke loverpoint par apna whatsapp number mandir ki prasad ki tarah idar udar baathe rhate he….???????? kya unko bhi koi girl line deti hogi kya.. ???? ????????
Han rashmi di microphn lgaya mene apki room me hahaha… 😉 😛
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Zayn ji ap b n0 post krke try krna chahte kya? 😛 😀 😀
Sonu ji mujhe lagta h iske 4 karan h ki woh apna no. Post karte h-
1. Unhone kisi aur ka no. Usey tang karne ke liye daala h.
2. Us ladke ka dimag kharab h.
3. Us ladke ki shakal bhi kharab h. (Nahi mai mazak kar rahi hu… Har koi unique hota h.. Toh meri is baat ko galat way par mat lijiyega)
4. Woh terrorrist h aur woh no. Uska code word h. ????????????
Bhagwan jaane… waise first year mein jab mai thi apne current college mein thi… Tab hamaari cls mein ek ladki thi woh inhi ladki thi… Woh sadak mein kisi ko bhi pakad kar uska no. Maang leti thi. Uske parents bhi usse pareshan the… Usey kuchh psychological problem thi aur psychiatrist ko attend kar chuki thi woh kai baar…
Mujhe lagta h ki koi mentally stable insan aisi harkate nahi kar sakta…
Kabhi saath milkar inka no. Check karenge 😛 ???????????? raaz phone no.s ka 😛 okay sonu aur jenny ji?
haha ???? jenny ji
actually, i am very shy….mujhe ladkiyo se baat krne mein hi bhut sharam aati he ???? no dena toh bhut door ki baat he ????????????????????
Hello Friends…..
Hii prem…
Haha done rashmi ji haha 😛
Haha done rashmi ji haha 😛
o ulta hme tang kiye tho…….???
Naya no. Le kar karene :p
Hehe done 😛
Is weekennd kya kar rahe ho? mainatoh apne baal kuchh zyada hi short kata liye the parso… Ghar mein bahut daat padi 😛
Kab lambe honge ab pata nahi…
Haha huh mje lambe bal bht psnd h 😛 bt my hair so fluffy huh….. Is weeknd pe me masti krungi 😛 hahaha apke 7 Delhi me 😀
ab toh bhagwaan hi jaane ye kya chahte he ????
ohh ganjiii hone ki kya jatoorat thii..????????????
Sonu ji, chinta mat kariye. 😛 boy-cut type ki hair cutting lag rahi hai, maine kuchh aur haircutting kahi thi us parlar waali ne kuchh aur kaat di!!! ????????????
Ganji nahi hui mai abhi!!! … ????????????
ghar par sab chida rahe hai, jamadarini jamadarini kahkar. ???????????? Mummy ne nahi dekha abhi tak, warna pith mein mukke padne toh abhi baaki hai! ????
Anjali ji, mujhe bhi lambe baal pasand hai, par mai baal baandhu toh mujhko headache hota hai, aur sambhaale bhi nahi jaate 🙁 isliye kandhe tak itne short rakhti hu ki bandhana na pade aur garmi bhi naa lage.
???????????? meri mom ko bataya mene…wo bhi has rhi he….????????????
hota he,hota he…mera bhen ke saath bhi aisa hi hua tha shyd jb wo 10-12 saal ki thi…or wo 2 din tk ro rhi thi,khana bhi ni khaya…sara dosh mujhe de rhi thi ????????????????????
or kahane lagi…mujhe mere baal vapas do…????????????????????
???????????? Awh Sonu ji, Apke mom ko namaste! 🙂 koi nahi, chinta ki baat nahi h… khet fir lahlahane lagenge jald 😛
Nd she hadn’t gone school atleast 15 days ????????…
mein pray krunga,aapke baal jaldi jaldi aaye ????
Bichari apki bahen 😛 samajh sakti hu us par kya beeti hogi?… Mera bhi mood bahut kharab hua tha parso shaam ko apne baal family waalo ko dikhakar ???????????? par thanks pray karne ke liye ????
Sonu ji…
Kya bas ek chiz puchhni h apko ki kya mai Rahul ko sach mein block kardu?
Last time humne thik se hi baat ki thi… Par mujhe laga tha woh dubara message nahi karega aur maine situation ko accept kar liya tha.
Jab maine usko pahle block kiya tha Smriti ke kahne par… Toh smriti ne ek baat kahi thi mujhe ki… “Rahul ko lagta hai ki woh kabhi bhi meri zindagi mein aa sakta hai aur ja sakta hai”
Aur abhi jab woh lautkar aaya toh mujhe Smriti ki baat bilkul sach lagi.
Usne khud kaha tha ki usne move on kar liya h… Aur khud kaha ki mai bhi aage barh jau…
Toh fir baar baar uska wapis aana mujhe kya wrong hint dena nahi h?….
Par us din apke kahne par maine usko block nahi kiya kyuki mai curious thi ki usne message kyu kiya h? Aur maine socha bhi ki usey reply karu…
Par maine usko ab tak reply nahi kiya…aur kaafi socha is baare mein aur mera 70% mind kah raha h ki mai ab usko puri tarah se nikal du apni zindagi se… Aur abhi mujhe usko block karne ka mann ho gaya h… Aapne pahle hi suggest kar diya tha par fir bhi mai reconfirm kar rahi hu ki Mai sahi kar rahi hu ya nahi?
Block krne ka man bna lia h tho blok krdijiye rahul ko….. Apki frnd smriti ne bilkul sahi kaha, q br br hurt krte ho ap khud ko? U stil lv hm islye ap decide nhi kr pa rhi h abi b apko hope h ki he wl cm bck 2 u???
Jenny Sis aap aisi baate mat karo ki i still love him… mujhe anxiety ke maare nausea ki feeling ho rahi hai. 😛
block krogi tum vapas se unblock kr dogi ….i know..it’s too difficult…isse achha msg delte krke rkh do…simple….
What a beizzatti sonu ji 😛
tumhe pata he mene apni gf ko na jaane bhut baar block kiya tha pr vps se unblock kr deta tha…
fr mene use normal baat krke…or na uske unfriend krke uska msg delte kr diya…..dil ko taslli mil jaaye ????
apne experience ke base par kah rha hu, ????
Oh toh aapke saath ho toh apke saath bhi ho rakha h aisa… 🙁
Apne jab kaha tumse nahi hoga…
Mujhe sachchi laga sonu ji se itni classes lene ke baad toh mujhe aise question karne se pahle mujhe chullu bhar paani mein dub kar mar jaana chahiye ???????? ????????????
Sooooooooooo…. embarrassing you know… ????????????
zindagi ne bHut kucH shikha diya mujhe… ????
vese tum meri shisya hOoo….soO ????????????????meri baat mana kro = ????????
Waise Anjali aur Sonu ji Maine uska message delete kar diya hai. Uski woh chhoti si photo bhi mujhe apne message box mein dikhti hai toh anxiety dilaati hai.
*kaan chhukar* Sonu guru ji abse koshish karungi aapki har baat maanne ki 😛 😀
mujhe toh meri ex yaad hi nii aati ???? ittu si bhi ni ????
such mein bhaad mein jaye aise ex-y-z ????
tumhe pata he rashmi pahle na…100-200 years ago use pahle ke jamane mein , love ni hota tha direct shaadi hoti thi…shuhagraatū wale din hi dulhan ka chehra,dekhne ko milta tha… ????
Hanji aur kam umra mein shaadi bhi ho jaati thi toh pahla pyar husband aur wife mein hi hota tha. Romantic tha waise. 😛
or fr uske baad dulhan dhoodh ka gilas lekar aati thi ????????
fr light off karke so jate the…
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Aur dudh ka kya hota tha?
dudh Sonu ji aur Anjali ji naam ki billiyan pi jaati thi…
Mujhe to dudh pasand nahi h sorry mai vegan billi hu… ????????????
oh god ????????????
Omg! 😀 😛 😀
Haha ewww mje dudh bilkul psnd nai h i jst hate milk
jenny ????????you must be drink born bita ????
Hehe no zayn me badam dudh piti hu 😛
Isliye toh BSR kar rahe ho!
Mai haldi waala dudh peeti hu kabhi kabaar. 😛 Chalo pee lete hain Anjali ji… is baar bhi Sonu ji ko akela chhod diya toh hum dono ko maata raani ka paap lagega. 😛 ????????????
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BSR kya hota he.. ????
