Naa jaane kyun phir m💖habbat karne laga Part III- Rohan urf Sikander

“Do you really have to go? I mean you could a job here too”

Vo poori koshish kar rahi thi ke apni aawaz mein jhalak rahe bhaaripan ko, apne aankhon mein jhalak rahi nami ko chhupa sake par kaamyab nahi ho pa rahi thi.

“Its just for a few years you know and it will be a boost for my career to start my work life working abroad with a company like that. Down the line i can come back and get a good package to work here” Maine jawab diya.

“Or you might just like it there and not come back at all “

Aur uske is jumle ne jaise hazaron baatein keh di, uska sabse bada darr numaya kar diya.

” Hey !? Maine uska haath pakadte hue kaha ?We will always stay in touch and when i finally move back here, we will still be friends, Best friends”

Usne muskurane ki koshish ki par saaf zahir tha ke vo sirf mera dil rakhne ke liye thi. Pata nahi main aisa kyun kar raha hoon, kyun is job ke bahane usse door jaane ki koshish kar raha hoon. Kya sach main apne career ke liye ye kadam utha raha hoon ya sirf isliye ja raha hoon ke usse kuchh din ke liye door ho sakun. Apne us har jazbaat se door ho sakun jo uske naam se shuru hokar uske naam par khatam ho jaate hain.

Kya main isliye door ja raha hoon ke mujhe ek achhi zindagi mil sake ya main ye koshish kar raha hoon ke apne zindagi ko ek alag nazariye se dekh sakun. Ek aisa nazariya jahan meri nazar sirf ek usi ki tasveer na ho. Main aaj tak usse apne dil ki baat nahi keh saka hoon. Kai baar koshish ki hai par har baar zubaan ladkhada jaati hai.

Ek ehsaas jo kabhi dil ko sukoon deta tha ab takleef dene laga hai. Main bahut arse se uske ishq mein deewana hoon aur aaj tak usse is baare mein ek alfaaz kehna toh door, kabhi isharon isharon mein bhi nahi jata saka.

Dil mein hazaron baatein hai, hazaron ehsaas hain jo ab andar hi andar se mujhe todne lage hain. Dam sa ghutne laga hai mera. Lagta hai main ek aisi machine hoon jise ek ek purza kharab ho chuka hai. Mere khyaal, meri soch kabhi usse door hoti hi nahi. Kabhi ek pal ke liye sukoon milta hi nahi.

Na toh keh pata hoon aur na chup raha ja raha hai. Shayad usse kuchh din door rahun toh kuchh sukoon mile.

“Kya hua, tum toh bade bahane bana rahe the ke meri shaadi mein nahi aa paoge, ab kya hua? “

Mujhe dekh kar vo usi masoomiyat ke saath, kisi chhoti bachchi ki tarah ithlati hui aage badhi aur apne makeup se bekhabar, apne dulhan ke libaas se bekhabar, aas paas khade logon se bekhabar, aur aisi hi tamam cheezon se bekhabar hokar meri gale mein baahen daalti hui lipat gayi.

“Mujhe pata tha tum zaroor aaoge, bhale lakh kaam ho tumhein. Main bulaoon, aawaz doon aur tum na aao, aisa toh kabhi ho hi nahi sakta”

Aur aaj uski shaadi hai.

Woh Uthein Hain Leke khum-o-Subu,
Arrey O ?Shakeel? Kahan Hain Tu
Tera Jaam Lene Ko Bazm Mein
Koi Aur Haath Badha Na De!

Aur kisi aur ne haath badha hi diya. Main kinare khada dekhta hi reh gaya, sochta hi reh gaya aur meri kashti ko nakhuda ban kar dariya mein koi aur le gaya. Mere jazbaat zubaan tak aa hi na sake aur vo kisi aur ka jazba ban gayi. Mera dil uske naam par dhadakta hi reh gaya aur kisi aur ne apna naam uske saath jod bhi liya. Meri aankhen uske ehsaas se nam hi reh gayi aur koi aur uski aankhon ka kajal ban gaya.

Usne phone par mujhe bataya tha ke vo shaadi kar rahi hai aur main bahane banane ki koshish karta raha ke kaise mere passport ki koi problem hai, kaise main filhal india nahi aa sakta, kaise mujhe hazaar kaam hain, kaise main filhal bahut busy hoon aur ek vo thi ke muskura kar sirf itna hi kaha ke vo jaanti hai ke main aaonga zaroor.

Aur main ek baar phir uske dar par aa khada hua.

Saalon se badi khwahish thi ke uske dulhan ke roop mein dekhun. Dekhun ke kaise laal rang uske gore rang par phabta hai. Dekhun ke shaadi ki vo chamak, vo raunak uske chehre par kaisi lagti hai. Dekhun ke jab vo ban than kar aaye toh kaise mehfil ki har ladki uske saamne mamooli ho jaaye.

Aur jaisa socha tha vaisa hi aaj ho bhi raha hai, farq sirf itna hai ke laal rang aaj kisi aur ke naam ka hai. Angoothi kisi aur ke naam ki hai, maang ka sindor kisi aur ke naam ka hai.

Aaj vo sar se paon tak kisi aur ke naam ki hai.

Main khada sochta hi reh gaya aur meri duniya jaise neelam ho gayi, kisi aur ke naam ho gayi.

Kabhi jaam lab se laga diya,
kabhi muskurake hata diya,
teri chhed chhad ye saqiya,
meri tashnagi ko bhadha na de.

“Mujhe pata tha tum aaoge, thank you. You are my best friend” Vo boli.

Kaise kahoon, kaise samjhaoon ke main usse zyada hona chahta hoon. Ke main usse mohabbat karta hoon. Par kambakht alfaaz hain ke na jaane kyun zubaan tak aakar hi ruk jaate hain. Ehsaas hain ke na jaane kyun dil mein dhadkan ban kar hi dhadakte reh jaate hain. Khwahish hai ke na jaane kyun aankhon se toh numaya hoti hai par lafzon ka roop lekar kabhi zubaan ki sidhiyan nahi utarti.

Na jaane kyun.

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  1. Jiya

    Wahhh dol cheer diya rohan sari sari story k part Maine read kiye hai kya itna b koi pyar karsakta hai kya

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  2. Jiya

    Apki gf kaise guzar gayi thi rohan?

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