7 Years but till now I am alone – Chander

Aaj me afganistan me hun as a unit administator but bat to me pehle ki batane wala hoona , mera naam chander hai or ab bhi chander hi hoon koi changes nhi hai kyonki life to chalti hi hai chahe kuch hua ho ya nhi,
shyaad tab me 15years ka houga ek jagah pr rehte the hum rent pr waha ek saal tk rehne ke baad jab me 9th clas me pahuncha tab ek din kuchh books leke apne room ki chht pr baith hua pad raha tha tabhi achanak ek gali ki doosri taraf ek chht pr ek ladki dikhi too good like a dream, bs do-char pal ke liye uske bad thoda andhera ho gya or wo bhi gum ho gai dusre din usi time pe chhat pe gya shaayed aaj bhi dikh jaaye pr wo ek week tak nhi dikhai di mujhe laga sapna hoga yaar chhodo aie sab pr hua kuch or hi fir wo mujhe dubara dikhi pr dikhi kisi or chhat pr, or yun hi roz aati or me chori chori use hi dekhta, mujhe achha lagta tha yaar use dekhna kam se kam 6 month tak yahi chlta raha or baad me to use bhi pta chal gya ki me use dekhta hoon pr mere dekhne ka styale aisa tha ki koi bhi mujhe ek baar bhi nhi keh skta ki me kisi ladiki ko dekhta hooon kyonki ishaara kahi or ka hota tha or nazre to bas wahi jaha pr wo hai, us hi gali me mera dost bhi rehta tha ranjeet, use puchha us ladki ke baare me to usne bataya wo us hi ghar me rahti hai jis ki chht pr wo hamesha shaam ko kuchh books wagerah leke padti rehti hai, mujhe uske baare me or bhi bahut kuch jaan na tha, pr kaise aise hi ek saal ho gya wo aaaati me dekhta bs, fir ek din pta chala uska ek chhota bhai bhi hai mene us se dheere dheere dosti ki or kuch bichme aise hi uske bare me bhi puchh liya karta tha ki kya hai kyon hai or kis ke liye hai hunnnnnnnnnnnn thoda ajib lagta hai ab pr wo to pyar tha naaa pta nhi mujhe waise pr shaayed pyar hi hoga tabhi to itni becheni hoti thi, aise hi tme nikla or 4 saaal hogye maayne rakhte hai yaar kisi ko yuhi aise hi 4 saal tk dekhna or ke baar bhi kuch nhi kehna ulta jab wo raste pe bhi dikhi to me apna raasta hi chnage kr deta tha ek dar saa lagata tha mujhe us se, aise hi ek din chht pr aaya to dekha wo ek ladke ko ishaare se meri taraf kuch ishaara kar rahi hai mujhe ye sab dekh ke abhut ajib or gussa aaya shayad wo mere baare me funny typ se soch rahi hogi kr ke, iske baad mene ye sab dekhna hi chhod diya o! r ek saa l tk usko dekha bhi nhi or bad me dheere-2, kuch kuch to use bhul hi gya tha pr ek din jahaa pr jis hotel me me job krta tha uska bhai aaya or mere baare me puchhne laga kya bhai ek saal se drshan hi nhi diya kya baat hai mene kaha aise hi yaar school ke baad to ab job hi krni hai or job me time kaha hota hai, or wahi meri aadat na ek baar puchh hi liya mene uski sister ke baare me usne kaha ki abhi wo Australia jaane wali hai ek to month baad, ajib sa laga ye sun ke kyonki baahar jaarhi hai or bhi bahut kuch mind me chal raha tha fir ek do week bad mera or mere doston ka