Sorry, slip of the finger 😛 ???? ???? ???? actually not BSR but BRS(bank reconciliation statement) Anjali ji ka subject jinka kuchh din pahle unhone test diya tha. 🙂
ohh achha BRS !!????????
happy navratri…jenny $ rupali ji.. …!!
vrat vagairh rakha hoga aapne ????
Happy Navaratri to you too Zayn ji aur Jenny ji. 🙂
Nahi Sonu ji maine toh nahi rakha, mujhse vrat nahi rakha jaata, mujhe weakness feel hoti hai agar mai propper meal na lu toh… ????
koi baat ni..????
or pata he ..kuch ladkiyaan toh mene aisi dekhi he, jo 5 kilo khana kahakr kahti he..
mera aaj vrat he ????????????????
Hanji Zayn ji, mere class ki ladkiyan vrat waale namkin laati hai aur canteen jakar vrat waale chip lakar khaati hai… canned fruit juice peeti hain, phir sab ghar jakar prashad bhi khaate hain… 😛 Vrat waale chips ek baar maine taste kiye the… Uske baad dubara nahi kiye. Pata nahi kaise khaate hain log us chiz ko? ????
koi baat ni…lote ni ????
ek vrat ki keemat tm kya jaano rashmi babu ????????????????
guddie night ????
Good night Sonu babuji. 🙂 Sleep tight and take care!
Hyy everyone
Rupali ji ????
Thanks jenny
Hyy
Aap kaha ho or Rupali ji aap v????
Mai toh yahi hu madame. 🙂 Kaisa feel kar rahi ho ab aap?
Feeling better
Dear
Dinner hua aapka
Abhi toh nashta karne ka time ho raha h nishi ji mera par mai abhi abhi sokar uthi hu toh… Good morning…
Apne nashta kar liya?
U r wlcm dr nishi 🙂
Ohh zayn ji tho apko BRS k breme pta h huh stupid topic dimag khrb ho jata h mera….
Me b vrat nai rkhti dctr ne strct mana kia h huh bt gud friday pe i wl fast 🙂 til 3pm pani b nai piti pta nai us din tho ku6 nai hota mje rashmi ji…. God’s miracle….
Jab maine Rieki waali story sunai thi toh usme bataya toh tha apko jenny ji ki bhagwan ke contact mein akar sab heal ho jaate hain, shayad yahi baat hai apke saath bhi. 🙂 Jejus apse prasann ho jaate hai lagta hai. 🙂
Maine toh 12 pm tak bhi bhukhe pet rahu toh mai Kans Mama ke avtaar mein aa jaati hu. 😛 Matlab khana na khaane se weak feel karti hu, weak feel karti hu toh nind aati hai, aur sone ka mauka na mile toh sabpar gussa aane lagta hai ki mujhe pareshaan kar rahe h aur sone nahi de rahe. ???? 😛 ????????????
hi friends
Well, friends… Please naam bolkar “Hi” kara kariye… sabko lagta hai ki kisi aur ko “Hi” kaha ja raha hai isliye Fir ajib lagta hai reply karne ki sochne par, aur reply na karo toh fir guilt feeling hoti hai. 🙁
Hehe yeah huh actually sbko hi bolte h lekin bdme rply chek b nai krte hnge 😛
N happy Navratri rashmi ji n zayn ji….. 🙂
Haha gd nyt bth of u chwt chwt dlmz 😛
Good night Raani! 😛 🙂 Sleep tight and take care. 🙂
Haha naya naam dia apne mje hehe guddi buddi nyt snuggle up tight 😉 😛
Good morning sonu and anjali ji… Have a nice day. 🙂
Vry gud mrng ji wese mamma ka naam Rani h 😛 🙂
Vry gud mrng ji hehe wese mamma ka naam Rani h 😛 🙂
Hyy jenny ji nd rupali ji
Kaise ho ji tussi????????
Happy navratri savi friends ko????
HlooO nishi ji 🙂
me thk hu aur aap
Mai thik thaak hu jenny
Aapne brkfast kiya
Good afternoon nishi ji and happy navratri 🙂 …
Ohh aapke mumma ka naam rani h jenny ji..
Actually mujhe jab apne chhote cousins par pyar aata h toh mai unhe raja aur raani kahkar bulati hu… ???? ????????
Oops Sorry good evening ???? actually maine last msg 2 pm mein type kiya tha… Aur abhi wahi as it is send kr diya.
Awwww cho chwtttt n gd evng rashmi ji sonu ji n nishi jiii
Hyy jenny ji or rupali ji
Ky ho rha h
????????????????????????????????sabko meri taraf se
Kha rhi thi isliye socha sabse share karu
Jenny nd rupali ji for u nd every one
Ohh thanks for sharing it with us nishi ji.
Mujhe yeh autumn season waise bhi pasand nahi… Kaisa ajib sa mausam ho jaata h… Chocolate aise depressed environment mein khaana mood light up kar deta h ????❤
Hehe depresd envirnmnt me choclts khane se mood ON hota h rashmi ji hehe ummmm nishi ji mere ko dairy milk silk roasted almond dilaiye hehe 😛
anjali ji mujhe bhi dairy milksilk pasand hai… Nishi ji mujhe fruits and nuts please! ????????????
Yes rupali ji
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Dinner bna liya aapnr
Ohk jenny ji ????????
Hehehe Rashmi ji ko fruit n nut
psnd h, mra fvrt roastd almnd h n nishi ji apka fvrt kya h???
Kitkat ????????
good moorning rupali… ????
Aadarniya guru dev Aapko kya sach mein lag raha ki hum chamgad hain?
“Jab andhera hota h toh humara savera hota h?” ???????????????? *fly fly*
Chamgadad*… Sorry uff yeh auto correct
ulluoo ki ranii hOo tum ????????????
neend nii AA rahi he kya ? ????
Nahi guru dev 😛 actually mai shaam ko 6-8 baje tak soi thi aur ab mai ulluon ki raani bann gai hu… ????
ullu mujhe cute lagte h waise ???? mai jenny ji ke saath *hoot hoot* kar rahi hu… Aap so jao thake hue hoge ???????????? gud nyt. Sleep tight.. 🙂
actually, meri ms dhoni movie download ho rahi he…????
Wow! ????
Hehe bt mje tho nind aa rhi h me sone ja rhi hu gd nyt london drmz 😛 both of u tc
Anjali rani aap mujhe ullu banakar akela chhodkar bhaag gai? 😛
Koi nahi mera bhi wifi band hone waala h toh mai bhi sadly ja rahi hu… So finally good night Sonu and jenny ji. ????????????
Hehe kal mje nind aari thi tho jaldi sogai….. Mje b owls cute lgte h i’ve collectd sm pics hehe 😛
Gud mrng rashmi ji n sonu ji hv an awesm day ahead 🙂
Mai kal shaam soi to thi… Par fir bhi letate hi raat mein nind aa gai 😛 toh koi baat nahi sis mai waise bhi mazak kar rahi thi. And good morning 🙂 Sonu ji movie dekh rahe honge 😛
good moorning rupali ji..$ gud nyt jenny..????
haan mene movie dekh li..!
bhut emotional or inspirational movie thi…!
dhoni ki first gf bhut acchi thi ???? par uski death ho jati he..this was d sad moment …
pr uski vajah se india world cup jeet paya tha…????
bhut achhi he rupalii..tum bhi dekhna… ????????
Okay sonu ji… Meri ek classmate ne bhi dekh li hai..
Woh bhi kah rahi thi ki achi movie h aur mujhe bhi dekhne ko kaha.
ab Dekhni padegi lagta h… Pahle mai nahi dekhna chah rahi thi male lead ki wajah se. 😛
ladkiyo ko cricket mein interest ni hota shyd isliye ????????
jenny jesus is incarnation of krishna….i forgot that day…but now i tell you lord krishna is orginal supreme god spiritual and material world…..it is conferm in every vedic book.
Hmmm No cmnts…..
Is topic pe discus/argue nai krna chahti… 🙂
evry1 hs their own belief sonu ji…
BIBLE tells dat Yahova is d heavenly father and Jesus came 2 dis world 2 wash away our sins
your love life is fully loaded with complications..
sbne story padhi or ek hi baat kahi story lambi thi.
actually the way u used to describe urslf thts superb..
kon sahi h kon galat evry1 knws toh mai nhi boluga..
apka nature bahut acha h or apne pyar ka bill v dil khol ke faadha h
bhagwan apko or taklif na de or ap ko saari khushiya mile,, god bless u rupali ji
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your love life is fully loaded with complications..
sbne story padhi or ek hi baat kahi story lambi thi.
actually the way u used to describe urslf thts superb..
kon sahi h kon galat evry1 knws toh mai nhi boluga..
apka nature bahut acha h or apne pyar ka bill v dil khol ke faadha h
bhagwan apko or taklif na de or ap ko saari khushiya mile,, god bless u rupali ji
Mri clsmte b mje suggest kia mve dekhne ko keh rhi thi ki movie bht achi h bt mene lyt lia qki o Dhoni ki fan h 😛 n i hate cricket…..
Actually, Mere chhote masi ko to bahut pasand h cricket.
Lekin mujhe pasand nhi h.
Mera dimag kharab ho jaata h jis din koi match hota h.
Woh mujhe tv nahi dekhne dete agar unki pasand ka pragrame nahi aa raha hota h toh…
Par ghar mein kisi ko bhi cricket pasand nahi… Fir bhi match pure din chalakar rakhte h us din woh bhi full volume. ????????????
so sad..????
pata he…kabhi kabhi mujhe lagta he, mein bhi gf bna lu ????????????????????????…fr jab breakup hote hue dekhta hu kisi ka, toh man ni krta fr ????????
Aap toh kah rahe the bekar ki chize h yeh sab? ????????
haan bekar he…. such mein ????
pr aisa mujhe kabhi kabhi lagta , fr agle pal mein ye lagta he …. single is best ????????????
jenny or rupali ji ₩ so gayi kya donO ? ????
I’m awake 😛
thoda work h economics ka but aj bht nind aa rhi h o b itni jaldi huhuh
dinner hua aap dono ka sonu n rashmi ji
Aj toh maine 9 baje hi dinner kar liya tha… Aapne kar liye?
Ohh mera bhi mann karta h kai baar… Par mujhe sirf warm bodies movie waala R zombie character waala ladka hi chahiye. 😛
Sonu ji Mera insaano se bharosa uth chuka h! kitna better aur cute tha woh insaano se. ????????????
Hmmm aisi situation se gujarne k baad kisi pe jaldi trust hi nai kr pate
Pistanthro Phobia….
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i understand your feelings….
jab ek baar kisi se bharosha ud jata he…jo aapke kareeb ho..
uske baad toh poori kayanat se bharosha. .uth jata he…… ????
Well actually yeh movie 2014 mein aai thi par bahut pahle se maine aise insaan ko imagine kiya tha… Ki mujhe aisa hi insan chahiye jo bahut achha ho… Aisa ho waisa ho.
Par mere exes ne sab satyanash kar daala har chiz ka. ????????
aur yeh pistanthro phobea kya h jenny ji? 😛
O b ek phobia h rashmi ji jese fear of night, fear of injection hoti h wese ye Pistanthro phobia= fear of trust h…
Fear of trusting people due to negative past experiences….
Gd nyt rashmi ji, sonu ji n nishi ji tata chwt drmz
Good morning jenny ji and nishu ji… Na ji yeh toh sach nahi h… ???? mujhe appar pura trust h…
Mai abhi college mein hu… Aur mera aj practical h… Aur mai bahut zyada nervous feel kar rahi hu… Pray for me ki sab kuchh achcha jaaye!
hamesha yaad rakhna..ex ke baad….y or Z ko bhi chance do..
picture abhi baki mere dost
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or haan rupali jiiii wo mene ek games mein dekhe the zombie…vampire jese hote he….drawane ????
Sonu ji…woh mujhe movie ki shuruat mein thoda darawana aur ajib sa laga tha…par jab usko ek insaan se love at first sight ho jaata h. Tab mujhe bhi usse pyar ho gaya tha 😛 toh woh usko apne baaki zombie saathiyon se bachaane ke liye apne ghar mein chhipa leta h, aur insan banne lag jaata h. ❤
Ek funny baat batau 😛 us movie mein woh zombie us ladki ke ex bf ko markar uska dimag khaa jaata h… ????????????
Raat ko waise aise horror comedies ke baare mein baat nahi karni chahiye… 😛 mai toh fir bhi apne R zombie ko dekhungi sapne mein…
Ap dono apne crushes ko dekhna sapnon mein… Gud nyt, sleep tight and take care sonu aur anjali ji. ❤????
Rashmi ji mene amazon pe naya mobile order kia m so hpy 😛 😛 😛
Hyy rupali ji nd jenny ji
Dinner ho gya aap 2 no ka
Good morning rupali ji nd jenny ji ????
Breakfast ho gya aapka
Lunch bhi kar liya nishi ji humne… Aapne khaana kha liya?
ruapali…ji i have no crush… ????????????
or haan…mene aapka msg raat mein ni pda..mrng mein pda…????
Ohh mere toh bahut saate crushes h 😛 mujhe kai baar lagta h kaash mai ladka hoti toh… Anjali aur Nishi se number mangti 😛 ???????????? jk jk
waise maine nahi suna h ki ladko ke crushes hote h… Toh mujhe nahi pata is baare mein Sonu ji. Aur hame puchh rahe the ki so gaye ho ya nahi? Khud sabse pahle bhaag gaye? 😛
Hehe me tho ready hu apko apna n0 dene hehe 😛
infact i wud lv to! Bt yha nhi de skti huhuh
😛 fir mai apko call kkarti apke new phone mein ????????
Rupali ji kuch mann n karta h khaane ko dear
Food dekh kr rona aata h
Simple food milta h khaane Ko yaar
Aap kuch yummy food khilao na
Rupali Ji crush on me ????????????????????????
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Nishi ji…. Apki tbiyat kesi h drrr
Mai toh taiyar hu aap bas jaldi jaldi thik ho jaao nishi ji… Fir mai apko date par le jaungi ????????
Meri crush mujhe date pe le jaegi
Wow rupali Ji
Aap toh mai bilkul thik ho gae ????????????????????????????
Phele se bahut achi hu jenny ji
Aap batao kaha se belong krti ho
Ishq me hum tumhe kya bataye rashmi jii
Kis Kadar Chot Khaye huye hai…….
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Kal mara tha baap ne uske,Aaj bhai bhi aaye huye hai..!! ????????????????
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ladko ke liye har ldki crush hi hoti he….????
meri ek crush thi 6 class mein, first day hi red dress pahn ke aai thi, she’s looking damn beautiful in red dress.
actually wo na sabhi ki crush thi..yhaan tak ki hmre cls ke teacher bhi us zalim ladki pr marte the ????
mujhe jab kabhi bhi uske saath mouka milta the baat karne ka, ???????? mujhe lagta tha ki mein heaven mein hu????
fr wo jab aati thi..or uper payal pahnkar or aati thi jhan-jhan karke…or hothon pr lim balm lgati thi..???? or na wo ekdum dhoodh ki tarah gorii thi… ???? or uska face bhut hi jyada cute tha…or uske baal silky silky the…
or uske gaal milky milky the ????..
ekdum chalti firti vaneela icecream lagthi thi… ????????
fr 8 class mein ,mene wo school drop kr diya…bs yahi thi hmri addhooori kahani????
Awww such a cute crush sonu ji….
Hiii…. Rashmi n nishi
abi ayi clg se kese gya apka practicals rashmi ji???
Sry abi site opn kia huh
Thik thak hi gaya jenny ji… ???? not so good. Maine classes attend nahi ki thi august mein kyuki ghar par kuchh problems chal rahi thi… Tab mam ne practicals karaye the…
Maine apne classmates se seekha tha isliye jo aadhe se zyada galat tha… Toh ab jab mai regular ho gayi hu… Mam se hi seekhungi practical aur Fir se dungi practical.
Ohh al d bst drrr…. Nxt tym u’ll dfntly prfrm wel
😛 ohh Rahul se maine jab puchha tha toh usne kaha tha ki uska pahla crush 10th class mein tha… Toh mujhe laga ladke thode late hote h…
Mera pahla crush 7th class mein hua tha aur meri sabse close friends Neha aur smriti ka bhi crush usi ladke par tha yeh baat school se nikalne ke baad pata chali hum tino ko. 😛 woh muslim tha aur shimla ke seb ke baagh yaad aate the usko dekhkar… Kabhi kabhi woh halka sa surma lagakar aata tha aankhon me… Fir bhi itna cute lagta tha balki mujhe hi nahi mere friends ko bhi… ???? aur winters mein blazer mein toh uski personality aur zyada barh jati thi.