plaan bana uttranchal jaane ka to mene aise ladki ke bhai se bhi kaha chalne ko kyonki mujhe us ladki ke bare me or bhi bahut kuch jaan na tha ki kya hua is ek saaal me fir kya wo bhi chal diya humare santh or me apni car leke dostonke saaanth nikl gya uttranchal me meri dadi ka home hai hum sab wahi ruke or us din us ladki ka bhai ek song sun raha tha mujhe bhi achha laga mene kaha yaar mujhe ye song sunna hai us ne phone diya or me dusre kamre me chala gya aise hi akele kuch kaam se tabhi light gai to mene uska phne dekh just time paas ke liye kyonki light nhi thi to andhere me mekya krta, mene phone play kiya to dekha uski sister ki photo kisi or ladke ke saanth or ye wahi ladka tha jis ko mene us din chat pr uske saanth meri or ishaara karte hue dekha tha, 10-12 pic thi lag raha tha ki shaandi ki hai or usi time light bhi aagai or me usi kamre me dobara gya jaha pr mere dost the or phone mene wapas usko dediya ortabhi mera ek bahut hi achha dost tha usne puch kyon re tera muhh kyon utraa hua hai mene use btaya pick e bare me kyonki mere saare doston ko uske bare me pta tha, fir kya pura tour hi aise gya jaise jail ho hum delhi aagye or kyat ha fir se wahi life wahi kaam or wahi dost ek din mera dost apni gf ko leke restaurant me aaya or usne mujhe apni gf se milaya or thodi bahut party krke chala gya or meri bhi suki gf se thodi achhi bol chaal ho gait hi, ek din ek ajib hadsa hua mere dost ki gf ka phone aaya or mujhe se puchha ky! a tum us ladki ko jaante ho mene kaha haa pr uske bare me tumhe kaise pta or pta bhi hai to mere se hi aisa qtion kyon kiya, usne kaha ki wo ladki uski ek bahut hi acchi dost hai or wo dono 1st clss se saanth hi padte aaye hai, mene fir kaha aise hi gusse me yaar uski to to shaandi ho gai hai ab kya faayeda usne mujhe kaha nhi uski shaandi nhi hui hai bs mangani hai thi us ladki se, or jis ladki se me pyar krta hoon wo bhi us se khush nhi thi, or ye bhi kaha us laki ne ki uski dost yaani wo ladki jise me dekha krta thaw o bhi tumhe pasand krti hai or tum ne hi kabhi us se kuch nhi kaha is liye usne bhi apni zooban band rakhi jaise hi ye pta chala me khush bhi tha or hairaan bhi ki ye kya hua or sab se badi baat to ye thi ke next day wo abroad jaa rahi thi one year ke liye, kya krta pr sham tk mera koi re-action nhi tha or rat ko uski fnd ki call aaai kaahaa kuch kehna hai use to kehdo me massage kr dungi usko tumhara mene kahaa koi jarurat nhi hai pr fir bhi dil nhi maana ek letter kikh ke dediya usko dene keliye , us letter me apni feelings likhi thi shaayed use achhi lagi or tabhi wo use badke royi bhi thi jis ke bare me mujhe uski frind ne baad me btaya or aise hi next din me kahi raod me jaaraha tha bike se aachank ek msg aaya call me,
pta tha mujhe uska hi hoga back call ki usne kaha hi mene ek dum jor se bola haan bolo life me first pyaar fist paar baat or aise words nikle kyaa yaar shiiiiiiiiiiit.