Woh red color ka bag laata tha… Woh bachcho waala pahle nahi aata tha? Rectangular shape ka 2 side se clip clip type ke buttons hote the. 😛
Aur us samay mujhe samajh nahi aaya tha ki mera uske bag mein baar baar kyu dhyan jaata tha? ???????????????? fir woh 8th class mein kahi aur chala gaya.
Fir mera crush kisi aur par aa gaya. Jo hamare class ka topper tha aur mere saare friends usse hate karte the 😛 jab unhe pata chala mere sscond crush ke baare mein toh unhone kaha meri choice bahut kharab h 😛 kyuki woh ladka mujhe toh kuchh nahi kahta tha par… Mere friends se ladta rahta tha.. ????????????
tum apni ek dukkaan khol lo…crush kii ????
jenny plz mera bhi book kr do chota sa…..
iphone 7 …..????
rupali ji ye sab india mein allow ni he ye sab illigal he.
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Kya illegal h zayn ji
Jo mai apke aur nishi ji ke saath kar rahi hu yahan par ????????????
isliye guru ji ko chinta ho rahi h meri ????
Lovey dovey ????????
Hahaha rupali ji ????????????????
Jenny ji kya ho rha h
Rupali ji aap ka v kya ho rha h
Ghor kalyug ????
Dinner hua sabka
Hahaha relax zayn n nishi…. Rashmi ji mzk kr rhe h hahaha n mra dnr hogya apka hua?
Dekho meri raani samjh gai mujhe… 🙂
Hanji maine dinner kar liya nishi ji aapne kar liya?
… Zayn, jenny aur nishi ji mai mazaak kar rahi hu. 😛 pata chala loverspoint mein koi ladki mere peechhe pad gai aap logo ke saath aise mazak ki wajah se. Usey lage mai sach mein aisi hu… :p ???????????? sorry ????
OMG! S u serious Rashmi ji, kn h o jo apke peeche pdhi h hahaha my god huhuh
Yaha par toh nahi anjali ji… Par kuchh saal pahle mai kisi aur website mein thi. Aur kyuki mai zyadatar ladkiyo se hi baat karti hu… Toh waha ek ladki ne mujhe propose kar diya… 😛 pahli baar pata chala ladkiyan zyada scary hoti h ladko se. 😛
Usko jab maine sach bataya usko gussa bhi aa gaya tha mere upar.
Omm! hahaha
Hlo hlo hlo gud mrng Rashmi, Sonu n Nishi jiii… Hv a wndrful day ahead
Good morning madam… Have a nice day. 🙂
Rupali ji nd jenny Ji mai v mazak me hi boli
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Good aap 2no ne v dinner kr liya????
Mai paglu thodi na hu
But dusra koi chat padhega toh wo pagal jarur ho jaega ????????????????
😛 koi nahi koi nahi Nishi ji ???????? Mujhe woh gaana yaad aa raha h
“Duniya pagal hai, ya fir mai deewana!!!” ????
joy mukherji is my another crush. ???????? kaash mere paas time machine hoti… Kaash!!!
Totally kitne crush h rupali ji
Uncountable h kya????????????????????????
Lag toh yahi raha h nishi ji. ????????
what ???? tumne boy bankar girls ko fasaya .. ???? very bad..
Nahi nahi sonu ji..
Actually Us ladki ko laga mai lesbian hu. ????????
good moorning jenny menny ????
Good morning ????????????????
Jenny nd rupali ji
Beakfast ho gya????????
Good morning nishi ji. 😛 abhi nahi hua mera breakfast… Apne kar liya?
Haa mera ho gya
Aapne q n kiya
Time nahi mila nishi ji. 🙁 Abhi lunch karungi…
how bad girl she is !! ????
good evening rasmi ji jenny ji.. nishi ji ✌
Aap usey kah rahe ho ya mujhe? 😛
Good evening zayn ji 🙂
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she ? use hi kah rha tha…aapko..ni…aakhir itni himaat kaha he mujhe mein jo aapko khu ????
Guru dev aap hi Mujhe ulluon ki raani kah rahe the kuchh din pahle aur ab bol rahe ho ki mai kaise himmat kar sakta hu…?
Wow! ????????????
aise case mein kuch ni kh skta…. ????
kese kese log he duniyaan mein..use aise bolna tm..kya ldko ki kami he kya india mein ????????
thats why my lord krishna say..
My dear devotee, you are sinless,
but in Kali-yuga the people will be
addicted to all types of sinful
activities include with lust and
greed. therefore do not stay here.
now you should completely give up all attachment to your personal friends and relatives and fix your mind on Me….
Hmm sonu ji, isse toh mai agree karti hu aur yeh bilkul sach hai ki aise relations inhi sab chizon par depend karte hai…
Par fir dekha jaaye toh bhagwan ne hi create kiya hai har chiz ko, yaha tak kalyug ko bhi. hame feel nahi hota isliye kuchh kah nahi sakti in sab girl to girl ya boy to boy relations ke baare mein. Lekin shayad agar yeh sab sach mein hai toh fir unhe straight hone ke liye force karna bilkul aisa hai hame homo banne ke liye force karna. Par fir bhi woh alag hain isliye pure surety ke saath unke baare mein kuchh kah nahi sakti thik usi tarah se jaise aapne kaha ki “aise case mein kuchh kah nahi sakta” 😛
Waise bahut awkward hai in sab chizon ke baare mein baat karna toh chhodo ab is topic ko yahi par. 😛 😀
Achchi achchi chizon ke baare mein sochte hain chalo…
… Gud night, Sonu ji and Anjali ji aaj mai jaldi sone ja rahi hu. Tiredness feel ho rahi hai 🙂 Aap log bhi rest karo. Good night, SLeep tight and take care. See you. 🙂
hehehe ????
aaj sooraj kidhar se nikla he..jo aap itna jaldi sone ja rhi ho… ????
good night rashmi ji.
Sonu ji Maine socha ki mujhe sudhar jaana chahiye… ???? mere teacher ko meri badi chinta hoti hai meri harkaton ko dekh dekhkar… ???????? good morning sab log… ????
hehehe ????
good moorning rashmi jiiiii…
???????????? meri 1 week ki autumn ki chhuttiya h…. Aj mai bahut khush hu sonu ji kyuki mujhe sirf kal jana h. ????
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Yeh sab kya h?????
Hyy
Zayn ji
Jenny ji
Rupali ji
Kaise ho Ji aap
Dinner hua aapka ????
Thik hu madam… Aur Lambi umar h apki… Apke baare me hi soch rahi thi mai… 😛 Hanji maine dinner kar lia. Aapne kar liya?
ohh god????????????????????
mere comment ni jaa rhe the…finaly ye ulte pulte emoji chale gye ????????????
haan nishi ji ho gya hamra dinner ????
aapka hua dinnel ?
Wahi mai soch rahi hu ki maine story mein toh bata rakha h ki mai smoke nahi karti. . par sonu ji ne cigerettes ke saath saath chaaku, bomb aur banduk bhi kyu bheji h? ????
Zayn ji
Rupali ji
Mann n kr raha h dinner karne ka
Rupali ji aapne mujhe miss kiya ye jaan kr mai bahut khush hu ????
you are my crush ofcourse ????????
Thoda sa khaa lo madam khaali pet nahi sona chahiye… Raat ko chuhe aakar dance karenge warna… ????
Rat se mujhe bahut darr lagta h really
Or mann bilkul nhi ho rha h dear sachi
Kha lena chahiye waise toh… Aap lekin dekh lena thik lagega toh… Apko pressurise nahi karung….
Apko raat ko darr lagta h?
Mai aa jau apko long drive pe le jaane ke liye? ???? raat mein bada maza aata h…
Wow come on dear
I’m waiting
Rupali ji kaha ho dikh nhi rhi
Mujhe bahut pasand h long drive
Jaldi aao aap
Licence banega toh zarur aaungi Nishi ji 😛
Ohk wait karungi aapka dear????????
Zayn ji murder karne ka plan h kya par kiska
hehe ???? vese apun dono mil ke gulabOo gang banate he… ????
Zayn ji kahi mujhe hi toh nhi udana chahte aap iss site se
Mujhe toh darr lag raha hai
Bacchao
Gulaabo nice ????????
haan nishi ji mera plan he…murder 7 movie banane ka… ????????
or aapne dinnel kyu ni kiya nishi ji? ????
Zayn ji
Bas bilkul mann n ho rha dinner karne ka sachi
Murder 7 ohh
Actress or actor kaun honge
Nahi!!!!!!!!!!! Gurudev mere 55th crush ko please baksh dijiye!!!! ????????
Meri 54th waali toh ajkal aa nahi rahi 😛 unhe bhi chhod dijiyega please. ????
nii aapa udake mujhe mata rani ka pap ni lgawana ????
pata he rasmi $ nishi…ji mene aaj hi pda uc news mein kuch monkeys se ne…bus start karke bhaga le gye…uttar pradesh mein ????????????????
jab mene apni mom ko bataya wo aise ho gyi ????????
fr hasne lagi ????????????
???????????????????? hehehe lagta hai hum chaaro bandar ka bhes badalkar waha gaye th Sonu ji. :p
Mujhe waise bandar bahut irritating lagte h… Abhi kuchh months pahle naa jaane kaha se hamare gali mein aa gaye the… Hamari balcony ki diwar mein ek aakar baitha hua tha… Meri pom bahen uspar bhaukne lagi jaali waale darwaaze ke andar se toh… Us bandar ne divaar mein rakhe gamle ka pahle paudha ukhadkar pheka… Fir gamle ko dhakka markar niche gira diya… Aur woh tut gaya…
Hamare padusiyon ne peechhe kapde sukhaaye hue the… Uspar unhone jhula jhulaa fir usko uuthakar bhi le gaye aur phaad diya…. ????
nishi ji..actor or actress final ho gayi he..
actor hogi hmri pomerian girl rasmi ji.
actress hogi..hamari christian girl jenny ji.. ????????
Good zayn ji
Movie super duper hit movie banegi tab toh
Income jo aaega wo share jarur kijyega
Hahaha n villain????? Hiiiiiii diiiii missed you so much
Hiiiiiii zayn n nishi ji hw r u all???
Jenny ji
Kaha thay aap
Rupali dear baccho zayn ji se
Zayn ji ????????????????monkey
are tUm tension mat lo..apun dono ka 50 -50 😀
in dono ko 25 paise wali orange wali toffe milegii.. ????????????????????
????????????????????✌ sonu ji… 😛 mujhe mango bite….
Villain ka role aap kar rahe ho kya?
Zayn ji 25 paise me kuch n hoga atleast 100 rps dena banta h ????????????????????????????????
Okay nishi ji done 😛
chalo ab so jaate h… Good night nishi ji, sonu ji and jenny ji 🙂
Good night rupali ji
Zayn Ji
Jenny ji ????????
Kaisi hai aap nishi ji? Meri image kharab hi story parhkar comments karne ki wajah se hui h madam ????
Ab aap kahan bhaag gai nishi sis? ????
Hlo my pyari di Rashmi
Rupali ji sach hamesa kadwa hi hota h
Or aap sahi bolti ho but kuch log digest n kr sakte isliye paglo jaisa bolta h
But hatao unko qki sabka apna apna soch h
Controversy girl bana diya h aapko
Ohh nishi ji aisi baat h kya? ????
Thanks nishi ji mujhe abhi thoda sa comfort feel hua… ????
Mujhe kai baar lagta h ki wo fakes h un logo ke jin logo ko meri baat buri lagi hogi. Isliye woh groups mein aakar aise dikhaane ki koshish karte h ki mai galat hu… Par mujhe apne friends ki baato par zyada yakin h… Toh bhaad mein jaaye aise log. ????
Maine lunch kar liya h… Apne kar liya? Aur med le li aapne aur aapki tabiyat kaisi h?
Good girl ????
Positive thinking ????
Bolne wale bahut kuch bolte h but help krne ka time aata h tab sabka bolti band ho jata h samjhi isliye aise logo ko bolye hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Haa 2no kr liye food or medicine 2no
???????????????? yes nishi ji sahi kah rahe ho aap…
And good girl… ????
Yahi hu rupali madam
Lunch kiya
Zayn ji
Rupali Ji
Jenny Ji
Kaha ho sab
Dinner hua
Lagta h murder ki shooting me busy h sab
dinner mein aaj mujhe rasgulle mile???????????? i am so happy ????
pata he nishi jii..hamre yhaan na,mata ka jagaran ho rah he…abhi bhi chal rha he… kambakat sone bhi ni dete ????
jenny, rupali ko mera pyar bhara namskar ????
Oyee aap soye nahi? ???? mai aj 8 baje so gayi thi… 11.30 baje se nind tuti ab nind nahi aa rahi h sonu ji. ????
And jenny i missed you sis… ????
Good night rupali ji ????????
Mujhe nind toh nahi aa rahi nishi ji ???? but ap aaram karlo gud nyt take care… 🙂
Good afternoon
Rupali ji
Jenny ji
Zayn ji
Director sahab so rhe h kya
Film bani ki n
Good afternoon Nishi ji, Jenny ji and Zayn ji… 🙂
Zayn ji kitne popular hain na?… teacher, director… 😛 Multi talented
good moorning rupali ji.. ????
mein vese 10-11 pm pr so jata hu..but last night yhaan mata ka jagaran tha na , isliye sone ni de rhe the wo log ????
aap kese hOo rupali ji..mast na ?? ????
Good morning sonu ji ???? meri cousin jaha rahti h waha jagran hota tha toh usne bataya tha ki kitni disturbance hoti thi raat ko usey.
Hum jahan rahte h waha toh nahi hota h yeh sab…
Actually mere fir se joint mein dard ho raha h… Isliye kal 8 baje so gai thi… Fir aadhi raat mein nind tuti fir nind hi nahi aa rahi thi.
raat bhar phone mein korean drama dekh rahi thi fir nind aai toh so gai ???? at last. mujhe subah ke 4 baje dubara nind aa gai thi.
korean drama kya hota he.. ????
uper se mere emoji bhi ni send ho rahe he…
actually,pata he hamare college mein aaj 5 ladkiyaan activa se college ki parking ja rhi thi…socho 5 ladkiyaan or ek activa…!
wo bhi hawa mein udte hue…i mean masthi karte hue ja rahi thi…apni taango ko lahrate hue….bhagwaan jaane ek ladki ka balance bigda or sheedha 5 cho ladkiyaan dhada dhad dhad neeche sadak pr gir gyi… !! sb log un pr hasne lage… tarah tarah ki baatein krne lage..
sukr he bach gyii…. !
Good night rupali ji..nishi ji
Korean dramas, South korea mein telecast hone waale t.v. series hain jisme maximum 16 se 25 episodes hote hain… mai apne phone mein hamesha download kar leti hu time pass ke liye.
Hamare indian saas bahu ke serials se faaaaar…. better.
Koi nahi sonu ji ki emoji send nahi ho rahe h toh 😛
Aapne ek chiz notice ki hai Sonu ji? ki pahle jab mana nahi karte toh ek bike mein 95% time keval 2 log hi baithte the, par jab se logo ko newspaper par samjhaane lag gaye hain ki aisa nahi karna chahiye tab se yeh sab aur zyada barh gaya…
Ajkal sach mein logo ko jo mana kiya gaya hai uska ulta karne mein bada maza aata hai.
Mujhe toh bikes se darr lagta hai, bachpan mein mere mamaji school chhodne jaate the bike mein mujhe tab bhi mujhe darr lagta tha,
Meri ek classmate scooty se college aati hai aur mere ghar ke paas se hi hokar guzarti hai, ghar mein sab bol rahe the ki usse lift maang liya karu, par maine mana kar diya…
Aur woh ladki waise bhi 2 baar apni scooty ko thok chuki hai aur usko chot bhi lagi thi spine mein… mera dimag kharab nahi ho rakha hai ki mai uske saath aau. 😛
Aur good night Zayn ji. 🙂 Sleep tight… Take care
Nishi ji aur Jenny ji apko bhi good night. 🙂
GOOD MOORNING rupali ji
haan ki he….tumne ek baat notice ki he….mene apne ander ke ravan ko maar diya ye….hehe..
or meghnaath ko bhi maar diya he…
bs kumkaran hi ni mar rha he….jo mujhe sbhuh udne ni deta….. ???????? hehe
Same here Zayn ji. 😛 hehehe mai aaj 11 baje uthi hu.
Hyy
Kisi ne v mujhe miss n kiya ????????????????????????????????????
Zayn ji
Rupali ji
Jenny ji
Kisi ne mujhe kaha tha ki mujhe matt bhulna warna pitaai padegi… par woh insaan mujhe bhul gaya… ????