Usne puchha pehle bol nhi skte the kya itni si baat ki mujhe pyar krte ho mene kaha ab bol to diya na ab konsa der ho gai hai. Leki abhi kuch nhi ho skta tha uska flight ka time hogya or usne mujheye keh ke phone cut kiya ki me tumhe call karungi, or next days hi uska phone aagya me samjh nhi paya ki itni jalldi kaise call krli usne pr fir kya tha aise hi bate hoti rahi ISD me bhi roj kam se kam 2house to baat hoti hi thi wahi mujhe call kiya karti thi kyonki india se kuch cheap rate se call ho jaati thi waha se aise hi din,mahine gujarne lage kabhi kabhi jyada pyar or kabhi thodi nok jhok bhi hoti rahti thi jaise akasar hona to wajif hai hi na , kuch time nikla shyad six moth then ek din wo boli ki mere liye maa ne yaaha pr ek ladka dekha hai maa us se shaandi kara na chaahti hai mene kaha to kalo na wo gussa hui boli tum mujhe aisa samjhte ho kya fir aise hi one month or nikl gya fir ek baar dowara usne kaha ki kal se tum mere phone pr call nhi karna india se mera bhai aaya hua hai mene puchh konsa bhai tumhara bhai yahapr hai wo boli door ka rishtedaar hai mene kaha thik hai jaise hi tum dusra phone lo mujhe number dedena kyonki usne wo wala phone apne bhai ko diya hai use krne ke liye, or fir uski call bhi thoda kam aane lagi or mene use call krta tha to sahi se jawab nhi diya karti thi.. thoda ajib sa lagata tha prkya kre pyar krte hai to thoda duri hoto mind pura kharab ho jata hai na uhi nok jhok type bate hoti thi ek din usne aise time pr call kiya jis time pe wo shaayd kabhi nhi krti hogi usne ka ki tum mujhse koi contact mt rakhna jis ladke ke bare me mene tumhe bataya tha na usne mera phne rakha hua hai, mene kaha tum bhi aisa hi chaahti ho kya tu uska anser tha yaar ab humara kuchh nhi ho skta uske liye wo line simple thi pr meri to kya bolu yaar wo feelings shaayd sab se gandi hogi meri ab tak ki life ki. Kher phone kat diya usne is ke baad or do din baad fir call aai or wahi sab baate, mujhe gussa aaraaha tha us pr mera pura majak bana kr rakh diya tha usne mene bhi us se usdin ek bhi bat! acche s e nhi ki usne bola aise kyon kr rahe ho mene kaha tumhe pta hai fir bhi puchh rahi ho or mene phone kaat diya uska lekin wo non-stop 20-25 bar call kiya or mene ek bar bhi uska phone ni uthaya last me uska masg aaya tumhare chakkr me aaj jitna me roi hoon shaayd is se pehle kabhi nhi aisa hua hoga. Or fir sab kuch kht shaayed tabhi uske baad pure din waha se koi response nhi aya, me bhi bahut becheni si feel kr raha tha is liye us din mene bahut jyda drink ki log bolte hai na ki drink se gam bhool jaate hai pr wo bhi try kiya lekin wo hai ki mind se nikl hi nhi rahi thi. Or pura din aise gya jaise kuchh bhi nhi hai aage life me , or next din fir se uski call aai shaayed ek hi bell aai hogi mere phone me ki mene jalldi se pic kiya kyonki raat bhar wo phone hi tha jiseme apne paas rakh ke uske call ya masg ka wait kr raha tha , use bat ki uske muhh se bas yahi nikla ki us phone me call mat karna nhi to proble hogi or fir kaat diya…………………..
Fir uske bad aaaj tk uski call nhi aai kahi baar sochta tha ki call kru pr kya kru yaar pyar he hi aisi chiz ki apne se jyada uska khyal pehle mind me chala jata tha or wahi words yaad aate the ki problem ho jaayegi mebhi aise hi roj bina aath pair ki life ji raha tha or job to mene chhod hi di thi ki kahi ek baar bhi maouka milega waha jaane ka jaha wo rehti hai to bilkul teyar rahoonga aise hi 6 month ghar me baitha life aisi hogai thi ki kyaa kahoon, or us se pehle jaisi life mene ji thi shaayed hi aisa koi ladka hoga jise mene nhi dekkha mere jaise life ko enjoy krte hue. Ek din morning me net pr baitha or kuchh agency ke number nikale jo abroad bhejti hai ek bandde se mila or fir kaam bangya me duabi aaya or yaahaa se ek month job surch krne ke baad afganistan aya or ab pichle 11 month se yahi hoon pr usko kabhi bhi dil se nikal nhi paya…abhi 15-20 din pehle pta chala ki uski shaadi hone wali hai us hi ldke se, pta chalato kya kuchh nhi me tab bhi kuchh nhi kr paya siwaye afsos ke or ab bhi yahikiya sirrrrf.
Mujhe humesha jo mene chaha hai mila hai chaaye khuch bhi ho pr ek yahi jich agar misss.
Ek taraf se ye mere love story ka end hai pr me ise end nhi manta jab mene abhi tk use apni life se nhi nikaala hai to uske aaane ke chance to humesha hi mere liye poora bana rahega…

Thank You
Chander Singh

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