Hyy
Mujhe bol rhi h madam ????
Aap kaisi ho
Mai toh thik hu… aap kaise ho madam? aur Khaana kha liya aapne?
Hehe hi hi hiiiiiii hw r u all Rashmi zayn nishi
…………… My emoji huhuhuhuh
Jenny kaha gayab thi yaar
Dinner hua
Hmmmm han abi jst hua n apne dnr krlia nishi ji n messy thi dr
Uffff I meant BUSY
Yes kr liya jenny but bahut ganda lagta h food khana yaar
Boli food or simple food milta h khane ko
Hehe nishi ji apko khana acha q nai lagta????? N apki tbiyt ab thk h na
Anjali ji… I missed you so much… aapko pata hai, mai baar baar apni story check karti rahti thi ki aapka comment aaya hai ya nahi… 🙂
mai thik hu aap kaise ho? sab thik hai na?
Hmmmm Rashmi jiiiiiii
Awwww misd u too…….. N abi sb thik hai Rashmi jiiiiiii
Thik thi tabiyat but bich me kharab hui thi jenny ji
Rupali ji sabko miss krti ho aap but mujhe n
????????????????????????????????????
Hmmmm take proper rest dr n hm tho rupali ji ki crush h na hahaha
Ohh haa bhul gyi thi
Crush ho aap
Haha so me hi nai ap b unki crush h nishiji hehe
N gd nyt
Ohh ji aisa h bhul gyi thi ji ????????
Good night ji????
Nahi nishi ji mai aapko bhi miss karti hu… aur mujhe laga aap mujhe bhul gaye ho. 😛 Good afternoon sab log. 🙂
Hy guys
gOod evening…
happy dassssehra ????????????
aaj sab promise karo…hum apne ander ke ravan ko maar dege ????
Same to you Zayn ji 🙂 kaun kaun dekhne gaya tha rawan ko jalte hue?
Hamre colony wallon ne toh jala bhi diya… ???? hehe
Or jo sabse bda wala he na, wo yhaan se kaafi door bhi he..!
Or wo rt ko 12 baje jalega… !
Ohh, fir aap jaoge dekhne?
WoOo mera man ni so i won’t go there… ????
Aap jaounge kya ?
Nahi, mera bhi mann nahi tha… Yaha par toh 8 baje tak saare rawan jala dete h… Toh waise bhi ab kaha ja paungi zayn ji.
Achha…! Yhaan aa jaiye sath sath chalege rAvan ko dekhne ..????????????????
oR Kese ho rupali jii.. !
???????????? sure zayn ji… Long drive karke jaayenge ravan dekhne… I love long drives khaaskar ki raat ke samay… ???????? hehehe
mai toh thik hu? Aap kaise ho?
????????! Tumahri ye khyawish awasya hi purn hogi balike ????
Thathasthu ????????????
Hehehe dhanyawaad guru ji…. ???? Zayn ji car ki bajaye camel me chale… Aur bhi maza aayega? ????
Jo hukm mera aakaah ????????????????
Sonu ji mai ab soch rahi hu ki Camel ke upar batman baitha hua na jaane kaisa lagega? ????????????????
Chalo ret kar lo aap ab… Good night sonu ji… 🙂 sleep tight and take care ????????
Hehehe???????????? arvind kejriwal chacha ko bidha de dete he.. hehe ????????
Kya kru…sone ki acting kr rha hu pr need hi ni aa rhi.. ????????????
Hehehe.. Apke andar ka batman jaag utha h ????
Hyy rupali dear
Mai thik hu or aap kaisi ho
Kaisa gya dusshera
Hyy zayn ji nd jenny ji aapka dusshera kaisa gya
Tumhari dua se achhha bhala gya….????
Tumara kesa gya nishi ji… ????
Nishi ji, Mera toh thik thak gaya… pure din ghar mein baithe baithe hi bitaya…
maine raat ko zayn ji ke saath camel mein jakar ravan dekhne ka plan banaya tha, par fir hum dono ko end moment pe nind aa gayi. 😛
Mera v thik thaak zayn ji
Or rupali dear camel me wow next time mujhe v join kr lijye ga
Zayn ji aapki movie kaha tak bani
Good night my dear friends
Rupali ji
Zayn ji
Jenny ji
Miss u guys ????????
I don’t Know why but i am also missing you all, nishi ji, sonu ji, jenny ji Chalo so jaate hain ladies and gentlemen. 🙂 love you all. Good night ???? take care..
Are ye love apne hone wale future husband ke liye reserve krke rakho..na..????????????
???? hehe
Mujhe laga tha nishi ji par hi yaha ki utpatang stories ka asar ho raha tha! Gurudev lekin aap bhi!!! ????????????????
Hii rupali di.
Good night
Rupali dear
Zayn ji
Kaha ho aap
Jenny ji aap v
Gd ni8 nishi di.
It’s too long..but nyc story
Thanks bro. 🙂
Good night jenny aur zayn ji… Nishi ko already goodnyt kah chuki so…Aap logo ko bhi Take care karo aur sleep tight. 🙂 ????
Are you still awake yet.. ????
Actually zayn ji, masi 1 month ki chhutti par the tab sab late tak jaage rahte the toh mai bhi jaagi rahti thi, ab woh fir se office jaane lage hain toh jaldi so jaate hain… mujhe nind nahi aa rahi hogi par mujhe bhi sula dete hain… lete lete phone chalao toh daatne lagte hain, andhi ho jaayegi andher mein phone chalayegi toh kahkar…
Isliye mai bhi sharif bachcha bankar so jaati hu taaki daat na sunni pade. 😛
Hyy director ji
Kaha gayab ho jaate h aap
Good morning. Nishi aur zayn ji…. Aap log thoda thik feel kar rahe ho? Aap dono kuchh zada hi bimar hotey ho viral ki wajah se…
Online aaoge toh ek aur remedy bataungi… uski wajah se mujhe pichhle 2 saal se viral nahi hua. ????????????
Have a nice day a head! ????
gud mrng rupali ji
Are batao na..mera viral abhi tak teek ni hua…
Or mujhe 1 month pahle bhi hua tha..
Fr se ho gya….????????
Ohh Zayn ji itna bada reply post kiya tha 1 ghante pahle gaya hi nahi gayab bhi ho gaya… ???? ????
Roz sone se pahle garam garam haldi ka dudh pia karo.
I glass dudh mein 1 pinch ya fir 1/2 spoon se bhi kam haldi daalkar pioge roz 4-5 mahine tak, toh flu ap logo se dur rahega kai mahino tak….. Kyuki haldi ka dudh immune system ko strong kar deta h… 🙂
Aur chehre mein glow bhi aa jayega! ????????????beauty beauty ????
Wow Rupali g Haldi vala dudh ????????
Nishi g aap kha gayab h
Actually Unka karva chauth ka vrat hai kajal ji. 😛
Kajal ji mai mazak kar rahi thi, unka koi vrat shat nahi hai. 😛 Pata chala apse jhuth bolne ke chakkar mein nishi ne mujhe goli se uda diya! ???????????? ????????????
???????? mai samjh gyi thi Rupali ji Khi Nishi ji ki jgah aapne to vrat ni rkh liya h ????????
Vaise Nishi ji tabiyat to ni jyada khrab ho gyi ya rat ki bat se vo abhi tak ????????
Koi gadha miley bhi toh jiske liye rakhu? kajal ji ????????????????
4-5 month tk…it’s too long ????
Waise aap abhi piyoge toh, cough and cold thik ho jayega zayn ji. Lekin zyada din tak piyoge toh aapka immune system strong ho jayega aur chances kam ho jayege dubara bimar hone ke.
Chalo 1 month hi pi lena… woh bhi kaam karta hai… 😛
Oye
Clg gayi thi yaar
Meri morning Clg chalti h na
Or viral se toh mai bahut years se pareshan hu
Medicine kha kha k pareshan hu
Wo toh acha h ki medicine sugar ki tarah hota have
Or vart rakha h na unke liye jinki mai crush hu yaar
????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Honestly bolu na zayn ji meri v halat buti ho gyi h
Yaar
Or rupali haldi wala milk
Omg
Merese n hone wala qki
Milk chiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
I can’t
Ohk viral k saath adjust kr lungi yaar but milk n
Sahid hona pasand karungi ????????????????????????????????????????
Khaane peene ki chizon ko chiii nahi kahte gandi ladki paap charhta hai. 😛 Nishi, aapko kuchh bataane ka fayeda nahi hai, koi bhi chiz apko pasand nahi aati… mai ab zayn ji ko hi share karungi sirf… ????????????
Ohk
God mujhe maaf kr dijye
Waise mai galat hu
Ye sahi h ki khaane k chizo ka respect karna chahiye
But
Milk
Sorry milk
Ache kya powder wala milk me haldi daalenge or fir pienge toh faida karega
Or pata h maine wo daal ka paani kal piya tha rupali
Sab sab kuch adjust kr sakti hu but …
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Hyy kajal
Aaj professor ne meri wat laga di yaar
But kal waali baat ko lekar mai gusssa thi but hasi v aa rhi h yaar
Class me v wahi baat yaad kr kr k hasi aa rhi thi yaar
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Aapne aisa kya kiya jo aapke professor ko aap jaisi cute ladki par gussa aa gaya? ????????????
Pata h rupali aaj professor ne mujhe class se nikal diya
Thanks karungi God ka ki akele n nikal friends k saath nikal
Wo baat ye thi ki akash or story ka comment maine apne friends ko dikhaya toh sab hasne lagi or mai v or aisa karte hue or ladki log ko v reason pata chala hamare hasne ka toh wo v hasne lage
Or bas class me sir aa gae or fir viral k wajah se mereko bahut pareshani ho rhi thi or class v disturb ho raha tha
Toh kya fir professor me khada hone bola or mujhe bola ki class attend krti ho toh v problem hota h or n v krti ho toh v
Bahar jae or apne friends k saath gossip kijye or time bach jae toh doctor k pass v chali jaega
Bas or kya
Shaitan ladki 😛 maine bhi waise aaj apni ek classmate ko comments dikhaaye… jise lagta hai ki mai apne b.f. se baat karti hu. 😛 Woh bhi hass rahi thi. Usne yeh bhi puchha “Zayn” ko pronounce kaise karte hai?
Hahahahaha good question
Aapki dost toh intelligent nikli yaar ????????????????????????????????????????????
Woh meri 53rd crush hai. 😛 Intelligent toh hogi hi…
Oh kya hua Nishi ji
Zayn ji aap Nishi ji ke hisse ka milk bhi 1 yr tak thoda ar long sahi ????????
Wow kajal good idea yaar
Toh aab zayn mere badle haldi wala milk peyenge
Aap dono toh jenny ji ki hi bahen nikli… chiz pasand na aaye toh mere gurudev ko pakda do? Woh aap dono ko maata raani ka paap laga denge. 😛 ????????????
Awwwh aapne mere liye vrat rakha hai nishi. How Sweet? 😛 ????????????
Wahi toh
Bhukhi hu mai
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Ye sab kya ho rha he..????
By d way sabhi girls ko meri taraf se krwa choth ki bdaiyaan…
Or un sabhi boys ko bhi, jo facebook par ladki ban ke baidhe he…unke liye sirf ek hi word he mere pass…
“Sada shuhagan raho”
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Zayn pata h fb pe girls k name se I’d bana kr chat karne waale sochte h ki wo bahut proud wala kaam kr rahe h
Qki kuch aise bande thay jinhone mujhse chat start ki thi fb pe
Pure tali hote h ye log
Wo unhe gf chahiye isliye karte he
nishi burka pahenkar profile pic lagaya karo… 😛
Gf paane k liye kuch v kr sakte h
Ladki v ban sakte
Ghor kalyug ????
Sahi kaha rupali ne..????????
Khaalo khaana sweetheart. Mujhe zaada lambi umra mat do, itni si umra ka bojh toh uthaya nahi jaa raha mujhe aisa lagta hai mai burhi ho chuki hu… aur age add kar rahe ho aap ????????????????
Ohk aap bolti hota pi leti hu daal last paani or vart khol leti hu
Or aaj hi hai kya ye festival
good girl. 🙂
Aapko bhi karva chauth ki badhaiyan Zayn ji!!!… Aapne aj rakha hai vrat? ????????????????
Lunch hua aap sab ka?
Mai to fare bna rhi hu kisi ko khane h kya ????????
Zayn ji ne kiske liye fast rkha h Rupali ji …
Haa sahi bola
Kajal mai jaanti hu usko
Uska naam h.
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Question mark ????????????
Kajal ji mere liye angle priya ne vrat rakha he . ????????????
Omg
Zayn seriously
Its too shocking ????????
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Aap toh bade open minded nikle zayn ji. ????????????????????????
Vo to unhonne aapke liye pr aapne kiske liye ????????
Fare bhej du Zayn ji eve ke liye????
Mene suna he 13 saal ki ladkiyaan bhi vrat rk rhi he apne bf ke liye..????????
Zayn ji, aap sahi kah rahe the, logo ki 11-12 saal mein hi shaadi kara deni chahiye. 😀
Ohk bye friends
I’m not feeling well
Lagta h aab doctor k paas jana padega
Rupali
Zayn
Kajal bye
Breath lene me v problem ho rhi h or headache v ho raha h cold &cough k wajah se
Bye take care
Pyar is khoobsurat ehsas ko kuch logo ne majak bna kr rkh diya h…
Ab 13 sal????????????????
Bye Nishi ji Kadha pigiye Turant aaram milega aapko
Take care ????????
ohh, take care nishi baba. See you soon.
Tumhe jana chahiye doctor ke pass..nishi..or ???? ye bhi lgawake aana. ????
Take care bye…!!
Kajal jii aap ki story he yhaan…????
Kajal jii meri walii abhi tak paida hi ni hue…????????
Rupali jii aap ne kyu ni ki 12 saal ki age mein shaadi. .????????????????
Ni Zayn ji mujhme itni himmat ni ki likh saku apni story????????
Zayn ji, yeh sab delhi mein illegal hai isliye. ????????????????
अगर तुम उसे ना पा सको, जिसे तुम प्यार
करते हो तो,,
।
शर्म करो,
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लाओ नंबर मुझे दो। मैं कोशिश करता हूँ।
में भी तो देंखु दिक्कत कहा आ रही ह
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Yeh kya tha? ????????????????
Kajal ji aapne khaana kha liya? Ya aap bhi vrat kar rahe ho? 😛
Kajal jii wo toh suna he aapne…dar ke aage jeet he bs mobile udaoo or likh do apni dasthan…
Kyu sahi kaha na rupali ji..????
Sahi kaha zayn ji par Mountain dew gift karna padega Kajal ji ko hame. 😛
Pyar kya hota he rupali ji ????
Zayn ar Rupali ji Maine use apni aankho ke saamne khoya h jinda hu to bs usse kiye vade ke Karan Kabhi himmat Hui to jror likhungi….
Take care kajal ji be strong and be happy. 🙂
Zayn ji mujhe is question se Mrs Gurudevi ki yaad aa rahi h. 😛
Kajal ji it’s ohk ! Agar aap ni bhi likonge toh koi baat ni !!
Khush raho aap..! ????
Thanx dosto shayad isiliye yha hu …
Aap kya krte h Zayn ji ?
Ek bat khna chahungi aap sabse meri life ka sabse bura din 18oct isi din paya tha ar isi din use kho bhi diya tha ????????
Bye dosto
Kajal ji aapne jawab nahi diya ki aapne khaana khaaya hai ya nahi?
Kajal jii sad na hua kro aap…….aap haste hue achhi lagti hooOoo.. ????????????
Rupali ji aapki story is site ki sabse longest story he.. ????
Mene poori pdi yakeen ni hota.. ????
Awwwh you are cho cho chweet Zayn ji. 😛 Kajal ji aap bhi parhna 😛 Bich bich mein funny incidents bhi hai….
baaki ending ki chinta mat karna maine move on kar liya hai… apne gurudev ki badaulat. 😀 😀 😀
Zayn ji aapko pata hai, maine isey 2 baar likha hai… issey pahle jo submit ki thi woh aur bhi lambi thi, woh post nahi hui lekin maine fir admin se 1 hafte baad request kiya ki isko ab post bhi mat karna ???????????????????????? Mujhe laga tha mujhe negative comments milenge…par fir bhi kar dia share… 😛
Ise kahani nahi histry kahiye
you are great
Story bina parhe comment karna galat baat hai bro 😛
Kosis to krte h zayn ji.
Rupali ji maine padhi h aapki story ar sabke comments bhi Pyar ko kya samjhe vo log jinke liye pyar bs ek time pass hota h.
Kon he aapki gurudevi ????
😛 Kajal ji aap toh bahut secretive ho… aapne meri story parhi aur bataya bhi nahi?… its okay, woh bhi meri hi tarah insan hai, we can’t force our feelings.
kajal ji… Kisi aur chiz ke baare mein baat karte h chalo. 😛 aj lunch mein kya khaaya aapne?
Zayn ji apki future wife, aap gurudev – woh gurudevi! Lovey dovey ????????????????
Mein akhand brmhachari hu..or rhunga.. ????????????
Kya? ???????????? mai toh apke bachocho ke bhi guru waale nickname bana rahi thi! ????????????
Aisa kyu Zayn ji
Rupali ji kadhi rice khaya tha Maine..????????
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Tea time for Rupali &Zayn ji
Ye such he mujse shaadi ni krni..????
Kyoki mjhe indians marriage acchi ni lagti..
Agar mein shaadi krunga toh christians tareeke se…kyoki usme sabke samne kiss karne ko bhi milta he..????????????????????????
Oho Zayn ji Gud gud????????????????
Aap krte kya h abhi ?
Nishi ji aapne dr ko dikhaya ki ni abhi tak ,????????
Mujhe lagta tha gurudev sharif hain ????????????
Study kar rhe he..BSC or aap..kajal ji..!
Rupali jii mein shareef hi hu…har angle se..????
Hme lagta h hmare aane se aapke gurudev ki tapasya bhang ho gyi h Rupali ji????????????
Inke secret to ab saamne aa rhe h ????????????
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Ubhar ubhar kar bahar aa rahe hai saare raaz Kajal ji 😛
Ajkal stories kitni boring si aa rahi h… ???????????? ya toh school ke bachcho ki… Ya fir ghuro ghuro game khelne waalo ki… Uff! ????
Jinki ye sab karne ki age he…wo log govt job ya fr study kar rhe he.. ????
???????????????????? satya h! Satya h! Gurudev! chalo mai bhi study karne ja rahi hu zayn ji kal test h mera 😛
Sahi kha aap dono ne Padhai krne ki age me pyar vyar ….
Rupali g Ajay ji ki story padhi aapne unhonne to city hi chod diya ufff
Pta ni kya hoga
Hehe..????
Best of luck..rashmi ji
Achhe se study karo..dil laga ke..????
thank you so much sonu ji! ????
kitabon mein jo nasha h woh nind ki goliyon mein bhi nahi h ????
aankhe band ho rahi h ab meri…
good night zayn ji, kajal ji, nishi ji, jenny ji ????
Hehe gOod night kumkaran ????
Or morning mein jldi udna…study karna…!! Fr brush karna..???? ????
Gud mrng frnds…
Kaise ho aap sab ☺
Nishi ji plz jaldi se thk hokr vapas aao miss u????
Zayn & Rupali ji miss u 2☺☺☺☺
Hello Rupali ji I’m karan I’m only 16
but i have readed your story
and i want to tell you that you should meet rohit and clear say him everything which is in your heart and mind just clear all the things because living life like this is equal to death
and ask rohit that he is serious or not a final question and final answer
and don’t get confused
and don’t mind one thing that is he is passing time with you.
Just Finalize everything
kyoki ye ladka sirf dard de raha hai or kuch nhi bas
study par dhyan dijiye career banaiye
and succes apke kadam chumengi
Zayn ji… zada derr tak jagti hu toh ulluon ki raani kahte ho…
jaldi so jaati hu kumbhkaran kahte ho…
Aap hamesh kans mama ke avatar mein kyu hotey ho?… 😛 ???????????? Apke ashirwad se test achcha gaya. 😀
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Hi kajal ji… mai aa gai! 😛 And I agree with you… Nishi get well soon. 🙂
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And thanks karan. 🙂
Hello Rupali ji I’m karan I’m only 16but i have readed your storyand i want to tell you that you should meet rohit and clear say him everything which is in your heart and mind just clear all the things because living life like this is equal to deathand ask rohit that he is serious or not a final question and final answerand don’t get confusedand don’t mind one thing that is he is passing time with you.Just Finalize everythingkyoki ye ladka sirf dard de raha hai or kuch nhi basstudy par dhyan dijiye career banaiyeand succes apke kadam chumengi
Karan ji actually yeh story maine pichhle month post ki thi aur mai usse last month hi baat kar chuki hu usne mujhe kaha ki woh move on kar chuka h hamare relationship se toh mai bhi move on kar lu.
So, i don’t want to force him anymore and i respect his decision and i have decided to move on too.
Help Rupali ji Zayn ji ..
Nishi ji bimar kya hue aap sab gayab ho gye ho????????
Areee kajal jii study bhi karni padti he na…. ????
Rashmi jiii mera aashirvaad sada tumhare saath he.. ????????????
Baapre Zayn ji aap study bhi krte ho mujhe to lga aap sirf .Ek ch…….????????????????????????
Aap padhiye ji ar hm padhane chle ☺☺
Haiyaan ???? ch…..se aapka kya matalab he…????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Majak kr rhe Zayn ji Aapka hme jo welcome song vo jyada dimag mat use kriye g Be happy ????????????
Hehe????????????
Kya teacher ho kya aapp… ????
Mai gayab nahi hui thi actually… Mai sokar thodi derr pahle hi jagi hu kajal ji… ????
Ha g Teacher h hm but apne do swt se bhtije ki☺☺☺
Oho Rupali g Din me so jati h Tab rat ko kya tare ginengi ????????????
Nishi ji lagta h aapki tabiyat jyada khrab ho gyi h Pray krungi ki aap jaldi se thk hokr vapas aaiye????
College days mein mujhe kahi bhi kabhi bhi… Raat ho ya din ho…. Mujhe nind aasaani se aa jaati h kajal ji. 😛 abhi kuchh din pahle toh free time pe mai class mein bhi roz so jaati thi…
Teachers aakar jagaate the fir… ????????????????
Hamari class ek tarah ka medical room bhi h Bed bhi available h… :p usey sone ke liye use karna aloud nahi h lekin toh mai apni seat mein hi so jaati hu. ????
???????????????? vr gud Rupali ji
Parhai karlo kajal ji. ????
Aap sach mein bhaag gaye?… mai toh mazak kar rahi thi ????????????
Are ni Rupali ji mai mrng me study krti hu match dekh rhe the fir dinner ..
Gud night Rupali ar zyan ji ..
Rashmi ji thanku…mene pata he kal ek gilas milk mein..10 gram haldi dal di thi…jiski vajah se mera viral bilkul teek ho gya…????meri mom bhi aise dekhene lagi????
Mujhe nind nahi aa rahi kajal ji. 😛 mai korean lyrics ki translation karne ja rahi hu… Soch rahi hu yaha ki poems mein share karu… ???????? apko gud nyt… 🙂 ????????
Hehehe zayn ji ???? kuchh din tak lagatar pioge toh aapko viral pure Saal chhu bhi nahi paega! Apke mumma ko mera pranan! ????????
Hiii Rupali ji ….
Dinner hua aapka☺☺
Hi kajal ji… Hanji maine kar liya…
Aapne kar liya? ????
Ni g dusre city aaye h relative ko dengue ho gya h ….
Ohh I will pray ki woh jald thik ho jaaye
.aur khaalo kuchh aap bhi…
Kr Liya g Ab gher Nikal rhe ..☺☺
Gud night Rupali & Zayn ji ..
Gud nyt kajal jiiiii….
Rupalii jii…
Good night
Gud mrng Rupali & Zayn & Nishi jiiiii????????????????
Khush rhiye aap sab hmesha …..
Bye Forever Ab ni aana hme is site pr Take care…
Hyy
Kajal
Zayn ji
Rupali ji
Mai aa gae
Aap sab kaise ho or mujhe bhul gye
Or kajal kya hua
Good morning kajal, nishi, zayn aur jennybji.
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Kyu kajal ji aap kyu ja rahe ho? ????
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Nishi aapko bhulna mushkil hi nahi namumkin h! Kaise ho ab? 🙂
Hmmmm rupali diii atleast tel me dis where shud I cntct u all huhu????????????
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Hyyyy rupali
Mera msg milega to reply jarur dijye ga aapke dusre story pe v msg chora h
Nishi ????
Nishi Baby ap akar fir gayab ho gaye? ????
Pta ni ab kha h aap sab..
Maine abhi padha yeh comment. Hello kajal ji ????
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